Shang Yanyu stayed in the hospital for two days and was discharged after the injuries on his face were not so obvious. After the performance on the first night of the new year, the theater gave him a 15-day holiday.

In these fifteen days, he spent most of his time with Shen Jue and a small part of his time watching musicals. The confession on the first night of the new year did not actually change him much. It can be said that he is still Shang Yanyu, who can hardly fault him. He is still considerate, intelligent, and does not put pressure on others. If there is no change, he can only say that the look in Shen Jue's eyes is a little different.

The original emotion seemed to float on the surface, but now it sinks in.

With seven days left in the holiday, Shen Jue took a few days off with the company, bought a plane ticket to accompany Shang Yanyu and returned to Country C where he grew up.

Country C is not big, but the economy is very developed, and there are many rich people. Shang Yanyu’s father is one of them. The merchant was originally a rich man in Country C. Later, before the death of Shang Yanyu’s father, he made a will and will Part of the money was donated, and the remaining real estate was left to Shang Jiayu's mother.

Shang Jiayu's mother took the real estate and did not manage it properly. Instead, she took her son to spend it with her until she died in a car accident.

Today, all the remaining property of the merchant goes under the name of Shang Jiayu. Unlike previous lives, Shang Yanyu did not specifically retrieve his identity and become Shang Jiayu's guardian.

The villa where the merchant lived is still there, but it has changed ownership. After Shang Jiayu's mother finished his father's funeral, she hurriedly sold the villa, as if she didn't want to live any longer.

Change owners, you can't get in.

Shang Yanyu just stood outside the villa and looked inside through the iron gate, but no matter how he looked at it, he couldn't see much.

"There is a glass flower room, which my father personally made for my mother at the time. There was no me at that time. My mother said that my father didn’t even go to work to make the glass flower room. The flowers in it were also my father. He planted it, but later, he asked the woman to pick the flowers in the glass flower room." When saying this, Shang Yanyu's expression was very calm, as if the matter had nothing to do with him.

Shen Jue thought, Shang Yanyu must hate his father, or else he wouldn't have died, and he didn't come back to see him. Death does not necessarily make up for the fault. Forgiveness should be decided by the victim, not by the perpetrator.

The villa is halfway up the mountain, and there are other villas nearby. When Shen Jue and Shang Yanyu went down the mountain, they met people who lived nearby. The man drove the car to a stop next to them, and after sliding down the window, he stared at Shang Yanyu in a strange way.

"You..." He "you" for a long time and didn't say a word, but Shang Yanyu called out his name first.

"Xiao Mao, long time no see."

The young man known as Xiao Mao blinked his eyes twice when he heard this sentence before finally uttering a complete sentence, "Shang Yanyu? Aren't you dead?"

...

When Shang Yanyu and Xiao Mao were recounting the past, Shen Jue didn't stand by and listened, but walked around. He didn't walk back until Shang Yanyu called his cell phone.

Xiao Mao sent them to the foot of the mountain, and Shang Yanyu, who had ended his recollection of old times, was obviously depressed, and he basically didn't say anything all the way down the mountain.

Xiao Mao glanced at Shang Yanyu in the rearview mirror, "Shang Yanyu, I will contact the current owner of your house these two days to see if I can let you in. We will exchange the contact information. Wait for my news."

Saying goodbye to Xiao Mao, Shang Yanyu still didn't say much. When he returned to the hotel he was staying at, he didn't even care about the door, so he hugged Shen Jue. This hug was almost completely pressed together, Shen Jue was a little breathless, but he knew that Shang Yanyu's mood was wrong at this time.

Xiao Mao might have told Shang Yanyu about what happened here after he left.

Shang Yanyu was only a teenager when he left home. It was in the most sensitive period of his youth. Shen Jue didn't know how he left the psychiatric hospital or what happened to him that year in the psychiatric hospital.

Obviously he was the proud son of heaven, but his father was sent to a psychiatric hospital. The people there regarded him as a mentally different person and treated his own brother as a pervert with indecent behavior. He still accepted it for a year. Treatment.

This home is where Shang Yanyu grew up, where he and his parents live together day and night. For him, the memories here are mixed. He likes the days before his father's derailment and hates the days after his father's derailment.

He wanders outside by himself. Although he is now a famous theater actor, his previous bitterness is beyond words. Outsiders see him living gorgeously, like a scene, but what about it? After all, he walked alone with hatred, hiding all the pain of these years under a perfect skin.

Everyone loves his skin, who cares if his soul is intact?

Sometimes an incomplete soul is not necessarily attracted to a complete soul, because that person knows that the other person’s family is beautiful and life goes well, so how can that person feel the same with his inner grief? If two incomplete souls meet, he can see at a glance that the other person and him are of the same kind, living under a mask, and hiding all his thoughts in his heart.

For Shang Yanyu, Shen Jue is another incomplete soul.

He saw that the other party had hatred in his heart, and he also knew what the other party was hiding. Their acquaintance was so deliberate, and both of them knew it well. Shang Yanyu is not a fool, and Shen Jue is Shang Jiayu's guardian. When he saw the exact same face, he was surprised for a moment, but he didn't say anything.

Backstage at the theater, Shang Yanyu actually knew Shen Jue was unwilling, but he deliberately wanted to bully the other party, wondering what the other party could do for him...until he received that tear.

Tears slid from the painful eyes, like a small pebble making waves in his heart.

Over the years, he has surrounded a lot of people, rich, poor, beautiful, and not beautiful. He can't even count the number of those people. Those people come towards his skin like annoying flies, but He hated those flies, because of the greed hidden under their eyes.

When those people look at him, they always look at him with a strange look, as if he is an exquisite doll in a glass cabinet. They want to buy him, take him home, and hide him on a shelf.

He is not the property of any one person, and he will not give anyone a chance.

He insisted on this sentence very well until he met Shen Jue, who was completely opposite to him.

Although he is also an incomplete soul, Shang Yanyu is well aware of the indifference in his own bones. He can smile at anyone, as beautiful as a perfect dummy. In fact, he wants to destroy everything. He doesn't like to laugh, nor does he like it. Talking, don’t like to help others, even if the male student who had the same experience with him, when he listened to the other party’s complaints, what he thought in his heart was—

What does it have to do with me?

But Shen Jue is different from him. Shen Jue looks cold, unkind, doesn't like to smile, and doesn't like to talk, but he actually has an extremely soft heart. The male student has his contact information. Some time ago, the male student transferred a few hundred yuan and said that he was asking him to return it to Shen Jue.

Shang Yanyu had worn the mask on his face for too long, and now he forgot how to take it off, so he liked the indifference expressed by Shen Jue.

What if the soul is incomplete? When you meet another soul who is in the gap with yourself, it can become a complete soul.

Over the years, he strives for perfection, as if this way he would not become his mother, a person who was always abandoned and abandoned, but after meeting Shen Jue, he was a little scared because he could not control his feelings, so He designed a fake derailment to make himself the one who always abandons others.

In the hospital that night, he did not tell the truth to Shen Jue. The misunderstanding and derailment were false, and the test response was also false. He deliberately misunderstood Shen Jue. He deliberately hit a tree and deliberately answered the male student’s call in front of the other party. Actually broke up.

If he mentions breaking up first, he will not be broken up.

He chased out of the emergency department in a thin medical coat, but it was habit that he had learned a hundred percent of the hypocrisy of his father, especially after he left home.

It turns out that he has a family, and he can still be himself, and he will have no family later, so he must become another in order to live.

It's just that he didn't expect that the other party would actually believe him in the end. Even on the first day of the new year, he deliberately asked the male student to come backstage in the theater. After the two collided, Shen Jue chose to stand on his side.

When Shang Yanyu beat Yao Zhan, he deliberately was deeper than anger. He wanted Shen Jue to see himself like this. He wanted to break the illusion of perfection in front of him.

But the other party still accepted.

In the days before his death, his mother always told him that instead of being the perfect person in the eyes of others, it is better to be yourself, but he has long been unable to be himself, so even if he breaks up, he will have to make rounds.

Because of Shen Jue’s acceptance and he was really tired, Shang Yanyu asked for help from the outside world for the first time after his mother passed away. Under his perfect mask was a heart that was prematurely broken. He thought Someone comes to help him, save him.

Shang Yanyu was playing a gamble. He handed his broken heart to Shen Jue. It was up to the other party to decide whether to put it together or break it so much that there is no scum left.

As for the secrets hidden in the other person, he thinks he still has a long time to understand.

...

That night, Shang Yanyu slept in Shen Jue's arms. He curled up into a ball, nestled in the other's arms, pressed his ears to the other's chest, and fell asleep listening to the other's heartbeat.

In the arms of the other party when he slept, and when he woke up, Shang Yanyu felt dependent on it for the first time. After his father derailed, he was the spiritual support of his mother. After leaving home, he lived by himself and was used to playing perfect. How could he be willing to show his fragility?

Shang Yanyu propped up his body, his face had a hazy feeling in the morning sun, as if the softest light in the world lightly fell on his face, beauty no longer had a sense of attack, as if a knife went into a scabbard .

He quietly looked at Shen Jue, who had woken up a long time ago, before bowing his head and hugging him again. The two hugged so tightly, as if they were a doomsday couple.

In the next few days, Shang Yanyu took Shen Jue to the places where he used to stay, such as the middle school where Shang Yanyu studied, the library he loved most when he was studying, and the day before he returned to China, Xiao Mao I called Shang Yanyu and said that he had contacted the owner of the current villa. The owner had gone abroad before and only came back these two days, saying that he could let Shang Yanyu come in and have a look this afternoon.

When Shang Yanyu answered the call, Shen Jue was beside him. After he answered, he looked at Shen Jue. Although Shen Jue hadn't heard Xiao Mao's words, he had already guessed it from the look in Shang Yanyu's eyes.

"It's fine if you decide." He said.

Shen Jue thought, if he wanted to take away Shang Yanyu's life, he should first settle a knot of his opponent. Shang Yanyu's heart knot is only related to his parents. Now that his parents are not there, the only thing he can use to remember his parents is probably the villa.

"Let's go to the villa in the afternoon. Xiao Mao said he had the consent of the other party." Shang Yanyu was silent for a while before saying.

...

The appointment time was one o'clock in the afternoon. They arrived at the villa halfway up the mountain on time. Xiao Mao stood waiting for them outside the door of the villa. When he saw them coming, he led them to ring the doorbell.

The villa was greatly changed, and the decoration in the room was reworked. The only thing not changed was the glass flower room. The new owner of the villa seemed to have a good impression of Shang Yanyu, and said a few more words, "I think this glass flower house is well designed, so I stayed." Seeing Shang Yanyu, the owner stopped suddenly and looked at the corner. He also looked over there on a row of shelves, "Do you like that pot of lilies? This pot of lilies was there when I bought this villa, and it still looks good now. If you like it, just put it Take the pot of lilies."

Shang Yanyu's eyes flashed, did not speak, just walked over, and slowly took the pot of lilies into his arms. After a while, he turned around and thanked the new owner of the villa, "Thank you, this was planted before my mother died. I didn't expect it to be alive."

There was his mother's unique stick figure on the flowerpot, so he recognized it at a glance.

When he left, Shang Yanyu did not ask Xiao Mao to send it. He held the flowerpot in one hand and Shen Jue's hand in the other, as if he was saying goodbye to the past. , A car drove from the front.

Originally, both Shang Yanyu and Shen Jue didn't pay attention to the car, which drove past them, but soon they heard the sound of the car again from the rear. Hearing the sound, the other side's speed was very fast. Shang Yanyu glanced back instinctively, but in the next instant, his pupils shrank slightly, and he couldn't think too much in an instant, he just pushed the person next to him away.

Shen Jue was pushed to the ground next to him vigorously. When he reacted, the lily pot that Shang Yanyu was holding was broken.

The potted plant shattered all over the ground, and the cart ran over the lily whose tail root was soiled. The blood spread out and dyed the lilies on the ground red.

Shen Jue looked at the scene in front of him and blinked gently. For a moment, he stood up and walked towards the lily. Because he was pushed away vigorously, he was completely unprepared. When he fell to the ground, he twisted his foot, and now he walked over, staggering a bit.

He looked at the people on the ground, tightened his lips, and squatted down to help them up.

But at this moment, the car that drove far came back.

Shen Jue raised his eyes and watched the car rushing toward him. At this speed, he couldn't avoid it. He could only watch the opponent hit it. But at the moment when the car was about to hit, the car turned urgently. A bend, and hit the tree next to him.

Because the speed of the car was too fast, the front of the car was almost flat after hitting a tree.

...

Shang Jiayu was sitting in the car, his whole consciousness lost more than half of his time. While shaking, he pushed the door hard, but couldn't open it. His leg seemed to be completely stuck, and he couldn't even feel the pain.

But what if you can feel the pain?

Now he is nothing, not Omega, not Alpha, not even the most common Beta, he has become a monster.

Six months ago, he went to a country to secretly undergo a physical reconstruction surgery.

In this world, some people are satisfied with their physique, but some people are not satisfied, so such a secret hospital came into being. They are illegal hospitals, so all risks in the surgical consent form are borne by the patient.

In the past six months, almost every day he lived a life that was worse than death, major and minor operations, endless medicine, countless intubations on his body, but he thought that as long as he could become Alpha, Shen Jue could see He was here, instead of just caring about the **** Shang Yanyu, so he survived, but the operation failed. He no longer had glands and became a genderless person.

At the same time, his body is getting worse day by day. The doctor who operated on him said that he can live for another three years at most, but in these three years, he didn't want to live anymore, because he became a monster.

He didn't even dare to go out until Xiao Mao contacted him.

Xiao Mao was one of his suitors, one of the few who liked him when Shang Yanyu was still alive. Xiao Mao told him that Shang Yanyu had returned to Country C and brought a young man with him.

Shang Jiayu knew who Xiao Mao was talking about without thinking about it.

When he became a monster, the two people were still in love, they didn't even know what he had gone through, and he was going to die soon.

So Shang Jiayu decided to retaliate. He decided to drag Shang Yanyu and Shen Jue to die together, but when he was about to collide with Shen Jue, he temporarily changed his mind.

The temperature inside the car seemed to continue to rise. When his hand was bleeding a lot, the door was finally pushed open, but he could only get out of the upper body, and the lower body was completely stuck in the car. He exhausted all the strength of his body and crawled out, his hands printed countless blood marks on the ground, but he couldn't climb out.

Shang Jiayu was actually a very squeamish and beautiful person. He had thought about his own way of death. He thinks he must die clean and decent, comfortable to die, and be praised as beautiful as this Omega.

But now he is dying, he is no longer an Omega who is doted by others, nor does he die decently and cleanly.

Shang Jiayu’s tears dripped down his cheeks to the ground, mixed with the blood on the ground. He whimpered quietly, crawling and crying out: "Mom, save me, mom, save me..."

In the last sentence, he shouted, "Shen Jue, it hurts me so much."

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Under the scorching winter sun, the cold is still piercing.

Shen Jue held the breathless person in his arms, picked up the blood and mud lily on the ground, and gently put it into the other's arms. The face of the person in his arms was stained with blood, and he reached out and wiped it, but the more he wiped it, it couldn't be wiped clean. The blood was so bright that it looked like the lips under Shang Yanyu's heavy makeup when they first met. color.

After the little nun who sang "you him" went down the mountain, did she find her own wishful man?

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