Chapter 214 Want to live more real

"and after?"

Xia Fanxing closed his eyes, "Later, one day, I suddenly received a phone call from my family. My parents were in a car accident and were being rescued in the hospital. They told me to go home immediately. Later, my parents were not rescued. , they all died, and I got a large inheritance because of it."

   "How did you feel at the time?" Ning Youguang asked softly.

   "No way." Xia Fanxing shook his head, "Everyone around me said that I suddenly became rich, and I must be very happy."

   "Actually, I'm not happy at all, I feel like...I'm not at all worthy of what they left me."

"I come home every day, even if there are many workers, housekeepers, drivers, gardeners, etc., I still feel very lonely, very lonely, I don't even dare to step into my parents' room." His tears rolled down, "But I have only myself left, and I have to continue to live."

   "I also try to invite friends to play at home, try to go to parties, and even go to work in the company, but I still feel more lonely and guilty."

   Tears fell from Xia Fanxing's eyes like broken beads.

   He was in a very sad state.

  Ning Youguang looked at him silently, but there was a faint smile in his eyes.

  Ning Youguang knew that Xia Fanxing took a lot of courage to reach this step.

  A person who attributes his unhappiness to other people, certainly makes himself righteous.

   But the courage to face your own problems is the real warrior.

  From the first time she walked into her office with doubts to today, Xia Fanxing finally began to see the part she needed to take on in the shadows of childhood and other issues.

   He is growing very hard, and the results are gratifying.

"Shall we talk about this today? I think everything about you has been described to me in great detail. I have a better understanding of you, and I hope you feel this way yourself." Ning Youguang said .

   "Yes, I feel like I'm sorting out these things today." Xia Fanxing was happy.

   Telling Teacher Ning about his past is more rewarding than he thought.

   He began to thank his uncle for letting him know Teacher Ning, so that he could have a channel to face himself honestly and talk to himself without fear of being laughed at and rejected.

   Even if some of the things are absurd, it will be a very common thing for her.

   He likes the feeling of being understood by her.

   He is neither a good person nor a bad person, just himself, but just such an ordinary and ordinary self.

   Teacher Ning also gave him great patience and interest to understand his heart.

  ——All this made him feel respected like never before.

  The famous writer Lu Yao said in "Ordinary World": "People would rather care about the food and drink of a crappy actor than the turbulent inner world of an ordinary person."

   Fortunately, there are still Teacher Ning and countless people like Teacher Ning in this world.

   Let him, who is full of pain in his heart, be seen, understood, treated, and relive his own life.

   He felt that he had now acquired the ability to recall the past without condemning himself.

   He can find the connection between events, and can look at some issues objectively, without imposing many of his own subjective consciousness.

   Slowly, he began to understand why something happened the way it did, and what effect it would have.

   He constantly reflects on his own life course, and learns and realizes in the reflection.

   He began to look at himself and everything around him strategically and comprehensively, and he found that the methods he learned from Teacher Ning were very helpful to him.

  The earth is a playground and everyone is an actor.

   Once he was a marionette, now he has his own "exclusive script".

   He has the right to choose.

   In this huge playground, he can choose his own role, he can play whatever he wants, and he doesn't play whatever he doesn't want.

   Even, he can have no script, he can improvise.

   This feeling made him feel more relaxed than ever.

   He suddenly realized that maybe he had also directed many "tragedies" unconsciously, but he just didn't know it. Now it's different.

  If he doesn't define his life, if he doesn't stuff himself into "tragedy", his life is actually full of unknowns.

  Thinking about it this way, he couldn't help feeling excited and excited.

  Think about it:

  ——“You originally thought you had only one way to reach the end of your life, but now you are suddenly told that you actually have countless ways and countless ways to get there. Do you feel that your life is suddenly bright?”

   "Since there are so many paths he can choose, he can fully respect his heart and choose the path he wants to take the most."

   "He wants to be honest with himself."

   "Break the shackles of living in other people's value labels in the past, and let yourself live a little more real."

  …

   After coming out of the National University of Science and Technology, Xia Fanxing put his hands in his pockets and stepped on the golden leaves to go home.

   He felt that everything around him was fresh—

   The wind in late autumn is very cool, the air is very fresh, and the fallen leaves are also beautifully blown by the wind.

   Even at the entrance of the small supermarket next to him, the child who was rolling around and letting his mother buy candy looked very cute.

   He suddenly had many emotions, which made him emotionally surging.

   Hot tears fell from the corners of his eyes.

   He began to learn to open his eyes to see the world.

  This world is not beautiful, but it is real.

  If the heart were a little softer, it would still look a little cute.

  …

"A little bit up, it's crooked, and a little bit down to the right." Ming Jinxin stood at home and instructed Ning Youguang to hang a painting, "Okay, okay, I'll take a picture to show you the overall feeling. "

  Ning Youguang supported the painting and waited for a while.

  Ming Jinxin held out the phone in front of her, "Look at this painting, how about hanging it here?"

   It was the last time she bought it from an auction house. It was a painting by a new generation artist. She knew something about art, but not as well as her daughter.

  Therefore, I caught her at home today, and let her help come up with ideas on where to hang this painting.

   "Very good, but the shelf below needs to be removed." Ning Youguang stood on the chair and said.

   "Okay." Ming Jinxin took back the phone, "I'll let the workers remove the shelf later, you come down." She reached out.

  Ning Youguang jumped off the chair, holding her shoulders.

   Ming Jinxin called the workers to remove the shelf below.

   The two stood in front of the screen and watched silently for a while.

   "Although this painting is simple, it's actually pretty good after looking at it for a long time, right?" Ming Jinxin asked.

   "It matches the style of the home." Ning Youguang said.

   Ming Jinxin is happy.

  The two moved to the living room.

   "Why are you leaving this afternoon and not having dinner at home?" Ming Jinxin handed Ning Youguang a plate of blueberries in his hand.

   "I'm going to watch the progress of the renovation with Mochizuki in the afternoon." Ning Youguang picked up a few blueberries and stuffed them into his mouth.

   "See the progress of the decoration?" Ming Jin was stunned.

   "That's right." Ning Youguang said, "Didn't Mochizuki buy two houses before? It's being renovated now, and this afternoon he asked me to take a look with him."

   "So fast?" Ming Jinxin's mood was quite complicated.

   "Are you fast?" Ning Youguang said, "It's not fast, it's been several months."

  Ming Jinxin picked up the fork, poked the star fruit in the other plate of fruit in front of him, and ate it absent-mindedly, but found a sore toothache.

   "It's so sour."

   She couldn't eat the remaining half, so she threw it into the trash can next to it.

   "Eat strawberries, strawberries are very sweet." Ning Youguang gave her a fresh strawberry.

   Ming Jinxin took it and took a bite, "It's quite sweet."

  Ning Youguang gave her another one, "How is my dad lately?"

   "What can he do? I'm busy. I'm in the crew every day. I haven't seen him for a month or two." Ming Jinxin said. 1314

   (end of this chapter)