Chapter 37 Childhood Shadows

   Thinking of the marital status of my parents in the past life, I can't help but feel a little gloomy feeling in my heart.

  Her world, in an instant, it seemed that the snow from the sky did not fall on her body, but fell into her heart, making people chill.

   She trembled all over, let go of Xia Youqing's hand, and wrapped her arms around her chest.

  A young couple who are in love with each other for the first time, Ning Yi and Xia Youqing guessed the beginning of their relationship, but not the end.

   At the beginning of their love, no one knew that "together" for love does not fully represent the completion, but also the beginning, and the beginning means that there are infinite possibilities for love in the future.

   may be one person's heart, the white head is inseparable, or it may be that half of the body is injured by wind and rain.

   They are the latter.

   Men and women in love are never hot at the beginning, and they can always get along well.

   Xia Youqing and Ning Yi's marriage failed because they didn't know how to get along.

   Aside from the sweetness in love, the two of them will get along like a disaster in the later days, and they can have differences and conflicts due to various things anytime and anywhere.

   How much tolerance do young people have?

   No matter how turbulent the love accumulated in his youth, it gradually cooled down amid the growing contradictions in the future.

   I can't go on, but for various reasons, I can't separate.

   So two people who couldn't find warmth in each other were attracted by the sugar-coated poison-like feelings given by others, and they ran wildly to the endless abyss on the wrong emotional path, unable to turn back.

  In the past life, they have loved, hated, quarreled, quarreled, fought, hated each other, cursed, betrayed, supported each other, let go...

   They are the two closest people in the world, but they show each other the evil in human nature vividly and vividly.

   If it wasn't for their daughter, Ning Youguang would never have imagined that such a bright and beautiful couple could show so many dark sides of humanity in each other.

  The most cruel thing is that so many dark sides, they make no secret of letting their favorite children see.

  How ironic?

However, the sad thing is that for a long time in her last life, she didn't understand it. It was obvious that her family of origin had festered to the point of being riddled with holes. If she could think about herself a little bit, she should have endured the pain earlier and slashed the bones of her wrist. Drop this piece of rotten flesh, instead of holding a piece of rotten flesh that carries a virus, pressing it tightly against his bleeding heart, delusionally trying to feed them with his own power, so that they can recover and grow intact, causing him to grow savagely in his previous life. At the same time, it was also wrapped in a huge black shadow, suffering from a stubborn illness and suffering for a lifetime.

  Unfortunately, she tried so hard to make this piece of rotten flesh better, but in the end this piece of rotten flesh left her far away.

   In the past life, my parents divorced, and Iguang complained about them at first.

   But later, she didn't complain about anyone.

  Because she knew that they were not easy either.

   Can you say they are not parents?

   Neither, they are just two giant babies.

   In the past life, by Xia Youqing's side, she often heard her complain about her father's various faults.

   At that time, she didn't know how to properly view the close relationship between her parents. She always thought that her mother was weak, and the wrong side was her father. She was very dissatisfied with her father.

  Although my father was a little older and had the consciousness of being a father, he tried his best to please her and treat her well, but she was also lukewarm, and the relationship between father and daughter was not close.

   In the last life, one thing that made her feel uneasy was that she had devoted all her enthusiasm and love to Xia Youqing, and the mother and daughter were not very close.

  Xia Youqing fell in love if she wanted to fall in love, married if she wanted to, and had children if she wanted to. She never asked her for her thoughts and opinions.

   Later, she understood.

   Her original family is broken, and the mother is the one who needs to bear the main responsibility.

  Miss Xia, to put it nicely, is self.

   The hardest thing to say is selfishness, thinking only of yourself in everything.

   But can you blame her?

cannot.

   After all, not everyone died at the age of seven months.

   People who lack maternal love since childhood will not love others when they grow up.

   She is also a poor person.

   Always feel that others are sorry for her and that her misfortune is caused by others, but she doesn't know that the source of her misfortune is herself, because she lacks the ability to love her.

   And what about her as a daughter?

   is also the product of the lack of reincarnation of maternal love. There is a mother but no real maternal love.

   It's not that Xia Youqing doesn't love her, she just doesn't love her.

   Just like one person has no way to ask another person to give her what she doesn't have, for example, she has no way to ask for love from Xia Youqing.

   Therefore, her last business was difficult for 20 to 30 years, but in the end, she healed herself and learned to love herself.

but……

   Youguang thought funny:

   What about her?

   No matter how hard you try to grow yourself, the emotional experience of the previous life is still blank.

   It's really hard to say whether she will reincarnate this lack of maternal love to her next generation.

   So she was reborn, and the first thing she did when she woke up was to get her parents divorced, and at the same time, she didn't plan to interfere with her parents' future relationship.

   She has worked hard all her life and has no regrets.

   So many years of experience told her.

  People are all reincarnated.

  If anyone does not want to be reincarnated, they can only cross themselves, otherwise the gods and Buddhas will have no cure.

   After letting go of Xia Youqing's hand, Youguang fell silent.

  Xia Youqing has always been careless and doesn't know much about the emotions of people around her. Besides, after she got in the car, she was busy looking at her phone and sending text messages.

   Not knowing the short distance, a tsunami that no one knew about broke out in her daughter's heart, setting off huge waves and burying her into the dark abyss.

   "Miss, where are you going next?" The driver put the food box in his hand securely into the trunk of the car, sat down in the cab, and turned to ask Xia Youqing behind him.

   "I don't know, you can ask if you have it." Xia Youqing replied without looking up.

   "Anyone?" The driver had to look at Xiang Ning Youguang.

   "Take a mobile phone to check and see where there are animal stray stations. Let's go to feed." Youguang said absent-mindedly.

   "Ah, use your mobile phone to check the animal stray station?" The driver was a little embarrassed, he seemed a little bit unable to understand what the young lady said.

   Seeing the dazed look on the driver's face, Yingguang realized that now is not the era when smartphones are popularized in later generations.

   At this time, the mobile phone can only be used to make calls, send text messages, play small games, etc., and can not access the Internet.

   "Oh, I'm sorry, I made a mistake, you drive around on the road, we'll stop when we see where there is an animal stray station." 1314

   Some small heads are temporarily disconnected...

  

  

   (end of this chapter)