The Spring Festival is here, I would like to wish you all a new year, wish you good luck in the Year of the Rabbit, and the most important thing is good health!

This year, my family and I have had a lot of changes.

This memory has too much pain for me, so I just want to escape and dare not face the future.

But there is also a lot of help that is worth remembering and grateful for.

Now I am fine, I can say that in the 32 years of my life, my physical fitness can be ranked 17th in this year.

If the figures are shortened to the last 15 years, then last year was the healthiest year for me. The most important thing is that there is still room for improvement in the future. I am already very satisfied.

But listening to the sound of firecrackers outside, I still felt a wave of loneliness and loneliness for the future. This sad feeling has been pervasive for almost a year, and it has become more and more serious.

It was a kind of hopeless waiting, accompanied by a deep sense of powerlessness, because you don't know when your closest person will be taken away by the irreversible law of nature...

I dare not face it, I want to escape, but just like Wang Miao's countdown, I cannot avoid it.

I know that joys and sorrows, birth, old age, sickness and death are the natural laws of the world, and no one can avoid them.

I also know that time heals everything.

But this kind of waiting process like a execution is really too hopeless.

I'm sorry, it's a festive day these days, I've spoiled the atmosphere by writing these, let's talk about something else.

After the Spring Festival, I plan to resume updating slowly.

In fact, after I was discharged from the hospital in October, I planned to resume updating.

But when I got home, I realized that there was not enough time.

I don’t do much every day, just cook two meals, do some rehabilitation training by myself, clean up and wash the dishes, talk to my mother, and watch TV, unexpectedly? It’s almost time to go to bed.

Starting next month, my daily exercise time will start to decrease.

But it’s not that I actively want to reduce it. It’s the frequency of taking one medicine a day. My medical insurance this year is definitely not enough.

So it can only be changed to one medicine for two days, and then one day of exercise and one day of rest are required, otherwise the blood coagulation factor concentration will not be enough the next day, and it will be easy to bleed once you exercise.

In this way, a lot of time can be squeezed out, and at least one update can be tried in the next two days.

My book will be finished in about 500,000 words, so I am going to finish it first.

Finally, let's say something festive.

But I don't know how to say it, or I don't want to say it, because those clichés are too formulaic.

What I really want to bless in my heart is: I hope that everyone can walk towards the same life and death with more and longer reunions and fewer and shorter sorrows.

Forehead…

I'm really not cursing everyone to die...

I was thinking...forget it...I'm not going to talk anymore...

Wait a little longer, and finally wish our country prosperity and national strength. I hope that this year, more industries will skyrocket like last year's auto industry. It is best that all walks of life will usher in a blowout development.

In the past six months, I have been very confused. I have some mental problems, and even lost the meaning of life.

But if I can see the process of our national rejuvenation, then I will have the meaning of continuing to live.

I can't do anything in it, but I really want to see the process...