After doing the math today, more than three months have passed since the operation in mid-May.

Excluding the one-month hospitalization for the operation, the simple recovery process also took two months.

In fact, there is not much pain during the operation, the real pain is the recovery period.

This process, I can only say that it is too painful!

My knee has not been bent for more than ten years. Not only the ligaments and muscles around the knee are tightly bonded, but the muscles of the whole leg are actually contracted. A slight bend even stretches the tendons in the thigh. Both butts are smaller than the other side.

The most painful thing for me now is the patellar ligament under the knee. Not only is it painful to break it, but it also hurts for a whole day after breaking it.

The worst thing was that the next day was a little better, and I had to go to the pain for another half an hour. At that time, the pain would be a little stronger than the day before, and I couldn't rest for a day until I couldn't take it anymore.

The doctor told me that this is the beginning, because every time I bend a little more, there will be pain in other parts like this one.

Half a month ago, I was finally in a passive state, lying on the bed and being forced to nearly 80 degrees.

This is actually good news, even though my active bend is still only 40 degrees.

Now my problem is that there is a big difference between the degree of active bending and passive bending, and the doctor is right, as the degree of passive bending increases, the entire inner side of my knee also hurts. In the past half month, I belong to double times the pain.

But to be honest, this pain, while difficult, also represents hope for the future.

But I haven't looked forward to the future for a long time, and my bad luck seems to have begun again.

My mother has gone through chemotherapy five times. Although the process is more uncomfortable each time, she has finally controlled the further deterioration. It is not bad that she can continue her life.

Now that my aunt has come to take care of her, I can go to the hospital to recover and suffer.

Originally, after the last chemotherapy treatment was over next month, my mother started to use domestic immune drugs. Six thousand a month is not cheap, but relying on everyone before and the assistance of Yuewen, I can last for a while.

But I didn't expect that my mother was not feeling well some time ago, and she kept silent and didn't go to the hospital.

This is an old problem, not just this time, I have been asking her to go to the hospital for check-ups in the past few years, because my grandma died of cervical cancer at my mother's age.

So I have been worried for the past few years, but my mother never listened to me, and scolded me when she said too much.

When I went back to change clothes half a month ago, I saw her coughing a bit. I asked her to call the hospital, but she insisted on taking some medicine.

After I went back to the hospital, I asked her every day if she was feeling better, and she told me every time it was better.

At that time, I didn't care about it. It happened to be raining for almost a week, and even the nurse had a lot of coughs. I also felt a little uncomfortable when I woke up in the morning.

But when she went back on the weekend, not only did she not speak properly, but her cough became worse.

I asked her to visit Jinan in advance, so don't wait for the follow-up visit.

But she still didn't go, so she went to Jinan for a follow-up visit last week, and it turned out to be a severe pneumonia. Now the treatment costs thousands of dollars a day, and she has to be hospitalized for at least a week.

The doctor was also very speechless, asking why she didn't call if she was not feeling well?

This was originally a small cold, but it turned into pneumonia abruptly. Now not only chemotherapy can't be done, but immune medicine can't be used either. Pneumonia must be treated first.

When I knew these things in the hospital, I could only feel depressed in my heart. Not to mention that I am not by her side now, even if I was by her side, she would not tell the truth to me. This kind of stupid thing has been done more than once.

Now I am in a critical period of recovery. After breaking my leg every day, I am so painful that I can’t lift my leg for a day, and I can’t always go home to see her.

But now I have to go home. My mother and my aunt will stay in Jinan for at least half a month. During this time, no one will take care of the cat at home. I have to go home every two days.

That's fine, mainly because I have a bad feeling right now.

My mother has a problem again, so is my father also going to have a problem?

My dad has been living in a nursing home for the past few months. The environment in that place is very bad. Since most of the residents live there are elderly people, many of whom are semi-independent and unable to take care of themselves, so when entering the hallway, there is an unpleasant smell of feces and urine.

The room my dad lived in was basically the same as my room in the hospital, with two small beds, two small tables, and two small broken wardrobes.

Not only is the environment in the nursing home not good, but the food is also not very good. There is very little meat, a lot of vegetables, and the big pot of rice tastes very ordinary.

My dad has been living in it for more than two months, and he has lost a lot of weight. When I saw him for the last time, I could even feel a kind of death.

But there is no way, I am in the rehabilitation hospital now, and my mother is like this, and she can't take care of him at all.

This stage is mainly because he can't bear it psychologically, because he still looks like that, and he will get better if he exercises more, but letting him take one more step is like killing him!

During this period of time, I also saw many stroke patients in the rehabilitation hospital. Many of them were much more serious than my father at the time, but they persisted in the rehabilitation for two or three months, and basically showed improvement visible to the naked eye. Some of them even stood up. Unsteady patients can now squat down to pick up props with the rehabilitation therapist.

But the problem is that my dad's brain is broken, he doesn't practice at all, and my mother and I can't accompany him to the rehabilitation hospital to watch him exercise.

The result is that when he walks now, he is more unstable than when he first moved into the nursing home, and he doesn't quite get along with him when talking to him. He can't say a few words about one thing, and he starts to lose his words.

But the habit of lying is still the same. There is no internet in the nursing home. I bought him a 200g traffic card, but he can use up such a lot of traffic in less than half a month.

Every time I call to tell him to stop looking at his phone and go out for a walk in the yard, he always says he just came back from the walk.

I know that if this goes on, he may not last long.

Why do many elderly people die soon after being sent to nursing homes? UU Reading www.uukanshu.com is because they don’t care whether you exercise or not, and living in that kind of lifeless environment is prone to psychological and physical problems, so people It's easy to get stuck in dead air, and every time the season changes, a large number of people will be taken away.

Now I only hope that my dad is still young, and that he can survive until this Spring Festival.

By then my recovery was complete, and if my mom stabilized for a while, I would be able to take him home.

But can this hope be realized?

I don't dare to give too much hope now, I can only take one step at a time, because many things are really determined by character!

A lot of times I think, if I go back three years, can I stop this?

Maybe, I can prevent my mother's tragedy, but my father's tragedy still can't be prevented, because I have tried my best to prevent it, and it will not be different if it happens again.

Sometimes I also think, what is my character flaw?

Can I get into a good university if I don't have hemophilia? Can I allow myself and my family to live a superior life?

The result is not necessarily true, because I also have many personality flaws, but many of them are gradually recognized by myself under the illness and pain.

But what if there is no disease?

I may have encountered countless failures and blows in reality because of these character flaws!

However, I still hope to live again with a healthy body, even if I don’t have the current memory, because that is a normal life.

At the very least, if I have a healthy body, I can take on the responsibilities of a child when my parents need to take care of me, instead of just sitting on the hospital bed, typing and sighing like now!