The night passed.

When He Yu woke up, it was already bright.

He blinked and saw Xie Qingcheng dressed and sitting by the window smoking a cigarette.

The window opened a crack, smoke flowed out from the fingertips, and the morning light came in from outside.

Xie Qingcheng's overall condition is not very good.

He is very haggard, no one can be tossed like this by He Yu all night without being haggard. Although he was wearing a casual suit, there were faintly mottled hickeys around the neckline.

And the lips, you can see the bite marks.

Xie Qingcheng looked very irritable, and the cigarette butts in the ashtray had piled up like a mountain.

He didn't know when he woke up, his sleep was much lighter than He Yu's.

Hearing the rustling on the bed, Xie Qingcheng turned his head: "...wake up."

“…hmmm.”

Such a morning can have any relatively gentle conversation between them.

For example, how are you.

For example, would you like some breakfast?

No matter how bad it is, you can also say, put on your clothes, it is cold in winter.

But Xie Qing was quiet for a moment, looking at the boy who had had too many intimate relationships with him, and finally, he chose the calmest and most ruthless sentence—

"Let's go when you wake up."

He Yu was stunned.

He really didn't expect Xie Qingcheng to be like that with him last night, but he could say such cold words today.

He was stunned for a while before saying, "Last night..."

"You didn't force me last night, it was me that lost my mind and I couldn't control it."

Xie Qingcheng seemed to think about how to face him for a long time, and his answer was very quick and ruthless, almost mechanical.

"I don't blame you, just go."

He Yu sat up like a little dragon who tried his best to please his master, but was ruthlessly abandoned in the end.

Xie Qingcheng glanced at him and turned his eyes away.

What happened last night was crazy, the two seemed to have fallen for evil, and they did things on New Year's Eve that neither of them thought the other would do. Looking back now, I can't believe it.

One night is like a dream, two people in the dream, neither of them is so real.

But perhaps too much heat was consumed. This frantic and completely unplanned **** took Xie Qingcheng's last breath away.

It can be seen that Xie Qingcheng regrets it.

He Yu looked at him silently, the dragon cub who had worked hard all night was told to throw it away, and it was false to say that he was not wronged.

But his self-esteem made him reluctant to show any grievances.

He Yu finally sank his face and said softly: "...you don't have to send me away in such a hurry. The cowherd who came to the door should not be treated like this."

Xie Qingcheng: "What is Cowherd?"

He Yu: "...a male prostitute."

Xie Qingcheng: "...then you are not a male prostitute."

He Yu remained silent.

Xie Qingcheng sighed, put down the phone that he glanced at while smoking, and walked to He Yu's bed.

He Yu's peripheral vision swept to what he was watching just now - a jellyfish video.

He only thought it was funny before, he didn't know why Xie Qingcheng always watched this kind of thing. Now he understands that this video is a kind of psychological sedative for Xie Qingcheng, similar to the conditioned reflex that he has developed. Those who have no brain and no heart but still live tenderly are the only comfort in Xie Qingcheng's painful past. .

He knew that Xie Qingcheng must be very uncomfortable and mentally broken, so he would smoke and watch this video again and again.

Although Xie Qingcheng is voluntary.

Although Xie Qingcheng was annoyed by him, teased by him, and did it with him.

But he knew that Xie Qingcheng regretted it afterwards. And unusual regrets.

As expected, Xie Qingcheng came over and the first thing he said to him was: "He Yu, we shouldn't go on like this anymore."

He Yu did not speak and sat silently.

There are also scars on the boy's back that Xie Qingcheng grabbed out of control last night.

The man who arrested him told him we shouldn't go on like this.

He Yu is very resentful and sad.

He raised his head, stared at Xie Qingcheng's eyes, and asked him silently.

Xie Qingcheng's response was to go silent for a while, then turned around and went to the drawer to get the medicine box, gauze, iodine, cotton swab, little by little, silently congratulating Bandage the wound on the forehead.

"Don't go out in sight of blood."

A cotton swab dipped in iodine and gently wiped around the wound. The boy didn't make a sound, and Xie Qingcheng gave him this aftercare.

The white cotton yarn was wrapped around his forehead, Xie Qingcheng's fingers stopped on a row of tapes when fixing, and finally took a children's Band-Aid with a small cartoon dinosaur printed on it and put it on the On He Yu's forehead.

"Okay. Let's go."

“…”

"Xie Xue will be back in a while."

“…”

"It's really not right for us. Yesterday I was impulsive."

“…”

"He Yu."

He Yu finally spoke, he sat on the bed, raised his head, a little messy hair fell in front of the gauze: "Xie Qingcheng, I'm so thirsty. I'm tired. I want to drink water."

It's what he should pay, after all, he is a big man.

So he went to pour water for He Yu.

Seeing that he is really willing to pour water for himself, He Yu seems to be in a better mood. When Xie Qingcheng was busy in front of the tea table, he still probed his head and raised his hand to touch himself from time to time , and a cartoon Band-Aid at the forehead.

But when Xie Qingcheng came back with water, his face sank again when he saw the cup.

Even heavier than before.

"Here. Drink."

Xie Qingcheng handed him the disposable cup.

He Yu stared at this paper cup of the same style as Li Rouqiu, stopped drinking, pursed her mouth tightly, and turned her face away.

Xie Qingcheng didn't know what was wrong with him, his concubine seemed unhappy and frowned: "Drink."

He Yu glared at him, suddenly raised his hand and knocked off the cup, and the warm water spilled on the ground.

Xie Qingcheng: "What are you doing!"

He Yu still glared at him: "What do you say I do!"

"How do I know what's going on with you?"

"Why can't you understand what I'm thinking?"

Xie Qingcheng was speechless.

He didn't even know why he would provoke such a thing. When he poured water into Li Rouqiu, Li Rouqiu would always say thank you brother, He Yu **** him all night and dared to knock over the cup he handed over!

"I tell you He Yu, go back when you've had enough trouble, and you just pretend it didn't happen last night, I've said it many times, it's just an impulse..."

"Then if I were a woman, you were so impulsive last night, I should be pregnant!"

“…”

Xie Qingcheng saw his righteous appearance, and his head hurt to death.

No, judging from what they did yesterday, it's not that He Yu is pregnant, right? How does he have a face?

But after thinking about it, He Yu said "I should be pregnant", which is better than when he kept saying "You give me one", "Brother, You gave me a seed of mine." Or "you should be pregnant" is not so hard to accept.

Xie Qingcheng gritted his teeth: "You are not a woman. If you are a woman, I will not lose my head and be like you."

"Why can't you do this when I'm a woman? Are you gay?"

Xie Qingcheng's face turned blue: "I'm not."

"Then why are you?"

“…”

Xie Qingcheng didn't want to mess around with him anymore, he looked at the clock on the wall and said, "I can't tell you, anyway, I won't. Don't talk about it, It's getting late, hurry up and don't let Xie Xue come back and hit him."

"Xie Qingcheng, you are a man and you have to be responsible?"

"I'm responsible for you!" Xie Qing became angry, "I tell you He Yu, we should be clean and nothing. What happened last night It's the end of it all, there's no next time. Now you get up for me. You get up—"

He didn't finish.

He Yu suddenly reached out and hugged his waist.

"I don't want to. I don't want to go back."

"I'm the only one at home, I want to be here, Li Rouqiu has nowhere to go and you still take her in, why can't I..."

He rubbed and rubbed, as if feeling that the container in his heart was overflowing, filled with a feeling that he was unfamiliar with and that he had not named.

.

Let his heart not be tangled by invisible knives.

He closed his eyes and hugged Xie Qingcheng for a while, and suddenly noticed that Xie Qingcheng's body seemed to be shaking slightly.

When I touched it again, I felt the body temperature was a little hot.

He Yu raised his head from his waist suddenly: "Brother, do you have a fever?"

"Why are you so hot..."

"...It's okay." Xie Qingcheng took his arm and wanted to take it away.

He Yu refused to let go. He stared at Xie Qingcheng for a while—

"Are you sure that the medicine that can maintain your health will always be effective? Otherwise, how could your body be so bad, every now and then..."

"No normal person can stand your tossing like this." Xie Qingcheng said, "Let go of your hand."

He Yu frowned: "And your eyesight is getting worse..."

Xie Qingcheng didn't want to hear him say these things.

The mentality of tabooing diseases and avoiding doctors is not only common to ordinary people.

"He Yu, medicine can prolong my life, but it doesn't mean it can keep my physical strength at its peak. I will always cherish my body, as long as you don't provoke me. "

He Yu silently shifted his gaze from his face to the ashtray by the window sill behind.

There is too much soot in there.

He stared at Xie Qingcheng, and did not know where the deep resentment came from: "What do you call, love your body?"

"If you hadn't bothered me, I wouldn't have smoked that much today."

“…”

"You go."

“…”

"I want to be alone for a while."

The feeling in He Yu's heart seemed to suddenly grow into a giant beast that grinds its teeth and **** blood. his internal organs.

He Yu said: "No, I want to take you to the hospital."

"I don't **** go to the hospital!"

Here again! How many times do you go to the hospital a year? It's all because of a boy's body that can't stand it!

"Why don't you go to the hospital when you are sick?" But after He Yu asked, he was not sure. After all, he was the eldest young master, "...Is the hospital open on the first day of the new year?"

Xie Qingcheng looked at him wanting to do something, but was at a loss.

Suddenly I felt very tired.

I'm still a kid after all.

He sighed lowly: "That's it, He Yu."

"You go back first, I will take care of it myself." To the boy's eyes, Xie Qingcheng lied, "And the hospital is not open today."

"Then I'll connect you with my personal doctor—"

"You want to make our relationship public, don't you?"

He Yu paused.

Xie Qingcheng took his mobile phone, turned it off, and threw it to him.

"I beg you not to do this, if you really see me as your kind. Save me a little face."

He didn't quarrel with He Yu anymore, but when he didn't quarrel, he seemed to be farther away, as if he would disappear in front of He Yu's eyes in the next moment.

Even the soul has become very pale.

He Yu found that he was a little panicked.

Xie Qingcheng: "Go back. Let me invite you."

"But I—" He Yu turned pale, "You shouldn't..."

"There's nothing wrong. I'm an adult, thirteen years older than you, do you think I can't take care of myself? I don't need you to teach me anything."

“…”

He Yu looked at Xie Qing with a pale, weak, indifferent, strong, distant look, and for a moment, he was bitten by the evil beast in his chest and he could hardly breathe come up.

What happened to him?

He is…

"Let's just pass yesterday."

"Why...Xie Qingcheng...why? Are we bad?"

"Not good."

"But why..."

Xie Qing was quiet for a while: "Because I don't like you, you don't like me either, He Yu. So that's wrong."

"Didn't you say that men should be responsible? Then let me tell you, responsibility means that in the future, we should only do such things with people we like."

"Otherwise it would be torture for each other."

Suddenly.

Everything is quiet.

The words "like" are in my ears.

The beast on the chest devoured the heart.

The heartbeat stopped suddenly. The ears were empty, and nothing could be heard.

He Yu's last bit of blood faded from his face.

He raised his head sharply, staring at Xie Qingcheng's eyes. It seems that I suddenly want to understand something, it seems that I suddenly want to touch the truth—

Like…

—I don't like you, and you don't like me.

In the future, we should only do such things with the people we like.

Otherwise, it's torturing each other...

The distant mountains seemed to tremble and the earth trembled. He Yu's heart, which was swallowed by the evil beast, caused a shocking earthquake. His broken and sick heart became the source of the shock. The shock spread to his whole body, and even his fingertips were doomed.

Like?

The giant beast seemed to be called majestically by the **** awakened in its heart.

“Like.”

should be reconciled.

Yes, it says.

That's my name.

This is how I feel.

Do you understand...you...finally called my name in the landslide and found the key to tame me?

The giant beast slowly spit out that stagnant heart.

After a few seconds—

Boom.

The blood-stained heart started beating again.

He Yu's face was very ugly.

In Xie Qingcheng's retort, he suddenly noticed these behaviors that he did instinctively, but never thought deeply about the motivation.

All of this…

All of this love is deep and tender.

It's all entangled and can't be let go.

—is it…

Is it all because of love?

He, he is... like Xie Qingcheng? !