They spent the night in the car.

He Yu's fever is indeed slowly subsided, and his mood is gradually stable, but before that, Xie Qingcheng can't take the risk to continue driving, there is a construction road ahead, if He Yu Any more surprises, the situation will become difficult to handle.

Xie Qingcheng took care of him until He Yu's body temperature and emotions approached normal.

The disease was undoubtedly quite serious this time. The disadvantages of long-term drug abuse have been revealed. He Yu even had a period of symptoms that were completely out of control, and after he finished venting, the whole person became very tired. During the recovery process he gradually fell into a semi-conscious slumber.

Xie Qingcheng waited for him to fall asleep before he put on his seat belt and drove again. At this time, a whitish whiteness appeared on the horizon, and the darkest moment had passed.

He still plans to send He Yu back to the main villa.

He Yu's current situation is too bad, he needs to know what He Yu is hiding—

Thinking of this, Xie Qingcheng felt a little ironic.

It seems that He Yu used to be curious about what he was hiding, but now he has to try to figure out what unknown changes happened to He Yu.

Xie Qingcheng took off his coat, threw it on the sleeping He Yu, and drove the car to the door of He Yu's house steadily and quickly.

He rang the bell, and it was the housekeeper who came to open the door.

Although Xie Qingcheng was already seen in the video bell, the butler was a little surprised when he opened the door and actually faced this man.

What's more, Xie Qingcheng was still holding He Yu, who was half asleep and half dizzy.

"Xie, Dr. Xie..."

"Is Mr. He there?"

"Mr. He and Mr. Lv are temporarily busy and are not in Shanghai..."

Xie Qingcheng sighed, almost as expected.

He said: "Please help me to help him in first, it's too heavy."

Xie Qingcheng and the housekeeper helped him to the bed.

Because He Yu never liked others to enter his room, the housekeeper did not dare to stay any longer, and quickly bowed and left.

Xie Qingcheng settled the people, got up and carefully looked at this place that he hadn't been to for a long time.

The furnishings in the house are the same as five years ago, and there is not much change.

It's just that the whole room looks cooler. After Xie Qingcheng came in, he felt that it was less like a commonly used bedroom, but like a star-rated hotel room, which means that although the room is very comfortable, there is no Something with a personal touch.

The owner does not love the room and will leave at any time.

Because of the minimalist furnishings, some things stand out. Xie Qingcheng suddenly found the book "Rare Diseases in the World" on He Yu's desk. It was a thought he left to He Yu when he resigned five years ago. The purpose was to encourage He Yu to walk out slowly on his own. The shadow of illness, don't forget the pair of ossification cases he told him.

"Little devil, you are not alone." This was actually the comfort he couldn't say at the time.

In the end, it turned into a handsome handwriting on the title page—

Congratulations.

Xie Qingcheng walked to the desk and opened the book, which was obviously turned over. She stared silently for a long time with her long eyelashes.

Crash.

Before He Yu left, he forgot to close the window tightly, and forgot to draw the curtains as usual. A gust of morning wind blew in, blowing the pages of the book.

Suddenly.

Seems like it was meant to be.

A page of tissue paper caught in the book fell out like a flower and fell on the table.

And a ray of morning light just penetrated the clouds and shone on the paper.

Xie Qingcheng was startled.

It turned out to be an inspection sheet.

He picked up the slip and wanted to put it back into the book, and he glanced at it when he picked it up.

The result of this glance was something he never expected.

He thought it was He Yu's own list, such as a commemoration of the improvement of his mental Ebola symptoms, but it was just an ordinary blood test list.

The name of the examinee is also printed on the form:

Xie Qingcheng.

"…" There's nothing more outrageous than seeing your lab report in someone else's home.

Xie Qingcheng was stunned for a while, then took the tissue paper and looked at it carefully.

It's really his blood test list.

How could He Yu have such a thing?

Looking at the report printing time again, Xie Qingcheng frowned and recalled for a while, and suddenly realized something, his face slowly turned ugly.

That seems to be...after the first time they finished...the date when he had a fever and was sent to the hospital by Chen Man.

Yes, he remembered it, Chen Man said at the time that he lost a blood test sheet, so he drew a new tube of blood.

Xie Qingcheng thought about it before and after, and probably understood.

He Yu must have gone to the hospital that day, but He Yu never showed up—

But what is he doing with this list?

He turned the list over and saw it.

On the white paper, He Yu wrote a whole page of "Xie Qingcheng, I'm sorry"...

The color of the pen is different, and the degree of scribbles is different.

It seems that they did not stay at the same time, but the sentences He Yu wrote from time to time.

“…”

Xie Qingcheng closed his eyes.

Forget it, since when I was flooding the photography library, I had already said that I would not be held accountable, so what emotions were spent on this matter?

He threw the blood test sheet into the trash can, so as not to let He Yu look at it and feel guilty again, put it here every day, sorry to practice calligraphy, and then closed the window to avoid the wind Keep blowing.

At this moment, he suddenly heard He Yu calling him in a low voice: "Xie Qingcheng."

“…”

"Xie Qingcheng..."

Xie Qingcheng walked to his bedside and found that the boy hadn't woken up, it was just a murmur in his dream.

Xie Qingcheng stood beside him and looked at him for a while: "...what are you shouting, I'm not your father."

But in the final analysis, he still has a kind of nature, he can't watch the patient suffer in front of him and ignore it.

So Xie Qingcheng stayed with He Yu for a while, until he was sure he was asleep, then got up again and went downstairs to find the housekeeper.

He wanted to ask about He Yu's recent medication.

Housekeeper: "Eldest young master, because he is emotionally unstable, he always takes medicines one by one. We are also worried when we look at him."

"Since when?"

"It's been a long time, always for months."

"You never persuade him."

The housekeeper sighed: "Oh, how do you persuade him? Although we know that He Shao takes medicine like this, it is not good for him, but it can be delayed for a day. Unlike before, it was difficult for young masters to get sick. Fallen from the building..."

"!" Xie Qingcheng asked, "Fall from the building?"

"Yes, yes." The housekeeper was stunned, "Don't you know?"

“…when did this happen.”

"During the winter vacation, before the young master went to the "Judgment" crew. His reaction was very strange in those days. First, he was very happy, and he also talked and laughed with us, and also went to take away the pieces that have not been used for a long time. He cleaned the room himself six or seven times, and we asked him if there were any guests coming, and he said yes, but no one came after that..."

The housekeeper's lips opened and closed, and he was still talking about some trivial things, but Xie Qingcheng's face had already turned pale, and he did not listen to the content after that.

Of course he knows who cleans that room.

He also knew very well who the guest who did not appear in the end was.

In the end, he slowly remembered that he had actually received news from He Yu at that time.

He Yu sent him several messages.

He said, "Dr. Xie, I'm sick."

"Xie Qingcheng, I'm sick."

But Xie Qingcheng hated him so much at that time, he only thought that He Yu was playing the game of "wolf is coming" again, and he didn't think the content of the text message was real.

Now that he learned the truth, Xie Qingcheng couldn't say what he felt for a while—

If He Yu threatens him and says that if you don't come to be my doctor, I will self-destruct and show it to you. On the contrary, Xie Qingcheng would find him annoying and think that he was kidnapping himself in another sense.

But He Yu did not.

He Yu didn't mean to kidnap him later, he even sincerely hoped that Xie Qingcheng would not know anything.

He Yu held on for a long time.

Until now, he can't hold it anymore.

Xie Qing thanked the housekeeper and returned to He Yu's bedroom.

He was very upset for a while.

In fact, even now, he did not understand what He Yu had done. But people's emotions are not black or white, hate or love. When he knew that He Yu had endured the pain alone for a long time later - that kind of pain was even caused by his rejection, Xie Qingcheng said The mood suddenly became very complicated.

It is his instinct as a doctor that he does not want to see the patient self-harm.

Not wanting to see He Yu self-harm is his instinct as the first case of mental Ebola.

Now He Yu's various behaviors make him feel frustrated, he doesn't understand what He Yu is doing all this for - just because they are the so-called "similar"?

Anxious, he wanted to knock a cigarette out to smoke, but seeing the miserable appearance of the young man on the bed, he felt that it was too much for him to smoke second-hand smoke in front of the patient .

So he bit his lower lip and put the cigarette case back.

He stayed up until about one o'clock in the afternoon when He Yu finally woke up from his coma.

The boy lay on the bed, raised his hand to rest on his forehead, and after a while, he remembered what happened yesterday coherently.

—The violent scuffle in the car.

Xie Qingcheng kept holding him down, and was finally strangled by his neck.

He became ill and almost strangled Xie Qingcheng to death...

After He Yu was completely awake, the cold sweat broke down. He shouted in panic, "Xie Qingcheng...!"

"I'm here."

I didn't expect a response, He Yu turned his head abruptly and found that Xie Qingcheng hadn't left yet.

The man was sitting by the window reading, and when he heard him wake up, he raised his eyes and closed the book.

"Xie Qingcheng, you..."

"Lie down, don't sit up."

He Yu was not so obedient, he still sat up with his body propped up, and in the process he saw that his arm had been wrapped and replaced with new gauze, a very careful and perfect dressing method It belongs to Xie Qingcheng.

"..." He Yu lowered his eyelashes.

That happened last night...

For the first time, he completely lost his mind when he fell ill, and even nearly ended the life of Xie Qingcheng who was with him.

He raised his hand slowly, tremblingly, staring at his palm.

The late symptoms of psychiatric Ebola...that's scary, isn't it?

When you wake up, you may find the corpse of your favorite person lying beside you...

He Yumen asked himself, he has hardly been afraid of anything in his life.

And at this moment, he shuddered from the bottom of his heart.

Xie Qingcheng came over: "He Yu, you—"

"Don't come near me!" He Yu snapped.

There was a chaotic light in his eyes, and after a moment, he tried to calm himself down.

But he really didn't want to let Xie Qingcheng get close to him any more.

"Don't come near me..." He Yu raised his hand, buried his face in his palm, and murmured softly.

Xie Qingcheng stared at him for a moment and said, "He Yu, calm down. I didn't think about what to do to you."

“…”

"There's just something I want to talk to you about."

“…talk about…what?”

"Your condition."

"..." He Yu was no longer willing to let Xie Qingcheng see a doctor for him. After what happened last night, he could only wish that Xie Qingcheng disappeared from his eyes immediately.

He said: "You don't have to worry about this... My illness is nothing, it's just a severe attack these days, I-"

Before he finished speaking, he was interrupted by Xie Qingcheng: "He Yu, I heard that you once fell from a building because of your illness."

Silence.

"You don't have to hide anything from me, I know it."

There was another long silence.

After a long time, He Yu finally asked hoarsely: "Did... the housekeeper told you?"

"Yes." Xie Qingcheng said, "If I hadn't sent you back here today, I would never have known about it."

But this "discovery" was too late for He Yu.

He Yu also thought about it, if Xie Qingcheng could see his sincerity and treat him a little bit, how good it would be.

Now he is afraid.

The chaos in the car last night seemed to be imminent. Who wouldn't be afraid to kill the person they love the most with their own hands without knowing it?

So in this long silence, He Yu decided.

He will try his best to distance himself from Xie Qingcheng.

"...you...you know what to do." He finally opened his mouth and murmured, with some insincere coldness in his voice.

"Xie Qingcheng, have you ever thought about it, what can you do if you know it?"

He Yu said, his eyebrows gradually became self-deprecating: "...you didn't even want to look at me at that time. I sent you a message, but you never did. Get back to me. What are you talking about now? It's been so long. It's pointless."

Xie Qingcheng: "...I thought at that time that what you said was not the truth."

"It's okay." He Yu lowered his forehead, "I'm used to it. I'm a liar in your eyes."

Xie Qingcheng paused for a while: "...I'm sorry."

“…”

"I misunderstood you."

"..." He Yu's face did not waver, but his heart was silently trembling.

Xie Qingcheng said sorry to him.

He had hardly heard Xie Qingcheng say these three words to him before. If these three words could have come earlier... maybe he wouldn't be so crazy.

"He Yu, you can't go on like this." Xie Qingcheng said to He Yu after a long silence between the two, "Your spirit is already difficult to be relieved by medicine. , the abuse of special drugs makes your drug resistance become higher and higher - although I have not met your current attending physician, but in this case, he should have also warned you, I hope you can listen to his words. "

“…”

He Yu endured the grief and throbbing in his heart, and after a long silence, he whispered: "Doctor Xie, you see, you also know that I now have a new attending physician."

"So you should understand that these things have nothing to do with you."

“…”

"I used to... hope you can come back. I begged you so humbly, I cried out to you again and again, but you said..." He Yu sneered with red eyes, his voice was a little hoarse, "You think I'm lying to you."

"Since that's the case, why are you coming back to take care of me now? Do you think I'm pitiful? It's really not necessary, I have a doctor. His medical skills are no worse than yours."

"I don't think that doctor is poor in medicine, but there are few people who have done more research on mental Ebola than me." Xie Qingcheng said, "He Yu, do you know your current situation? How serious is it? It’s fine if I didn’t see it. I saw it. You want me to ignore it completely, do you think I can do it?”

He Yu was quiet for a while, his figure reflected on the white wall behind him: "With what I know about you. I don't think there is anything you can't do."

“…”

"Xie Qingcheng, you said it yourself, you are a person who has many tasks to complete, and I am just a small accident of you. For example, in the Qin Ciyan incident, I It's the first burden you let go of."

"Can you please not change my words?" Xie Qingcheng impatiently wanted to touch the cigarette again, "I never said you were a burden."

"But that's what you did, and your actions have shown that you are treating me as a burden."

Xie Qingcheng resisted not smoking, but he couldn't help pressing the lighter to make a snapping sound, and finally he threw the lighter and looked up at him: "Okay...you want Discuss this with me?"

"Then I will tell you candidly today. Please listen to He Yu. On your eighth birthday, I came to your house and promised to be your doctor. At that time, I did not regard you as a If you look at it as a burden, no doctor will treat the patient as a burden. But in my eyes at the time, although you were not a burden, you were just a slightly special patient, and I really had no more emotional connection with you.”

"After something happened to Lao Qin, you were the first thing I gave up... But I once told you very clearly, you should know that it was a last resort, not me letting go After that, I felt relieved, and felt that I had thrown off some difficult baggage."

"He Yu, if you and I said those words in the reservoir, I still can't let you understand why I put you down at that time. If you still can't understand, I chose not to leave One thing to be happy about myself, if you still think I let go of it with joy and relief—"

Xie Qingcheng stopped for a while, then closed his eyes.

"Then maybe the truth I told you was all in vain. I have no way to relieve you. I'm sorry."

He Yu felt a pain in his heart, he knew that he was saying the wrong thing under deliberate refusal.

Xie Qingcheng is a very strong man, but Xie Qingcheng's weakness is his compassion and his compassion for the patients. Sprinkle salt.

He Yu was very uncomfortable, didn't he understand that Xie Qingcheng was someone who cared about his patients?

No, he actually understood at the time, he knew that Xie Qingcheng left him with some guilt and regret, otherwise He Yu would not have changed his attitude towards Xie after being trapped in the reservoir Clear view.

It's just that if he doesn't hurt Xie Qingcheng verbally, he may hurt him physically.

So he thought, let's go.

Xie Qingcheng.

Come on.

The sense of loss of control came up again, and he was afraid that he would not be able to control it.

He just wants to end this conversation as soon as possible and drive Xie Qingcheng away.

He Yu's eyes were full of bloodshot eyes, and he had no choice but to stab Xie Qingcheng's heart and his own with a knife. He said, "...even if I wasn't a burden to you before, I am now."

“…”

"I know that you have always resisted and rejected me after the incident in the clubhouse, otherwise I would have asked you for help at that time, and you would not have not answered me a word."

Xie Qing was silent.

"Go back, Xie Qingcheng."

Take action, you don't have to worry."

“…”

"Go back." He Yu said. "I want to sleep a little longer."

Xie Qingcheng raised his eyes, but did not go, but took a few steps forward and came to He Yu's bed.

"I don't want to deny it, I really disagree with you."

Xie Qingcheng finally opened his mouth, his tone was firm and frank, just because his emotions were so clean, he also had some calming power, "I clearly remember that you were empty What did you do in the nightclub?"

"But—"

After a pause, the conversation changed.

"He Yu, I haven't forgotten what you did in the archives."

"I haven't forgotten what choices you made in the reservoir when the water came up."

"I also remember that you were the last surviving mental Ebola patient in the country. You are suffering from something that I have suffered. I can't see as I can't."

"He Yu, I have not forgotten that you were my patient."

"I haven't forgotten, you are the one I have not healed and can no longer accompany."

“…”

He Yu felt extremely uncomfortable when she heard these words.

Xie Qingcheng listed the reasons why he cared about him again, but none of them were out of personal feelings.

For the current He Yu, this is actually more hurtful than "I don't want to worry about you".

He Yu really couldn't control it. He felt that his madness that had not been completely suppressed was rising again. The feeling of turning into powder began to rekindle.

He turned his face away suddenly, his hands trembled slightly, and his eyes were red.

He is a precursor to a second disease, a particularly dangerous situation, he wants to hide it, but he can't hide it.

He gritted his teeth and said in a low voice, "Go away... go!"

His abnormality all fell into Xie Qingcheng's eyes.

Of course Xie Qingcheng couldn't let him lose control and walk away, instead he stared at him and asked him: "He Yu, what's on your mind, can't you just say it? You already know how serious your situation is, why are you suppressing yourself like this?!"

"I have nothing on my mind! Don't make me do it!"

He Yu's situation is getting out of control, he doesn't know it, but Xie Qingcheng can see his eyes are getting redder and redder, as if even his pupils are blood same color.

"You don't understand me at all, Xie Qingcheng, you don't understand at all... In the future, if I get sick, you'd better leave it to me and not see it, understand? I don't want to see you! I see You will only make me more upset! Go back! Go back to me! Get out of here!"

"...I don't care about you, you fall off the building and hurt yourself. I care about you, but you think I'm upset." Xie Qingcheng stared at his face, "I just **** want to You know why, why do you have to do this?!"

"No." He Yu said with a pale face, "There is no reason."

This is an obvious mismatch.

"..." Xie Qingcheng was silent for a long time, and even a person of his character felt a little fire in his heart.

"He Yu, this matter is related to me. Your fall from the building, your illness, and your emotional out-of-control are all related to me."

"I wonder why, because it's not just about you."

“…”

He Yu felt that the giant beast in his heart was slamming against the door, trembling and buzzing in his ears.

Xie Qingcheng is forcing him.

He couldn't find any reason to prevaricate him, he just wanted him to leave immediately.

He was about to collapse, and he said to Xie Qing again: "I don't want to say...you go. I beg you, don't ask any more."

"Will you let me go, Xie Qingcheng? Will you let me go..."

Come on.

Don't trick me into shedding my skin and see you with a terrifying face.

Come on.

Don't ask for another answer, then scold me after knowing that answer, and think I'm crazy.

Come on.

You… let’s go…

During this kind of tearing and entanglement, He Yu's condition is getting worse and worse.

Xie Qingcheng looked at his trembling fingers, at his messy hair, and at his confused eyes.

Xie Qingcheng suddenly felt as if his heart had been stabbed by a needle, the needle swam to the place in his heart that belonged to He Yu, and began to pierce him, making him blame himself and let him He choked and made him bleed.

Let him see his cruelty and his failure.

It was bleak and silent.

Xie Qingcheng closed his eyes, and finally said hoarsely: "...Okay..."

"If you really don't want to say, then I won't ask."

"I'm not forcing you. I'm not forcing you."

"But, He Yu... I walked out of this door today, I think we won't have to meet again in the future, okay?"

He Yu froze suddenly.

When Xie Qingcheng opened his eyes, his eyes were also red: "This is not to blame you, nor to hate you. But whether as a doctor or as a person, I am I feel that the relationship between me and you is really messed up."

"The two of us have come to this point, the fault is actually me, because I am thirteen years older than you, in this relationship, I am completely an elder, a Master, I bear the greatest part of the responsibility to you, and unfortunately, I have not been able to lead you on the path I originally hoped for."

Xie Qingcheng paused: "I once said that I spent seven years on you, and you finally became what you are now, making me feel like I have fed dogs for seven years. I At that time, I said, I am very disappointed in you."

"But today I want to tell you... that my disappointment is not only for you, but for myself."

"He Yu, I think I have failed very much."

He Yu: "…"

"Also a mental Ebola patient, Qin Ciyan saved me, but I couldn't save you. I still don't know what went wrong."

"Maybe I shouldn't see you again after you return to China. Maybe I misjudged your condition and shouldn't let you go by yourself. Maybe I didn't do it from the beginning. Correct judgment, I should not agree to your parents' request to stay at your house to take care of you."

He said this, and both were silent for a while. All seem to be reminiscing about those old days.

Xie Qingcheng: "I really want to know where I am wrong. I think you know the answer in your heart."

"But you won't tell me."

"Even if your illness is so serious. You don't want to talk to me again, complain to me again. I made a patient unable to tell the truth to me." He quietly Looking at him quietly, "And my existence, my appearance, will even aggravate your condition."

"He Yu... I used to be a doctor, I used to be your doctor, I think I screwed it all up. I can't be a medicine that can save people like Qin Ciyan, but in the end it became the patient's injury."

When Xie Qingcheng said these words, he was sitting beside He Yu's bed and said it. He didn't look at He Yu, and he seemed to be tired of confronting the boy.

He lowered his eyelashes like ink, his expression was cold and calm, and he calmly said these thoughts that he would never have said to He Yu before.

"I did fail."

“…”

"I'm sorry, He Yu, you met me, not a doctor like Lao Qin."

"I've never been able to be like him."

“…I can’t change anything. I can’t save you either.”

He said, paused, and looked at He Yu's face, but it seemed that through He Yu, he saw the young dragon he first met twelve years ago.

Xie Qingcheng's voice was low and tired, with a sigh that could not be hidden.

"When I met you that year, you were just a child... Thinking about it carefully, it was actually me who prevented you from meeting a good companion. It was me who failed to be a qualified elder ."

"Little devil, I'm sorry for all these years."

In the bedroom, there was a long silence.

It's over...

Since the problem between them cannot be solved, it will continue like this, but every step will be wrong.

It's over.

Xie Qingcheng finished saying everything he wanted to say, got up, closed his reddish eyes, and finally left as He Yu wished.

snap.

The hand was suddenly held.

The teenager held his wrist, his fingers trembled slightly, after a while, a drop of warm water fell on the back of Xie Qingcheng's hand, which was held tightly by the teenager.

Xie Qingcheng was stunned for a moment, then turned around and set his eyes on He Yu.

The boy lowered his head, his scattered forehead hair hanging down in front of his eyes, making it difficult to see his eyebrows and eyes, but Xie Qingcheng knew that He Yu was crying.

Then before he recovered, he was dragged by He Yu to sit down again, and then the boy raised his hand and suddenly wrapped it behind his head. —

He kissed his cool lips.

He hugged him, kissed him, stroked Xie Qingcheng's hair, and then pressed his forehead against him, against the man's forehead.

The man who did everything he could, was cornered and told his heart - he said, I'm sorry, kid, I feel like a failure.

"Xie Qingcheng...you don't have to...you don't have to feel this way about yourself..." He Yu choked and said, he tried his best to suppress the trembling in his voice, trying his best not to let Xie Qingcheng feel him Heart city that has been torn apart.

He pressed his forehead, lowered his eyes, and whispered, "You don't have to fail yourself, Dr. Xie. You did nothing wrong. You never did anything wrong."

"You don't say sorry to me...I'm hiding this from you...I won't tell you anything, not because you're a failed doctor...but..."

"It's..."

Tears fell one by one, and He Yu's voice was broken. He paused for a while, and then seemed to have used up all his strength. He paused and trembled every word, and the sincere words were finally forced to come out—

"It's because I love you!"

“…!”

"Yes. Xie Qingcheng..." He Yu's shoulders trembled, tears were pouring down, "I love you... It's all because I love you... I'm **** in love with you, I I'm **** in love with you, do you understand? Do you understand?!"

Even if you know that you will be rejected, hated, or even ridiculed.

But he finally offered these words together with the boy's blood and his tears, hoping to warm the man's cold lips and palms a little.

He Yu hugged him, and finally burst into tears: "Because I like you, Xie Qingcheng, I like you, I really love you, I want to be with you, I want to Kiss you, hug you, want you, I want to do all the things you can't accept... It's selfish, isn't it? But I can't control it. I can't control it no matter what."

"I can't help thinking about you..."

"Xie Qingcheng, Dr. Xie."

"Don't think I'm sick. Don't think I lie, I really love you. I'm also really trying not to love you, so I see you will be irritable, will Go crazy and get out of control. You don't blame yourself...don't be sad...you never did anything wrong, it was my fault...it was my bad...it was me who was going to bleed and moth..."

The boy said, his voice gradually lost his tune, and his hands clasped the man in his arms stiff from extreme shock.

He cried with red eyes, and said hoarsely: "I know...I know you don't like me...I also feel very humiliated, I also feel very self-esteem, I also feel this is wrong, but I still Love you."

"I wanted to quit it, but I didn't."

"I still can't do it now - laugh at me. Xie Qingcheng, laugh at me."

"Because I'm really crazy, I **** know the ending, and I have to go to the end. So embarrassed, covered with bruises, and want to hug you."

"I...I don't have any good points...but I still dare to like you."

"But I just can't help liking you. Xie Qingcheng."

"I love you hopelessly..."

"I am in the dust, but I still like the snow in the sky... I did it wrong, not you..."

"I'm sorry...I'm not good enough, but I still love you..."

"Love you hurts...Xie Qingcheng...Love you hurts...I can't get it...I know I have to let go...but I still...still love you day by day..."

He Yu hugged him, every word said so genuinely, yet trembled so violently.

He cried and dug out his riddled love, and finally held it in front of him, inferior, proud, cramped, firm - held it to him.

Look at that naked, a young heart.

Seeing the deep sickness, a heart that belongs to He Yu.

He Yu choked:

"Xie Qingcheng, what should I do. Help me...you help me...I can't change anymore...I can't get out anymore...Xie Qingcheng...I'm sorry..."

"I'm really...really...really..." The eloquent man stammered.

A person who is skilled, but clumsy enough to not know what to say.

He cried with red eyes, dug out his heart, cut open his soul,