Xie Qing petitioned for leave and wanted to rest at home for two days.

He was lying on the bed almost all the time, motionless. The monitoring data on his mobile phone was set by him. Once the threshold exceeded the safe limit for a long time, an alarm would be sent to tell him.

But the alarm never sounded - He Yu didn't want to disappoint Xie Qingcheng, so he tried his best to restrain himself and tried his best not to make himself sick.

On the second afternoon, Xie Qingcheng woke up from a vague sleepy sleep and found a person sitting in front of him.

He thought it was Li Miaoqing, so he said to her: "Aunt Li, go with your work, I'm fine..."

"Brother."

A soft call full of sadness and worry brought Xie Qingcheng back to his senses. He looked closely and saw that the person sitting beside his bed was not Li Miaoqing, but Xie Xue.

“…”

He and Xie Xue have not gotten along for a long time. Since Xie Xue and Wei Dongheng's relationship was made public, Xie Qingcheng has no good face to show his sister. Xie Xue was still a little worried when facing him now, but because he was obviously ill, he couldn't help worrying about it.

Several emotions mingle on her face, making her look even funny.

Xie Qingcheng: "...what are you doing here? No class in the afternoon?"

"Aunt Li said that you are not feeling well, so I asked for leave to accompany you." Xie Xue helped Xie Qingcheng sit up and took a duck down pillow for him to lean against.

Xie Qingcheng had changed into clean clothes. The headlights were not turned on in the room, and the light was dim. Xie Xue could not see the hickey on Xie Qingcheng's skin.

She held his hand worriedly and said softly, "Brother, how are you, have you been to the hospital?"

Xie Qingcheng was in a bad mood at first, but after looking at her for a moment, he felt even worse, so he turned his face away without saying a word.

Xie Xue knew the interest, so she stopped asking.

She sat with Xie Qingcheng for a while, and suddenly thought of something and said, "Brother, wait a moment."

The little girl went to the table and fiddled with something. After a while, she went back and opened a can of yellow peaches.

At first glance, the fruit that was so sweet in my heart was handed to Xie Qingcheng, "I was coaxed by you. For a while, I thought that canned yellow peaches were medicine from the hospital. What kind of medicine is so delicious, I can eat it when I'm sick. The medicine is also very happy."

Xie Qingcheng took the spoon and ate two mouthfuls expressionlessly.

Then finally said: "That's because you were not smart since you were young and were easily deceived."

Xie Xue: “…”

"Growing up too."

Xie Xue was a little sad to know that he was talking about Wei Dongheng again.

Xie Qingcheng slowly finished eating the canned yellow peaches, and Xie Xue never said a word during this process.

He put the empty glass jar aside and regained some physical strength. At this time, he noticed that among the things that Xie Xue brought home, there were bird's nest, ginseng, propolis, cordyceps, and iron maple bucket— In short, if you eat all these supplements, you will die or die.

It's too exaggerated, the person who gave the gift seems to have no medical knowledge at all, but just seized an opportunity to please, and almost moved the entire Medicinal Chinese Medicine Hall to show sincerity.

Xie Qingcheng was silent for a moment: "Wei Dongheng brought you here?"

Xie Xue hesitated, but nodded.

Xie Qingcheng: "What about others?"

"He sent me here and left, he was afraid you would see him angry..."

Xie Qingcheng smiled coldly: "Then when little white hair is still afraid?"

Xie Xue had a sad look in her eyes: "Brother, don't do this... I know, you are for my own good. You are worried that I will be deceived, you are afraid that he will bully me, that he will not I know nothing. I know that I was brought up when I was a child, and I was afraid that I would bump into each other. I always hope that I can live safely and smoothly. That's why you are so wary of him. "

Xie Qingcheng: "…"

Xie Xue: "I know."

"But...but sometimes, can you trust me a little?" Xie Xue whispered.

Maybe it was because Xie Qingcheng was ill and had no energy to argue with her, or maybe it was because of He Yu's incident that destroyed him too much. Relationships are sometimes not even understood by the parties, let alone outsiders.

In short, this time, Xie Qing leaned on the pillow with a dull expression, but did not speak.

Seeing this, Xie Xue gathered up her courage and said: "Brother, I told you before that I have been with Wei Dongheng for more than a year. A year is not a long time, but we both know that every day we don’t see each other, we will miss each other. When he was in the northwest, he wrote me a lot of letters. As you know, he was not very fond of writing. people..."

Xie Qing had a cold face.

It seems that he really wants to evaluate Wei Dongheng for being ignorant.

Xie Xue took his hand and said: "Wei Dongheng has never let his parents worry about him since he was a child. I used to hate him because he always bullied me, and I thought he was very mean. Until one Christmas in high school, I came home from school and saw him wandering in the alley - I was very I was afraid, worried that he would pull my braids when he saw me, so I hid. Brother, do you know what I saw?"

“…”

"I saw him come out of the convenience store with a bunch of snacks and drinks in his hand, and there were many homeless people lying on both sides of the alley. He took advantage of them to fall asleep and quietly took those things Put it next to them, then got on the bike and ran away quickly, probably because he didn't think it was cool to do good things, and he was afraid that his little brothers would find out and laugh at him. It was like escaping, but the wheel slipped at the entrance of the alley, and he fell to the side of the road with the person and the car."

Xie Xue fell into memory and couldn't help laughing.

"He staggered up on the ice, looked around nervously, stroked his hair, then pretended nothing happened, got on the car again, and rode away."

“…”

"At that time I thought maybe he was not as bad as others said."

Seeing that Xie Qingcheng was willing to listen to her speech, Xie Xue slowly told him all the things that had been pressing in her heart.

"Brother, you taught me when I was a child that you have to look at people with your own eyes, and don't completely trust other people's evaluations. I have watched Wei Dongheng for more than ten years, and he is not He is an obedient and sensible person, but I can be sure that his heart is kind and responsible. In the past ten years, I have seen him send stray cats and dogs to pet rescue stations, and food and drink to beggars more than once. , did you know... He even stared at a wild flower blooming on the roadside for a long time, and then smirked. He has a heart that can find the weak and beautiful." Xie Xue said, "It's just that he never wanted others to know. "

Xie Qingcheng raised his eyebrows: "Why doesn't he want others to know?"

"Because everyone scolded him, ridiculed him, and compared him with He Yu, he was conflicted in his heart, and he didn't want to be like He Yu. This person has a lot of self-esteem in his bones, which is similar to He Yu." Xie Xue said, "After I interacted with him, I asked him why he always only let others see his bad side, but put his kindness into consideration. He was sullen and hid, he refused to say it for a long time, and then I couldn't help but keep asking, so I shouted angrily, who wants to be like He Yu."

"He said that Wei Dongheng is Wei Dongheng, why is it another He Yu? Is it right for a child to be as good as He Yu in everything, polite and cautious? He just doesn't want it. "

"In fact, I have observed both of them. I know that Wei Dongheng's personality is actually much simpler than He Yu. of."

Xie Qingcheng: "…"

"Brother, I really like Wei Dongheng."

Xie Qingcheng seemed very tired: "How much do you like?"

Xie Xue thought about it and said, "It is irreplaceable."

Xie Qingcheng didn't expect her to say such an answer, his heart trembled and he opened his eyes to look at her.

Similarly, He Yu said to himself - I like you, I want to be with you every minute and every second, you cannot be replaced by anyone or anything.

Xie Xue said: "Brother, I have liked him for ten years. I know that I will never like another person again, just like him."

Xie Qing turned his face away suddenly.

"I have a diary with a lot of past events written on it. I think you will understand him better after reading it, if you wish..."

"That's your privacy, I won't watch it."

“…”

Xie Xue was silent for a while, and then she didn't dare to speak, she hesitated, and finally she said: "Forget it, brother, if you really don't want to talk about this, I won't Say, I'll tell you stories, tell jokes, and make you happy, okay?"

Are you still mad at me?"

Xie Qing was quiet for a while, and finally said: "I'm not angry with you, I just blame you for being too impulsive."

"What?"

Xie Qing said: "You are a girl, if you want to contact him, you should also learn to protect yourself, but you..."

He didn't go on, but Xie Xue froze for a moment and understood, and her face flushed immediately.

Xie Xue knew that the old-fashioned premarital **** behavior between herself and her eldest brother was useless. Li Rouqiu had complained to her before, saying that when Xie Qingcheng was in love with her, she didn’t even take the initiative to kiss, let’s talk about it It's good to be cautious in love, but it's too uninspiring, it's completely like completing some kind of work according to the operation manual.

Xie Xue could only say: "Speaking of this... brother... Actually, there is one more thing that I have always wanted to tell you."

"What?"

Xie Xue hesitated again.

"..." Xie Qing said, "Don't tell me, the two of you have already discussed getting married."

Xie Xue was stunned for a moment, stunned: "How do you know?"

Xie Qingcheng froze for a long time, but his back was expressionless and his voice did not waver: "...go and bring me the cigarettes on the table."

Although Xie Xue didn't want Xie Qingcheng to smoke, but under this pressure, how could she dare to say nothing to Xie Qingcheng? Obediently, he brought the cigarette to Xie Qingcheng.

Xie Qingcheng didn't even bother to care whether Xie Xue was around, lit a cigarette, smoked half a cigarette, and didn't speak.

Pass.

Finally, Xie Qingcheng asked: "When did you have any thoughts."

"He...before he went to the northwest half a year ago..." Xie Xue stammered, "As you know, his eldest brother is from a military family, but his character is really not suitable for the army, his parents are planning to In the future, I will gradually help him to do business, but before that, they said they would let him go to the northwest to exercise, he agreed and he agreed, just made a request..."

"What is the request." Xie Qingcheng's knuckles curled up and tapped the ash lightly.

Xie Xue's cheeks were already flushed: "He told his parents that he wanted to wait until he came back from training and graduated, so... he would marry me."

After she finished speaking, she buried her face even lower, as if afraid that Xie Qingcheng would directly smash the mug next to her on her head and let her get out.

I didn't expect that she waited for a long time, and there was no movement.

It took a long time before she heard a soft "click", which sounded a little broken in the silent bedroom.

She smelled a faint smell of tobacco, Xie Qing had run out of one cigarette, and smoked another.

"Brother..." Thank you for summoning up your courage, panic, and dazedly raised your face, to meet Xie Qingcheng, who was trapped in a thick green haze, unable to see his face clearly.

the center of the ceiling.

He didn't speak, Xie Xue didn't dare to say a word, clutching her skirt and waiting tensely.

This cigarette is also finished.

Xie Qingcheng dusted off the ash and discarded the last cigarette **** in the ashtray next to him. He opened his mouth, probably because he had smoked too much, and his voice was a little hoarse.

"What do you think."

Xie Xue was stunned again.

She was ready to be scolded by Xie Qingcheng, but she never thought that Xie Qingcheng would ask her like this.

The eldest brother of the Xie family has always been a dictator. He gave Xie Xue strong protection, but he never cared too much about her thoughts. So when he really asked Xie Xue "what do you think", Xie Xue's first reaction was that she couldn't react.

"Since you have been frank with me today, let's talk about it all." After being extremely heartbroken, Xie Qing appeared to be calm, and he raised his peach blossom eyes to see His sister, "Do you want to marry him too?"

"I..."

Xie Xue blushed as if she could drip blood, but there was an inexplicable light in her eyes. That kind of light is very familiar, Xie Qingcheng seems to have seen it somewhere, but he can't remember it for a while.

"Brother...I really like him...I..."

"You know marriage is not a child's play. It's not the same as you simply fall in love. It is a responsibility to another person, a responsibility and a contract. Do you think you are suitable for him? "

“…”

"I know you think he's kind and loyal. But he's younger than you, he's impetuous, and he's notoriously self-willed. You'll be very tired with him. Thank you. Snow."

"He, he has changed a lot in these places... You don't know him..."

"Then how much do you know about him?" Xie Qingcheng coughed lightly, "You don't have to tell me that you have observed him for ten years - that is just a person's past, not to mention what you have seen. It's just part of it."

“…”

"Do you know what his family's plan for his life is? Do you know what his plan is for his future? You just said that he wants to marry you after graduation, Then go to business. It's a business field, Xie Xue, it's not a school. How old are you?"

"Twenty-five."

"What about him?"

"...twenty-three."

"He is only twenty-three years old, and ten years later, your brother and I will be the age of today. How much confidence do you have in ten years to guarantee that he will always like you? It's a young and good-looking girl, and if you achieve his position, you will still mix with people in the entertainment industry. You are a teacher in an art school, and you know how much the entertainment industry is like. There are so many temptations and conspiracies. "

"But he won't, he grew up—"

"He is only twenty-three this year, Xie Xue. When I was twenty-three, I never imagined that I would become like this today." Xie Qingcheng said here, paused, and thought of congratulations Yu - When he was twenty-three years old, He Yu was only a ten-year-old child. Who would have imagined that such crazy things would happen between them later?

"Xie Xue, Wei Dongheng's life has just begun, and many things are uncertain."

Xie Qingcheng lit another cigarette, smoking, and coughing slightly.

This one was not finished, so he put out the cigarette.

"Just take a step back and say, even if he really won't take the initiative. With his life and status, he can't be without hugs and socializing. Can you bear it?"

"He told me he wouldn't."

Xie Xue was very firm, and there was a certain light in his eyes, Xie Qingcheng felt that the light was very familiar, as if he had seen it somewhere, but he couldn't remember it.

, what do you like about him?"

"I don't know, I like this kind of thing...it's hard to explain...I just see him and I'm very happy, and he is the same, there's a lot to say when we're together, we're apart I miss it so much.”

"The time I spent with him has always been very happy and at ease, I don't think he will hurt me, and that sense of security is the same as when I was with you and my brother. "

"Brother... can you understand?"

Xie Qing was silent.

If Xie Xue told him these things a year ago, he might not understand her feelings.

But at this moment, when he listened to the things she described, there was a string in his heart that was gently touched - there was another person playing on this string, but That person, Xie Qingcheng can never give a response.

Xie Qingcheng was quiet for a while, and said, "Don't you regret it?"

"I'm not going to die."

"I don't regret asking you."

"If it really breaks my head, I don't regret it." Xie Xue said at the end, her voice trembled slightly.

Xie Qingcheng is no longer answering.

He suddenly remembered the light in Xie Xue's eyes, where did he see it.

It was when He Yu opened his heart to him and finally expressed his love.

—"It's me who wants to break the blood and chase the light... I don't think this is right, but I still love you."

"Because I'm really crazy, I **** know the ending, and I have to go to the end. So embarrassed, covered with bruises, and want to hug you."

"I'm in the dust, but I still like the snow in the sky. It's my fault, not you..."

"Love you hurts, Xie Qingcheng, love you hurts, I can't get it...I know I have to let go, but I still...still love you day by day..."

Xie Qingcheng felt that somewhere in his chest cavity seemed to collapse.

He closed his eyes slowly.

At this moment, he seemed to be many, many years older.

"Xie Xue."

"Brother."

"What if I insist."

"...I..." This time, it's not that her voice is trembling, Xie Xue is trembling slightly, and there is visible pain and torture on her body, "If you...you insist on not …”

"I insist on not, what are you going to do?"

Xie Xue knelt down in front of his bed, almost collapsed, her eyes quickly filled with tears, after a long time, she choked: "...I...will listen to you. Because I love you. I love you the most. You raised me, no one knows how much you have suffered, and even I think there are many things that even I don't know. If you really don't like him, you really If you insist on not wanting me to be with him, I will listen to you."

"But man, I'll never be happy."

“…”

Xie Qingcheng opened his eyes, and after a while, he did not reply.

He finally lowered his head, and seemed to endure a certain emotion that flashed in his eyes that should not belong to him, an emotion he rarely had.

Then he got up - he was lying down with his clothes on, and it was easy to get out of bed.

At this moment, he doesn't want to be in the house anymore. He felt very uncomfortable, and this cramped space only made him more unable to breathe.

"Brother—"

When Xie Qingcheng passed by Xie Xue's side, he didn't lower his head and didn't look back, he just put his hand on the top of her hair with great strength, and he was the same as every time she met before Difficulty crying back to find him the same.

Xie Xue raised her head, but could not see Xie Qingcheng's unturned face.

She only saw a tall silhouette of him, and then heard him say: "Then you go. ... You remember, the road is your choice, I hope you don't regret it."

"Brother..." Xie Xue trembled even more.

"But if you really regret it later, you feel that you have made a wrong choice. Don't feel ashamed, it is the first time for people to come to this world, when they make many choices, they are No experience, it is the first choice. No one can predict whether it is right or wrong. If it is really wrong, you just need to remember that as long as I am alive, you will still have a home anytime, anywhere."

"I will take care of you and be your backer until the day I die."

Xie Xue burst into tears. She never expected that she had always been afraid to tell Xie Qingcheng about this. In her eyes, her eldest brother was strong and powerful, but he was dictatorial and domineering.

She never thought that he would give herself such an answer when she really-did her heart and heart to tell him her decision sincerely and sincerely.

Second, it was this broad and straight back, who was tired from playing, injured, and tired when she went home...

Obviously it was such a happy thing, Xie Xue actually burst into tears and refused to let him go: "Brother! Brother..."

"Why are you crying?" Xie Qingcheng still didn't look back, no one knew what he looked like at the moment, his voice was still calm, "You have to grow up by yourself in the future, Xie Xue, Although I will always help you, but..."

He did not go on.

He stopped at this point.

Finally, he patted Xie Xue's hand: "Let go, you are so old, shameless."

"Shameless."

"Release."

"I'm shameless."

“…”

"Brother, hug me, I love you so much."

“…you didn’t **** wake up?”

"I'm shameless."

“…”

The cold light in the house seemed to become gentle at this moment, Xie Xue faintly came out of the window with a choked and smiling voice—

"Brother, I'm going to Wei Dongheng's house for dinner next week... What do you think I'm going to wear..."

"The skirt can't be knee-high."

"...ah...why is this..."

The words gradually became flat and warm.

Outside the house.

He Yu, who can't be relieved that Xie Qingcheng, is actually always there.

He leaned against the cold wall, after listening to the conversation in the room behind him, he straightened up, and before the siblings came out, he brushed off the dust on the wall. Walk away slowly.