Today is the last day before the crew is dismissed.

Xie Qingcheng packed his things in the room.

Halfway through packing, a greeting card suddenly fell out of the clutter.

He picked it up and looked at it. There was a blessing written on the card, and he remembered that it was the first day he joined the group, the little promotional girl gave him.

The little girl is about the same age as Xie Xue, and she is very innocent and kind. Xie Qingcheng came to the crew with the black history of the radio and television tower, and she did not treat him differently.

But now her whereabouts are unknown, and her life and death are unknown.

There is another missing girl. Although she has little contact with Xie Qingcheng, she can feel her sincerity when dealing with people.

Xie Qingcheng sat down with the card and looked at the snow outside the window—

Jiang Lanpei, Lu Yuzhu, these two innocently implicated girls... Although it is not sure whether the mastermind behind the scenes is the same criminal gang, but this year, he has experienced too much life and death .

Xie Qingcheng is a very cold-hearted person. In order to overcome mental illness, he almost cut off all his emotional ups and downs. He cherishes life, but he has lost the right to mourn for the loss of life, and even loss is too heavy for him.

But now, perhaps because of the secret that only he has kept alone for a long time, he has finally been resorted to another person at the juncture of life and death. Although Xie Qingcheng does not want to admit it, but his current The mood seems to be slightly different from before.

He seemed to have thick ink in his heart, and when someone knew the truth, it was like pouring another glass of water into that pool of ink.

The darkness is still there.

The density seems to be diluted a bit.

He finally regained his breathing ability.

Xie Qingcheng closed his eyes and asked himself these days, he really felt his emotional loosening, which made him vaguely regret it.

Yes, what He Yu said was cruel, but everything was true - after he shared this secret with He Yu, he and that kid, they really couldn't go back to the logical conclusion. In the previous relationship, they were afraid that they would be completely entangled.

Xie Qingcheng sighed and found it difficult to calm down. At this time, things were almost packed, and the clock pointed to more than ten o'clock in the evening, but unfortunately he couldn't sleep.

So he opened a bottle of red wine for himself. It was something that other people gave when he joined the group.

Although Xie Qingcheng is not bad at drinking, he is intolerant to alcohol and loses his strength quickly after drinking a little. Although his mind is still sober, his physical laziness is unavoidable.

The more wine he drank, the warmer his body became. He lowered his slightly red eyes, raised his hand and rubbed his forehead. The sound of the door opening.

Because he has to cooperate with the police investigation too much in the past two days, he has returned to the crew hotel again.

And the person who has this authority to ask the front desk to open the door with the key card, he is soaked in alcohol and knows who it is.

Xie Qingcheng was impatient after being entangled too much, resentment after telling the truth, and irritability after he couldn't think of a solution for days. He glanced at the person entering the room with such an emotion, but he probably drank too much red wine, and his eyes were not so sharp, so whether he was impatient or resentful, He Yu didn't even look at it. clear.

He Yu came to ask him when he planned to leave tomorrow, but as soon as he entered the room, he saw a slightly drunk Xie Qingcheng.

Xie Qing was quiet and straightened up, her reddish eyes still clear.

The waist and legs are also very straight.

He looked at him from the hallway.

Then say-

"Please go out."

He Yu was stunned for a moment, and understood why Xie Qingcheng was drinking alone in the room.

He looked at him with a complicated expression, then closed the door behind his back.

"Xie Qingcheng, you..."

"I'm asking you out."

“…Brother Xie, I don’t think you need to be so polite to me.”

But at that time, he hadn't fully recovered, and he didn't know how much he regretted telling He Yu the truth.

After so many days of precipitation, he finally knew exactly what his attitude was. His regret was deeper than that.

—He clarified his heart, he made sure that he wanted He Yu to understand, whether he was the "first emperor" of a mental Ebola patient, whether he told He Yu his own Secret, all that happens on the verge of death.

The Xie Qingcheng who survived must be the Xie Qingcheng who had a clear boundary with He Yu.

He will not change his attitude towards He Yu.

He also had to let He Yu understand this.

"You drink so much, why are you unhappy tonight?" Unfortunately, the young man ignored his point and didn't care about his condescending expulsion order.

He Yu approached him, still carrying the cold air from the cold night, with a plastic bag in his hand: "Sit down and talk. I brought you hot cocoa tea."

"..." is really a child.

Who wants hot cocoa tea?

Drinking and getting tired in the throat.

Xie Qingcheng walked over with a cold face, put his hands against the wall behind He Yu, and under his messy hair were wet eyes: "Go out."

He Yu suddenly reached out and hugged him.

Because the air conditioner in the house was fully turned on, Xie Qingcheng only wore a thin shirt, home style, or silk satin, through which he could clearly feel the youthful breath.

Xie Qingcheng woke up most of the time, afraid of waking up the people in the room left and right, he lowered his voice, his breath was hot because of the alcohol, and his tone was cold: "Are you finished yet?"

But this time, He Yu didn't do anything to him. To Xie Qingcheng's surprise, He Yu just pushed him to the wall of the entrance, hugged him, bowed his head deeply Buried in his neck breathing.

It is not the same as the rush of desire.

Even in the ward, the fiery demands after returning from the critical moment of life and death are different.

The last person in the world who can empathize with him.

"Tomorrow the crew will be disbanding."

“…”

"Don't worry, I've thought about it. No matter what, I won't tell the second person what you tell me."

Although He Yu is young, when he really wants to talk to you seriously, he is actually very reliable. Very stable.

While talking, the boy embraced the man in his arms.

He felt that Xie Qingcheng's body was very strange. He clearly had the blood of a man, his muscles were thin and uniform, and his physique could not be said to be bad.

But when I touch it through the clothes, I feel that the clothes are too thick and too thin, as thin as smoke, like a soul, unable to hold, people can't help but want to go in and touch the entity, otherwise the heart All panic.

Slim as if it will disappear anytime, anywhere.

He hugged Xie Qingcheng like this, and shook it a few times in the same place, he actually had a gentle illusion, afraid of losing something—

He Yu closed his eyes, he had thought a lot before he came. But at this moment, he was thinking about all kinds of things in the past, thinking about the scar on Xie Qingcheng's hand, the secret in his heart, thinking about everything that happened with Xie Qingcheng before, and thinking about the last, he remembered that when the day was over, They are about to leave here and return to Shanghai.

Then Xie Qingcheng would never be willing to see him again.

His heart suddenly felt a strange tugging, as if he had been strangled by something, very uncomfortable.

"I will keep the secret for you. But let's talk about it first. After you go back, don't be alone with Chen Man." He finally whispered in Xie Qingcheng's ear, unexpectedly very Good, like a pleading.

Xie Qingcheng pushed him: "Don't go crazy."

"Yeah." He Yu smiled, he was really crazy, because he just said something similar to begging, and now his eyes darkened again, he held Xie Qingcheng's Wrist, stroke down, revealing a light blue tattoo.

Here again.

Xie Qingcheng felt that he might need a molar stick, otherwise he would always like to catch himself.

He Yu really bit Xie Qingcheng's tattoo, but this time it was not heavy and there was no bleeding.

He said: "Then you can be alone with him, don't let me meet. You are my kind, don't get too close to others."

"After thinking about it for the past few days, you came up with this way of getting along?"

He Yu: "This is my bottom line."

Xie Qingcheng jerked his hand away, took out a disinfectant wipe, wiped his wrist in front of He Yu, and then threw the wipe directly on He Yu face.

"Roll."

He Yu hugged him even harder.

He buried his face in Xie Qingcheng's neck and rubbed the tip of his nose lightly.

The man who has been drunk with red wine is very hot, and the temperature is not usually there. He Yu knows that if he and Xie Qing are entangled at this time, it must be unprecedented.

But he didn't do it.

In the blank time of the past few days, he really carefully thought through his thoughts, and he also came up with new ideas.

His feelings were not even the same as those in the ward at that time.

He had just saved his life at the time, and the joy of surviving made him impatient to obtain warmth and softness from Xie Qingcheng.

The eagerness at that time was born of an impulse, more like an inertia of previous behavior.

It's different now.

Although his mouth is still as fierce as before, when he thinks about how Xie Qingcheng has gone through all these years alone, when he thinks of the tattoo on Xie Qingcheng's wrist, he was also once and Like the scars that he had cut in the helplessness of hardship, he felt that his gloomy heart seemed to have some kind of sour and soft emotions.

That emotion became the knot that was barely binding him.

He really doesn't like Xie Qingcheng, but Xie Qingcheng is the only one for him.

He felt uncomfortable that Xie Qingcheng never chose him.

However, looking at him as a mental patient, he can somewhat understand his past suffering.

—He Yu thinks that there is not much pity in his new feelings for Xie Qingcheng.

But at least he doesn't want to hurt this person endlessly.

He didn't do anything out of the ordinary because of this, he just hugged Xie Qingcheng for a long time - although Xie Qingcheng still didn't want to hug him back.

So this time, it was the first peaceful farewell after their relationship.

, Quan when you tell me the truth. I won't torture you anymore, I won't force you to do those things again, don't be afraid."

Xie Qingcheng had a taste of wine on his body, but his eyes were as clear as thin ice.

Xie Qing said indifferently: "You are too proud of yourself, I have never been afraid of you, I just feel that those experiences are disgusting."

“…”

And said: "Since you don't plan to do it again, what are you doing in my room."

He Yu thought about it, and it seems that he really can't remember why he came here.

He said, "Nothing. I'm leaving."

"Hmm."

"Xie Qingcheng."

"Huh?"

“…before you go, can you give me a hug too?”

. My thinking hasn't changed."

“…”

"You go."

If it was the former He Yu, it would be impossible to leave like this.

But this time he stared at Xie Qingcheng for a while, and finally said nothing, as if he had already said everything he should have said.

He originally had a lot of hostility, which could be turned into his driving force, allowing him to brazenly entangle in front of Xie Qingcheng.

But after thinking about it for the past few days, it seems that most of the hostility has been taken out of my mind.

He knew that Xie Qingcheng had abandoned him and left him, and he knew that Xie Qingcheng had never made a choice - but knowing some of the truth, it was difficult for him to feel that it was Xie Qingcheng failed him.

To betray is the behavior of a normal person, Xie Qingcheng has long abandoned his identity as a normal person in the whirlpool of the whole incident.

Xie Qingcheng didn't even want him.

Why stop for yourself?

He Yu is still uncomfortable, but it is not incomprehensible.

So after Xie Qingcheng asked him to leave again, he really left.

On the table is the hot cocoa tea brought by He Yu, Xie Qing lay on the bed as if he was out of strength, raised his hand, and covered his forehead and eyebrows with his arms.

He Yu still had the temperature on her body, it was warm, but not what he wanted. He has lived in **** for too long, he has never been able to get out of the death of his parents, and he cannot let go of Lao Qin's death. He has lived among the dead for too long, and he is no longer used to the feeling of being close to the living.

It's better to be alone...

Xie Qingcheng slept alone in exhaustion and confusion until dawn.

After Xie Qingcheng returned to Shanghai, it was naturally a lot of trouble.

Zheng Jingfeng, Chen Wan, Aunt Li, Xie Xue... They would come to ask him about the whole thing out of concern. Although Xie Qingcheng was not very patient, he still explained everything clearly .

Of course, what they knew was just the tip of the iceberg. He and He Yu were the only ones who knew what happened in the studio at that time.

He Yu did not ask Xie Qingcheng to do that kind of thing with him again.

Although the desire of the young man is very prosperous, the melting flow in his eyes cannot be hidden, but He Yu has always had more protection and sympathy for the mentally ill than ordinary people. He regarded them as his own kind, and naturally he would not bully more.

Xie Qingcheng originally thought that He Yu was just saying something casually, but later found that He Yu was true to his word. He was indeed a gentleman who kept his promises in this regard.

In a blink of an eye, New Year's Eve is here.

Xie Qingcheng received a message from He Yu—

"My parents have an emergency and are going back to Yanzhou again, but this time they let me go with me."

"But I didn't want to go, I declined."

“…”

After a long pause, He Yu seemed to be waiting for Xie Qingcheng's reply.

But Xie Qingcheng didn't reply, so he sent one last message.

"I don't want to be alone. Can I come to your house for the holidays?"