Chapter 1355 The Wandering Person

The night is flashy, the lights are as numerous as the sea,

There are neon high-rise buildings and brilliant avenues, the development of the fourth largest city in the United States is vast in the dark,

Compared with Calgary, which is basically dependent on the oil industry, it has developed towards diversification in the 1980s, with a high degree of medical care, aerospace, transportation, education, international trade and finance.

Houston nights are louder and busier.

And on the roof of a building not far from the city center, where you can just overlook this bustling scene,

There is nothing, only in the darkness of the bleak night wind,

A man stood here with his eyes blank. He glanced at the bustling scene in the city center in the distance. No one knew what he was thinking at this moment.

Then,

Jumped off the roof.

The height of six or seven floors was deadly enough. When his feet left the roof, the night wind howled suddenly, and the ground slammed into him at a very high speed!

It was pitch black at night, no one noticed this scene,

But at the moment when the man fell to the ground!

A red laced ring appeared out of nowhere, a jet of darkness suddenly rushed out of it, and then everything under the man's fall floated up!

In the blurred vision of falling, I only feel a blur in front of my eyes,

In the next second, the man realized that he was still standing on the top of the building, and the night wind was blowing coldly. The experience of jumping from the top of the building just a few seconds ago,

It was so unreal that people suspected that it was a hallucination that appeared in a trance.

And he thought so too, but the man just looked around blankly, then silently looked towards the bottom of the building, and fell forward again with his body weak,

boom-

The figure fell to the ground, this time the 'illusion' did not happen again,

But before he fell forward, an invisible force pulled his body back, and at the same time made him unconscious and fell asleep.

At this moment, Fangran walked out from the dark corner of the roof, looked at the man on the ground in front of him and sighed helplessly.

Suicide by jumping off a building is not an easy way to get rid of it. The feeling that the body loses its support and falls freely will make the fear infinitely magnified instantly.

The acceleration of gravity will be like a person firmly grasping your neck, making it difficult for you to breathe, your body muscles will be stiff naturally, and at the same time, your eyes and ears will be congested and your senses will be blurred.

As long as the fear in the mind is very clear, emotions such as regret, collapse, and nostalgia will easily appear,

But from the moment you jump off, you can't turn back,

In the end, he could only meet his own death result in boundless fear and regret.

After surviving such an experience, Fangran thought that he would doubt whether he had hallucinations, and collapsed to the ground with lingering fear in his heart, realizing the fear of death and living well,

But he never expected that he would make the same choice without recovering from God at all.

In the Rolls-Royce car, sensing the warnings from Haiji and Mullin patrolling the surroundings, he directly used the [Wheel Card], and before he had time to fine-tune the [Floating Card], he directly floated up an area,

Fangran finally saved the man in the nick of three or four seconds,

But now it seems that it is not so simple to really 'save' him.

A person who really wants to die, even if he is saved once, he will find another chance to commit suicide,

Knowing this very well, Fangran looked at the fallen man in front of him, and after some consideration, he decided to contact his family first.

Wanting to find contact information from him, he squatted down, but at the moment when he turned the opponent's body up,

Fangran froze for a moment.

About forty years old, full of traces of vicissitudes of life polished, thin face with stubble, near the deep-set eye sockets, there is an unconcealable tiredness in the wrinkles,

At this moment, Fangran saw a somewhat familiar face.

Grasping this sense of familiarity and trying to recall, it took a while,

In Fangran's memories of energy agreements, scenes, dance parties, underground space, dark world and other major events in the past few days,

Find memories about him from passers-by who have some impressions along the way.

This is the uncle 'George' who kindly took him and Celica to the city on the night he left the black market,

Recalling that time, it seemed that the driving route was the same as tonight. It is unbelievable that this amazing coincidence,

Fangran looked at George who couldn't find anything on his body to contact his family in a coma.

After thinking for a while, he finally exhaled,

Recalling Mullin fell on his shoulders.

It symbolizes 'memory', and it stems from the fact that the night device can spy on the inner power of others, but it is not easy to experience the ups and downs of other people's lives from a near-first-person perspective.

All along, Fangran avoided using this ability as much as possible.

Contact the police, ask Il to investigate, or directly hand it over to Adeline. There is no other way to deal with this situation.

Just thinking about his death will to fall outside the building again just now, thinking that this is a kind of procrastination,

Could it be that after I left tonight, I couldn’t redeem the tragedy of him jumping to his death? Could it be just a kind of hypocrisy out of good intentions, who obviously can do their best but is not responsible to the end?

Thinking of the gentle smile he gave him a ride that night, he felt that maybe this was the cause and effect of accepting help,

mana consumption, ability activation,

Although it is not in the state of night weapon release, it can only be roughly felt like a bystander, but it is enough to find the reason why he committed suicide by jumping off the building.

When Mu Lin turned into a ray of black light and melted into his black eyes, memories belonging to 'George' flooded towards Fangran!

Then the result was somewhat beyond Fangran's expectations.

He didn't 'see' any human tragedies such as the separation of wives and children, the destruction of families, and the major emergencies of desperate gambling debts and repayments.

In George's peaceful life, only

A wave of hesitation.

He is 42 years old and is a driver of a recycling station. His daily job is to sit in the car and drive the recycled things in the urban area to the waste factory in the suburbs.

There is no holiday, so back and forth.

His job doesn't need to communicate with people, and he has no friends in this city,

Every morning after waking up and going out, I just sit in the car, sitting in the old seat with only gas pedal, brake, steering wheel and so on,

Start a monotonous job that can take up to ten hours a day.

He would spend eight dollars at noon to buy four hamburgers from a passing fast food restaurant, eat them in the car, then rest in the car, and then continue to work in the afternoon,

The long-term sedentary work made his shoulders and waist always hurt, and he basically endured it all the time.

until after get off work.

His young colleagues who can't work for a long time don't get along with him very much, and he doesn't have the capital to follow them to cheap bars where men and women hang out,

He doesn't smoke or drink,

Without any social entertainment, he went straight home after get off work,

Leaving the old car that had been sitting for a day, he returned to the small house that he lived in every day, which was full of various daily sundries.

His teenage son is in the midst of a rebellion, a schoolboy who doesn't care about his studies and looks down on his job,

His wife is a fat woman with an out-of-shape figure. She works as a waiter washing dishes in a restaurant. She married him only after being dumped by her ex-boyfriend. She always has all kinds of dissatisfaction and complaints against him.

'Can't you try harder! We can only afford the rent this month, and the tuition fees after Wood, when can I move out from here? '

His family has been struggling at the bottom of society below the poverty line since he was a child. He has not received a good education and does not know how to change his life or his own next generation.

Although one is middle-aged, the illusion of a better life is sadly retained,

Thinking about the bustling city center that I once yearned for when I was young, thinking about my current quagmire-like life, my son’s contempt, my wife’s complaints,

Inferiority, negativity, self-doubt. All kinds of inferiority are worrying the heart of over forty years old.

It takes him a long time every night to relax and fall asleep

Then wake up and start the same day again.

Going out, getting in the car, sitting in the driver's seat, no one speaks, no one communicates, alone looking at the same scenery and the same route,

Buy four burgers at noon, eat them in the car, rest in the car,

Then I started working in the afternoon, endured the soreness in my shoulders until I got off work, and went home without a place to go.

'Wood got into a fight with his classmates, I have to go to school tomorrow, and another day's wages will be deducted, really! If your salary can go up, I don't have to worry about the little money I won't make if I ask for leave tomorrow! '

After listening to his wife's usual complaints, I went to bed exhausted.

Then wake up and start the same day.

Going out, getting in the car, the same location, the same person,

Buy a hamburger at noon, eat it, rest,

Shoulder pain, hold back, get off work, go home.

'My friend's husband made another three hundred dollars this month, you can make some extra money any day, I don't understand why I married you then! '

complain, sleep,

And then another day.

Get out, get in the car.

It is not a situation of one day or two days, nor is it a situation of one month or two months.

But day after day, year after year of life,

No social interaction, no friends, no one cares about yourself, no one cares about your own life, no direction to live,

There is no joy or hope in life, the pain is too painful to see any light,

In a cage-like place, repeating the low-level work that barely survives, even if it hurts, you can only grit your teeth and persevere, because if you don’t do this, you won’t be able to live.

Every day, I gritted my teeth and survived, and then thought that I would live this kind of life again tomorrow,

A feeling of suffocation.

From George's memory, Fangran only 'saw' such repressed things, without such drastic changes as family ruin or desperation,

From his life that was repeated day by day, as stable as a pool of stagnant water,

Sold out hamburgers, wife's complaints, aching shoulder, broken radio.

Fangran only saw such a small amount of despair piled up together.

enough! enough! I can't stand it anymore! I really can't stand it anymore! I don't want to live this life anymore!

I've had enough of the pain and torment before bed every night!

Am I going to live in this torment until I get old and die?

Let it be over! Let me go!

Seeing his hands tucked into his hair and screaming in pain, Fangran suddenly thought of the night in the black market. He looked at why George felt familiar with his smile,

He's seen it in Kerim's face.

It's just that compared with young super geniuses, George is a middle-aged uncle in his forties struggling at the bottom of society.

He wandered in this world, living in a boundless state.

The collapse of adults is often in an instant,

At this moment, I suddenly remembered this sentence, and suddenly understood the reason for his suicide.

Fangran couldn't help sighing after the silence, looking for the 'moment' that exploded all his accumulated despair and made him want to jump off the roof,

Then Fangran found it in George's memory.

It was a night a few days ago,

On his way to work, he picked up an unforgettable beauty and a very energetic foreign boy.

Listening to the young man thanking himself loudly in unfamiliar English, color finally appeared in the repetitive, depressive and hopeless life,

The sense of accomplishment of helping others made him feel a little excited,

But on that night, because of an emergency, the police blocked a block,

He failed to go home smoothly.

After the mood rises, I will experience a small drop of despair, and because of this incident, other small despairs will be triggered like a butterfly effect in the next few days,

The last straw finally broke George's already dilapidated psychological defense.

And at this moment, after confirming the 'fuse' that detonated all his despair and making him want to jump off the roof, and knowing the reason for the block blockade,

At the moment of seeing that dark Bugatti,

Fangran's frozen black eyes suddenly widened~lightnovelpub.net~ It was like an extremely turbulent wave erupting in his heart without warning,

Returning from the dark world, solving the crisis in the energy field, seeing the extraordinary scene of the night war world and being active in it, the light and satisfied mood,

Be overwhelmed by a moment at this moment.

After all, I still couldn’t update before zero o’clock. Alas, I’m sorry for being stuck for three days. The good part is over again. The next few chapters are the chapters with the name and theme. It’s as difficult to write as Helen’s ones. I am afraid that the writing will not be good, the finishing touch is not in place, and the entire perception of the paragraph will collapse, and I will not be able to sublimate and deepen the theme. I have been tortured for several days and finally wrote it. I really had a hard time writing the part of the middle-aged crisis in this chapter, and I also portrayed it very well. Not good, because I don’t understand, I can only rely on imagination, the feeling of struggling at the bottom, the feeling of hopelessness in life, I feel that I didn’t write it out, I originally had reference materials, it was a Japanese manga, I read it on Damo’s House , but I can’t find it, [it’s about a middle-aged man who is about to collapse due to the accumulation of all kinds of small desperations in his life. You can keep it for $, that page is money in trembling hands] I searched for more than two hours yesterday and couldn’t find it. My mind exploded when I found it. If anyone has seen it, please tell me. I really want to read it again. From then on A sense of hesitation in a middle-aged crisis, looking for inspiration in despair and oppression, and repairing this piece

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