The end of the month summary of the failed author

  First of all sorry, I originally planned to finish writing the story of the casino yesterday and today.

  But I can’t write it out depending on the status

  In addition to the factors of the volume itself, my condition this month is really terrible.

  So that I even give up a little bit

  For the book friends who are chasing updates, it is really you who are at ease chasing,

  You can spend more than three yuan a month to count my loss

   sounds like a stalk (wry smile and sigh)

   is very annoying, can’t write it out, it annoys me,

  There are fewer and fewer updates in a month, and the mentality is collapsed

  Why can’t I write it out?

  I didn’t think about the plot later, I didn’t expect the kind of plot that was so exciting that I couldn’t wait to write it out. There was no goal and no expectation.

  The result is that I resist the codeword every day, procrastinate in the morning, and finally have to write until midnight. I feel very tired. The next day, because I stayed up the night before, I procrastinated in the morning, and the cycle is endless.

  A general summary, it’s Calvin.

  Why Calvin

  After writing the latest chapter, I kept asking myself why I didn’t want to write it

  Thinking about it, it’s still the emptiness in life that is often talked about

   Zhengtian stayed at home, and didn’t meet and communicate with anyone except parents

  There is nothing to do to make myself happy, of course, there is no girlfriend,

  There are only code words in my life

  Boring, boring, empty and lonely to die

  Thinking boring is really a devastating blow to my salty fish

  Take interest as motivation, when you are not interested enough, there will always be various problems

  When I wrote it for the cost of the manuscript, it is estimated that I will not be far from the collapse of the writing.

   Up to the present update of this volume, I can clearly feel some chapters that I don’t want to break out.

   gives me a very unreliable and uneasy feeling

  I always want to change it, but once I open it, I don’t know what to change

  No, it’s not just this volume, I feel that way at the end of the previous volume

  Not satisfied enough, not confident enough, not exciting enough

  The story of the casino is a bit bloated, and I feel that I subconsciously have too many words in order to complete the update.

  And in order to reflect that kind of breathless atmosphere, I deliberately did not write about the relaxed interaction with Adeline

  The mental process seems to be written too much

  Alas, whenever this happens, I’m thinking if my writing can be better

  If only you can express those thoughts in shorter words

  [May 1st, I may have a pigeon in the past few days~lightnovelpub.net~ In order to let you notice at a glance, mark it in parentheses]

  I’m on the train now, going out to relax

  This is the second trip in my life, I hope not to fail like the year before

  And I really don’t want to stay at home anymore

  I want to change, change my situation, rekindle my enthusiasm

   but don’t know what to do

  I want to leave home, but I don’t know where to go, I have a city I want to go, but I don’t want to go alone,

  It’s really worse if you don’t have a friend and rent a house alone in a strange city.

  It feels like after graduating from college,

  Life has stagnated

  I don’t know what to do at all, I feel like I’m wasting my youth with the flow

what.

  Finally, I’m really sorry, everyone who supports genuine book friends,

  I’m really sorry to catch up with such a failing pigeon like me

   (apologize)

  (End of this chapter)