— "Bai Ye, what do you think of being an undercover agent?"

—“Only those with outstanding abilities will be sent undercover, especially those who come from intelligence agencies of various countries and have received professional training... If they don’t cause me too much loss, I really don’t mind being colleagues with them.”

"Boom!"

The conversation with Spiatus during the trip to the hot springs is still in my ears, and Jing Baiye punched the iron railing at the head of the bed.

His palm was red and swollen visible to the naked eye, but he didn't stop, and then he punched it heavily.

"Boom!"

【Host! 】

【Host! calm! ! 】

【Jing Bai Ye! ! 】

The system kept yelling his name in his mind, but Jing Baiye, who was always close and polite to the system, didn't respond to it at all.

Jing Baiye looked at his red palm, unable to understand what kind of mood was pressing in his heart at this moment.

Puzzled? anger? hate? Or... something else?

The first three emotions were in his first life, and he had many emotions in his first life.

He would feel angry when his home was inexplicably destroyed; he would feel happy when he was resting in that small tent; after the death of his teacher, hatred ignited his heart, and it was this intense feeling that sustained him, in desperate situations. Now complete the revenge for the teacher...

But "many" doesn't mean "all", and there are some feelings that Jing Baiye doesn't know.

- "This is Zhu Xingda."

- "When in danger, I don't think about running away first, but take my own life to protect the people next to me - he is too great! It's just like the police and secret agents in the movie!"

— "Please, Angostella, please go and defuse the other bombs...please...go and save the others who are there..."

And in France a year ago, he opened the door of his new home with great anticipation, but the moment the door opened, what he saw was a mass of black guns aimed at him, and a pair of blue eyes full of pain...

"Boom!"

This time Jingbaiye knocked it crookedly, and the nail of the ring finger knocked against the iron railing, and was abruptly torn off in one piece, and the fingertip of that finger was **** and bloody.

But he doesn't hurt.

It doesn't hurt at all.

He doesn't feel physical pain, and he was destroyed one of this important senses when he was punished for his crimes in his previous life. Now, even if he slaps his hands into a mess here, he won't feel the slightest pain.

He didn't feel any pain at all, and he didn't understand his feelings at all.

Jing Baiye once told Spiatus that he didn't dislike being an undercover agent, let alone reject working with an undercover agent.

This is the truth. He is not good at lying, and there is no need to lie. The answer to Spiatus at that time was indeed what he had in mind.

There are many undercover agents in the organization. If the adoptive mother and boyfriend, Ethan Bentang or Xyz Cocktail are still alive, and Spiatus asks him to go on missions with them, he can treat them as ordinary colleagues, and he can follow the process as he wants. Never treat them with a strange attitude.

This is what he said himself.

But what he said in person in the past, now fell on him again like the knife that gouged out his flesh and cut his bones when he was executed in the previous life.

"Boom!"

Another punch, the bed shook a few times.

Why are you lying to me?

That day he sent the injured Scotland back to the hotel from the snowy field, checked carefully for other wounds, put him on the quilt and covered him with a quilt, and then...sat beside him and started to daze.

It's not that he didn't notice many things, it's just that he doesn't want to think about them.

Compared with thinking about the long-term future, Jing Baiye has always been more concerned about the happiness in front of him, even if this kind of happiness is so fake that it only lasts for a week, a day, or even an hour, he is willing to work hard to maintain it.

Apero sent the antidote, and he had a rare thought, and divided it into several injections for Scotland.

He wants Scotland to remember this pain, and let him know that as a member of the organization, he should abandon the sense of justice that belongs to the police—if Gin or other members saw that scene, they would have shot him, Even the people around him who he wanted to protect would not be spared, not only could he not save people, but he would even kill them.

"Boom!"

The iron bars shook violently.

Why did you lie to me and use such a clumsy lie that I can't even deceive myself?

Not detoxifying all at once is just the first step, and the second step is testing. After returning from the reservoir, he got a new mission, so he took advantage of this opportunity to let Dai Jili use the same chemical bomb in the mission.

…Although the bomb did not explode, the mission executor guessed his true intention and removed the poison from the bomb to destroy the target.

He did this to see if Scotland would make another move that was not in line with the membership of the organization.

The organization will not just clear out disabled members with code names, but will take good care of them to show the boss's love for loyal people—but only if the members are injured for completing the organization's tasks. Code-named member... Even a logistics guy who can stay in a safe zone, how can he survive in the organization after his eyesight is damaged?

But he still did that, and Scotland still chose to send the last antidote after he reminded him several times.

Even before that, all sorts of excuses had been made to trick him out so that he wouldn't get in their way.

"Boom!"

This punch was extremely hard, and there was blood dripping on the top of the iron bars.

Seeing the blood, Jing Baiye finally let go of his hand, he stared blankly at the blood dripping down.

He thought of Scotland's tossing and turning in bed that morning and the two lines of blood and tears flowing from the corners of his eyes; in the video call just now, those empty eyes that seemed to be covered with a layer of gray fog and the forehead that was dripping with cold sweat...

…and the first night they went to Zhize Village in Xinbei, he leaned against his bed, stroking his head one after another, and the gentle eyes stayed with him until he fell asleep.

— "As a minor member, the organization will find me a guardian member to take care of me. I remember I told you about this... I think you are quite suitable. Are you willing to take the role?"

More intense emotions instantly filled Jingbai Ye's entire heart, he raised his hand high, but this time he couldn't hit it down. He knew that even if he smashed it down, he couldn't vent his feelings.

There was only one last question left in his mind.

Why...don't you confess to me?

——

"..."

Amuro watched Angostella raise his hand, but finally put it down slowly.

He knew that Angostella didn't hit it this time not because he figured it out, but because he finally realized that even if he continued to torture himself, he couldn't relieve the pain in his heart.

"why did not you tell me…"

Angustra's back trembled, and her tone was deeply bewildered.

"..."

Toru Amuro stood there motionless, as if he had been drained of all his strength, and he didn't even have the courage to go forward and hug Angostella.

He regretted it.

Is it really Jiang Gu Ling who hinders him from revealing his true identity every time?

…No, apart from the police dog who regards his undercover status as the bottom line, there is also himself who considers himself a loyal dog.

—He was not only afraid that Angostella would be hurt by an undercover agent, but also that he would lose all of Angostella's love after being exposed as an undercover agent.

Dissociative disorder, who would have thought that he had this disease?

Even if he knows, the two personalities are in the same body, can the little boss tell the difference?

So every time he couldn't tell, and every time he saw that his little boss's attitude towards him didn't change, not only would he hate that police dog, but he would also feel a kind of despicable... secret joy in his heart.

Now Toru Amuro regretted it, those secret joys in the past have now doubled as the pain tormenting his heart.

He should have died earlier, just like how he suffocated his body at that time, he chose to die early~lightnovelpub.net~ instead of coveting the love of his little boss and wanting to stay in the world longer.

He didn't even solve the biggest crisis around his little boss, how could he have the face to consider himself a loyal dog?

Live for you, die for you, I should be satisfied. I shouldn't want more.

"Angostella."

Toru Amuro softly yelled this code name that he had read thousands of times in his heart. At the moment when the little boss turned his head, he knelt down on one knee. In this posture, the taller him looked up to the only one he existed in the world. reason.

"Angostella, I have something to confess to you."

"—Bourbon, undercover."

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