Chapter 146, I hate because of love (2)

"Moreover, the phantom doesn't seem to be so merciless. At least every three months, I will meet with Yi'er." When Han Ji said this, there was an invisible emotion in Han Ji's eyes, which, in simple terms, seemed to be unrelenting. Do not resent the phantom?

  Zhou Yan looked at Han Ji and still did not speak, did not know if he had nothing to say, or did not know where to start, and even did not respond to Han Ji’s comment on the phantom.

   "What about you? I know she brought you here, but why are you with her?" Han Ji turned the topic to Zhou Yan without a trace.

   Zhou Yan obviously hesitated about this question, but he answered after a while, and he said: "Yinyin is in her hands."

I don’t need to say much in the following words, although I know I’ve guessed that Zhou Yan will never compromise on anything except Yinyin, but he still feels a little bitter in his heart, forcing himself to endure the loss and bitterness in his heart, Han Ji slowly said: “That’s it. , Is she okay?"

  It can't be said that there is nothing wrong with Zhou Yan. Zhou Yan couldn't answer. After all, Yinyin was brought here and he was somewhat responsible, so he couldn't answer.

  Perhaps seeing Zhou Yan's reluctance to answer, Han Ji didn't mind, and said to herself: "She is not in good health, but I hope I don't suffer anything."

   Zhou Yan looked at Han Ji, with a little inexplicable emotion in his eyes. He wanted to know why Han Ji was still so generous at this time? Is it because you don't care? Is it really so generous?

  As Zhou Yan was thinking about how to speak, Han Ji’s voice sounded first, and she said, "Could it be that you are here because..."

Han Ji is not a fool. She knows exactly what Yin Yin means to Zhou Yan, but in this case Zhou Yan can tolerate the phantom bringing Yin Yin here. There must be a reason. She is a little unwilling to do so. Believe it, but she couldn't think of anything else, she opened her eyes wide and looked at Zhou Yan, as if she wanted an answer from him.

  Under Han Ji’s gaze, Zhou Yan finally spoke, but instead of answering her question, he answered the question: “That’s why you hate me?”

  Han Ji was stunned, a little confused about Zhou Yan's sudden arrival.

"Yeah, I really deserve to be hated. I am always cruel to you. I didn't even know the existence of Yi'er until today. You should hate me. More than love is what I owe you? I'm afraid it will be my life. Don't you regret it?" Zhou Yan said lightly, as if he didn't care about the seriousness of the content in his words.

When you have hurt a person thoroughly, you will find out how much you owe her, only when you find out that you can't pay it back; for Han Ji, Zhou Yan has already discovered that he is more than guilty, and he owes her again. Sorry' can make up for it? He admitted that he was very disgusted with this marriage at the beginning, but he never blamed it on Han Ji, because he knew better than anyone that Han Ji was forced to be helpless and had no right to choose at all, so he was from the beginning. I didn’t blame her, and I subconsciously wanted to be nice to her, at least I wouldn’t cry, and at the same time I gave her freedom. From the very beginning, Zhou Yan knew that he would not fall in love with anyone other than Yinyin. He hasn't changed so far. He thought he would continue to do this, but now he is shaken. It is not so much that it is shaken, as it is not knowing what to do. It is the first time that he feels lost.

Han Ji didn’t know what Zhou Yan was thinking, let alone what he wanted to do. She didn’t know Zhou Yan very well, but she felt uneasy in his words. Han Ji felt a very bad premonition. She opened her mouth to say something, but found that she couldn't speak.

"As I said before, you are a woman, and I... a bad man. I did everything to get what I wanted. When I came back to my mind, I found that it hurt her deeply and even more. I don’t know what I can do to make up for all of this because of the people around me, but as long as I can do it, I will still do whatever it takes, but I don’t know if it’s too late?"

As soon as the voice fell, Zhou Yan stretched out his hand and stroked Han Ji’s face. Han Ji is as beautiful as before, but not as young as before. The years have left traces of vicissitudes on her face. It is not aging, but maturity. It is time and experience. , Han Ji has experienced everything that others could not imagine, and now she is more mature, and there is also a motherly love in that maturity.

  Zhou Yan’s lips curled up with an arc of self-deprecating, self-deprecating discovered that time passed so fast, in a blink of an eye, he was no longer young and frivolous, but a man with a wife and children, but what did he do? Completely ignoring or even betraying your wife and children is only for your own happiness; not only that, but constantly hurting the most important person in your heart in the process of searching, what is such a self? A selfish and arrogant person? Or an inhuman thug? Whether it is the person in his heart or her, he has never given them happiness. On the contrary, there is only pain. When the pain of torturing each other is unbearable, they still get nothing. Why did they get to this point?

  If time can be turned back, will the same and irreparable thing no longer be done? Zhou Yan couldn't guarantee, and even thought that he might still do it at the time, even if it was hurt, even if the final outcome was both sides...