Chapter 146, I hate because of love (4)

  Zhou Yan didn’t understand Han Ji's words, but what made him understand is that there is love and hate. If you think about it from another angle, does it mean that Yinyin also loved him? So Zhou Yan's heart was hot, more moved, and he kept repeating the same thought in his heart, that is: Yinyin loves him.

  Looking at Zhou Yanna struggling with his heart, trying to believe but not believing, Han Ji only felt that his heart was bleeding.

  For a long period of time, the two have been silent. Zhou Yan was silent because he had not recovered from his previous emotions, while Han Ji’s silence was simple and still the heartbreaking reason.

After a long period of silence and calm, Zhou Yan seemed to have recovered himself, and he also recovered from Han Ji's words. He slowly raised his head and looked at the person who could not hide the sadness in front of him. He felt pity in his heart and stretched out his hand. Injured her face again, I don't know if it is an illusion, the temperature seems a bit low.

   "Are you too?" Zhou Yan looked at Han Ji's eyes and asked faintly.

  Han Ji knew very well what Zhou Yan was asking. This was what she had always wanted to tell him, but she found that the voice was stuck in her throat, and she couldn't send a single byte.

  However, Zhou Yan never gave up. He repeated it again: "Tell me, are you the same?"

If Zhou Yan still doesn’t know anything about Han Ji’s feelings, it’s self-deception, but he still thinks he should listen to Han Ji’s own words, especially after saying those things; in fact, when Han Ji said those things He was very clear at the time, it is undeniable, how can he say those words without personal experience?

Originally, Han Ji didn’t plan to say it. At least at this time, she didn’t want to say it. She just couldn’t control Zhou Yan's eyes that seemed to go straight into her. The feelings hidden in my heart were completely revealed, frankly without concealment.

   "Yes, I hate you because I love you."

Zhou Yan didn’t know before. It turns out that confession can make people so sad. When this sentence came out of Han Ji’s mouth, what Zhou Yan saw was not love, but sadness, an unspeakable sadness because of what he loved. Inhuman? Maybe it is. How could the harm that he brought to her can be summarized in a few words? He never gave her happiness and joy, only endless pain and torture, but why is there only sadness? Shouldn't you hate it? Zhou Yan discovered that from Han Ji’s eyes, what he saw was really sadness, without a trace of hatred. Compared with the naked hatred in Yinyin’s eyes before, is Han Ji’s hate? Is it only verbal?

   Zhou Yan would not feel the slightest strangeness to Han Ji’s hatred, but unexpectedly saw that what Han Ji’s eyes showed was not hatred. Could it be that what he had seen before was just an illusion? No, it's definitely not an illusion. That kind of hatred is the same as Yinyin's treatment of herself at the beginning. Even acting will never be so real, so in other words, Han Ji still hates him, right? Yeah, even hate doesn't matter.

When Zhou Yan thought that Han Ji’s words were just those words, Han Ji’s voice sounded again: "I hate you for always chasing the so-called happiness in your own way. I hate you for always thinking about yourself and disregarding her. , Hate you always indecisively bury the pain in my heart, hate you always infatuated with her but want to torture her life is not as good as death, do you really love her? Why do you torture her so much if you love her? If she is so painful, she will not hate you, absolutely not, she is not as fragile as you think, she can tell what she wants from what she doesn’t want, but what you do push her into the abyss of darkness Here, let her get lost, make her miserable, why can't she hate you? Why should I love you? Why should I love you, a selfish person who only cares about himself?"

Han Ji’s words were like tidal water, wave after wave beating Zhou Yan’s heart. This was the second time. This was the second time Zhou Yan saw Han Ji who roared like venting. He had never thought of being so skillful and so. Gentle and considerate people will have such a fierce side. However, the facts have proved time and time again that even the most meek beast will have a violent side. The same is true for people. When emotions accumulate to a certain level, when they reach the spiritual point. It will always explode. If you don’t vent it, then you can only say that this person is on the verge of collapse. Only when you vent it can you show that this person is a normal person and possesses human feelings.

Many people say that jealousy is the ugly side of the human heart. Actually they don’t think so. Everyone has jealousy, but it is not necessarily ugly. Just like Han Ji, she never fights with abnormal means even though she is jealous, and never does it. Unexpectedly; perhaps Han Ji is cowardly in the eyes of many people, and only she herself understands that some things will not be hers even if she fights for it, so why let more people get involved? What's more, although she is in pain, some people are more painful than she is. Zhou Yanyes and Yinyin are also, so the pain is not always only for yourself, there are other people. Don't just consider your own feelings and ignore the feelings of others.

Hearing Han Ji's venting, Zhou Yan did not feel anger, on the contrary, there was only guilt. The more intense Han Ji's reaction was, the more it explained the pain in her heart. So Zhou Yan would not blame her, let alone accuse her, because he knew it well. How much do I owe Han Ji.