Chapter 146, I hate because of love (5)

   "What about you?" Zhou Yan found that he didn't want to listen to Han Ji just speaking for others. What he cared about was Han Ji's mood.

  Han Ji, who was unprepared, was a little stunned by this question, and repeated in a mumbling: "Me?"

"You know what kind of person I am from the beginning, why do you still fall in love with me? Where am I worthy of your love?" Zhou Yan just wants to know what Han Ji thinks. It is impossible for a woman who has always been very stable and smart to know that, so why would she fall in love?

   "...Does it take a reason to fall in love with someone?" Han Ji smiled miserably, if she knew it, she might not fall in love.

   Hearing this, Zhou Yan was stunned. It is undeniable that Han Ji’s words were right. Even he thought so. If he needed a reason, would he not be so affectionate? Because so far he himself couldn't understand why he was so persistent to Yinyin, and even wanted to get it at all costs.

  "Is it worth it? For someone like me." Zhou Yan asked.

  Zhou Yan believes that he has no reason to fall in love with Yinyin, because Yinyin is worth it, but what about himself? I know that I have no place worthy of staying, and I never think that I have any place worthy of anyone to cherish, but what is Han Ji for?

  In this regard, Han Ji gave Zhou Yan an unexpected answer. She said: "Is there anything worth noting if I fall in love?"

With just this sentence, Zhou Yan felt as if something had collapsed in his heart. The next moment he had taken Han Ji into his arms. He didn't know why he had acted like this. It was completely subconscious, but only when he recovered. At that time, I still didn't want to let go; the body of the person in his arms is so slender, it seems that she will be crushed with a little force, and I didn't seem to notice before, the person in my arms is so thin.

"Hate me, as long as you think this will make you feel better, then hate me. It doesn't matter how much, I will accept them one by one. If you still can't get rid of the unhappiness in your heart, my life can be given to you. , I just have to pay you back. I don’t have anything else to give you, but I still have my life. Just remember, you can take my life anytime, anytime." Like an atonement, Zhou Yan Speaking word by word, now he doesn't care about anything anymore, what's the use of life? Regardless of compensation, he doesn’t want to owe too much. Even if he is as cold and strong as him, he will feel tired after so many things happen, but at least he hopes to make some compensation to the person who owes the most, and that person is Han. Ji.

  After listening to Zhou Yan’s words, Han Ji wondered if she should be happy or sad? With a wry smile in Zhou Yan's arms, "Anytime? What should she do? Isn't she waiting for you to save her now?"

   Zhou Yan felt choked with these words, yes, he still wants to save Yinyin, but Han Ji...

  Because she was in her arms, Zhou Yan couldn't see Han Ji's expression. Her eyes were full of sadness and pain, as well as a deathly look, like despair of something.

  "I will rescue her, and then...I will also compensate you. Although I know many things cannot be corrected, I will definitely compensate you." Zhou Yan's tone revealed Zhong Jue.

This didn’t seem to be Han Ji’s illusion. Even if the grief was as great as hers now, she could still feel the decisiveness contained in Zhou Yan’s tone. Only then did she realize that the previous fear was back again. Turning back to the subject, from grief to fear, fear still dominates her heart. She wants to get up from Zhou Yan’s arms, but finds that she is nostalgic for the smell of his embrace. She wants to ask him, but finds that every word is said. If you don't come out, can you just watch it?

  As Han Ji was struggling to speak, Zhou Yan’s voice sounded again: "After all this is over, I will not make you suffer anymore."

  Han Ji didn't understand Zhou Yan's words for a while, she became more and more sure that seeing Zhou Yan this time was wrong, but she couldn't tell what was wrong.

And Zhou Yan had already planned in his heart, yes, he really would not let Han Ji suffer again, especially when he knew that Han Ji gave birth to a child for him, he was even more certain...some things cannot be escaped, nor can they be escaped, so He can only face it and make a decision after all, whether Yinyin or Han Ji, these two women in his life, no matter which one he can't let go or let go, he owes them too much, Too much, maybe because the things that happened made him thoroughly understand, and there are some things that he can’t force, otherwise it’s him who hurt the most; Zhou Yan feels that he has always been strong, especially when facing Yinyin. Thinking that he would be able to redeem her heart one day, but found that her heart is getting farther and farther away. As for Han Ji, Zhou Yan does not deny that he has never paid attention to it. Otherwise, would he stop thinking of her?

Whether you love or hate, you have to face it after all. The hatred faced by one person is also hate for two people, so he doesn't care how much it is, he can ignore other people, and he can only stop in his life. He was unable to let go of the two women he had passed; he thought that time could wipe out everything and change everything, but in the end discovered that all these were just lies. The heart of the person he loved never stayed because of him, but the person who loved him was caught by him. Inadvertently wounded with so many scars, does he want such an ending? He can be cold-blooded to anyone, only these two people make him riddled with holes and can crush all his reason and strength in an instant.