Chapter 99, Finding Oneself (1)

  [Haicheng] a distance from [Liancheng]

Because of the battle, the road to [Liancheng] has been blocked. [Haicheng] can be described as the front line of the blockade, so even if you come to the nearest place; due to the battle, it seems a little chaotic here, but basically it can be maintained. Order, a [Xingwang Inn] is regarded as the largest inn in the city. It is not only a good location, but the building is also gorgeous and elegant. The inn has its own independent courtyard. This small courtyard is like a small courtyard with a beautiful structure. , The highest place has two floors of buildings, and the second floor is the most side room, the window is open, and a person sitting on the table by the window is gazing at the lake outside the window!

That's right, the person in the room is Yinyin. She leaned on the back of her chair and stared at the outside. Instead of looking at the lake, she didn't know where to look. I saw her eyes blurred, and she was a little forgetful. People know what she is thinking, except for herself...

It’s been many days since I’ve been here, because the road to [Liancheng] has been blocked, Yinyin had to stay here. She was close to the target she was looking for, but couldn’t meet. Not only that, but there was no news, she said. It is lie that she is not in a hurry; however, the inability to see any emotions in Yinyin’s face is not entirely due to her inability to see each other, because even if she can see, she does not have any emotions after seeing each other. Sure; after a long journey, Yinyin has calmed down a lot, at least being able to calmly think about the future, and being able to stay calm now. There are many reasons, and one of them may also have a lot to do with Zhou Yan.

  In Yinyin’s memory, when Zhou Yan sent her straight to the border that day, the night before parting...

   "I still love you, and I will not change now, nor will I be in the future. This is the only thing you must remember."

  Zhou Yan came to find Yinyin. This was the night he talked the most since he went on the road with Yinyin. Yinyin still can’t forget that Zhou Yan’s expression at that time...

"You can go to him, or be with him after you find it, but you can't deny that I love you, let alone deprive me of the right to love you; maybe you will feel that my love is a kind of love to you. Forced, but I love you with my life. I love you so much that I can’t help myself. I thought I would keep you by my side even by forcible means, but now, I choose to let go, not to give up loving you, but to let you go Do what you want to do; the result is not important, just please don’t forget that I love you, if the result is not what you want, you can come to me at any time and come back to me, then I will take You go to a place where there is no dispute and spend the rest of our lives."

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"Maybe when you think of everything, you will hate me, and I will not blame you, because what has happened will never change. I will not ask for your forgiveness. I just hope you will not treat me like an enemy. ."

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"I won't tell you everything I know. If you choose by yourself, you should find it yourself. There is a bond between you and him that I don't know, so I won't tell you, even You hate me for asking me to re-elect and I will still do it, but you must remember that I never wanted to hurt you, never—"

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"I can't forget everything you have done to this day. The time spent with you is the proof that I have survived so far. I have never forgotten the harm I have caused you, and I have not hated myself for a moment. But I love you so hopelessly that I have lost my mind many times, and then hurt you. You don’t need to forgive me, and I won’t forgive myself.”

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"Please don't regard what I have to you as a burden, that will make me feel that even the last bit of dignity will disappear. Since I fell in love with you, I have lost everything, so please leave me the last bit that belongs to myself and is carved in my soul. The dignity of the highest; falling in love with you is my own choice, it has nothing to do with anyone, including you, don’t underestimate me, and don’t think it’s your sin not to love me, I won’t blame you, and no one will blame you."

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"There is no reason to love someone. I do hope to get your response, but you also have the right to choose. Everyone can have their own love, so you don’t have to force yourself to give your love to whom, or To whom to give alms, true love can only be given to one person at a time, even if it is sympathy, it cannot be forsaken; it is my life’s dream to keep you by my side and yearn for your love, but it’s not as good as your happiness, only for one People are good, as long as you can be happy."

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"Never think that those who love you must give them something in return, you are you, you are not anyone, I can give everything to love you, there are others, but you don’t need to give the same love to love Let’s not think that my love makes you feel guilty. It’s unnecessary, because you didn’t do anything wrong at all. You are just being loved. I hope you can think that our love is happiness to you. Not sinful."

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"Everyone’s happiness should be pursued on their own. The same goes for you. Don’t force yourself to do what you can’t do. Just think about what you need to do and what you should do. Nothing else. Necessary, you are not a saint, you are just a person, an ordinary person; there is nothing wrong with pursuing what you are loyal to, and don’t feel burdened. I let you go and let you find your own happiness does not mean I can do it. To give up, I hope you too, don’t forget to find your own you."