Chapter 302 Chapter 300·"Rin, I'm so sad"

Saya tilted her head, as if she couldn't understand the meaning of his words.

 The heavy rain wet her long golden hair, even the exquisite hair accessories were tilted to one side, and her dress clung to her body wetly.

 She knelt down and spoke softly.

"Rin." She said: "You know? When I heard from Larya that you wanted to kill me, I was really sad, very sad..."

"Saya." Su Mingan said, "You know? When I saw you carrying Naraku up to the rooftop from here, I was really disappointed. Very disappointed."

"Disappointed?" Saya's voice trembled: "Disappointed. Am I a Soul Clan? Is it because of this fact that you feel disappointed? Disappointed by my identity?"

 “You shouldn’t be a soul clan.”

"Yes, I shouldn't be." Saya's face was filled with rainwater: "I am obviously just an ordinary human being... But from the day I was successfully transformed, I knew that if I didn't control Grandpa Varun in time, I would The soul hunter who lives on the ship. What awaits me is the most desperate ending."

She lowered her head, her hair sticking to her face: "...I can't sit still and wait to be tested. I can't...can't let hunger dominate my desire. Rin...Su Rin! I don't want to be killed, so I can only Taking the initiative... This is the survival rule of the Soul Clan. Do you understand, Su Lin? As an ordinary human being, as a being with the happiest status, as a human being who doesn't have to worry about being discovered at all... Can you understand this kind of gap? How does it feel to survive?”

 On her body, the turbulent emotions were mixed with the sea breeze, and fell to the ground along with the cold raindrops.

Su Mingan said nothing and looked at her.

This young lady, who was dignified and cheerful when they first met, this girl with beautiful and bright hair like the sun, now had her hair disheveled in the heavy rain, her eyes were red, and she was roaring at him like a madman.

"-Rin. Do you know that feeling? On weekdays, I really think that I am a human being, but some nights, when I suddenly feel hungry, I will suddenly realize that I have become a completely different person than before. Different monsters..." She raised her hands, with **** red nails extending from her fingertips, and her eyes were extremely desperate: "I have no choice... I have no choice! I can only attack my dear grandpa, I can only make him become a monster. My most loyal guard, I can only...find an opportunity to board this Yate and claim my own living space..."

As she spoke, her hand suddenly hit the ground heavily.

 “Bang!”

 A loud noise.

That hand looked extremely delicate, as if it had never been touched by the young lady's hand. With a slap, the ground suddenly sunk in.

"You, have you seen it? Rin." Saya stared at him: "I have become a monster, and there is no way to turn back. I can only, I can only..."

As she spoke, her fingernails began to rub against the ground unconsciously, repeating mechanical movements as if they were self-inflicted, and the tips of her fingertips gradually began to bleed.

 The nails were broken and blood overflowed. Then the wounds began to heal and the nails grew again... She kept rubbing the ground as if she was not afraid of the pain, breaking her own nails and watching them slowly grow back.

“Does Valen know that he has been transformed into a soul race?” Su Mingan suddenly spoke during a period of silence.

Saya raised her head suddenly, staring at him with blood-red eyes: "...I don't know."

She said softly: "This is also the reason for my despair... I don't know that I am a soul clan at all. Only at this **** time... this time when I start to be hungry, I can't help myself, I will suddenly realize My **** identity is like a disaster suddenly approaching..."

"Saya, believe me, it's not the worst yet." Su Mingan looked at her: "Since you were not born as a soul clan, this kind of transformation definitely has its flaws. I have never heard of soul clan before. The fact that it can be transformed from humans shows that its technology must be immature, otherwise the Art Empire would have long been reduced to the soul tribe’s paradise.”

Hearing his words, Saya was slightly startled.

"Saya, who is the person who transformed you?" Su Mingan said: "As long as we find him, we will definitely be able to find a way to return you to normal."

Saya stared at him.

Her blood-red eyes were staring at him silently, mixed with extremely complicated emotions.

 “You just said you wanted to kill me.” She said softly.

"You are not the perpetrator, but the victim." Su Mingan said: "You are not born as a soul, but a normal human being transformed by others. You should be the one who is saved, not the one who is hated. I suddenly realized It’s come to this point.”

 “...Are you not disappointed?”

 “Not disappointed.”

 “…You don’t hate me?”

"No."

 The water in Saya's eyes flashed.

 She said: "I...actually can't remember clearly."

Su Mingan was slightly startled.

"Only when I encounter a certain situation, some of my memories will be awakened." She said softly: "For example, only when I am hungry, I will find out that I am a soul clan, and I have something to do with being a soul." The memory of doing evil with my clan identity... And when I return to normal, I will really think that I am just an ordinary human being... The same is true of the memory related to the transformer. I will only remember who he is when I see him again. …”

"But I remember..." She paused, and then said: "He had... jet black hair, and a pair of dark and blood-colored eyes that were different from ordinary Soul Clan. He asked me to meet at the manor, and suddenly attacked me. Transformed me...turned me from a human into this abominable appearance..."

 Pitch black hair, dark red eyes.

Su Mingan thought about it carefully and couldn't think of anyone related to this characteristic.

While he was thinking, Saya suddenly turned around and dragged Naraku next to her.

"Rin, look, this is Miss Naraku." She pulled Naraku's hair and lifted her up, Naraku showed a painful expression.

Su Mingan’s expression did not change.

"I was so stupid in human form." Saya said: "...How could I propose a marriage between Rin and her? Obviously I can gather everyone's wealth on us, so there is no need for marriage. Such a stupid approach... In my human form, I am so cute and so real... so naive that it makes me feel bad..."

 Naruo's body was covered in blood at this time. She seemed to want to struggle, but the soul clan's strength was far greater than hers. Saya just punched her, and she doubled up in pain, unable to struggle for a moment.

"Saya." Su Mingan said, "Don't let the soul clan's desires control you. Remember what you just said."

 He remembered that Saya clearly said just now that she hated her identity as a soul tribe and wished she could just be a happy ordinary human being.

 But now, holding Naraku in her arms, with her eyes even more red, she said that she hated her in human form.

 …Desire and power change a person’s mind.

This transformation happens naturally and affects all aspects of people, making it difficult for them to notice.

 Listening to Su Mingan's words, Saya's eyes paused for a moment.

She suddenly let go of her hand, took a few steps back, and stared at her own hand in great fear, as if she wanted to cut it off.

"I, why...why do I have such thoughts..." Her lips trembled, and tears were almost falling from her eyes.

"Yes, I'm sorry, Miss Naraku, I'm very sorry, I..."

She kept apologizing and stepped forward to help Naraku who fell to the ground.

 At this time, her behavior was very much like that of a dignified young lady, very much like the way Su Ming'an first saw her.

 …If you ignore the red light in her eyes and the large blood stains on her body.

Su Mingan watched this absurd scene in silence, as if watching a farce unfolding before his eyes.

"Miss Naraku, I'm very sorry, I, let me pull you up..."

Saya stretched out her hand, as if she wanted to help the girl who fell on the ground.

 But the next moment, a deeper red light covered her eyes again.

Her steps paused, then she hugged herself fiercely, her whole body trembling.

It was like two thoughts were struggling repeatedly in her body. The heavy rain dripped down on her hair and clung to her body like water plants. She was extremely quiet for a moment, like a stake stuck in the ground.

After a deathly silence, she suddenly raised her head.

"Rin." She said, with silence in her voice: "You will understand me."

Su Mingan looked at her.

"I have no choice. If I want to avoid being hunted by souls, I can only take action." She said: "Rin, death is a very painful thing. Even if it is for stability or righteousness, I will not take the initiative." Death, face it... I just want to live, just want to live..."

"If Grandpa Valen hadn't died, I wouldn't have been so emotional that I would have remembered my identity as a soul clan." She said: "The Ater... wouldn't have become like this. Everything shouldn't be like this. of…"

"Yes, it shouldn't be like this, the Ater... the Ater, it is the hope of the empire." She was silent for a moment, then suddenly said: "In the long voyage, it will reach the other side smoothly... it will provide Art in exchange for future glory..."

“No one will be in trouble, and no one will die... There is no way that the hateful soul race will get on the giant ship, and we will all be extremely safe..."

 She said, smiling at him as if she had fallen into a self-hypnotic illusion.

Blazing thunder and lightning flashed in the air behind her, completely illuminating the thick dark clouds like a blaze of fire. White light shone on her cheeks, and the water in her eyes was clearly visible.

“[Rin, you don’t have to worry.]”

“[The Yate is hailed by the Yate Empire as an eternal pearl and the empire’s hope for expedition to the sea. It will never be capsized by a small storm...]”

 She said softly.

"..." Su Mingjing watched her say familiar words, watched the gauze scarf on her shoulders flying up and down in the sea breeze, and watched her say words that were still in her dream.

 He saw her getting up in the wind and rain, and the rain was on her hair.

 …Looking at her, tears burst down her face.

She was so excited that she asked him to dance in the lower cabin at night. She was dressed in cloth and moved as fast as a bird flying towards freedom.

 But now, the girl just looked at him in the heavy rain with her blood-red eyes.

 Complex emotions were fighting in her eyes. She would laugh and cry, like a mentally disturbed madman.

Suddenly, her expression paused, and the red light in her eyes finally overcame the clear light.

  She approached him and put her face close to his neck: "You can understand me, Rin."

Su Mingan: “…”

"Rin, you are very strong... You suddenly became very strong. Although I don't know when Rin became so powerful, I am really happy, very happy..."

"Rin's family finally doesn't have to worry about decline. Such a powerful Rin can definitely help the family to revitalize, and Rin doesn't have to marry that unruly woman..."

"Of course, Rin, such a powerful Rin...can definitely help me..."

She spoke softly, her voice getting lower and lower:

“Just help me this once, okay? Grandpa Warren is dead, and my identity can no longer be concealed. If I don’t devour the soul of a powerful human being, I will easily fall into hunger again…”

"Rin, you must not want to see me die..."

As she spoke, she paused beside him for a moment, and suddenly started sobbing again:

 “But, but I’m so sad, so sad...Why am I so sad...”

Su Mingan moved his fingers.

 The effects of the anesthesia were gradually wearing off, and his vision began to become clearer.

 He saw Saya suddenly stand up.

It was as if two emotions were fighting in her eyes, spreading crazily in her eyes. She pressed her fingernails on her hand as if she was committing suicide, and pulled out the blood from her arm.

 She cried and said: "I don't want to kill you, I don't want to kill you at all..."

The sharp teeth were grinding against her lips again and again, as if they were about to move, but she forced her lips to bite her lips and covered them up.

Bloodshot appeared at the corner of her lips. She suddenly looked at him, the brilliance in her eyes had never been so bright as now.

After a moment of stillness, she suddenly spoke softly, speaking in a breathy and fast voice:

　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　.

 “Kill me. Quickly.”

 When she said these words, Saya had never felt that the burden on her body was so light.

Su Mingan stared at this scene silently and moved his hands.

 The effect of the anesthetic is still there, so that he cannot release a space vibration.

 In this brief silence, the reason in Saya's eyes completely disappeared.

She opened her red eyes, and as she walked over, tears fell from the corners of her eyes due to inertia.

She reached out and grabbed his shoulder. Su Mingan frowned slightly, feeling a pain coming from his neck.

 “Shua!”

 The girl's expression condensed in this second.

Like a thin piece of broken porcelain, the light in her eyes shattered, as if she had suddenly been saved.

 The clone Ming stood behind her, and the sword blade penetrated her heart.

 At this moment, she pushed him away and raised her chin slightly.

"So it's you..." She stared into his eyes and suddenly said something meaningless.

 Suddenly, she laughed.

 The rain fell into her eyes, and her smile contained a bit of despair and relief.

 “Rin.” She said softly, “…I’m so sad.”

 The next moment, her words stopped abruptly.

Like a spire submerged by floods, she fell into the **** water, and her golden hair fell silent like a water snake.

Ming sheathed his sword, walked over, and glanced at the two men lying on the ground.

 “She bit you?” Ming said, “I’m sorry, I’m still late.”

"It's okay, I shouldn't be transformed so easily..." Su Mingan moved, feeling that the effect of the medicine was fading away.

He slowly stood up, went to help Naraku, who was unconscious, and checked her injuries.

Suddenly, through a layer of heavy rain, he saw the astonished look on Bi Ming's face.

"Wait, you, your eyes..." Ming said in surprise.

Su Mingan was stunned for a moment.

 “What’s wrong with my eyes?” He touched the corners of his eyes and didn’t feel anything was wrong.

"You...see for yourself." Ming seemed hesitant.

Su Mingan quickly called up the system mirror.

On the mirror, a young man with sticky black hair, his head covered with rain, was staring at him, looking a little embarrassed.

 The splattered blood stained his cheeks, and water sloshed across his face.

His eyes contained a layer of dark, crimson blood, like a red and cold tide gradually melting away.

 He stared at the mirror for a moment, and suddenly remembered what Saya had just said.

 …

  【Transform my people...】

　　【He has... a head of jet black hair. 】

  【A pair of eyes that are different from ordinary soul race, darker and blood-colored eyes. 】

 …

　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　. 】

　　…I’m so sad. 】

 (End of this chapter)