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Chapter 529: five hundred and twenty six

   Chapter 529 Chapter Five Hundred and Twenty Six "Save me, save me, save me."

   It is not the first time that Sibel has participated in this hundred-man war.

   In the very beginning of the first war, because of her pagan status, she was the only one among a hundred people who was not assigned an adventurer. She knew nothing about the truth of the war.

   She only knows the rules - if she wants to survive to the end, she has to win the war and kill everyone.

  So, within fifteen days, she was alone, sacrificing her own life force, mobilizing the power of the Nine Gods, and killed ninety-nine other pairs of guides and adventurers, including her friends, playmates, and even her brother Fengchang.

   But just after she killed the last person, she sacrificed too much vitality and died of exhaustion, and she didn't have time to go to the outside world.

   When she opened her eyes again, she found she was back on the first day of the war.

  —The cycle begins.

   She found that whenever she died, she would go back to the first day of the war.

   She knew that this should be the ability given to her by Lord Nine Gods. Nine Gods may want her to use this ability to find a way to become a **** within these fifteen days, to overthrow the black wall, and to solve the curse that caused the slow death of Qiongdi people.

   She is also willing to take up this important task and save those who should not die.

   She wants to save them.

  At first, she tried not to sacrifice her life force to avoid dying from exhaustion.

  ...But she is almost powerless without using the power of the Nine Gods.

  Sometimes, she fell into a trap and pierced her body to death; sometimes, due to natural disasters and poisonous rain, her whole body festered and died;

She will be bitten to death by a wolf, rotten to death by the night fog, cursed to death by a cursed creature, beaten to death by other guides, burned to ashes by the white flame of Tenji, decomposed by Migale's time ability Died, his internal organs were torn apart by the palm of the Great Elder, and he died of serious injuries...

   The most desperate thing is that every time she sees that person, that young patriarch.

   He ignored her defenses, deprived her of her right to tell the truth, and killed her again and again.

  Destroy will penetrate her heart, melt her heart, penetrate her forehead consistently, and dissolve her entire face completely.

   Every time she meets him, she will die, restarting the cycle.

   She tried to avoid him, but as soon as she showed up, she would be caught and burned to death by the excited followers of Baishen.

   Being tied to a wooden frame and being devoured by flames bit by bit, she was more familiar than anyone. It was a kind of pain that could not survive or die, as if the cells of the whole body were crying, and there was only a burning pain in the throat.

   "—I'm saving you! I'm saving you—"

   she cried, but no one listened.

   In reincarnation, she was also backstabbed countless times.

  When she was betrayed at the beginning, she would still feel like she had been stabbed in the heart, but after more than a few times, she would not feel anger nor anger.

   Betrayed for the first time, will be sad, will be sad.

   Being betrayed for the second time will make you angry and unwilling.

   Betrayed for the third time and began to doubt himself.

   Until the fourth, fifth, sixth…

   Gradually, she has lost count of how many times she has been deceived and betrayed.

  The holy maiden who was rescued by her resolutely stabbed her after knowing her identity.

  The tribe of the natural disaster period rescued by her will not hesitate to put the source of the poisonous rain on her body.

   She rescues a small settlement, and will take the initiative to hand her over to the first tribe in exchange for every cent of survival resources.

   "—It's all your fault! I want you to help!"

   "—If you, a Nine Gods follower, die! We won't suffer any disaster at all!"

  Sounds like this abound.

   She wanted to explain, saying that her death would not solve any problems, because everything would just start over, but no one believed it at all, they just wanted to take away her right to live.

   At first, she would feel sorry for herself and want to recklessly revenge like a wild wolf, but soon, as the number of times increased, her mentality became more and more peaceful.

   Pain, scars, unhealed, scars from the past, whether they are oozing blood or scabbed, and now seeing it happen again, it will only be a faint sentence.

【I am used to it】.

  …

  The world is huge, but there is no place for her.

  …

After   , she began to change her strategy and no longer insisted on surviving to the end. She wanted to find the truth and tried other ways to break the game.

   In death after death,

   She once went deep into the basement of the first tribe, flipped through Zhao Weidong's family letter, and looked for the remains of the outside laboratory.

   She tried to wait near the black wall, waiting for an outsider to arrive.

   She once wanted to persuade Teacher Fang, who is close to her, to ask Teacher Fang to believe her, but in the end, she was just labeled a lunatic and greeted Teacher Fang's pitying and helpless eyes.

   "Alas... this child is crazy." Teacher Fang would touch her head: "Don't be afraid, Qian Qian, I hope you have a better life for the rest of your life, and you stop talking about these ridiculous things..."

   In the end, no one believed her.

   Not a single one.

  The death of a person will bring about the reincarnation of a world - such a ridiculous thing, how can anyone believe it.

  …

   In order to save the world, she went to many places.

   She looked up books and visited settlements, and gradually came to know the source of the gods—the three major elements "energy, belief, and authority".

  She has captured many ethnic groups and used various execution methods to force them to reveal the secrets of the major tribes.

   She took advantage of the poor information of Samsara to get a handle on many people, and used ruthless threats and torture methods to make them thwart them and have to tell the truth.

   Her methods became more and more vicious and her character became colder and harsher. From an autistic and introverted, exiled little girl, she grew into an extremely ruthless hunter.

   Like an alert hunter, a wild wolf.

Her methods of torture and skinning matured little by little, and her killing techniques became proficient little by little. Gradually, even if she didn't use the power of the Nine Gods, she could use the skills of hunters and traps to kill some who were far more powerful than her. 's guide.

  Because she is too familiar with these people, familiar with their character, fighting style, weakness, family... She knows everything.

   She can slaughter an entire village for a little bit of the secret of the dome, or she can burn to death those devout believers of the gods who swear to death in order to learn more about the truth about the gods.

  —everything can be done all over again, and everyone will be resurrected anyway.

  Then just let her do it.

   As long as she doesn't hurt anyone in the final successful reincarnation, then the countless reincarnations and detours ahead are all worth it.

   These people hate her, abuse her, don't understand her, that's okay.

   As long as she can finally break the cycle of reincarnation - all the rumors will be self-defeating.

   Just let them hate it.

  Since the power obtained by sacrificing her life force cannot make her live to the end, she can only find the last way - becoming a god.

  …

   But soon, she discovered that this was not acceptable.

  One of the three elements of becoming a god-"faith", she can never get it.

   She has been to the first tribe, and she uses her accumulated knowledge to help people develop fertile land, help people make machinery for farming, become a wise man, and wants people to believe in her.

   But she ignored the stubbornness of Baishen believers. People will only receive her knowledge and regard her as a "monster", and no one will believe in her at all.

   In the end, she was either killed by Fengchang, or assassinated and poisoned by the ethnic group.

   Later, she started trying to do charity. She takes in those guides who have lost their minds and shelters them.

   She feeds tigers with her body and takes the initiative to block the poisonous rain from natural disasters. She strives to protect the people and help them rebuild their shelters.

   But she would still be considered a heretic and no one would appreciate her.

   She ended up being killed only by those who came to exterminate the infidels.

  People's ideas are extremely stubborn.

   They can't believe in a person who is full of gods.

  She will be killed by other guides if she does not use the power of the Nine Gods. But once the power of the Nine Gods is used, the life force will be exhausted and he will die, and the aura of the Nine Gods will become stronger in the next round.

   - Infinite loop.

   She simply cannot break this situation.

   "...I can't do it at all, I can't do it at all... I'm obviously saving them, but no one believes me..."

   How many times she was on the verge of death, she cried and shouted this sentence, ushering in the next reincarnation.

   The identity of a pagan has become the root of her inability to break the game.

   "—Pagan, go to hell!"

   "—dead and come back? Ghosts believe in you, even if there is, it is your pagan dirty ability!"

   "—Qianqian, if you are sensible, find a place to die, don't get in the way here. The divine aura on your body really makes me sick."

  “…”

   She has seen too many tragedies.

   Every time she heard this, she felt like she was stabbed hard.

  Everyone was waiting for her to die.

   But no one knew that it was useless for her to die.

  To prove what she said, only she dies, but once she dies, the meaning of proof does not exist.

   How many times she wanted to cry.

why-

  —Why did she lose so many lives, only to gain an unbreakable loop?

  —Why did she survive and save up until now, but people will always be despised and puzzled?

  —Why, why can’t everyone give her a little more chance and time to explain?

-why…

   Her memory was a little blurred between repeated deaths.

   Her sanity was repeatedly tortured by alienation and curses.

  Reincarnation will not change her mental state, and her memory has been completely chaotic after death after death.

   All kinds of death, even alienation... make her more and more crazy and more and more confused.

  Reincarnation is not her lucky authority, but a curse and torture that prevents her from letting go of her responsibilities.

   Gradually, she will forget who she is, why she is alive, and what kind of truth she is trying to reveal, and she still lives on.

   She forgot what her name was and all the information she got. Her memory is blocked for self-preservation, and the huge fragment of death memory is driving her crazy.

   There were two times, she thought, why don't you open your eyes, don't wake up, just let her sleep in the wooden house on the first day.

   So five times, she thought, just forget everything, she is Sissi, not Sibel, not the only believer of the oldest god.

   There were ten times that she would cry over the corpses and say sorry, sorry.

   She is on the verge of collapse, like a maddened animal, a lonely and alert wolf.

   As a player in the game, she simply cannot break this dead end.

   "If only someone would save me," she thought.

   As long as someone is willing to stand by her side and give her warmth, even if they just trust her a little...

   As long as someone can bring a hug to her who is cold all over, as long as someone can tell her that she can still see the sun and the sea...

   She had thought that she would not wait until that day.

   But this time, a person who had never appeared before suddenly appeared beside her.

  … He has black hair and black eyes.

  …He has a bright mind and adaptable wisdom.

  … He cares about the feelings of his companions, regardless of one or the other.

  …he can tell stories and play musical instruments…

   The words she wrote on the wall when she was a child actually took effect with her belief in authority.

  When her memory was already blurred and confused, the person she had been fantasizing about, in this reincarnation—suddenly came to her side.

   He told her that he would always be with her.

   He said that if he was a tourist who accidentally broke into the endless night, she would be his beacon.

   He said that she was the most important and the most unique.

He says,

   He will let her see the flowers bloom.

  …

   In this vault of fabricated beliefs.

  …they are the only “sober” pair of lambs.

  …

  【Under the sky, all things are resurrected. The Forsaken, in the form of 'monsters', tried to stand shoulder to shoulder with the gods. 】

  【The adventurer in front of her seems to have suddenly become the most suitable person for her. 】

  【This time,】

  【Refuse to betray, forbid abandonment. 】

  【—She wants to become a 'God' in 'Monster'. 】

  …

  【This time. 】

  …

   This time,

   She fell into a hallucination in the middle, and the poisonous rain entered her body, and there was no way to save her. Feng Chang chose to maintain the scam and did not believe her.

   She failed again.

   She aimed the gun at her heart.

   "Boom!"

  The gunshots sounded, and her hand suddenly crooked.

   When she opened her eyes, she saw that familiar figure again.

   His dark eyes stared at hers like a description, and there was a loneliness very similar to hers.

   He held the barrel in his hand, and there was a white light of spatial displacement around him.

   The moment he realized that Sibel was going to commit suicide, he moved over instantly and pulled her gun away.

   "...What are you doing." Su Ming'an said.

   Black tentacles appeared instantly, she immediately pushed him away, but it was as difficult as tearing flesh.

  His hands tightly clasped her shoulders, and the heat on his hands made her whole body hurt.

   At this moment, she suddenly collapsed.

   The thick wall inside was disintegrated in an instant, and he was the only one who didn't want her to die.

   "Su Ming'an, I really want to die, I want to die—you kill me, please kill me, don't let me wake up—!"

   She howled.

  It hurts, it hurts, it hurts.

   The skin is dissolving, the blood is boiling, and the bones are melting.

   The continuous rain screen hit her scalp, tearing her skin, she was like a dry bone with flesh and blood.

  Why do people see her as evil - why do you despise her - why don't you give her the right to speak - why don't you even give her the chance to get out of reincarnation?

   At first, she also had kindness in her heart, and she also treated every ethnic group around her kindly, but she could only usher in endless betrayal and cold death.

  No one believes her, no one understands her, even if there is only one helping hand, she will not come to the point where she is now accompanied by madness.

   She is tired and doesn't want to go on. She wants to die, she wants to die so badly, why is she not even given the right to die?

  —What did she do wrong?

  —What did she do wrong?

   Just being "alive" made her feel a lot of pain.

   "It's so painful." She choked out a mouthful of blood.

   "It's so painful." Her fingers splintered.

   "So painful, so painful, so painful—"

   "Su Ming'an! Help me—help me, help me, help me, help me—"

   She cried, her whole body melting.

  Su Mingan grabbed her rotten hand.

   She looked so dirty, her wounds were dirty, her face was ugly, she was too embarrassed. The black rotten flesh was mixed with bright red blood, and the contrast was extremely shocking.

   "...Siebel," he said.

   She lay on his shoulders, tears and blood dripping down her shoulders.

"[I'm looking forward to meeting him, I've prepared fruit and candy, just waiting for him...]" He said: "[He can read stories, although I know that fairy tales are all deceiving children, but I I just like it, I want him to read it to me...] - This is what you wrote on the wall over and over again, here I come."

   "Siebel," he said, "I haven't read you a story yet."

   Sibel's cry was choked up a little.

   When she spoke again, her corroded throat, like a crow, was tearing and screaming.

   "—can't win—we can't win—!"

   "—Su Ming'an, I really want to save them, but I can't save them, I can't save them—!"

  …

  It seems that human beings have to move countless muscles and bones when they move one step.

   It seems that as long as he struggles to take a breath, he will endure the endless pain of this world.

   In front of Su Ming'an, apart from the gloomy gray, the dark sky, and the fiery thick rain,

  —Only her desperate, mournful face was like a fallen bird.

  【I really want to save this world. 】

  【But it's rotten. 】

   She is not crying for herself.

   She is weeping for the future of the sky and the ignorant people.

   She cried for everyone who wanted to kill her, for this desperate world,

   She cried for the slow death of people, for freedom and the absence of light.

   She is crying this sad world.

   What she thought was eternal and beautiful turned out to be vulnerable.

  …

  …

  【…this fate】

【Sucks. 】

  【—"Jiu Shen·Reincarnation Notes"】

   (end of this chapter)