【大咩】

   Prepare for the ninth world and rest for two days.

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   Question about updates...I know many people want more, but one update a day is the limit. The main reason is that the results of this book have not been popular, so it must be academically centered, and it is necessary to take postgraduate entrance examinations and postgraduate examinations. At present, the prospect of the book cannot convince my family. (Don't look at the collection of 500,000 people, there are only 1,000 people in the whole book...)

   You can only compress your rest time as much as possible to write essays every day. The more you want to read various works, the more you will feel the guilt of not studying. The more you devote yourself to the colorful world of ideas, the more you face the pain of boring reality.

  The reality does not have the live fire, the city on the cloud and the song in the text, it is flat and straight to the end. I want to enrich my mind but I am powerless, I want to enrich myself but I have no time, I want to read and write more soulful words but I am stopped because this is not the "right way". Including the Eighth World, they all survived under the urging of their relatives to "don't write, it's a waste of time".

  I understand the importance of a stable job, and I can't control my desire to pursue the plot and keep improving. Just like to write about the ninth world, I have to watch various science fiction works to draw materials, but it will also consume time for review.

  I am reluctant to water my articles, I hope that each chapter is the best I can.

   So I am in a dilemma and suffer all the time.

   So exhausted.

  I don’t think I have to think about it so much and go to the “sea”. But I can't overturn my black wall, so love and pain.

  There is no cost of trial and error, and there is no economic condition for chasing dreams. You have to be coerced by the future and move forward in a daze, day after day, unable to resist.

   Even if you want to have non-utilitarian interests, you will still be bound by the environment, family, and survival itself.

  People are always people in society, and no one is immune.

   I'm stuck with a black wall.

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"You're right, but you're doomed. In today's world, whoever wants to live and live happily ever after, he can't be like you and me. Who doesn't play random music and listens to real music, rejects low-level entertainment And to have real joy, to have a soul instead of money, to have a real job instead of a hustle and bustle, and to have a real passion instead of being a part of the show, then this kind of person can't find his hometown in this beautiful world."

  —Hermann Hesse, Steppenwolf

   (end of this chapter)