Do you think I will make myself suffer?

Nineteen has forgotten that even if Yu Xi carries the character of a gentle wife Xiaojiaohua, it is essentially a piranha.

Yu Xi first planned to accompany Jian Xi and Jian Chao to find the director. Yu Xi knew that it was true. It was the first golden finger the author gave to the heroine Jian Chao, and it was also a key point for her to go smoothly.

The protagonist's opportunity is so good that there is nothing to say, and there are all kinds of young brothers and cheats rushing to help halfway.

It was ten thirty in the morning, and Yu Xi took Jian Xi out of the bed again and bought Jian Xi again, just as gentle as yesterday, without any impatience and irritability.

Jian Xi looked at Yu Xi who concentrated on picking clothes for her, her fists were tight and tight. This time she would definitely guard the clothes the teacher gave her.

Yu Xi didn’t think so much about it. It’s just a piece of clothing. Although her salary is not high, she hasn’t collapsed because of a few pieces of clothing. It’s right to do this for the cute little Jian Xi, and she didn’t think about it. , She really didn't expect Jian Xi's mother to be frantic to that point.

Yu Xi has not been very desperate. She was loved by thousands since she was born. Although her mother eloped with other women neatly and left them behind, she was still very ignorant at the time and didn’t understand anything. Yu Qing treated her She is very spoiled and the Yu family is in a very good family. She has never suffered. She is not lacking in love. All of her love is given by Yu Qing. She is not the kind of person who is highly dependent. She is very independent. She has never Being beaten to the bottom of society, she has never tasted despair, and she doesn't know the pain of being suppressed to the extreme, so she doesn't know how Jian Xi feels or how much Jian Xi really values ​​what she gives.

Jian Xi is very young, but her mind is very heavy. From birth to conscious, her life is no different from that of girls in her normal family. Her father pampers, mother loves, goes to school normally, and enjoys the warmth of ordinary people until the family meets. In an accident, his father got into a car accident because he bought toys for her and her sister. After a while, Jian Xi found that her mother, who had always petted them, had changed, becoming ugly and crazy, even hysterical.

They moved from a fairly good three-bedroom and one living room to a dilapidated and dirty residential building. They originally ate so well that they had to play and pick up things to eat in order not to be starved to death. They cried, angered, and felt sad, but this Everything was ignored by the person who was the mother. She and her sister learned how to survive, how to make themselves look more pitiful, get more money, what kind of tatters are at what prices, life did not give them transition Period, straight from heaven to hell, completely unprepared.

Since Jian Xi met Yu Xi, she has experienced the long-lost warmth. For a long time, those memories were as illusory as non-existent. Jian Xi is not as optimistic and lively as Jian Chao. She does not even understand why her sister is so positive. , I think this world is beautiful, everything is cute, I like pets, dolls, and even that woman.

This world is so annoying, it's all black, heavy and hard to breathe, when kneeling on the cold floor and lowering your posture just for fifty cents, when picking up tatters in a dirty and smelly environment, start a little bit more She didn’t have to grab something with wild cats and dogs to eat, and when she had to go to the trash can to dig through the expired food that others didn’t want to throw away, Jian Xi began to hate the world, hate the place where she lives, and hate it. Everyone except her sister, even sometimes she hates herself so much, why do she want to live like this instead of being cursed by that woman... just die.

All for not being reconciled, and the kind of beautiful life my sister described.

One day, we will become very good girls, wearing very beautiful clothes, eating delicious food, showing a confident smile, getting along well with friends, and finally holding the boy we like. Step into the palace of marriage together, and then grow old together, watching their children grow up.

But Jian Xi suddenly didn’t want this. She looked at Yu Xi who concentrated on choosing clothes for her and was discussing something with her boss. She thought in her heart that if one day she really becomes such a good girl, she Don’t need beautiful clothes, when it’s delicious, close friends and people you like, she wants to use all of these to exchange for a teacher.

She likes the teacher, and she really likes it. The teacher is like the warm sun in her heart, the warmth she can hold with her hands.

"Xiao Xi, come and try this one to see if you like it?"

What Yu Xi was holding was a handsome-looking denim children's clothing. Jian Xi nodded and ran to the fitting room with the clothes.

Jian Xi was no longer worried about yesterday. After putting on her clothes, she came out and looked in the mirror. Yu Xi stood behind her with a satisfied smile.

"Xiao Xi is cute, she looks good in everything she wears."

Yu Xi has decided to buy this set, and plans to choose another set for Jian Xi. At present, it is enough to buy two sets for Jian Xi. Let her change the laundry. After that matter is over, she will take Jian Xi home. Come, buy her a lot of beautiful clothes at that time.

"The teacher has a good vision."

Jian Xi touched her neck embarrassedly and smiled sweetly.

"It turned out to be a teacher, but now such a good teacher is rare."

The boss is a tall and thin woman in her 30s and 40s. She smiled very kindly. She thought it was an aunt and a niece, but she didn't expect it to be a teacher and a student. It is really rare to see such a teacher first, especially among them. It’s already good for the teacher not to punish the students.

"The teacher is the best."

Jian Xi tugged at her clothes and nodded in agreement.

The teacher is the best teacher in the world, there is no one.

Yu Xi bought two sets of clothes for Jian Xi, and Jian Xi accepted it without hesitation. When Yu Xi took her hand to go out, Jian Xi raised her head and said something to Yu Xi, with a serious attitude. Almost offered all his love.

"The teacher is very good to me, and I will be very good to the teacher in the future."

Sometimes it’s too good for a person and won’t be taken seriously. This is the inferiority of people, but Jian Xi doesn’t. She has lived in the dark and dark world for a long, long time. There is so little hope that she wants to catch it desperately. But that person didn't give a little bit, she gave her warmth without hesitation, so different from others.

"Okay, I'll wait for you to grow up."

Yu Xi looked at Jian Xi's black-and-white eyes, in a vowed tone, the child, what a lovely creature.

The weather today is very good. Jian Xi squinted at the sky. I heard that there will be meteors in a few days, but I don’t know if it’s true. Most of them are fake, but it doesn’t matter. Jian Xi doesn’t care about that, but I heard that the meteor shower is coming. You can make a wish at time. If it can be realized, she hopes that the teacher will only treat her so well, but...

Jian Xi shook her head and shook her head to get rid of the messy things in her mind, and followed Yu Xi home. She was very selfish and didn't want her sister to come to the teacher's house in her heart, but she didn't want the teacher to see the mess in their home, the director and sister. At three o'clock in the afternoon, Jian Xi planned to take the teacher to find her sister earlier.

Jian Xi didn't take the trouble to pack back the delicious food that she had eaten at noon to Jian Chao, and after Jian Chao finished eating, she washed it up. The two stayed at home and read a book. Jian Chao looked excited and nervous.

"It's really good, then I can act and be on TV."

Jian Chao's mood is still not calm, the upcoming moment of distinguishing the true and false of the information, if she can really go to acting, will there be any difference in the future, she has liked acting since she was a child, and can't help learning and imitating her. It’s a pity that the twin sister has different interests from her. The younger sister seems to have said that she wants to be in the future.

"Sister, it must be possible."

Jian Xi cheered on Jian Chao.

"Didn't my sister ever say that I want to be a doctor? From now on I will be a big star and you will be a big doctor."

Jian Chao dreamed about the future and hooked up with Jian Xi.

Jian Xi thought for a while before she found out such a thing from her memory.

When the teacher asked them a question, what was your ideal?

Many people are talking about scientists, painters, doctors, and teachers. At that time, Jian Chao said that he wanted to be a star. Jian Xi had no ideals, so he didn't answer.

She doesn't think there is any good fantasy in the future, and there are no goals. This is the biggest difference between her and her sister. Her sister is positive, but she is very depressed.

My sister came back and pestered her to tell her one thing, Jian Xi thought about it, and finally chose a doctor.

In fact, Jian Xi doesn’t like to see blood very much, but it’s very interesting to see those doctors on the operating table who are performing operations on people on TV. They hold the power of life and death. Even if they fail, they can say that they are doing their best. NS.

What a magical profession is a doctor, who can control his life in times of crisis. Jian Xi is not only because of her interest, but also because of her father.

Her father was in a car accident and did not die on the spot. Jian Xi's memory at the time was a little fuzzy, only the ambulances roaring in, the white figure coming and going, dragged for a while, got off the operating table, and paid a lot of money. , Still useless, father is still dead.

If she had to have a goal, she would be a doctor. She wanted to experience the feeling of control, but Jian Chao thought she was inspired to be a great doctor who rescued the wounded, and smiled proudly.

"When I get sick, I will look for you, my great sister."

Jian Chao is a girl who loves fantasy. She always imagines the future so beautiful, Jian Xi will not break or deny, she just smiled and nodded.

At two o'clock, Jian Chao and Jian Xi were ready to go out.

"Sister, don't you tidy up?"

Jian Xi also intends to lend to Jian Chao the clothes that the teacher bought her yesterday. Jian Chao is still in tattered clothes and a little messy hair.

Jian Xi looked very energetic in wearing the denim that Yu Xi bought her this morning.

"No, the director asked me to play a small dragon suit in a disaster film, so I want to look miserable and can't leave him a bad impression. Sister, can you change back to the previous clothes, otherwise we two It looks weird."

If you have such a good family background, why bother to come out and beg, Jian Xi always thought that her sister was stupid and didn't think about anything, but now suddenly felt that she deserves to be her sister, and she is also very smart.

Jian Xi immediately understood what Jian Chao meant. She took off her clothes neatly, put on old clothes, and then folded her clothes carefully and hid them in a box.

Jian Xi asked Jian Chao to wait for her on the road near the school, and she went to find the teacher.

"Sister, I will go with you."

"no need."

Jian Xi refused subconsciously, saw Jian Chao's puzzled eyes, and continued to explain.

"How slow are two people? I just go in and call the teacher to come out. Sister, you don't need to be with me."

"good."

Jian Chao nodded, and stood by the side of the road obediently.

Jian Xi almost ran to the door of Yu Xi's house, calmed his breath, and rang the doorbell.

"Is the time up? Let's go."

Yu Xi wore ordinary shirts and jeans. Her hair was not scattered as before, but with a ponytail. She looked like a fresh graduate, full of vigor and vigor, instead of the gentleness of usual in class. Grace.

Yu Xi hadn't graduated long before, she was only twenty years old and very young, but she had to dress up more maturely at school to make herself look like an adult. After all, such a teacher made parents rest assured.

Yu Xi raised her eyebrows when she saw the clothes that Jian Xi had changed, and Jian Xi quickly explained the reason to her.

Yu Xi pulled Jian Xi’s hand out. As the heroine of this article who became the first sister in the entertainment circle, how could she be a silly and sweet girl? The childhood environment is so dark, no matter how positive people are, it’s impossible to be like White paper is as pure and untainted.

"Hello teacher."

Jian Chao waved his hand to greet Yu Xi, and he was relieved.

She was afraid that the teacher would dress very nicely, so embarrassing.

Yu Xi was preparing to hold one hand in hand, but Jian Xi took the hand of Jian Chao first, holding Yu Xi with one hand, placing herself in the middle position.

"Sister, relax, come on, it would be great if it is true, we will run if it is false."

Jian Xi tilted her head to talk to Jian Chao, with a very natural attitude.

Yu Xi raised her eyebrows playfully when she looked at this rather weird posture.

The exclusivity of children is really strong.

When I walked to the commercial street, I waited for a while, and a car drove up. This story didn’t matter much to Yu Xi. After she confirmed the authenticity, she took the director’s business card and took Jian Xi to watch it. Jian Chao was picked up.

From this moment on, the lives of the two sisters began to be different.

In the original book, Yu Xi did not come with them, so the hostess Jian Chao was afraid of leaving her sister, and begged the director to take her with her. She sat on the sidelines and watched. The director wanted Jian Xi to try it out, after all. It’s a sister. See if that talent is the same. The original Jane Xi’s performance was very bad, and she got the director’s sigh. At that time, Jian Xi began to know where her sister who was similar to her was better than her, so she thought It started to be different, and Jian Xi began to chase after her desperately until a tragedy happened later.

Yu Xi began to change the plot from here.

Jian Xi will follow her and will not have any contact with that place.

"Does Xiao Xi like acting?"

"do not like."

Jian Xi shook her head altogether. She hated to pretend to be another, except in front of the teacher. If the teacher can accompany her for a longer time with a well-behaved face, she wouldn't mind just pretending to be like this.

"Envy sister?"

"Why do you want to be envious?"

Yu Xi's face was reflected in Jian Xi's eyes, with a puzzled expression.

"In the future, my sister will have many beautiful clothes, many people will like her, and many people will see her."

Not every actor can be a star, but Jian Chao definitely can.

"Don't be envious. I have a teacher. The teacher bought me beautiful clothes. I don't need many people to like me. Does the teacher like me?"

Jian Xi took Yu Xi's hand and shook it.

"like."

"It's enough for the teacher to like me, why should I envy my sister."

Jian Xi's smiling eyes complete the lovely crescent moon.

"You are young."

Yu Xi took Jian Xi’s hand and started walking slowly along the roadside. When people grow up, they want a lot of things, and then they become unlovable. Children are so good that a little bit can satisfy them. When they grow up, they will know that there are still a lot of things in this world worthy of their pursuit, so they will be dissatisfied.

Yu Xi is just a child with Jian Xi's mentality, and just wants to grasp what she has in front of her.

Jian Xi didn't argue with Yu Xi either, because at a young age, the vows she uttered were like jokes. Jian Xi didn't know what she wanted. She just kept holding hands with her teacher and walked for a long, long time.

Yu Xi always did what he said, and when he said home visits were home visits, he planned to go to Jian Xi's house.

"Teacher... I have not cleaned up our house yet, can we come back tomorrow?"

When Jian Xi thought that the house was still dirty, those tattered bottles were still piled up at home before they could be sold to the people who collected them, and they looked very crowded. Even if the teacher went to her house, they had to fix them.

"It's okay, the teacher wants to see where Xiao Xi grew up."

Yu Xi touched Jian Xi's hair, and she had an idea in her heart.

Jian Xi was very upset at first, but suddenly became calm and nodded.

"Then teacher, I will take you there. Mom may not be at home."

"good."

Jian Xi suddenly remembered what her sister had told her before going to the director at noon.

Wearing oneself beautifully will make you look good from a family. If you are from a good family, why do you want to beg? Only when you are in tatters can you arouse people's sympathy.

The dirtier and more chaotic and run-down her home is, the more that woman abuses her, the more sympathy she will receive, so that the teacher will love her more, right?

Although Yu Xi was mentally prepared, seeing Jian Xi's home still felt distressed.

The room was small and very crowded. As soon as the door was opened, an unpleasant smell came out. The floor was concrete and there was no floor, so it looked dirty and gray. The living room is not big, an old sofa, a small table, the balcony is piled up and tattered, many scattered in the living room, the TV is a black cube, the table is also painted in red, and the bathroom looks dark. There is standing water on the ground.

"Teacher, it's a bit messy, you sit... the sofa is too dirty, sit on the bed in our room."

Yu Xi walked into Jian Xi and Jian Chao’s room. The bed was a single bed. It seemed barely enough for two children. There was a relatively high table in the room with two stools and a small lamp on the table. And some books, there is no wardrobe in the room, only a **** box placed in the corner, the space is very cramped, and there are only so many things.

Jian Xi's sheets and quilts are gray-blue, with two small pillows on them, and the quilts are neatly folded.

Although life is not good, the two children are trying to make it better.

Yu Xi's expression was very calm. She sat on Jian Xi's bed without showing any sympathy or compassion. She acted as usual, but holding Jian Xi's hand exposed her mood.

"Teacher, I will pour you some water."

Jian Xi ran out embarrassedly and hurriedly. After turning around twice, she realized that there were no disposable water cups and drinking fountains at home. She and her sister both bought the bottle of mineral water outside to drink, and now they are also at home. With only half a bottle of what she and her sister had drunk, Jian Xi returned to the room a little annoyed.

"Teacher, there is no water at home, I will go out and buy you a bottle."

There was no money in Jian Xi's pocket. Their money was still under the bed, so Jian Xi crawled under the bed with Yu Xi's face, and showed a silly smile at Yu Xi when she climbed out.

Yu Xi's hands tightened, and her throat was a bit dry.

"No, the teacher is not thirsty."

"No, no, I'll buy it, and the teacher will wait for me to come back."

Before Yu Xi stopped, Jian Xi ran out in a hurry. There was a creaking sound of opening the door, and then with a sound, the door was closed again.

Yu Xi touched the quilt under her hand, she must hurry up and take Jian Xi away.

[Hey, I feel so distressed, so a cute little loli QAQ host. This time, the little girl is so well-behaved, so cute, obedient and sensible. 】

Yu Xi nodded inconspicuously. Jian Xi is indeed behaved, and she likes children who are not fussy. If Jian Xi is a wayward thrashing every day, she does not guarantee that she will have such a good patience to take care of instead of kicking. go out.

A harsh sound came from the door again, come back so soon?

Yu Xi walked out of the room and confronted the woman who was putting the keys.

Yu Xi looked at Jian Xi’s mother and frowned. The woman’s clothes were a little wrinkled, her hair looked a bit messy, her complexion was pale and haggard, and she felt a haggard look. The woman’s length is not ugly, and her facial features look very gentle. , But her expression completely distorted the gentleness and looked a little hysterical.

Yu Xi was fortunate that this woman hadn't been particularly degenerate yet, and she hadn't done something to betray her body because of lack of money, otherwise Jian Xi and Jian Chao would definitely be more painful.

This woman loves her husband miserably, so she hates her daughter, which sounds absurd and crazy.

"Who are you and why are you in my house?"

The woman's tone is very bad, looking at strangers, full of aggressiveness.

"Hello, I'm Jian Chao's class teacher. I'm here to visit."

"Home visit? Teacher? No need, walk around, hurry up, I don't care about her affairs, whoever cares who cares, understand? Go out."

The women behaved very impatiently, and their attitude became worse when they heard that it was about Jane Chao and they did not have any particular reaction to the word teacher.

"This parent, I think we should sit down and talk. Even if you don't care about your children's education, you should not damage your children's things."

"Damage, oh... you are the teacher who bought the clothes for Jian Xi, right? I want you to be nosy, my daughter, how should I deal with you?"

The woman sneered, aggressively.