Chi Junyan had a dream.

He was crying in his dream.

He seemed to be watching thousands of miles away, faintly wanting to laugh. He never cried, he would rather bleed than fragile and cry.

But he suddenly covered his chest fragilely, and the dull pain from there made him unable to bear. There seemed to be pointing and pointing voices around him, as if there were attacks, verbal abuse, ridicule, ridicule, and countless words to make him. Almost collapsed.

It hurts, I really want to cry.

He woke up from his dream, fluffed his hair irritably, looked at Chi Lu who was sleeping beside him, tried the quilt corner, and got out of bed.

He never smokes or drinks, one is because he is not good at it, and the other is that he is worried that it will be bad for children. But now, Chi Junyan is very eager to have a bottle of wine or a cigarette. In many cases, the pain cannot be vented and can only use these to paralyze the nerves.

He stretched, leaning against the French window until dawn, the little girl struggled to get up sleepy with her eyes squinted, and then he took up all her thoughts.

That strange dream is not of these worlds. Chi Junyan has reason to think that it was his life. It's just that he can't remember what he saw in his dream anyway, only that kind of despair made his heart stop, even if he is awake, he still has a haze in his heart. He hadn't planned to go back originally. Even if he died in this world, the mission failed. But this dream woke Chi Junyan up again. He was going back, and the angels couldn't stop him.

He recalled every second in Wangchuan, the feeling of being on the verge of collapse was terrible. He always felt that he was going to die soon, but when he opened his eyes, there were still countless ghosts around him.

Nothing is over, nothing is over.

Chi Lu obediently came to the kitchen after washing herself, tilted her head and found that there was something wrong with her father, so she reminded: "Dad, egg..."

Chi Junyan returned to his senses and found that the eggs in the pan had been burnt and gave off an unpleasant smell. He quickly opened the window to ventilate, and let Chi Lu sit on a chair to wait, don't come in, lest the oil smoked her clothes. I put the burnt omelette into the trash can again, and took another one. This time without accident, I fry it into a heart shape with a mold and send it to the table.

The little girl was already hungry, she shook her little hand and smiled sweetly, "Daddy is great."

"Where is it great?" Chi Junyan asked casually.

"The kids all say that their dad can't cook, but my dad does, so my dad is the best." The little girl opened her mouth and said sweetly as if she didn't want money. This flattering Chi Junyan was refreshed and habitually pinched her face, and then asked her: "Drink the milk."

The more Chi Lu grew older, the less he liked to drink milk, but since her father asked for it, she would reluctantly drink it all. After drinking, he hurried to eat something else to taste it. The expression that looked like drunk poison made Chi Junyan laugh: "Is it so bad?"

"It's terrible!" Chi Lu wrinkled her face while pinching her nose. "The advertisement says that milk is squeezed from cows. I am a human being. I don't want to drink cow's milk!"

Chi Junyan was so amused by her that she laughed, and explained it again, until Chi Lu bitterly promised that she would drink a drink every day.

When Chi Lu went to school, Chi Junyan came back and started working again. Although he does not advertise, he charges a fee for writing articles. This kind of painstaking and hard work is free for whatever reason. Although he has money, he is still human. I always don't despise myself for having a little more money. In the future, if he leaves by any chance, Chi Lu will have a better life if he has a little more money.

Chi Junyan, who was worried that he would be hacked to death by Chi Lu one day in his sleep, had already made a will. No matter how he died, the last heir was Chi Lu, and she was the only one.

Time passed slowly. Soon, Chi Lu was already twelve years old. After graduating from the sixth grade of elementary school, he would be promoted to junior high school. Chi Junyan was pleased that Chi Lu’s grades did not have to worry him at all. Although the child was spoiled and spoiled for a long time Big, but smart and hard-working, every semester is the number one in the age.

The same as when I was alive.

When he was alive...Chi Junyan was fascinated, Chi Lu threw on her back before reacting, and directly carried the little **** her back: "Why did you come back before school time?"

"After the exam, school will be over. I took the bus back with my classmates."

Well, in addition to being smart and hardworking, Chi Junyan has also been cultivating Chi Lu’s independent ability. He really doesn’t know which day he will lead him, so he has to regard every tomorrow as the last day. Fortunately, although Chi Lu is a bit squeamish, Depend on him, but very sensible and obedient. Even if he is not there, it is okay to take care of yourself. For Chi Junyan, this is enough.

"Are you hungry?"

"No, I ate skewers with my classmates on the way back." After speaking, Chi Lu immediately covered her mouth and looked at Chi Junyan pitifully: "Dad...I just ate two. Really, just two." Afraid that Chi Junyan would not believe it, he even deliberately extended **** to indicate that he "really" only ate two.

Chi Junyan looked at her helplessly: "Let's not take this as an example."

"Thank you, Dad!" The first second was still a little pitiful, and the next second he cheered and kissed Chi Junyan's face. Chi Junyan was typing, letting her hang on her body like a koala. It was neither annoying nor heavy. After Chi Lu grew up, he stopped posting photos on Weibo to avoid being recognized.

But something that Chi Junyan never expected happened. He was thinking about when the reborn Chi Lu would appear every day, but he forgot about another thing, until Chi Lu came home from school one day in the first year of junior high. He showed a very strange expression, looking at this and then again, Chi Junyan, who was watching cooking, was all over his body: "What are you looking at?"

"father……"

With this unkind scream, Chi Junyan grabbed the kitchen knife tightly: "What are you doing?" Could it be the rebirth of Chi Lu?

In the next second, Chi Lu immediately smiled: "Dad, can you tell me about mom?"

Mom... If it wasn't for Chi Luti, Chi Junyan would have forgotten that Chi Lu was born in the belly of a real Chi Junyan girlfriend, oh...yes, yes, Chi Lu has a mother! He only reacted: "Ask her what to do?" The little girl never asked her mother since she was a child. She never asked, and Chi Junyan never thought of explaining, how? The one-night stand hits the gun and the other party is pregnant, knowing that he has money and deliberately drags it until he can't get it, come to ask for money?

Isn't it embarrassing to say it?

"A woman came to me today, she said it was my mother."

"What?!" Chi Junyan frowned. He is very good-looking. He hasn't been old for so many years, and he can wear clothes well, so he looks young and handsome. "What is her purpose?"

"I think...she may indeed be my mother, she looks a lot like me." Chi Lu touched her face, "but I am not as beautiful as I am. Why would I have half my genes from a great father?"

With this sweet mouth, Chi Junyan raised his eyebrows: "Then what?"

"Then she asked me if I wanted my mother or a happy family." Chi Lu smacked, "I think she might want to get back together with you, because I asked, she is not married yet."

Chi Junyan thought about it in his heart. The other party was seventeen when he was born Chi Lu, and now Chi Lu is twelve. The other party... "Isn't it normal to not get married at the age of twenty-nine? What if she just wants to see you? "

"Dad, aren't you afraid that she will come to fight you for custody?" Chi Lu pouted. "I don't want to recognize my mother, she didn't bring me up."

Chi Junyan soothed: "Don't worry, she won't leave your guardianship. If she wants to see you, you can do it if you want, otherwise I won't let her approach you."

Chi Lu smiled immediately: "Thank you Dad!"

Because I just finished the exam, I can relax, so according to Chi Lu's request, Chi Junyan is going to take her to the night market by the way and allow her to eat a little junk food. As a result, the father and daughter saw the woman walking back and forth at the door as soon as they left the community. The two looked at each other and turned around and walked back together, but unfortunately it was too late. The other party found them and immediately shouted, "Chi Junyan! Chi Junyan!"

Alas... "I would have known it a long time ago and I won't go out." Chi Lu muttered, then looked up at her biological mother. She is not a fool. You can tell at a glance whether other people are good or not. This woman is saying that she misses herself, but her eyes are completely different from her father. She has no feelings at all, so she doesn't believe that the other person is true. Miss her daughter.

I really thought, why haven't I seen her once in twelve years? They never moved.

"Hello there."

The woman was a little dumbfounded, mainly because he didn't dare to recognize Chi Junyan. Chi Junyan who was with her back then was a sullen bastard. He had nothing but money, but the man stood in front of him, looking at most twenty-five. Sixth, the white T-shirt and jeans are so good-looking. Besides being young, they have the maturity precipitated by the years, which is really fascinating.

On the other hand, I was twenty-nine, and I didn't live well at all. I had crow's feet in the corners of my eyes with rough skin. Now standing in front of the father and daughter, there is an indescribable sense of embarrassment. The woman bowed her head awkwardly, regretting it in her heart. If she was not obsessed with getting pregnant for money, or if she did not use the child to pay back the money, but stayed with Chi Junyan, now this handsome and elegant man is her husband, beautiful and cute The girl is her daughter!

It's a pity that no regret medicine has ever been sold in the world, and a woman just won't be reconciled, and the past can't be changed. She smiled at Chi Junyan first, and suddenly she didn't know how to say what she had prepared before coming. I always feel that no matter how high-sounding reasons I say in front of such a person, I can't conceal my despicable and mediocre heart. She licked her lips, and finally only asked one sentence: "You, how are you now?"

"pretty good."

"me……"

"What do you want to say?" Chi Junyan's voice is very gentle. He has this expression in front of outsiders. He never seems to be angry or embarrassing. But only he knows that his heart is dead water, and he won't tremble for anyone. In this world, he doesn't care about anyone except Chi Lu.

But even if it was late, he couldn't stop him.

Chi Lu was afraid that Chi Junyan would suffer. After all, in her memory, her dad was the kind of gentle and good-spoken old person, and this kind of thing that always suffers can't be done in the future! So even if the woman in front of her is her own biological mother, she will never give in.