Sometimes you can't catch it, even if you don't let go or give up, you still can't catch it.

Chi Junyan was lying on the bed, looking up at the ceiling quietly, slowly raising his hands and making a face-squeezing motion. At this moment, what appeared before his eyes was the little girl with one hand, holding it in her arms. The girl who called him Dad with his arm and gave him a sweet smile.

But that is also late. No matter which one is late, it is late. He has no way to heal the pain of rebirth, because as long as he exists, as long as he appears in front of her, her heart will recall the bad past life over and over again.

And his Lulu, maybe never come back. Chi Junyan's raised hand stayed in the air for a long time, and finally put it down slowly, covering his eyes.

He refused to admit that the fluid flowing out of his eye sockets was called tears.

Those are emotions that humans have. Only when humans have love can they feel sad and sad, but the difference between evil spirits and humans is that evil spirits do not cry. Their eyes do not grow for tears, they will never forget despair and pain, but without tears, the pain will not go away.

After a long, long time, the faint light of the morning sun has penetrated into the window without curtains. Chi Junyan put down his hand covering his eyes. For a while, he didn't know what he was going to do. At this time, he would get up first and put Breakfast is ready, and then knock on the door of Chi Lu's room, eat breakfast, and then the father and daughter go out for a morning jog together, but now... he is a little at a loss.

Reaching out and touching the phone, there were no text messages or missed calls. Chi Junyan sat on the bed cross-legged, his head lowered, the morning sun shone in and refracted on his face, but it happened to cover his eyebrows, only exposed in the morning light. The bottom half of the face in Zhong expresses his mood.

Then he got up as usual, made breakfast, and jogged in the morning. When passers-by met a familiar man asking why Lulu hadn't come, Chi Junyan smiled and explained that Lulu had gone to play at a friend's house. He didn't know why he was so sad. It was clear that Chi Lu didn't want to kill him now, which means that she saw the difference between herself and Chi Junyan in the previous life, but even so, he still—

Chi Junyan sat down on a chair in the park and wiped off his sweat with a towel. The distance he ran today was much longer than usual, and he even went to a strange park. He rested for a few minutes, stood up and was about to go, but suddenly heard a faint meow. Chi Junyan stood still, and after a few seconds, he walked slowly over, pushed aside the bushes, and saw a kitten that was so dirty that he couldn't see the original color.

The kitten noticed someone, raised his small head that was not as big as Chi Junyan's palm, and gave a soft cry. Two small paws fiddled with the bushes around him, looking like they were stuck.

Chi Junyan looked at it, suddenly as if he saw the little girl hiding under the coffee table a long time ago, looking at himself timidly. He smiled, gently pushed aside the grass, and took out the kitten that was stuck between the branches, only to find that one of the kitten's hind limbs was **** and he didn't know how long he had been stuck here. Chi Junyan looked around and found no trace of the mother cat, but the kitten was obviously just born. He thought about it and thought it might be abandoned by the mother cat, so he held it in his palm and went to a pet hospital. .

After the examination, the doctor said it was a skin trauma, and he can take it home after a few days in the hospital. Chi Junyan touched it with his hand across the cage, and the little guy snored slightly, so fragile and so touching.

He told the doctor what he wanted to raise, and with the help of the doctor, he made up a lot of knowledge about raising cats. After swiping the card, he touched the kitten. It was too small. After cleaning and wiping the wound, it can be seen that it was A yellow and white rural cat. The doctor repeatedly confirmed what Chi Junyan meant. All cats were very cute when they were young. However, when they grow up, some will break away from their original appearance when they were young. They are naughty, grumpy, easy to hurt people, and look ugly...everyone There is no guarantee what a cute little milk cat will look like in the future.

Most people abandon their pets for these reasons.

From this day on, Chi Junyan would visit the pet hospital every day to see kittens, and never called Chi Lu again. He gave what he could, no matter what the final result, he accepted.

Even if Chi Lu is brought back, it is not Xiao Chi Lu who has depended on him for all these years. There was a lot of love and hatred in her heart, and Chi Junyan didn't want Chi Lu to be at home, looking at her familiar face every day, she didn't know how much hate she felt in her heart.

Why bother torturing each other? The children have grown up with full wings, and there are more people who don't stay at home, not to mention that it is still summer vacation, she can go wherever she wants, as long as she is safe.

A week later, the doctor said that the kitten was almost well injured and could be taken home, just be careful. So Chi Junyan cautiously returned home with a milk cat wearing a shame mask. This week he cleaned out a room as a cat house, and also set up a cat litter toilet for cat food and cat litter-all the cats in short. He is ready if needed.

The kitten has a very well-behaved personality. It never stretches its paws in Chi Junyan’s arms. Even after following Chi Junyan home, it follows him wherever he goes. Chi Junyan must take it with him when he sleeps at night, otherwise it He would keep meowing, but this caused Chi Junyan not to turn over, for fear of accidentally crushing the little guy who didn't know where he was sleeping.

After eating soft cat food for a few days, Chi Junyan found that the kitten had soft stools and the smell was unusually strong. He checked it on the Internet and decided to change his mind. He will not let him eat cat food anymore and give him cat every day. rice.

In order to have a balanced nutrition and a proper mix, he also used the computer to strictly formulate a seven-day-a-week meal, not only to do, but also to do delicately.

This kind of thing that ordinary people would find troublesome, but he did it happily. He put all his energy and effort on this cat, and then he discovered that there were only animals who would never betray or dislike it.

Even if he is from Wangchuan, even if he is not a human being, as long as he is willing to give, the animal will respond.

Chi Junyan named the kitten "Little Orange" because it was covered in orange fur, and only the head and belly had white patterns on the belt. The growth rate of kittens is much faster than that of people. Chi Junyan takes pictures of it every day, and then finds that the kittens are growing up at a speed visible to the naked eye.

During this period, he never called Chi Lu again, as if he never had this person in his life. But he bought many things and sent it to Guan's family, including the teddy bear that Chi Lu liked especially at home. That was the first toy he bought for her. She has bought a newer and better one over the years, the one she likes the most.

At the same time, in order to express his gratitude to the Guan family, Chi Junyan also prepared gifts for their family. It's just that he doesn't take the initiative to come to the door, nor does he take the initiative to greet him.

This home is quite big, but with the little oranges, he also feels very happy.

When holding a little orange in the palm, it seems that the whole world becomes soft. Fans on the Internet are surprised to find that after the male **** raised a cat, little Lolita has fallen out of favor! Under Chi Junyan's feeding, the little orange grows up day by day. Fortunately, its appearance has not deteriorated as it grows up, but the longer it gets, the more adorable it becomes.

Chi Junyan spends his spare time with Xiao Orange.

But maybe it was Xiao Orange who was with him.

Sometimes he lay down in the cat house for an afternoon without any entertainment, even if he just watched the little orange sleep, he felt happy.

It's a long absence, tenderness and love rising from the depths of my heart. He feels that he is becoming more and more like a "person". Although the pain will be stronger after having love, he still feels beautiful.

So reluctant to let go, reluctant to let go.

Who would be willing to let go? What a wonderful thing to be alive. He struggled in the Wangchuan River for thousands of years because of an obsession. Chi Junyan wanted to go back, but he understood that if he wanted to go back, he did not necessarily have to avenge the people who had betrayed and deceived him. Maybe, he went back, just I want to tell myself: You didn't do anything wrong, and you don't need to be ashamed.

There was no sound when the meat ball stepped on the ground, but the little orange used his paw to catch it when he drank the water, so when he ran again, there would be small footprints on the floor. The cute Chi Junyan's heart was about to melt, he called Xiao Orange, and the little milk cat swayed towards him.

The injury of the hind limbs is almost healed, even when he was running, he still staggered. As soon as the sun shone in, the small and soft hairs on the little orange were clearly visible. Chi Junyan hugged it and gently scratched his chin and ears. The little orange snored Sound, licked Chi Junyan's hand, meow meow meow.

Chi Junyan couldn't help smiling.

But Chi Lu, who was with the person she liked every day, gradually became silent. Guan Zong would take her out to play every day, even if he didn't go out, he would always accompany her. In the first few days, she was indeed very happy. She seemed to have made up for all the regrets in the previous life, holding his hand all the time and never letting go.

There is no need to worry about him doing stupid things for himself, no longer worrying that he is not worthy of him, and no need to fear that his father will suddenly appear in front of him, exposing all the dark and unbearable sunlight.

No one would look at her with contempt and disgusting eyes. She walked on the street and no one pointed at her. She was taken care of and loved like a little princess, and even the wind that blew in every day was sweet and beautiful.

Guan’s father and Guan’s mother like herself very much. She can live in Guan’s family ever since. Guan Zong loves her. She embraces him every day and acts like a baby. When they are all grown up, they can complete the unfinished wedding in the previous life. The vows, white hair together, grow old together.

But why does she feel sad in her heart?

Is this her?

When dreaming at night, she always dreamed that in the seven years before this, the man in the dream had the same face as the person she hated the most, but his temperament was completely different. He was so gentle and loving, and always pampered. He looked at her with his big hands warmly stroking her head, and then squeezed her face down.

He never ignored it, but she would pretend to be sore, and then threw into his arms and made some willful small requests. He would frown and hesitate, but in the end she would always agree.

That person's name is Chi Junyan.

It's her father.

Chi Lu sat blankly in the yard, closed his family alone, the yard was full of flowers and plants, and now it happens to be open in summer, and you can smell the fragrance every day.

She raised her head and looked at the sky. The sun was about to set again. It was not too hot and cloudless, and occasionally a bird would fly by.

Xia Guang shines on the fence surrounded by green vines, Chi Lu shook her feet. She doesn’t know why she suddenly likes to sit here, but if she sits here, she has a good view and can see the intersection from a distance. If someone or a car comes in, she will see it as soon as possible.

She sits here and looks out every day when she is okay, but she doesn't know why she is doing this.

I don’t know how long I’ve been sitting, when someone patted her on the shoulder suddenly, Chi Lu turned her head in surprise, subconsciously, with her head down: "Dad!"

It is Guan Zong.

She knew that her face must be ugly now, like a smile but a smile, a cry but a cry. Guan Zong looked at her, squeezing her soft face with both hands: "Laughing, how can you cry with a sad face? It's not cute at all."

"...I'm not cute anyway." The Chi Lu from the previous life was gloomy and introverted, and she didn't touch the word cute at all. After meeting Guan Zong, she knew what laughter meant.

Guan Zong also jumped onto the railing and sat there, following Chi Lu's sight, looking into the distance: "Do you miss Dad?"

"Nothing."

Guan Zong was not angry at her denial, but just chuckled: "When I was young, my parents took me back to my grandparents’ home in the countryside. I met a lot of friends there. I didn’t know how much fun I had every day. They refused to come back with them. They had nothing to do, so they kept me, saying that they would pick me up after half a month."

"...What are you telling me about this." In fact, she probably knew what he wanted to say, but she still asked.

"I happily played until the evening. There are many children in my grandparents' house, but it's strange to say that I couldn't sleep at all that night, and couldn't help crying. The next day I clamored to go home."

"At that time, I knew that I missed my parents so much. Even if it was only for one night, even if I was in junior high school, I still didn't want to separate from them." Guan Zong said, turning his head to smile at Chi Lu, and rubbed. She hair softly. "You know, some things can't be ignored forever. Some feelings accumulate day by day, and you don't feel it when you are not paying attention, but once you leave, you know how valuable it is."

Chi Lu bowed her head and said nothing.

"Sooner or later, we will have to live with our parents. So when we are still with them, we must learn to cherish, because you don't know when you will be lost."