Seventy-ninth bowl of soup (2)

"got used to."

Liang Ze said these three words very naturally, and then he began to work on his own. The floor needs to be mopped, the dishes and chopsticks need to be brushed, and many things need to be tidyed. Qinghuan has no appetite and can't eat it. Watching him work around, she stopped him and said, "Don't be busy."

Liang Ze was surprised. She slowly pondered the words, thinking about how to maintain a strange state between the two people: "You don't need to do this for me. I have already called the housekeeping company. I listen to the hospital. The nurse said that you have been taking care of me for the past few months. I woke up and went home without telling you. I'm really sorry."

She was so calm, Liang Ze didn't dare to recognize each other instead. He has become accustomed to the arrogant and self-willed joy, and suddenly seeing her change a person, he really couldn't believe what he saw. "You...what's wrong? Is there anything else uncomfortable?"

"I found the previous photo album and some status on the Internet, and I know what we used to be, but now that we broke up, I just forgot, so please don't remind me again." Qing Huan said lightly. , She really doesn't remember what happened, but she can still get clues from the objects in the past. It is nothing more than her unreasonable and unreasonable make Liang Ze feel tired and unacceptable, so she proposed to break up.

He couldn't bear it, but that's it, he still couldn't help but take care of her, probably because of the habit he had cultivated since childhood. The Liang family treated her very well, but because of this, Qing Huan felt that she shouldn't blame Liang Ze for asking to break up before her memory loss. But she can only look at it clearly and calmly if she doesn't remember anything. If she still remembers, she might still be arrogant and refuse to let go.

Liang Ze may still like her, but she is too unbearable.

"Qinghuan..." Liang Ze couldn't rest assured that she was alone. They grew up together, and even if they couldn't be together, the affection between each other could not be cut off.

But Qing Huan insisted: "I don't want to see you again in a short time, and you don't want to come to me. I'm very sorry for the past, but in the future, I will trouble you not to disturb you again. Relatively, I don't Will go to you again. Regarding you and your family... I am grateful that you have been so kind to me and raised me, but I don’t remember now, so I don’t want to go back. You can understand what I mean. ?"

In other words, she is a completely stranger now, and has nothing to do with the Liang family anymore. Qing Huan thought, if others knew about it, she would feel very ruthless. But this is what she thinks now. In order not to hurt herself, she chooses to push these people far away-she prefers to live alone.

She would be sad to see those photos. If she lives with Liang Ze again, she will watch him find someone he loves again, maybe she will get married and have children to grow old, so how embarrassed she will be?

Liang Ze felt that he did not recognize Qinghuan after waking up at all. She was not the same as before, as if she was completely changed. The stranger made him think that he had never understood her. That wayward, Qinghuan, who would be jealous and angry when he saw a word between him and a woman, seemed to disappear completely.

He felt relieved from the bottom of his heart, but also lost.

Qing Huan did not give Liang Ze a chance to speak, and pushed him out, closing the door in front of him. Then she turned around and touched her face. She didn't know when the tears had already flowed down her cheeks, and she was very embarrassed. She obviously didn't remember anything, but she was still sad like this. Before she lost her memory, what did she go through? What else does she don't know? She put together the scattered past in the photo album on the Internet. Is there anything that she hasn't recovered?

However, it's good not to find it back. If you find it back, you should be even more unhappy.

She slid down with her back against the door, wrapped her hands around her knees, and started sobbing softly.

So sad, I want to die again.

The kind of sadness that could not be concealed by seeing Liang Ze, the intense sadness surged in her heart, making her seem to be trapped in a huge cage. But she didn't know the reason or the result, she only had one locked up now. If she doesn't escape quickly, she will definitely die again.

It took a long time for Qinghuan to get up from the ground. She looked at the empty living room. She felt that she needed to start a new life quickly. She couldn't do nothing like this, and she couldn't always think of Liang Ze. She was over with him.

Regardless of your lover, brother or sister, or friend, don't do this anymore. It's best not to meet again in this life, she will feel happy.

Because he wanted to abandon the past that he didn't remember, Qinghuan quickly found someone to redecorate the house, but it cost several times the price. The pink princess wind disappeared completely, and the new style presented was a minimalist cool color. The dolls and dolls were not willing to throw away, and she gave them to the children in the nearest orphanage, as well as those beautiful and immature Lori. Tower wind skirt-did she always live in a dream in the past?

If it is, Qinghuan can imagine what it means to the princess who has been living in the ivory tower and dreamland, suddenly one day when the dream collapses and the reality is cruelly torn apart.

Liang Ze is that reality. He doesn't want her anymore, he wants to break up, it's the last straw that crushes her.

Qing Huan sat in the office and lit a cigarette. I don’t know when I contracted this problem. It may be that I was really upset at home in the few days after I was discharged. I happened to see an unopened box of ladies’ cigarettes in the drawer. I tried it at that time and found that it had a miraculous effect.

She is really different from before, as can be seen in the eyes of many people.

The studio at home was converted into a gym, and Qing Huan never painted again, because when she faced the blank canvas, she had no inspiration at all. When she picked up the paintbrush, there were all kinds of Liang Ze in her mind. For the self before the amnesia, painting and Liang Ze were all of life. Now her left hand is basically abolished, and Liang Ze broke up with her. In the past, it was equivalent to a complete collapse, so she didn't want it.

Perhaps in the bottom of her heart, she felt that the self before the amnesia and the self now were not the same at all. She only inherited her thoughts and emotions before her amnesia, but not her soul. Otherwise, why can she let go of the paintings and people she once loved?

It must be so.

She is the new one, and should not be constrained by the past.

So when the left hand was almost healed, she happened to come to work at the company. In order to cover up her left hand injury, she used to wrap a bandage on her wrist, but when someone saw the bandage was not good, she bought a very beautiful agate bracelet. Wearing it, occasionally reveals the indelible red marks under the bracelet, just like old wounds in my heart. It doesn't hurt anymore, but it still exists and will always exist.

She sat quietly in the office learning how to manage a company. She studied art at university. Qinghuan didn’t know anything about it. So now she’s an agent giving her supplementary lessons. She is studying crazy every day, because time is fundamental. Not enough, so the number of times I think of Liang Ze is gradually shrinking.

The agent who taught her is the person who has been managing the company for so many years. The age is probably not too young. Qinghuan never asked. The other party still looks young, but the temperament and calmness that have been deposited over the years are definitely not age. The gentle lad can have it. Qing Huan once observed the other party and wanted to see if there were fine lines around his eyes. After all, he was in charge when she had memories, but it seemed that the other party was also very elegant and perfect when she smiled occasionally.

"Uncle Kong, I still don't quite understand here." She pointed to a certain definition in the book and asked.

Although I am a novice from the aspect of business management, this kind of serious study attitude is very popular. Kong Hanri took a look and explained to her slowly. His voice is very good, low and magnetic, and he is also very dignified, otherwise it would be impossible for the company to stand tall for so many years, and even the Liang family could not catch up.

Kong Hanri is an excellent teacher, Qing Huan is a very hard-working student, and very smart, one who teaches comfortably, the other enjoys learning, but also gets along well. When he learned that Qinghuan had amnesia and was about to take over the family business, Kong Hanri was still a little surprised. This girl had been dazzled by love before. This time she suddenly opened her mouth. It seems that occasional amnesia is not completely bad. of.

He and Qing Huan's father who had passed away were good friends. After the death of his friend, he thought about adopting Qing Huan, but after another thought, he took the seat of the agent and raised the little girl. It might not be nice to say it. It just so happened that the Liang family also asked to take care of Qinghuan, and Qinghuan himself was unwilling to follow him at the time, Kong Hanri did not force it. However, it has been almost 20 years, and his relationship with Qinghuan has been far apart. He can't see each other several times throughout the year, so he greets each other during the holidays.

Originally, Kong Hanri was happy to see her story with Liang Ze. He knew and believed in the behavior of the old Liang family. He must have raised the little girl as a daughter, but Qinghuan’s character is indeed a big problem. Let's just say, Kong Hanri can't stand such a good temper. It was a matter of time for the young couple to break up, but he never expected Qing Huan to commit suicide.

When she committed suicide, Liang Ze didn't dare to talk about breaking up anymore, but at this time the little girl had forgotten everything!

I don't know if it is good or bad.

It has been more than a month since she was discharged from the hospital. It seems that there is nothing serious about it. Liang Ze has been here many times and she refuses to see her. She always avoids leaving. It is probably not well in her heart.