Seventy-ninth bowl of soup (7)

Liang Ze always wanted to meet Qing Huan, but Uncle Kong looked too tightly and couldn’t find a chance. He always had no answer to her past calls until one day, Qing Huan took the initiative to contact him, and Arranged to meet him at a milk tea shop that he liked a lot before, and asked him not to tell anyone and go there alone.

It's been a long time... Liang Ze doesn't have this kind of thunderous and tense heartbeat. It's probably because his personality has become extraordinarily calm after adolescence has passed. He obviously went to meet his ex-girlfriend who had broken up, but he was excited. Like a young young man who just fell in love, he was choosing the suit in the closet back and forth, not knowing which suit to wear to look better.

When my parents and sister learned that they also came to help pick them, they also gave a death order to make him dress up well, to see if he could coax the little girl home with beauty-after so many years, they have long been a family. No one can do without the family.

With everyone's help, Liang Ze changed his clothes and was ready to go out.

Qinghuan arrived earlier than the agreed time. She sat in the corner by the window and ordered a cup of caramel milk tea for a long time. Liang Ze arrived half an hour earlier, but she seemed to have been sitting here for a while. Up.

He nervously wiped his sweaty palms on his pants: "Qinghuan..."

"Sit, what would you like to drink?"

"I, I can drink anything."

Qing Huan smiled and ordered him a glass of orange juice. This milk tea shop is not very big. Most of them come from couples. Liang Ze is handsome in suits and leather shoes. He looks like a successful person, and he is incompatible with milk tea. "It’s been a long time. I found the diary in the past. It said that we two often came here before, but that was all many years ago. Although it is still a milk tea shop, the decoration inside has changed. The boss has also changed."

Liang Ze felt that she had something in her words, the appearance was still the same, but the inside was different, as if she was talking about her after amnesia, and she was not the same person before. "what happened to you?"

"Do you think I am right now?"

She asked without thinking, but Liang Ze thought for a while and answered seriously: "Okay."

"I think so." Qing Huan smiled, "I used to be too selfish and capricious. I was so coquettish and crying and had a bad temper. If I didn't go well, I would make a lot of noise. You must listen to me, otherwise I would be unreasonable. Now think about it, even if it’s me, I can’t stand that character. It’s normal for you to think about breaking up.” Think about it in another way. If she has a boyfriend who has the same personality as her, she will do too. Nervous breakdown wants to break up every day.

Liang Ze didn't know what she wanted to express, so she could only listen quietly.

"No matter in the diary, on the Internet, or in the photos, except for the two of us, the woman named Wandi has been with us all the time."

"You are good friends, and Wandi and I are also friends..."

"Really?" Qing Huan smiled happily. "Have Wandi told you that she took me to see a psychiatrist?"

"what?"

"No." Her smile slowly disappeared. "I thought I was suspicious, the lipstick mark on your shirt, the perfume that belongs to the woman in your pocket, and the long hair that you occasionally wear on your body... The quarrel at that time should be terrible, but I can't remember it anymore. , Only in the diary."

Liang Ze certainly remembered that he was exhausted by Qing Huan's persecution. No matter how he explained it, she didn't believe it. He had to confess, and the whole world was turned upside down.

"Wandi said that men like to steal fishy, ​​and will never admit that you must force him, otherwise he will never tell the truth; Wandi said that Liang Ze is very popular with female subordinates in the company, and there are many women. Want to chase him, she can't come over for me; Wandi said, Liang Ze is most afraid of getting entangled, you are his girlfriend, you don't need to be reasonable, he doesn't let you just love you... Look, this book In the diary, there are so many Wandi said. Now that I have become an outsider with no memory, I discovered that it was Wandi who had penetrated our feelings from beginning to end." Qing Huan felt that she was stupid before her amnesia. , "Think about it now, who else can produce the so-called evidence of derailment more easily than Wandi, who is your assistant?"

"Wait a minute, you just said the psychiatrist..."

At this time, Liang Ze still concerns Qinghuan's body and spirit most. He really loves her and cares about her, but what can he do? Qing Huan looked at him, took the file bag on the side seat, and pushed it to Liang Ze. "You can choose to watch or not."

Liang Ze opened the file bag. Qinghuan didn’t have many things in it, and her diary was also in it. “The quarrel made my mental state very bad. Wandi suggested that he knows a very good psychologist who can help me. Getting out of the trough can also help us resolve the emotional crisis. I went and believed it. The doctor said that I was suffering from depression and prescribed some medicine. But after those medicines, my mood became worse and worse."

"I stopped taking the medicine for a while, and there were signs of derailment on your body again, and we quarreled again-so fierce and fierce, I know you are tired, you want to break up with me, it is very written in the diary Clearly, at that moment, I thought of suicide."

Qing Huan’s smile turned a little sarcasm, “I asked Uncle Kong to check it out on a whim the other day, only to realize that the psychiatrist and Wandi are more than friends, and they are simply spare tires who are obsessed with her. The doctor has no medical ethics, do you know that?"

She has never had any depression before, but she has been ignorantly loved by Uncle Liang, Aunt Liang and Liang Ze. She is just a little willful and squeamish, but after having a friend like Wandi, she gradually became overbearing and arrogant. This has nothing to do with the Liang family, but with her ambitious and face-saving "good friend". Wan Di deliberately guided her pure Qing Huan, so that she gradually became completely unrecognizable, for Liang Ze.

Until she went to see the psychiatrist and took a mess of medicines, she also took out the illnesses she didn't have. After a long time, her mental state could not be overwhelmed, and she collapsed completely.

"Now, I should be thankful for this suicide, otherwise I won't wake up, and it won't be better." Qing Huan drank the milk tea-it was cold, but the taste was still very sweet. She looked at Liang Ze, watched him look at the information, and her handsome face changed from disbelief to stern. "So we can't reconcile anymore."

Liang Ze looked up at her when he heard the words, and there were many emotions in her eyes, but Qing Huan didn't want to look at it, she was afraid that she would feel softer, and she was afraid that she would not be persistent enough. "I'm not a very good girlfriend. I'm always too childish, too fond of crying and showing off my temper. I like you to stay with me all the time, and surround me. Don't have anyone in your life except me—you used to say me The cutest, I hope I will always remain that innocent, and then you spoiled me, and then told me that I am not mature enough, not gentle enough to stand behind you to support you. Now I become gentle and sensible, you are willing You want me, but if we are together, you will soon find me boring and boring, but no matter how you miss me, that simple wayward I will never come back.

I am no longer the me who I was yesterday. Who knows who I am tomorrow?

I am not a very good girlfriend. The last time I broke up was forever.

If we are together again, and I will do something wrong in the future, you will never teach me why I was wrong, where I was wrong, how to correct it and how to remedy it.

Will only treat me coldly again.

Such things, as long as you think about it, will feel terrible.

We don't want to be together anymore.

Don't you come to me again. "

She read the diary from beginning to end. In every quarrel, Liang Ze never spoke harshly to her. The most excessive thing he had ever done was just turning around and leaving, slamming the door forcefully. When he shows up next time, it will be Liang Ze who is very gentle and loves her. This makes Qinghuan in the past feel like-no matter what, Liang Ze will love her.

But every time she used such a cold war, she became extremely insecure. Liang Ze never told her what she had done wrong, nor did he teach her how to correct it. He would only turn around in silence and return to her in silence.

They have been together since they were in their teens, and it has been ten years since Liang Ze finally broke up.

Then, after the reconciliation this time, he returned to her. Maybe she would recover her memory soon, maybe she would soon change back to her past self. What would Liang Ze say at that time?

I thought you changed it, but you didn't change it at all.

I am so disappointed in you.

let's break up.

Then did she commit suicide again?

No, she won't. She is alive now, fortunately, she can't bury herself for love again.

So the best way is not to meet again, let alone to think about being together, so that there will be no sadness and no problems. Wandi has never been the main problem between them, and the two of them are fundamentally not suitable for being together. Even if she has changed now, who can guarantee that she will not become worse, willful and unbearable?

Liang Ze squeezed the file bag in his hand, and Qing Huan saw that it was gradually smeared with moisture. She turned her head away and pretended not to see anything. She still likes this person, really, another voice in her heart has been longing for reconciliation with him.

Reconciliation may be possible, how is it possible as before.

They will always remember what happened this time. After that, they will become old wounds, buried in the bottom of their hearts. Once they are dug out, they will feel painful.

It won't be good.

It will not be good at all.

No one is getting better.