Holding On to My Man
Chapter 36
Fu Junli slowly opened the book with the words poetry on the outside, and the white paper was the ink of Juan Xiu.
The above is not a stunning work, but some simple recording of mood, no rhyming, no ink, just some ordinary words.
"...I finally saw the young master today. He is still handsome and elegant. There is no cold horror in the rumor, but it is very gentle. He also hugged me, a warm embrace, so warm that I dare not speak. ......"
"He praised my eyes very beautiful. Many people said that my eyes are good-looking, but I have never been so happy. He also asked me if I like orchids. I said yes... Actually, I don't like orchids. I am a glimpse. His yard is full of orchids. He thinks that he likes orchids and smokes orchids. I want to talk to him, but I have never had a chance. I saw him from the first day of entering the government..."
"The young master actually let me stay in his yard to rehabilitate. He also let me live in his yard. He said let me call him Jun Lige. Why is he so gentle to me?... No, he is not to me. It should be a man named 'Lian Zhi'. On that day, he seems to be whispering a name called Lotus..."
"... Today's weather is very good, Jun Li brother is very excited, and he is posing in the yard with Guqin. He is really a talented person, Langrun's Tsinghua, peerless elegance... I have the courage to invite him to play with my Qinqin. I have thought about this picture countless times in my dreams. However, I blew the snoring, but he did not play the piano. Jun Li brother looked at me, his eyes blurred again, as if he was watching another person... The chest suddenly It hurts, I quickly left..."
"Who is the man named Lian Zhi? Who is He Jun Li brother? Is he like me? Why is Jun Li always staring at me and whispering that name, he always looks at my eyes as if Look at another person... He is good to me, gentle to me, is he because he treats me as a lotus..."
"Jun Li brother only when I am a shadow, is the shadow of the lotus, if it is not because of the lotus, he will not look at me in this life, but I am Yunxi, I am not a lotus, I am Yunxi, I Like red, like musk, like buzz..."
"... Today, Jun Li brother told me who the lotus is, it is a peerless master, it is a son who is deeply in love with Jun Lige, the belt is gradually widened and does not regret, for the Iraqi people Jun Li brother thought about the son for eight years..."
"Jun Li brother asked me: Entering my Acacia door, knowing that I am bitter, long-term love, long-term memory, short-term thinking, infinite, Yunxi, you can understand?..."
"I understand, I understand, I really understand... I saw Jun Li’s brother at the first sight on the day of entering the government. I know Jun Li’s brother, Yunxi didn’t know how to be honest about you.”
"...The lotus flower has appeared. Today at the palace banquet, I saw the lotus in the mouth of Jun Lige’s mouth. It’s really a beautiful son. It’s no wonder that you can miss the brother of Jun Li..."
"Jun Li's brother looks at the eyes of the lotus and the gentleman is gentle and gentle. It is full of the friendship that I dream of, but he loves the lotus, he loves the lotus, loves the lotus... If he can love me, how good... ..."
"In the carriage, Jun Li brother looks very sad, yes, although I found the lotus, but the lotus is a prince, the Prince is honorable, and Jun Li brother has a chance to compete with the Prince..."
"I want to persuade Jun Li to give up, but I can't say it. Jun Li's brother is so affectionate to the lotus son. He has been looking for a lotus son for eight years. If he can't be with the lotus, he is not. Will continue to be unhappy, and will continue to miss..."
"Maybe I can help him... At the banquet, my son looked at me very strangely. I guess he must have looked at me. If I go to ask for a prince, maybe there will be a chance for Jun Lige and Lin Zhigong... ”
"...I am in the palace today, I ask the Prince to give the lotus to the brother of Jun Li, the Prince promised, but the condition is that I have to be his person... Then, I took off my clothes, it doesn't matter, as long as Jun Li brother I can do it as I wish. He used to be the shadow of the lotus seed. Now the real lotus is back, and the shadow doesn't need to be..."
"But I still can't help but cry. I am very hard to bear, but I can't help it. I want to tell him, I am not the shadow of anyone. Don't be a shadow. Don't look at others through me. My name is Yunxi, Junli brother, do you know? Do you know that I am Yunxi? Yunxi is happy with you, but you don’t know, don’t want to know, because you only love lotus..."
"Jun Li brother is getting more and more unhappy, because the lotus is a son, Jun Li brother, you can rest assured that the lotus son will come back soon, the prince promised me, he will give you the lotus seed, from then on Your lovesick..."
"Acacia Acacia... Linglong Aanhong Bean, I don't know if I am in the bones, Jun Li brother, you don't know, you don't know..."
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Fu Junli looked at the ink on the poems, and the smile appeared like a young boy in his head. He only felt that his heart was like a knife, and the appearance of the boy had never been clear in his heart.
He always thought that he was treating the boy as a lotus, but it was not. Maybe it was, but not later.
Juveniles and lotuses are not the same, even if they have the same color of the eyes, but the look inside is not the same.
However, the long-standing obsession with the lotus has made him unable to see his inner heart. When he is attracted by the brilliance of the juvenile, he always tells himself that it is because the young man has the shadow of the lotus.
But at this moment, the lotus is just around, but in his mind is the shadow of the boy.
"Ling 珑骰子安红豆, I don't know if I am in the bones, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know..."
Fu Junli chewed this sentence repeatedly, like crying like a smile.
When the hidden truth is on the surface, his heart is engraved with the word Yunxi...
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Gu Bai has never seen Fu Junli again.
Fu Junli asked his aunt to enter the palace to come to him, risking disrespect and looking for him in the entire palace, but he did not see Fu Junli, Ji Changyi would not let him see.
The man is as arrogant as he used to be. He simply wants to hide him in the golden house. No one is even jealous. Even Du Haiyan, men are also deliberately calling for the palace to not let him go out.
This kind of strong hegemony is really a dumbfounding, if others can't stand it, but he is ashamed.
Because he doesn't know when he will see men again next time, and if they have to wait thousands of years to meet.
As for Fu Junli, although he has never seen it again, Gu Bai can still hear his news.
It is said that after Fu Junli returned from the palace, the whole person has changed, becoming more silent and becoming more cold.
Regardless of family affairs, regardless of the business industry, he is not keeping himself in the study, or standing in the yard to play Xiao. It is a whole day, often, and the melancholy and madness in the eyes is shocking.
But when he saw another young man named Lotus, he would calm down again, gently and lovingly touching the other's eyes.
But when the other party accidentally broke a jadeite jade that he carried with him, he madly made people beat the opponent's board until the other party almost went half-life to stop people.
From then on, the lotus did not dare to touch any of his things. Every day, he only dared to wear red clothes, smoked musk, and boasted jade. He listened to his own eyes and called the name of Yunxi.
Gu Bai quietly stunned Ji Changyu back to Fufu once.
He saw that Fu Junli's study was full of pictures, and the picture was all a teenager, that is Du Yunxi's appearance.
Above or panicked, or smiling, or shy, or flattering, or enchanting, each picture is endless lingering, endless thoughts.
Until this moment, he felt that the emotions of the original owner of the chest finally disappeared without a trace.
Du Yunxi’s wish is Fu Junli’s deep love, lingering, and deep love that he will never miss. He finally got it. From then on, the man’s heart only has the word “Yunxi”...
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In this world, Gu Bai, like before, has been staying by Ji Changzhen and has not left. In addition to the man’s hegemony, he also has his willingness.
After Ji Changchun was on the throne, he had no more than a slap in the harem, and the courtiers had asked him to be included in the shackles, but he was always stubborn, not drafting, nor swearing.
After a few years of emperor, he even retired as the Regent, so no one would continue to play, please let him stay in the shackles, let the full court secretly shocked, this man really wants the beauty not to be a mountain.
Gu Bai can not be set, this person even in the birth of a tire is also engraved with his shadow in the soul, enough to know his position in his heart.
Before Ji Chang’s death, Gu Bai looked at the deep love of his eyes, and felt that the heart of his chest had never been sour and painful.
At this moment, he felt that he was no longer indifferent. He had a heart that could beat blood and flesh.
When Ji Changzhen closed his eyes, he almost had the urge to go with him, and experienced the unforgettable heart heat. He didn’t know that he had persisted in living, no heartbeat was alive. What is the meaning.
The mysterious master said that if he indulges the world he will die.
Staring at Ji Changyu, who has no breathing, Gu Bai feels that his soul seems to be lightening, and there is a feeling that it will dissipate at any time.
At this last moment, the surrounding space was twisted, his soul was drawn from the body, and he was pulled back into the sky by a powerful force...