How Could I Like Him

Chapter 85: cold war

After Hou Yu returned to the dormitory, Deng Yiheng and the others came to persuade him a few words to keep him from getting angry. Hou Mo also had a bad heart. They had to forgive Hou Mo for his broken mouth eight hundred times a day. No need to care too much.

To listen to Hou Mo, you have to put your left ear in and out of your right ear. There is no need to go to your heart.

This is like being ashamed of Fengkong, angering unnecessary.

Sui Hou Yu has almost recovered at this time, except that his emotions are not very high, everything else is normal. All Deng Yiheng persuaded him to respond with "um".

The attitude is very good, but I can't talk anymore.

The conversation reached a deadlock, and Deng Yiheng and the others stopped talking, and went on their own.

In fact, Sui Hou Yu has been thinking about whether he should apologize after Hou Mo returns, and whether he should make it clear to Hou Mo.

He was really just addicted to that set of questions, and didn't think that being late would be so serious, and he didn't think about leaving the team.

In the third year of high school, he hasn't decided whether he should focus on studying or not. It depends on the situation at that time. At least he does not want to give up in the national competition next year. He must participate.

As a result, after waiting for a long time, Hou Mo didn't come back. When he was studying on the app, he heard Deng Yiheng and the others talking.

Deng Yiheng hurriedly asked Shen Junjing: "I heard that someone from Sang Xian's family was here to pick him up? Did the big brother go too?"

"I don't know. It seems that two people walked together. The basketball player saw it."

"No...Is it serious?" Deng Yiheng took out his mobile phone and called Hou Mo, but no one answered him, so he put down his mobile phone again, "No answer."

"I don't think I have time to control Sang Xian."

"What's wrong? It was normal when it was disbanded."

Ran Shu was also eavesdropping on the upper bunk, and immediately asked, "What's the matter?"

Although Deng Yiheng has a big mouth, he also knows what can be said and what cannot be said. This is not convenient to talk about everywhere, so he sighed: "This is their privacy. We can't say, if you are familiar with it in the future, you will know it."

The more covered up like this, the more people care about it.

Ran Shu muttered on the upper bunk: "God, mystery... Is it possible to self-mutilate again?"

Deng Yiheng was taken aback and took a look at Ran Shu.

Ran Shu was blinded by this look, and then he said "Fuck". Did he really guess right?

Sui Hou Yu finally asked, "Are they leaving school? Are they coming back today?"

"Not necessarily, it depends on the situation. We don't know the specifics, and people can't be contacted." Deng Yiheng said with a sigh.

As Hou Yu picked up his cell phone and wanted to send a message to Hou Mo, remembering that Deng Yiheng called Hou Mo but didn't answer the phone, he put down his cell phone again.

I guess I'm busy.

He was lying on the bed alone, wearing headphones to watch the APP for learning, and fell into anxiety at twelve o'clock in the evening.

There was a curtain on the bed, and a stupid bedside bell hung over his head. The narrow space made him feel depressed and out of breath.

He was worried because Hou Mo was not by his side, and they had quarreled before. Now that he thought of Hou Mo and Sang Xian together, this almost suffocating feeling aggravated.

He admitted that he cares about the relationship between Sang Xian and Hou Mo.

Why does it seem that there is a secret between these two people? Why do they seem to be good, but the relationship is so close?

He inevitably thought about it, did Sang Xian like Hou Mo? But Hou Mo is a straight man, so he refused?

Sang Xian has never given up, has always been kind to Hou Mo, even Sang Xian's family accepts Hou Mo? If Hou Mo continues to ignore Sang Xian, will Sang Xian even collapse and self-harm?

Is that right?

what……

Hou Mo is a straight man.

Hou Mo emphasized to him several times that he is a straight man, and he believed it too. Thinking about it now, it is really embarrassing that I like Hou Mo.

Obviously he couldn't accept falling in love with a man, and even because his stepfather was once homophobic, he didn't realize that he still fell in love with a man.

Speaking of which, does Hou Mo count his white moonlight?

He had no idea about this before, but he had always had a good impression of this little boy.

Then I met again, from being angry at myself being hated, to gradually relying on him again.

It was completely unconsciously and uncontrollably sinking into it again.

It's like a very sweet pool, you won't find it strange when you step in it, and you feel that the surroundings are full of fragrance, and you are immersed in it.

When he came back to his senses, his body was already in the swamp, and the more he struggled, the deeper he sank.

He took off his earphones, put down his mobile phone, walked out of the dormitory alone, walking around in the corridor of the dormitory wearing slippers.

I am really upset, thinking of feelings that are destined to be unresponsive, I will feel anxious, and even feel that my love may affect the relationship between two people.

By then, will he be as embarrassed as Sang Xian in Hou Mo's eyes?

Straight guys are very disgusting if they are liked by boys?

Thinking of this, there was another loss, and the eyelids closed, using eyelids to stop the sad emotions from overflowing from the eyes.

In fact, he really wants to hear someone say to him: like is hard to control, it is not your fault.

Towards the morning, he returned to the dormitory to try to fall asleep, but when he lay down until he heard the sound of other people getting up, he still did not fall asleep.

Their dormitory is always busy in the morning, and a few people hurried to wash up, get dressed quickly and go out for morning exercises.

With Hou Yu sitting by the bed and rubbing his chest, he didn't sleep all night, his heartbeat was a little abnormal again, and the feeling of heart palpitations reappeared.

After meeting Hou Mo again, this feeling is really long gone.

Ran Shu noticed, and asked him, "I haven't slept all night?"

"Ok."

"Tsk." Ran Shu looked a little worried at Sui Hou Yu's state, and then said, "Fuck you don't go in the morning. If you don't sleep all night, your heartbeat is not right. You can easily die suddenly if you run 20 laps. And the mood fluctuates and fluctuates, plus one night. Not sleeping and being upset will also increase your chances of relapse. I will bring you a breakfast in a while and try to see if you can fall asleep."

Following Hou Yu did not succeed, staying in the dormitory.

Ran Shu didn't seem to go for morning exercises either. He came back with breakfast and asked Hou Yu to take a bite before going to bed.

Following Hou Yu supporting the bed in the dormitory, Ran Shu was holding the soy milk to pass him, and the two collided.

"Hot!" Ran Shu was so hot that he turned around and quickly took off his coat.

Sui Hou Yu was also showered. Fortunately, the soy milk is only hot, which is the temperature used to burn your feet, otherwise both people will be burned.

After a while, the two of them didn't think there was anything, but their clothes had to be changed.

After changing into the school uniform of the original Qingyu, he sat down to eat with Hou Yu, and Ran Shu alone cleaned up the soy milk spilled on the ground.

After finishing tidying up, Ran Shu threw the tissues into the trash can and muttered, "What's wrong with Sang Xian?"

"do not know."

"Sure enough, it's not a normal person. It doesn't look like my age, as if it's 30 or so, and it's lifeless."

"Ok."

"Forget it, eating, it doesn't matter to me anyway."

Hou Mo came to the school very early, and the Sang family car drove him to the school gate.

He didn't go upstairs and waited for others to gather on the playground.

As a result, they all started running, but Hou Yu and Ran Shu have not yet come down.

Hou Mo deliberately changed positions, went to the back and stood side by side with Deng Yiheng, and asked, "Where are Brother Yu and Ranshu?"

Deng Yiheng looked around and was a little surprised: "I don't know. I washed my hair slowly today. I went downstairs from the water room and didn't pay attention to them. But you, I didn't reply by calling and sending messages yesterday."

Hou Mo sighed and explained: "I was walking in a hurry yesterday. I forgot my mobile phone in the locker room. I just went to get it back and it was out of power."

"How about Sang Xian?"

"What else, watch it at home, I guess it will take a few days, and Gege has asked for leave."

"Tough you."

"I'm used to it."

Hou Mo was still a little worried about following Hou Yu, thinking about going to the cafeteria to take a look, but he didn't see anyone.

After taking a casual bite, he quickly went back to the dormitory to find Sui Hou Yu, and there was no one in the dormitory.

He walked quickly to the classroom with his bag again, and when he walked into the classroom, he saw that their seats were also empty. He couldn't help but wonder for a while, where did these two people go?

He returned to his seat and sat down, looked at the homework list written on the blackboard, and then started to make up the homework.

As I was writing, I looked up and saw Hou Yu and Ran Shu entering the classroom, Su Anyi followed behind them, drinking a glass of lemon Yakult in her hand.

Hou Mo felt cold when he saw the three of them.

They are wearing school suits and school uniforms, not sports uniforms for sports students.

Really stop practicing?

Really retired?

Retire collectively?

Sui Hou Yu glanced at him before returning to his seat, and he immediately got up and let go of his position so that Sui Hou Yu could enter his position.

After Hou Yu sat down, Hou Mo readjusted his posture and sat down. The apology that had been brewing all night was forgotten for an instant.

What lingers in my heart now is uncomfortable and regretful. Why do I owe my mouth so much? Now that people are "splendid and kind" really retired, are they stupid?

He swallowed a mouthful of saliva and found that his throat was starting to hurt under the anger.

He once thought that he was a very big-hearted boy who could hold Baichuan.

But now he finally found that his chest was very narrow, and his heart was full when Hou Yu came. Now he is leaving with Hou Yu, his heart is empty, and his chest is painful.

After his pen paused for a while, he continued to do his homework, hoping to swallow this unspeakable pain before talking to Sui Hou Yu.

So I rushed to write and brushed the questions, trying to calm myself down.

But the strained heart made him feel uncomfortable and he couldn't hold the pen.

After Hou Yu returned to his seat, I also wanted to make it clear to Hou Mo.

Before, his and Ran Shu's sports clothes were soaked in soy milk, and there was no coin-operated washing machine in their bedroom, so they were sent to Su Anyi.

Su Anyi thought that they happened to be in dark colors, so she simply washed the sportswear and the clothes of the two of them together. It was enough to put a coin once, so all three of them came in this school uniform.

He would never expect that this would cause Hou Mo to misunderstand.

He took a peek at Hou Mo and found that Hou Mo was calm and had been working on his homework without even looking at him. He suddenly felt that Hou Mo was definitely still angry.

He doesn't actually coax people, he can only secretly worry.

Even Su Anyi and Ran Shu in the front row looked back at him frequently, and he had no choice but to lie down on the table to rest, without speaking.

Don't know how to speak.

The two stayed in a stalemate until the afternoon to train.

Hou Mo first went to the training ground, warmed up with the other players, looked around, and didn't come with Hou Yu. He really wanted to quit the team?

After Coach Wang arranged the training content, the players started training separately.

Hou Mo’s doubles partner didn’t come. He practiced all afternoon by himself. By the time he was disbanded, all the other players left the indoor training room to have dinner. Only Hou Mo was left to clean up the court, and then put the tennis ball into the basket to push the equipment. room.

After finishing his things, he looked at the scale on the ground and suddenly walked over and squatted in front of the scale.

He stretched out his hand and pressed the scale with his fingers, but the numbers lit up but they couldn't stabilize. After all, the strength of his pressing was always different.

Seeing the changes in numbers, after a day’s emotions erupted for an instant, Hou Mo suddenly flattened his mouth and began to "patter" and shed tears, muttering to himself: "Why do you owe your mouth so much? He left the team, you Are you stupid?"

After mumbling, I quickly wiped away the tears, trying hard to hold back the tears, but more tears poured out.

"If you like people and even scold them away, you are no doubt a fool!" Hou Mo pointed to the scale and scolded, and even the innocent scale couldn't return his mouth.

"It's really impossible. You saw your legs and chased it. What do you owe?!"

"Damn, I'm so upset..."

While crying happily, someone suddenly pushed the door into the equipment room and walked directly towards Hou Mo.

The man walked up to Hou Mo and stopped, leaned down and looked at him seriously, suddenly, he didn't have time to wipe the tears.

Then I heard Sui Hou Yu asking: "Can I make a video?"

The author has something to say: Hou Mo: Oh, I just cried for everyone!