Chapter 393 Didn't Xiao Anran tell you

Song Qingwan laughed and said:

"At that time, I had a bad temper and was spoiled by you. When others said that, I argued with them, saying that I was their aunt! But who believes, people in this circle only want to listen to what they want."

"It was too difficult for me at the time. Lu's had already given me a splitting headache. I even thought about it. Forget it. I didn't graduate and my future was gone. I couldn't paint and I couldn't be happy anymore. , I have to be busy with some trivial things every day, and I have to be both fathers and mothers to pull the two children up. I go everywhere to find human relations, find the best school for them, and try to give them the best In my life, when I think of you occasionally, I still cry all night and cannot sleep."

"A bunch of things are here. I don't have any experience. I can only grit my teeth. This is the case of Lu, and the two little guys are like this. I don't understand anything, I can only grit my teeth."

"At the hardest time, I have been busy for five or six days and haven’t slept for five or six days. I’m wronged, I’m irritable, and I’m the only one to take care of all this. I’m even so depressed, in order to vent my family My furniture was completely broken. At that time, I really wanted to give up on them. To tell you the truth, I even found the orphanage at the time, but when the day came to send them over, I finally couldn't bear it."

Song Qingwan murmured: "It's not just because they are your elder brother and your child, or just to repay your kindness, because I am their aunt... Dad doesn't care about them, you and your sister-in-law are no longer there, and they are only left. I’m the next relative, and I only have them. If I don’t care about them, they are so small, what should they do..."

Song Qingwan didn't hate it at first.

It is abnormal not to hate that.

But after all, I was still reluctant.

Probably since the first aunt Lu Junhan and Lu Anran called to her, Song Qingwan could not be separated from them in this life.

She later raised them not just to repay her brother's kindness, but more because she was their aunt.

She is their only relative.

"Then you should work harder to live..."

Lu Qidong felt complicated and unspeakable, took a deep breath, and said hoarsely:

"You worked so hard to pull them up, they suffered for so many years when they were young, and now they have all grown up, and it is time... let them repay you."

"I probably didn't enjoy the life of Qingfu."

Song Qingwan's eyes trembled and sighed:

"I've been too tired in this life. In the last month, I just wanted to relax. I... I don't want to hurt anymore. I want to learn painting again. I'm afraid I won't have time if I don't learn it now."

Lu Qidong's eyes flushed suddenly, and the tears could no longer stop.

He moved his lips as if he wanted to say something, but he didn't know what to say.

Song Qingwan was forced to give up her dream, and now it is a good thing to regain her dream.

If she spent the last period of her life by painting, she would definitely be able to leave peacefully and happily.

But they all want her to live.

Live in pain.

Lu Anran's eyes were red, as if she couldn't bear it anymore, so he cried and turned and left.

Lu Junhan pursed his thin lips, his eyes were dark and deep, but the smooth jaw line collapsed very tightly.

Song Qingwan is now afraid of pain, living too tired, just want to die happily.

They want her to live, even the painful life, as long as people are there.

But they owed her too much. It can be said that Song Qingwan's original splendid life was ruined by them.

But Song Qingwan had never complained, at least for so many years, had not complained in front of them, and had not used the kindness of nearly two decades to let them repay and make them appreciate her.

The elder brother adopted her because he treated her as a sister and did not need her to repay her kindness.

Song Qingwan raised them for nearly 20 years, and treated them as nephews and nieces, and did not need them to pay her kindness.

She just wants to die safely now.

But they didn't even have the qualifications to persuade her to survive.

Lu Qidong's eyes were red, looking at the pale and weak Song Qingwan, as if he had figured out something, and sighed, "You did it on purpose, right."

Song Qingwan said nothing.

Lu Qidong murmured: "I deliberately said those past, I want us to feel guilty and sad, and no longer force you to live, right?"

Song Qingwan sighed quietly, "Brother, you are still so smart. Actually, it's not that I don't want to live anymore. I know that I am really unsaved. This month, I want to be comfortable, not going to work or not going. Think about other things, don’t cure the disease, just paint with all my heart, I want to go back to Song Qingwan, who loves painting and is no longer so sensible and powerful, brother, should you be happy for me?"

"If you survive, I can be happy!"

Lu Qidong looked at her with a very hoarse voice, "As long as you live, there is hope! As long as you live, you have the possibility of a radical cure!"

Lu Qidong took a few deep breaths, "...just like Xiao Anran, her disease has been there since birth, and there were only ten cases of such a rare genetic defect in the world at that time."

Song Qing was stunned suddenly, and looked at Lu Qidong incredulously.

Even Lu Junhan's dark and deep pupils who were standing at the door shrank slightly.

Lu Qidong didn't notice her abnormality, and still said:

"At the time, the doctor also said that she would die at any time when she was weak, and she wouldn’t live for a few days at all. But I don’t believe that she can’t live. A professional doctor can live a day! But you see, she has survived all these years. She really survived. Now more than ten years have passed. Technology is developing rapidly, and drugs for this disease have been developed. Now, she has been completely cured, so she won’t have to worry about it anymore, so as long as she lives..."

"Gene defect..." Song Qingwan was stunned. She didn't listen much at all. After a while, she was relieved from the shock, "What genetic defect? ​​Lu Anran has a genetic defect? ​​Why don't I do this? know?"

Gene defect disease, this disease will accompany a lifetime if not completely cured.

Generally, people with genetic defects are very weak and weak, and usually cannot live long.

At that time, she only knew that Lu Anran had very bad health when he was a child, very weak, and his face was pale all year round. At that time, Lu Qidong only said that this was a frailty brought out from his mother's womb.

Song Qingwan thought at the time that premature babies would indeed be frail and sickly, and he didn't even think about it.

Lu Qidong was stunned, his eyes fixedly looking at her with surprise on his face:

"You don't know? Didn't Xiao Anran tell you?"

(End of this chapter)