I was Idle and Cool

Chapter 13: suffer the wrong love

In the room, Lu Jinxi was the only one left.

Holding the opened letter in her hand, she still can't react: Why do you think this aunt's tone is so hateful that iron can't become steel? Not only is he not opposed to remarriage, but he is still rushing to remarry...

For a moment, Lu Jinxi frowned.

But soon, she analyzed one or two reasons based on what she knew.

The princesses of the past dynasties are not low-ranking, and there are not a few who have raised their heads in the open or secretly.

When we arrived at this dynasty, looking at the important position of Princess Yongning in the dynasty, we knew that the princess here is not a dodder, and it seems that there will be no shortage of raising the head of the face.

Princess Yongning has not remarried since Xue returned.

Lu Jinxi didn't know whether she raised her face or not, but under the influence of her eyes and ears, she was very open to men and women, which was quite ordinary.

The biggest problem today is not this.

Therefore, Lu Jinxi quickly pulled back his thoughts and glanced outside the door first.

The maids were all frightened, and at this moment, including the blue bird and egret, no one came in.

Naturally, she didn't mean to call them in, she just frowned, pursed her lips tightly, and took out the letterhead from the envelope.

It is a green and white paper with a green back and a white face, looking sober and elegant.

As soon as you take it out, there is a faint sandalwood fragrance.

As soon as Lu Jinxi heard about it, an ominous premonition came into his heart.

Taking a closer look, the top four words on the letterhead are: "Bo Xian Aijian."

At that moment, my heart was half cold!

This delicate and elegant hairpin and small script full of paper, one can tell at a glance that it is from a family of poetry and calligraphy, and the handwriting is also what Lu Jinxi had seen in Lu's study.

If it wasn't for the Lu family, who else could it be?

Lu Jinxi felt dizzy.

She took a step back slowly, sat back on the chair, and pressed her temples with her fingertips, forcing herself to calm down and look again.

"Bo Xian Aijian, I felt a chill the day before yesterday, I didn't reply in time, I feel guilty and uncomfortable."

"Today, the illness has recovered a little, and I will write Chen Jun with affection."

"When you ask a gentleman, your concubine reads it every time you read it. It moves your heart and loves it. However, there are many fetters, wandering left and right, hesitating up and down, asking the heavens and not knowing, asking the Buddha but not answering. Jun Shen, I dare not answer you lightly."

"I hope that Jun Xu Lihua will last for a while, and the concubine will think about it."

"The snow remains at the end of winter, and the sky is still extremely cold. I hope you take care of yourself."

"Jin Xi's handwriting."

Lu Jinxi looked at the last four words, not knowing for a moment how she should think about Lu Shi.

She thought that the Lu family was infatuated with Xue Kuang and was willing to pay, but she didn't expect...

The two characters "Bo Xian" are supposed to be the words of Song Zhiyan, the scholar from the five-rank attendant, and the word "Love Jian" is used for those who are close.

After reading it, what else could she not understand?

Lu Shi really had a relationship with people.

It seems that Song Zhiyan made a request, and the Lu family has been thinking about it, but she has too many scruples and it is difficult to make up her mind. I hope Song Zhiyan will give her time.

She will give the exact answer when the pear blossoms.

"There are so many fetters..."

Can there be more?

One is the widow wife of Xue Kuang, the general of the Wuwei township, a first-class wife appointed by the imperial court, and has three biological children and a concubine's concubine.

Although one is a bamboo horse, I have known each other since childhood, but now he is a married man!

Remarried?

What about Song Zhiyan's original partner?

elopement?

Not realistic for both of them.

Lu Jinxi could see that the Lu family was moved and affectionate, but it was difficult to make a choice.

Thankfully, she hasn't made a choice yet.

This letter, by accident, fell into the hands of Princess Yongning, and then returned to her own hands, so it didn't cause a catastrophe.

Sitting in the chair, a layer of cold sweat broke out behind her.

On the green and white paper, there were a few deep wrinkles on her tightly pinched fingers, which were particularly dazzling.

After a long time, she calmed down, raised her slender fingers, and gently rubbed the center of her eyebrows.

What was the experience between Song Zhiyan and the Lu family?

This letter must have been sent by Lu Shi before she became seriously ill. She has been here for more than half a month, and this letter has been sent out for at least half a month. Why did it only fall into the hands of Princess Yongning today?

Lu's door is not out, and the second door is not open. Who sent this letter?

Countless doubts surfaced.

In normal times, Lu Jinxi would not be interested in such matters of love at all, but now that she is wearing this shell, she never dares to let these thunders that bomb back at any time hide by her side.

Taking a deep breath, she slowly pressed the letterhead onto the square table and looked out the door.

Qingque and Bailu were both outside, and they were sent away by the people of Princess Yongning just now. I'm afraid they still don't know what happened in the house.

A lively, playful and cute, very clever;

A calm, thoughtful, well-rounded person.

The original body has lived in the deep house compound for a long time, what is there to hide from her personal maid?

These two maids either knew it, or at least one of them knew.

Soon, Lu Jinxi's eyes fell on Qingque, and his thoughts flashed: "Egret, take a woman and go outside to find Pan Quan'er, and prepare to thank Doctor Zhang. Qingque, come in."

"Yes."

The two maids responded in unison.

The egret didn't think much, then bowed and retreated.

Qing Que called herself for some unknown reason. As soon as she stepped in, she saw the letter under Lu Jinxi's hand, and her expression changed in an instant.

She trembled in her legs and panicked: "Madam, this, this letter is not..."

Didn't you send it out earlier?

When did you come back?

"…"

Lu Jinxi looked at her and knew that she had guessed correctly.

It's really Qingque who is helping Lu to deal with these things. Looking at this trembling appearance, the soul is almost gone.

Her delicate face was slightly gloomy, without any expression, she only said slowly: "The eldest princess came just for this letter... It was said that I met Lord Song Zhiyan halfway through and cut it..."

"No, impossible."

Qingque knelt down on the ground, kowtowed, and said in a trembling voice, "Madam Mingjian, you handed this letter to the slave girl more than 20 days ago, and the slave girl gave it to Yin Liu'er according to the rules, and she will never delay it for half a day! Ruo, Ruo Yin Liu'er is still as usual, this letter should have been sent out long ago..."

Yin Liuer…

The name is very raw.

Lu Jinxi had read the roster of servants in the house, but did not remember the name. Come to think of it, it should be someone who collects money from outside to do things for people.

She lowered her eyes and glanced at Qingque: "I know it's not you. I'm unlucky, what good is it for you? Get up."

Ask Qingque to come in, but because Lu Jinxi guessed it was her, he put on a few words.

Although not much, it was enough for her to figure out what the problem was.

"It's fortunate that my aunt bumped into me today and turned her elbow towards me. If someone cut me off, I would be able to peel off my skin even if I didn't die!"

Lu Jinxi's eyes were cold, her voice was getting colder.

"It's not your problem, or something went wrong on Yin Liu'er's side. Go back and find someone, give me a good reason, and ask him a question! I want to see what kind of errand this is for!"

Qing Que just got up, but she was nervous and panic: "Now it has been smashed by the eldest princess, madam, you..."

"I'm confused about this. I was taught a lesson by my aunt today, and I knew that I was wrong..."

When he came to his senses, of course, he had to take the credit of the princess.

She took the letter and looked at it again, and her voice gradually became low: "Go and get the rest, today... burn them all."

"lady…"

Qingque was surprised and looked at her in disbelief.

In the past few months, her life has been lived in fear.

Which big maid is willing to help her wife pass private messages and help her give and receive privately? When they turned around, they were discovered, and they were the first unlucky ones.

She was soft-hearted and couldn't stand Lu's repeated pleas, so she had no choice but to find Yin Liu'er, a trustworthy little gangster outside who had begged Mrs. to help deliver the letter.

Now Lu Jinxi means that...

to give up?

For a while, I didn't know if it was joy or emotion. Even Qing Que was always steady and complicated. It took a long time to react. For fear that Lu Jinxi would regret it, he hurriedly said, "This servant will go, this will go!"

After he finished speaking, he left the house and entered the house opposite.

That is the room where Lu Jinxi usually rests.

Come to think of it, some private things are hidden there, right?

Lu Jinxi was sitting in the chair, and when she recalled Qingque's expression, she felt a little funny, but when she thought about it, she was full of sadness.

Lu's letter says "I read it every time", which proves that she has read the letter sent by Song Zhiyan many times, and it is very likely that she has preserved it.

But she doesn't know where.

After Lu Jinxi came here, most of the time he was ill, and there were people around him for twelve hours, and he didn't dare to search for the secret of the original body.

Now to find these letters, of course, I can only find an excuse and let the well-known Qingque go to find them.

"Burning" is an excuse; asking Qingque to fetch it is a "fraud".

Unexpectedly, it was really successful.

After a while, Qingque brought back a small red sandalwood box and placed it lightly on the square table beside Lu Jinxi.

"The slaves didn't dare to move them. You put them all by yourself on weekdays, and they're all inside."

As soon as the box was opened, there were layers of letterheads inside.

Different from the green and white paper used by Lu's, this box is mostly made of cold gold paper with gilded gold, and the handwriting on it can be described as Yanjin Liugu, which has its own calm and regular air.

These should be Song Zhiyan's letters and words.

Lu Jinxi picked it up and read it one by one from beginning to end.

Qing Que only thought she was burning before and wanted to remember her again, so she stood aside and didn't dare to urge her, she just kept an eye on it.

Lu Jinxi browsed very quickly.

With the few words in Song Zhiyan's letter, she even pieced together a whole story.

It turned out that the Lu and Song families were long-term friends, and the Lu family and Song Zhiyan knew each other from a young age.

The two grew up together, childhood sweethearts.

When he reached the age of the beginning of love, he made a private decision for life.

Unexpectedly, eleven years ago, Emperor Qing An, who had been on the throne for less than two years, broke them up with an edict and let Lu Jinxi marry Xue Kuang.

It's not that they didn't think about resisting.

In addition, Xue Kuang brought back a five-year-old concubine from the border to give birth to a son, they thought they could change. But Mr. Lu went to beg, but Emperor Qing'an was still hard-hearted and his will remained the same.

Lu Shi is still married.

After marrying someone, she broke up with Song Zhiyan and wanted to live a good life with Xue Kuang. Unexpectedly, she gradually became interested in Xue Kuang, but Xue Kuang had no intention of her.

A true love is wrongly paid, and even half of the warm eyes can't be replaced.

Lu Shi's life has been very dark here.

As soon as the news of Xue Kuang's death in the battlefield came, it was considered that there was no light, and he fell into a drowsy darkness.

She is like a tree, living in the world in a daze.

Until a year ago, she went to the Jokhang Temple to offer incense and reunited with Song Zhiyan.

At that time, Song Zhiyan had a wife, but it was also the life of his parents, so it was not what he wanted.

The former childhood sweethearts, the two of them only glanced at this from a distance, and then tossed and turned after returning.

Not long after, there was a letter from Song Zhiyan, who went through hardships and adventures to the Lu family.

The old love rekindled.

Song Zhiyan is willing to divorce his wife for the Lu family, welcome her back in with the ceremony of being a wife, and express his intentions many times. Whose feelings can last for more than ten years without changing?

Lu Shi also felt it, unable to let go, and gradually struggled.

Seeing this, Lu Jinxi let out a long sigh.

On the one hand, she felt that Lu Shi was pitiful.

The childhood sweethearts were separated, the married husband and she were separated from each other, and when she became a widow, she met the bamboo horse, but they were different.

But on the other hand, he felt that Lu's behavior was very inappropriate.

There is nothing wrong with being able to boldly follow your heart and pursue feelings. But the person who had personal contacts with her was a married man.

His wife is a poor woman just like her.

"Wow..."

The sound of the letter paper flipping was like Lu Jinxi's floating mood.

She is complicated.

This is the last Leng Jinjian, and the content is exactly to ask Lu Shi to give him a reply, which just matches the letter from Princess Yongning today.

She picked it up and prepared to burn it first, and then look back to find a way to deal with it.

Unexpectedly, just after she picked up the cold gold paper, a slightly smaller green and white paper appeared underneath!

The elegant hairpins are in small letters, and the handwriting is quite new.

this is not?

Lu Jinxi was stunned for a moment, then took it up after a moment's stupor. When he saw it, he didn't know what to think—

It's not too late to pull back from the cliff!

Lu's...

Such a pitiful and lovely person, in the end is so kind that it makes people feel distressed.

"Master Song's Taiwan Mirror, after replying to the letter, he tossed and turned, unable to sleep in contemplation."

"Half of my concubine's life has been bumpy and scattered. It's even lucky to meet adults, childhood sweethearts, and even. If at that time and place, I would not dare to go against my heart."

"However, your wise wife is by your side. She has no faults and no faults, and she is dearest and dearest to you."

"The present of the honorable lady is like the past of the concubine."

"The concubine is unwilling to let down the person she loves, what face is there to take the love of others?"

"Shuiyuejinghua, don't look at it for a long time."

"For months, I've had the wrong love."

"Concubine Qingdeng Ancient Buddha, I wish to pray for the peace of the adults."

"Lu's handwriting."

From "Bo Xian Ai Jian" to "Master Song Tai Jian"; from "Jin Xi's own handwriting" to "Lu's own handwriting", there is another woman hidden in the middle of these changes, how many years of bitterness and suffering?

Song Zhiyan should be her true love.

But after several struggles and hesitations, even if she wanted to be with him again, she couldn't let herself hurt another woman like herself.

After Lu Jinxi read these few short lines, she felt a dull pain in her heart. After all, she still admires her...

"Ma'am, are you... alright?"

Xu Shi saw that her expression was wrong, and Qing Que on the side had another heart.

Lu Jinxi shook his head, fumbling with his fingertips for the newly-inked letter, but in the other hand was a thick stack of cold gold paper.

She glanced at it and threw it into the charcoal basin.

When the paper caught fire, it ignited in an instant.

After a while, it became a pile of ashes.

Lu Jinxi didn't take a look, she just put the green and white paper left in her hand, put it in an envelope, and handed it to Qingque: "This letter, you send it for the last time. Tell that Yin Liu'er to be careful, if something happens again, I kept and asked someone to peel him!"

Qing Que almost bit her tongue in shock.

Isn't that the end of the story? why-

"the last time."

Lu Jinxi sighed and motioned her to come up to receive the letter.

"If you're worried, you can open it and take a look."

"Slaves don't dare. Whatever you say, slaves will believe it."

Qing Que hurriedly shook her head, gritted her teeth, and still accepted the letter, hesitantly said, "Then the slave or maid should send it as soon as possible?"

"Go."

Lu Jinxi nodded, and didn't want to delay this matter for too long.

Even if this letter was intercepted by Princess Yongning again, she would never scold her again.

Qing Que got it right, she hid the letter in her sleeve and went out.

She left on the front foot, and the egret came back on the back foot to report to Lu Jinxi: "Madam, everything has been explained to Pan Quan'er, and it has also been specified that only ordinary medicinal materials are needed. He has asked someone to draw up the list now, saying that he will hand it over to you tomorrow. ."

Lu Jinxi nodded: "I don't know this person very well, but looking at the way he handled brother Chi's affairs, he should be able to do it well. I don't mind lifting him up. If someone comes tomorrow, just tell me that ."

After she finished speaking, she walked over and sat back on the edge of the kang with the carved lacquer square.

But as soon as she looked up, she saw that the egret's face was wrong.

There seemed to be a bit of hesitation hidden on the plate with a round face, and he looked at her with some caution, as if he was looking at her face.

Lu Jinxi said: "You girl, you have always had a rectal bowel, and you have something to say. With this hesitant look, what happened to you, so it's hard to speak?"

"...Slave, aren't you afraid that you will be angry?"

The egret whispered to himself, but then the voice became lower and lower, as if he was taboo.

"When the slave servants were on the road, I heard from Jiao Mama, who was serving the two sisters, that Sister Lang started to run towards the eldest son after nearly half a month..."

eldest son…

The lame boy that Xue Kuang brought back?

The author has something to say: (⊙v⊙) Well, next chapter Shuzi.

List of female lead children:

Xue Tingzhi (son of concubine): According to rumors in the capital, 16 years old

Xue Mingli (daughter): 10 years old

Xue Minglang (daughter): 7 years old

Xue Chi (sister-in-law): 5 years old