The wind whistled in from outside the window, mixed with the first light snowflake this winter. Not so much windows, in fact, only the dilapidated carvings are left. When days are really boring, I will look at these beautifully carved rafters and imagine the life of a woman who once lived here.

After Brother Zhao reported my death to Yue Guiren that day, for safety and in case Haoyue suddenly went to Fansi to check, with the help of Brother Zhao, I lived in this remote palace not far from Fansi. In the abandoned palace room of the place.

Daxi’s palace was expanded on the basis of the previous palaces. After adding many palaces, some of the original harem palaces were abandoned due to location or lighting or the configuration of the new palace. It's crowded and rarely visited.

I lived in this room, probably because it was close to the Nine Dragon Pond and it was located to the west. The entire palace room was in the west, so it was abandoned.

At this time when I first came, my body was unable to receive treatment and decoction because of my miscarriage, so I had to lie in bed every day. Brother Zhao secretly sends morning and evening meals every day, because the time is always uncertain because he wants to avoid people's eyes and eyes. When I met him improperly, I would be hungry for a day. But fortunately, he had pity on me, and he wanted to raise money for the mother at home, so there was almost no time to rest. After about two months, when the weather went down, my body was much better on my own, but I also lost my head, and my physical condition was not as good as before. However, as long as you live, you are lucky.

Long days of loneliness, it seems that the daily hope, but it is only a few words with him when Brother Zhao delivers the food. In the rest of the time, I walked through the 108 broken white marble floor tiles in this palace, looked at the delicate carvings of the 81-petal lotus flower on the window, and touched the bedside of a 110 child. His expression moved, and he counted 13,546 fallen leaves of the 18 phoenix trees in the courtyard.

And the first piece of snow drifted in through the gaps between the tangled branches and lotus leaves on the third window. It reminds me that winter has come.

The cotton cloth that Haoyue brought back, except for the clothes I made for myself, was sent back by Brother Zhao. Only said that the clothes were worn when I was in the funeral. Haoyue gave the cotton cloth to Brother Zhao, and he quietly gave it to me. I made a cotton robe and gave it to him, also to cover Haoyue's eyes and ears. What was left was not enough to sew a quilt. Anyway, there was only a little quilt. I only made a thick and short jacket to withstand a little bit of winter cold.

In winter, Japan should burn charcoal for heating, but the dying guards only got a little black charcoal, which burned extremely smoke. Brother Zhao quietly took some to me, because it was hiding here, I didn't dare to burn, so he returned it to him. He had no choice but to quietly give me one of the quilts allocated to Fanshi. But let alone the lint in the quilt that has passed away, not to mention, most of them are old, but it is impossible to have more. I had to ask Brother Zhao to collect some straw for me, so that I would not freeze to death in such a severe winter.

But even so, because this palace room is exposed to the west, only a short period of evening sunlight filters in. The snow hardly stopped this winter, so within a few days, the straws and quilts became wet and heavy.

In such days, I can only warm myself by burning my good memories.

I remembered the coldness in the mountains last winter, and black charcoal is a rare thing in that secluded mountain village. The house is damp and cold, after all, it used to be a place to dissipate summer, and it was not suitable for living in winter.

Before the arrival of winter, Aunt Huang helped us make a few thick quilts and set up a fire to keep warm. I made some new winter clothes for Xi He. Although they are made of the most common folk materials, they are very warm. In this way, sometimes he is not afraid to go hunting in the mountains with the older brothers in the same village.

Every morning I wake up to the sound of "cracking" firewood. That is Xihe preparing firewood in the courtyard. Even now, I can hardly imagine that a prince can do this, just like the most ordinary villager doing the most ordinary farming.

I woke up earlier that day, Xihe's sound of chopping wood stopped, and I stood behind the door looking at him, but he didn't find me. He must have felt very hot that day, he had already rolled up his sleeves at the beginning, and then it was estimated that there was no one around and took off his shirt.

At that moment, I was so shocked that I almost shouted.

Although Xi He, as a general, often lived and died on the battlefield, his skin was clean and flawless. At that time I saw his back, where there was a long, hideous scar.

The scar seemed to have been wounded by a sharp object, a long narrow, dark red, so straight, and it was caused by the destruction of a sharp object. Now that the scar has not faded, one can imagine how deep it was at the time. But I once heard people talk about Wang Yu's appearance, his skin is not half-injured, and his experience is rare. Now that I saw the scar, I vaguely guessed the origin, and there was waves in my heart.

At night when he was sitting under the lamp reading a book of scriptures, I asked seemingly inadvertently: "Xihe, are you hurt?" He was taken aback for a moment and then smiled: "It was left by the war. It is inevitable to have injuries on my body." I stubbornly nodded, looked down at a piece of cotton-padded clothes that was being sewn in my hand, the silver needle flashed, and I calmly said, "How did the injury on the back come from? "

In fact, I was just curious, and didn't think Xi He would tell me at that time.

He hesitated for a long time before speaking softly: "It was left behind when he was surrounded and fought out by enemy forces."

He said so relaxed, his daily tone, as if I was asking if he was going into the mountains with Big Brother Huang tomorrow. But my heart was gripped tightly. As the leader, there must be many soldiers guarding him during the war. Of all the wars I heard about him, only once was he surrounded by enemy troops and fought alone, and that time was due to the purse I gave him.

I stretched out my hand trembling, trying to caress the pain. But it was half stretched and still hung weakly, tears blurred his eyes.

Xihe hugged me gently, and he kissed my hair and muttered: "What are you crying? It's nothing." The embrace was so warm, so practical and full of security.

I stretched out my hand blankly, as if I could still feel the warmth of that embrace. But the snow fell on my fingertips by the wind, and I only felt cold. He shuddered and pulled his hands back. It's really cold this winter.

I grasped the quilts and straws that were no longer dry by my side, and gathered them in front of me. The sorrow and coldness penetrated into my body, but I hugged them a little bit tightly, just thinking about what to wrap myself up with, so that I don't feel so cold.

The wind was still blowing, and suddenly I felt very tired and sleepy. I loosened my hands and leaned against the wall to sleep.

In my sleep, everything that had once appeared suddenly and clearly before my eyes. I'm like a bystander, quietly watching that period of time flow in the river of time, and as a bystander, I finally see everything clearly, and I can only watch everything passing by. , Even though, I have discovered the truth.

The reason why Haoyue aroused my suspicion was just some details.

That day, Shen Xiyao took me back to the palace with such fanfare. It would be impossible to say that the news was completely blocked. Therefore, some people who wanted to get rid of me were naturally eager to move. And Haoyue is the best use object. Because she is my personal servant girl since childhood, the person I trust most is naturally her. Therefore, I will not be suspicious of what she does to me.

At first, I should be suspicious. The day Haoyue first came to see me happened to be the day when the guards caught snakes. Those snakes won't show up for no reason. According to Brother Luo, someone should have deliberately brought dead mice and chicken blood into my room, and then placed the poisonous snake nearby.

I think they arranged for Liu San too. With his little Lenggong guard, even if we are the emperor’s waste, we are also the emperor’s women. Even if we give him a thousand courage, he dare not violate. However, he did, and Haoyue happened to help me out. In such a situation, I will only be grateful, but not doubtful.

It's really seamless, and the loops are so tight that people can't be suspicious.

I should completely trust Haoyue, but the bad thing is that set of crab-eating utensils.

The "18 crabs" with gold and diamonds can only be used from the first level of concubine. Haoyue is just a noble person at this time. What's more, if she really has no friends in the harem, as she said, just staring at her eyeliner everywhere, how dare she use such a thing? There is only one case, that is, the "eighteen crabs" inlaid with gold and diamonds are not hers.

There are many concubines in the harem, but there are few first-level concubines, but Liu Fei, Li Fei and Hefei. Shen Xiyao naturally has new favorites, but none of them are concubines. Then, the "eight pieces of crabs" inlaid with gold and diamonds could only be given to Haoyue by one of the three, or instructed her to come here.

At the same time, although the hairy crabs of Yangcheng Lake are sent to the palaces, they are also divided into levels. What Haoyue brought was absolutely excellent. Under normal circumstances, as her noble person, she wouldn't be able to enjoy such top products.

I closed my eyes so that tears did not slide down the corners of my eyes. Haoyue, from the previous clues, she is no longer the playmate who grew up with me since she was loyal to me, she has stood by the side of the group of people who cannot tolerate me, and has become the opposite of me.

That crab, I am afraid Haoyue used it to test me. She found the baby's clothes and tried to guess how many times I was pregnant. If I didn't eat it, she would confirm her thoughts, or, their thoughts.

As for wine, I ignored the double-petal lid, which has always been a weapon in the palace.

But when I drank it, I knew the truth. The only thing I regret is that the child in my womb went to another world instead of me. So I prayed "The Mantra of Rebirth" day and night, just asking this child to be able to ascend to bliss early. At the same time, my heart is faintly rejoicing, fortunately, it was not born in the emperor's house.

That night, when Wan Lai was quiet, I suddenly thought of the words of Butler Li and his death. Now it seems that I have fallen into a trap ignorantly.

As the emperor, how could Shen Xiyao personally tell the emperor to prescribe medicine? Although he admitted, the scene that Steward Li saw must be fictional. Then, in addition to Haoyue, there is the concubine behind her that I don't know who can make him frame the emperor, give him the courage, and let him tell me that, after he has told me, I will turn my head against Shen Xiyao and get the benefits.

The nurse who pushed me into the water was just the next killer move by those people after Shen Xiyao didn't kill me because I was pregnant. The Queen Mother knew that my assassination of Shen Xiyao was even more of their play. They are eager to get rid of me through the hands of the Queen Mother.

I just never thought that Mr. Huang was actually my father's person, and quietly left my life.