Chapter 1892 Renzijuan Miaoyu asked for advice, feeling unwilling to do so

 From the bottom of her heart, Xiuyan certainly hopes that her best friend, whom she has known since childhood, can find a good home, and she also knows that her best friend's temperament is definitely not good.

To put it bluntly, Miaoyu's character is vain, pretentious, impetuous and sensitive, a bit stubborn and introverted, and sometimes has a strong rebellious mentality. If Xiuyan had not had such a good temper, someone else would definitely not be able to get along so well with Miaoyu.

Of course, Miaoyu's character is not without its advantages. For example, she is frank and straightforward, or impulsive. She is also kind and generous, and she is willing to share good things with herself. She is unwilling to say many things to others, but to Xiuyan Come, but willing to reveal your heart.

"Sister's complexion looks much better than in the past few months, and her mood seems to be much better." Xiuyan smiled and held the green jade bucket. This is for Miaoyu's own use. Other than Xiuyan, no one else can use it. "It seems like my sister is very satisfied with where she lives now."

"I can't say I'm very satisfied. I'm living under someone else's roof, so don't worry too much about it. Besides, I'm a person who cultivates my hair, so how can I be so particular about it?" Miaoyu said with a hint of concern on her face, "It's you, in the prison." After staying here for so long, it’s not easy to raise a general for a while. Even if I ask you to come and live here, you won’t..."

"Thank you sister for your kindness. There are a lot of people here with Miss Lin, so why should I cause trouble again? If I am alone, that's all, but there are parents, so that wouldn't be appropriate." Xiuyan shook her head, "To say that my sister takes care of You have to practice cultivation, but you still have to go through life? My sister in the Cuicui nunnery has been practicing for so long, but I haven’t seen her looking so good? "

Miaoyu choked slightly, Xiuyan's unintentional words made her a little embarrassed.

In terms of comfort and satisfaction, Miaoyu of course prefers Cuicui'an. Not only is the environment elegant and she has no worries about food and clothing, but the chefs in the Grand View Garden can also change the taste from time to time according to her own appetite. The people in the garden also treat her very well. Very polite, Miaoyu felt a little happy and reluctant to miss Shu.

 But Jia’s house was suddenly raided, which awakened Miaoyu’s dream.

Daiyu and she moved out immediately afterwards. Although Feng Ziying had already made arrangements, this place of residence was not bad, so she gradually got used to it.

At this moment, Miaoyu seemed to realize how pleasant it was to live in the Cuicui Nunnery all her life, carefree and leisurely. But why did it become like this?

　　The day you came out was not bad. How could the Feng family treat Daiyu poorly when she was here? But even these changes made Miaoyu a little uncomfortable and uncomfortable.

She suddenly discovered with some panic that she was not even satisfied with this kind of life. But once Daiyu married into the Feng family, and she had to continue her career as a hairdresser, I was afraid that she would really have to live in Beijing. He could find an ordinary nunnery and live an ordinary or even austere life, but could he still live frugally like he did before entering Jia's family a few years ago?

Miaoyu thought about it countless times and gritted her teeth to learn to adapt in advance, which surprised everyone in the house, but Miaoyu still found it difficult to go back to the past.

She still vividly remembers the situation in Suzhou and when she first came to the capital and lived in Muni Temple, but why does it feel so strange, even torturous?

It is precisely because of this contrast, especially the period of panic and worry when Rongguo Mansion was raided, and then the calmness after slowly settling down, that Miaoyu realized that she seemed to be a common person in essence.

I like all kinds of shoes from Tuyunfang, Ruixialou's underskirts and waistbands, Wanbofang's breast wraps, and Miaojinshe's cloaks and jackets. These are the top clothing production workshops in the capital city. Not only does it make custom-made clothes for the palace, but it also makes inner and outer clothes for wealthy ladies and ladies of the capital.

In addition to these, there are also tea sets from Linglong Pavilion, various snacks from Suji Restaurant, such as preserved meat and roasted seeds and nuts, and tea that she can’t live without for half a day, Laojun Mei, which is Junshan Silver Needle, Lu’an Guapian, and The scary fragrances from her hometown in Gusu are all Miaoyu's favorite.

And the little maid who is always at hand saves me a lot of work. At first I was not used to it, but now I have to bear all the tasks of boiling water and pouring tea, folding quilts and sweeping the floor, cooking and washing, wonderful Jade couldn't imagine how she would live in the future without all this.

Just as she was slowly accepting all this, Miaoyu found that Feng Ziying's attitude towards her seemed to be changing more and more, becoming more and more distant and even a little indifferent.

Although Miaoyu's attitude towards Feng Ziying is complicated and unspeakable until now, she flatly refused to be her concubine, but the other party was not upset. She just said that she had to do this because of Lin Ruhai's trust, and she did not agree. The marriage contract was abandoned and shelved it for the time being until everyone could think it through. But now that Daiyu's wedding day was approaching, he never mentioned how to deal with his marriage contract, which made Miaoyu feel a little unspeakable. taste.

 Whether it's a waste or a good thing, even she herself can't tell how she envisions her future.

Miaoyu also knew that logically, since she had followed her mother's request to recognize her ancestors and take the surname Lin, her father would naturally have to decide on her marriage. Lin Ruhai's arrangement was in line with the rules. If she didn't agree or agree, she would not accept it. It didn't make much sense, but Feng Ziying seemed to have generously given herself a choice and was willing to follow her own wishes. If she was relieved at the time, this choice now put herself in an awkward situation.

Does he really want to watch Daiyu marry into the Feng family, but he has to find a nunnery again and live the poor life? Miaoyu couldn't imagine it.

"Seeing that my sister has recovered, I was very distressed when she came out. Do you still have the bird's nest I gave you? If it's gone, I'll get some for you." Regarding her best friend, Miaoyu She was very concerned about her. When Xiuyan first came out, Miaoyu hurriedly went to visit and brought bird's nests, ginseng and other things, which made Xiuyan particularly touched.

Because of this, Xiuyan has been looking for an opportunity to persuade Miaoyu. Seeing that Daiyu is about to get married, it can be regarded as a plan for Miaoyu in the future.

"Thank you, sister. Also, those things cannot be taken regularly..." Xiuyan said quickly: "Miss Lin and sister must take good care of themselves. Seeing that the wedding of Miss Lin and sister is coming soon, has sister ever considered it? good?"

With one sentence, the whole room fell into silence. The expression on Miaoyu's face changed. She was a little confused and hesitant. Finally, her voice was a little lower: "I haven't thought about it either."

"Then what are sister's worries?" Xiuyan knew that she had to calm down the other party's concerns, and she also needed to make the other party realize a certain sense of urgency.

"I can't tell. She has always been looking forward to it. She seems to be tied to a certain man for the rest of her life, but I don't know if I will live like that for the rest of my life." Miaoyu seemed to be a little incoherent in her words, " I can't say how much hatred and dissatisfaction I have towards him. Logically speaking, he is still kind to our family, but I can't say that I am very close to him. He and Daiyu have been friends in adversity since childhood, and they share the same affection. The position of wife and eldest wife was promised to her, but who am I? What’s the difference between me and a concubine? How different from those maids who surround him all day long and come and go as soon as he calls?"

"He and I have only met once in the past six months, and we haven't spoken more than ten sentences in total in the past year, right? This Cuicui'an is far away from Daoxiang Village. I see him going to Daoxiang Village more often than Laixiang. There are many more Cui'an! I could have lived freely by myself, cultivating my mind and character, but I still fell into such a mundane and trivial life. I don't know what I will become in the future..."

Although Miaoyu used "he" and "she" over and over in her words and rambled on, it would be difficult for outsiders to understand. However, as Xiuyan knew Feng Ziying, Daiyu and Miaoyu very well, this was not a problem. , she could even hear some resentment toward Feng Ziying and even Daiyu in Miaoyu's words.

This made Xiuyan a little scared and confused. Why is this sister a little dissatisfied with Daiyu's status as a eldest lady? Could it be...?

Xiuyan didn't dare to think about it. The distinction between concubine and concubine was so strict that it was insurmountable in this era. Why was Sister Miaoyu still unwilling to accept Lin Daiyu's status as his concubine?

She wouldn’t think that she was older than Daiyu. If Daiyu respectfully called her sister, she would think that she should be the legitimate wife, right? How can this be?

At first, Xiuyan always thought that this sister was still addicted to this kind of life of half-cultivation and half-enjoyment of human fireworks, so she was unwilling to marry as a woman to avoid being affected. But now she feels that this sister's current situation is different from the previous two years. Something is different. She seems to be less resistant to marrying into the Feng family. On the contrary, she is a little dissatisfied with Feng Ziying's attitude towards her. The difference in status between Daiyu and her has subverted her understanding and made some of the things she had initially prepared to do. Rhetoric is somewhat useless.

After calming down, Xiuyan was also preparing her words.

  She knew that she could not touch some unspeakable aspects.

The relationship between the sisters Daiyu and Miaoyu is very delicate. Although Daiyu is usually aloof and even withdrawn, she still respects Miaoyu, her half-sister who is a concubine. What is going on in her daily life? They are all thinking about Miaoyu, but this does not mean that Daiyu does not understand many things.

Although Daiyu is a few years younger, she is a direct descendant of the Lin family, so there is no objection. Even if the Jia family collapses now, it will not damage Daiyu's identity. Miaoyu's background is even more embarrassing, although she is nominally an official. The young lady of the family is actually the wife of the prisoner of the Jiaofang, and is even more despicable, but this cannot be said.

 (End of this chapter)