Chapter 2 Xu Guangling

   This is an answer that leaves no doubts. No pair of parents who love their children can tolerate their children to seek death, even if they are no longer there. How deep the love is, the greater the expectation, and this expectation not only accompanies their whole life, but also accompanies the life of their children.

   Even under Jiuquan, they will use their eyes to watch the growth of their children, feel happy, proud, worried, and tormented.

Therefore, even if he was heartbroken, even if he really thought about seeking death, and it was more than once, but in the end, Xu Guangling slowly walked out of that thick shadow, but there are some things that cannot be removed in a lifetime. .

  In the world, there are many news of accident victims.

   But how many people have thought about the situation of the family members of the accident victims, especially their children?

For Xu Guangling, the loss of his parents has had a huge impact on him. This huge impact is not only reflected in the inability to face the departure of his parents, but also in the face of time. However, at the same time, it caused him a shattering of his outlook on life.

   Before the accident of his parents, Xu Guangling was sunny, enterprising and hardworking.

  After the accident of his parents, Xu Guangling was shadowy, silent, and lost his life direction and goal. He didn't know what else to fight for, and more importantly, what was the point of fighting? Maybe the last moment everything was good, it couldn't be better, but the next moment, there is nothing.

   Is this trauma?

   Yes and no.

   said yes, because it was really brought to him due to the failure of his parents, and said no, because the wound can be healed, but this effect cannot be healed, and I don’t know how long it will accompany him.

After that incident, Xu Guangling never submitted a draft, never composed a piece of music, never touched a piano, never organized a school activity, never participated in a learning competition, let alone a competition. He didn't even want to listen to basic classes.

When his parents were there, his father did not have much requirements for Xu Guangling's studies. Of course, because of the fact that he did not need any requirements, Xu Guangling himself had done well, and it was far beyond his expectations, but his mother There are requirements, and even Xu Guangling's route for the next few years has been arranged.

  First go to Tsinghua University, complete your studies in two or three years, then go to Harvard or Cambridge to get a master's degree, and a Ph.D. depends on the situation, and then return to China to seek a teaching position at your alma mater. It is best to start as an associate professor...

   Father Xu had no objection to this arrangement, nor did Xu Guangling.

   However, with the unexpected, everything changed.

   In the third year of high school, Xu Guangling rejected the school's special recruitment arrangement, took the college entrance examination casually, and then randomly entered a university. In the university, he basically only lingered in the on-campus library and the off-campus National Library.

  Reading books, many books, all kinds of miscellaneous books.

   This is the only way to make him forget about the outside world and about his parents.

   Then four years passed like that. Even if he graduated in the normal four years, Xu Guangling was only nineteen when he graduated, not yet twenty. He entered school at the age of six, then skipped one level in primary school and another level in junior high school.

   After graduation, Xu Guangling did not look for a job, nor did he intend to.

As a writer and an expert in literature and history, Xu’s father is famous in the province and well-known in China. As a composer, Xu’s mother is slightly inferior to Xu’s father. He is unknown outside the circle, and is only well-known in the circle. However, if only in terms of income , but more than Father Xu.

After    left, what they left to Xu Guangling was a 280-square-meter house in the city center and a bank deposit of 34 million.

   This is actually enough for Xu Guangling to wander all his life.

   But since entering university, Xu Guangling has not returned home once, and after graduating from university, he has not returned. He was afraid of being saddened. Xu Guangling just found a place casually, rented a house casually, and then indulged in the world of the book casually.

   Until you get tired of one place, choose a new place and start over.

  So and so, confused and confused. No direction, no goal, no motivation. No one will take care of him, and no one will take care of him. - Parents are no longer there. During college, even though he had been unhappy and showed no signs, there were still many girls showing affection, but Xu Guangling refused and ignored them. To him, it seemed to be something in another world.

  Indifferent, silent, withdrawn, so weird, this is Xu Guangling after his parents' accident.

   However, time is really a force that cannot be ignored. Five or six years is enough to quietly change some things, to rekindle the ashes, and to bring some life back to the dead. Or maybe it was because there were too many places to change, too many mountains to climb, and too many seas to see, Xu Guangling slowly, finally no longer so dark.

   He began to try to write or record some things, about his parents, about himself, about the outside world's landscapes and other things, or just a few words, or longer, but no longer published.

   He also tried to recompose some songs, or songs, or songs, or all songs, or just one or two lines of melody and broken chapters. Again, these are only recorded and will not be published. Regardless of whether it is good or not, the reason why it will not be published is that these things are to record his mood, record his experience, record his memory and nostalgia, which are too personal and too selfish.

   That is something that should not be made public. It is only suitable for one person to record and recall quietly.

   He also made some friends.

It's not that we made friends on our own initiative, but we have traveled many places and experienced many mountains and rivers. It is inevitable that some people will meet you with just a look, a smile, or a few simple words. .

   There are quite a few people like this, and some of them, after being separated, are separated from each other. And there are some who meet again in different places by chance or necessity, or even meet again three times, so they can't help but become friends, even good friends.

   At this time, Xu Guangling chatted with two friends online.

   These two friends are insects.

  The so-called insects, Kunming people are also. When traveling to Dixiazhou County, many Kunming people left a bad impression on the locals because they didn't pay much attention to anything, so they got the name "insect". The word itself is derogatory, but since the expansion , and many Kunming people call themselves insects.

  For example, one of the people Xu Guangling was talking about at this time had a personal profile of "An Insect." It was also from him that Xu Guangling knew about insects.

  Dasha: Third, come to play?

  The wine is too thin to drink (Xu Guangling): Where are you? Where else haven't you played?

   Young Master Jia: I won’t say anything about Shangri-La, Lijiang, Dali. You have also been to Bianzhai. I thought about it, but there is a nearest place that the three of us haven't been to. The third child, have you heard of Fuxian Lake?

   Xu Guangling did not, so he Baidu.

After browsing a lot of web pages, Xu Guangling even saw this passage: Yunnan people are generous, they selflessly share Lijiang Shangri-La and other beautiful scenery to the world, Yunnan people are selfish, they give the best things left to myself. (here refers to Fuxian Lake)

   Xu Guangling copied this passage.

  The wine is too thin to drink: Really so good?

  Dasha: I don't know, it's probably hanging. Because I am a local, I have never heard of it before! But it doesn't matter, let's take a look.

  The wine is too thin to drink: OK.

   Young Master Jia: Are you still coming by train? Me and the fool will pick you up tomorrow.

  The wine is too thin to drink: good.

   (end of this chapter)