Qu Yan took a few deep breaths and tried to calm her restless mood. At this moment, she even missed the tranquilizer prescribed to her by the doctor.

Certain psychiatric drugs are addictive. During this time, she took some drugs more or less in front of Ji Zhuoran for acting. Now, she may have some drug dependence problems.

She could feel that she was a little restless.

Originally, under normal circumstances, even if she had bad emotions, she would gradually pass and calm down, but now Xiao Rui is still crying miserably in her arms, which makes her feel particularly bad.

"Don't, don't cry." Qu Yan shook her head. She could hear her even with paper stuffed in her ears. Now Xiao Rui was crying very hard, and the hoarseness seemed to accuse her of even a bottle. Can't see the water.

Qu Yan gritted his teeth and tried to convince herself, "Calm down, you can, you can be a good mother."

Before giving birth to Xiao Rui, she actually took a lot of parenting-related courses, but now, those courses seem to have disappeared from her mind.

What she has to deal with now is almost the most difficult thing in the world.

Qu Yan hurriedly opened the refrigerator and found a box of adult milk. Thinking that she could not care about so much at this moment, she blocked Xiao Rui's mouth first.

So she took the milk, turned around and returned to the baby room. There were other bottles in the baby room. Qu Yan returned to the baby room, so she had to put down Xiao Rui first, cut the milk box, and then poured it into the bottle.

She first stuffed the baby bottle into Xiao Rui's mouth, and then she took another empty bottle and went outside to add milk to him.

As soon as he left the nursery with an empty bottle, Qu Yan turned around and brought it to the door, feeling like a survivor.

She took a few deep breaths, trying to calm her restless heart.

Although she now knows that the problem is with the concubine, raising a child is always a huge problem, and it has never changed.

Thinking of this, Qu Yan gradually felt the pressure on his shoulders.

She thought about it and decided to take some tranquilizers to ease her emotions.

Xiao Rui is really difficult to handle.

She went to the kitchen again, filled Xiao Rui with milk, and then poured herself another glass of warm water.

"Where is my medicine?" Qu Yan pondered this question, and after a while, he remembered that the medicine was at Ji Zhuoran.

The doctor said when she was discharged from the hospital that she now has relatively weak willpower. If she takes the medication by herself, she may have overdose, so she needs to be supervised.

So Qu Yan could only leave Xiao Rui again and go back upstairs first.

At this time, the entire floor of the Xichi Garden was sleeping quietly in the dark, Qu Yan walked alone in the empty stairwell, and for a moment, a strange doubt arose in his heart.

Why is she here, insisting on raising Xiao Rui by herself, so she is so wronged?

The moment this thought arose, Qu Yan felt self-blame.

She had said well before that she must be a qualified mother, but now why did she put down her promise?

Xiao Rui is very difficult to handle, and now I don’t know if he is still crying, but...I am his mother, and I have to take care of him, this is her responsibility!

It's better to... let him go.

There was a dark voice in a corner of my heart.

Qu Yan was almost taken aback by the voice in his heart.

How can it be?

Why should she give up Xiao Rui?

That was the child that came out of her stomach, that was her biological son, why did she abandon her biological son so indifferently?

Qu Yan didn't understand, what the voice was trying to say.

She walked quickly through the darkness, found the bedroom, and walked in.

"Who?" Ji Zhuoran was very alert, he woke up almost the moment she pushed in.

He stared at the thin figure in the dark and asked, "Small smoke?"

"Well, I want to take some of my medicine down." Qu Yan said helplessly.

She didn't know where Ji Zhuoran put the medicine, so she could only tell him directly.

Sure enough, he noticed something was wrong, and decisively turned on the bedside lamp, walked over to her, and asked,

"What's the matter? You can't sleep at night? Or is Xiao Rui crying again?"

Qu Yan said: "It's okay, I can handle it, but there is something wrong with my current mood. Give me some medicine and I will get better."

He frowned and said, "You can sleep on it. I'll go down and take a look. Isn't it just taking care of the child? Let me deal with it. You have a good rest."

"But..." Qu Yan was also a little worried about Ji Zhuoran for a while, fearing that he would do something to the child.