This is the first time in my life that I walk through my life like a stranger.

 

The mother and concubine had a difficult labor, and the blood and water came out of the house one by one, and even the father thought she was going to die.

He was furious, and the imperial doctor knelt on the ground.

That's when I was born.

The imperial doctor was relieved to hear my cry.

The concubine treats me very well.

She is a gentle person, she took me to read and read, taught me great principles, and I gradually became the smartest prince.

My father likes me very much, and he often praises me in front of other princes. If he hadn’t praised me, he would always belittle my eldest brother, I should be very happy.

I actually like the eldest brother very much. I know that it is not easy for him to be the prince. Although he does not speak, he likes to take care of our younger brothers.

I also like my sister-in-law, she is ten years older than me, she always treats people gently, reminds me of my mother-in-law, she also likes to take care of me.

Life was peaceful and quiet until I was ten years old, when my father called me over and asked me if I wanted to be a prince.

I didn't have great ambitions, I said I didn't want to, the emperor sighed, as if very disappointed.

From that day on, the emperor started to treat me badly.

It was not until a long time later that I knew that the **** chief beside the father was the queen, and the queen was the mother and queen of the elder brother.

The father always felt that the elder brother was too kind and indecisive. He believed that being a good emperor should be cruel.

So she loves me and wants to pass the crown to me, in fact, I just want to see if my eldest brother will fight me.

He succeeded. When I was ten years old, Su Biehe, the advisor beside the emperor, brought me a plate of cakes.

I ate it, and since then I have suffered from that painful disease.

The concubine once said, "I am your mother, you are sick, but I did not take good care of you. So, if you want to kill, kill me first."

So every time I get sick, my mother and concubine will hold me tightly. The violence caused by the sickness makes me always have an urge to kill her, but I never do anything.

Because that was my mother.

In this way, four years have passed, the mother concubine has become more and more unloved because of my illness. She has been with a lunatic like me all the year round, and her spirit has begun to be in a trance.

In the past four years, my mother's family, the Zhenguo Gongfu, has been repeatedly suppressed by the princelings, and it has begun to decline slowly.

When I was fourteen years old, a foreign enemy came and I asked my father to let me go to the battlefield with the Marquis of Wu'an.

I entrusted my mother-in-law to my sister-in-law, who is the person I trust most in the palace, and besides my mother-in-law, the only person who knows that I am sick and will treat me well.

The battlefield is ruthless, and people die every day.

On the surface, the Marquis of Wu'an didn't like me and often called me a little bastard.

Oh, he was angry that my uncle stole his favorite daughter. He often told me that he had carefully raised a cabbage for 20 years, but the cabbage was dug up with its roots. .

The battlefield is ruthless, the Marquis of Wuan was almost stabbed by the enemy on the battlefield, and I blocked him.

The battle was a complete victory, but I was in a coma for half a month. When I woke up, everyone was happily going back to the capital.

I was injured, and the Marquis of Wuan arranged for me to go back in a carriage.

If I knew what happened in the capital at this time, I would definitely ride back.

On the night when the Marquis of Wu'an returned to Beijing, my mother's house was beheaded by the whole family. My sister-in-law sent a message from the cold palace to Marquis of Wu'an. In the end, Marquis of Wu'an could only save her own daughter.

Three days later, when I returned to the capital, I thought I could shine on the lintel, but I only saw the mother-in-law jumping off the high platform.

I rushed to hug her, she still had a breath, wanted to smile at me, but didn't.

She died...

I was holding her body all the time, feeling her body heat dissipate little by little.

I cried a lot that day.

Later I found the elder sister-in-law in the cold palace, but saw the elder sister-in-law holding a newborn child in her arms.

She is so skinny that she can't laugh anymore, so she just hugged the same skinny child and begged me to save her.

Later, I learned that my sister-in-law knew that the elder brother was going to murder the Duke of Zhenguo and wanted to spread the news to me, but was locked up by the elder brother in the cold palace.

The child was born in the cold palace.

I started to develop my own forces, the secret guard, I found the tiger charm hidden by my grandfather, I found out who did everything, I want revenge.

It was just this little wish, but it didn't come true in the end.

Two years later, the father died. Before he died, he did not call him big brother. He only called me to his side and gave me 50,000 elite soldiers, begging me not to kill my brothers.

It's ridiculous, people who have been raising gu and instigating brothers to kill, actually want me not to kill brothers.

Just looking at my father, who is dying and has only his last breath, I agree.

On that day, when my brother ascended the throne, I began to condone my tyranny, and I began to kill.

I killed one participant after another in that incident, and I became the most murderous person I hated.

Brother Huang likes me to kill, he spreads me to kill everywhere, because of me, he is set off as a Mingjun.

Later, Rong Jin's murder will also depend on me.

I don't mind, I'm a vicious person anyway, there is no difference between viciousness and viciousness to me.

When I was twenty-two years old, the emperor began to stuff me with women.

Every princess he gave me was his, and he used them to humiliate me if I kept them.

They can spy on me, and if I don't keep them, they can just spread the name of my murder.

I killed them all until I met Shen Yu.

I remember that day, she looked up at me and asked me sincerely, "Excuse me, are you my husband?"

She said it would make me feel happy in addition to killing.

At first, I just thought she was funny. After all, my life has no fun other than killing people. It's fun to have such a fun thing around.

Besides, she has a pair of peach blossom eyes, every time she begs me, those eyes will be very vivid and beautiful.

She really likes to be shy, no matter how many times I tease her, she will just blushing at me.

She is very coquettish, and when she acts coquette, my heart softens.

She is very kind, she will hold my hand to reason with me, and hold me to warm me.

Slowly, I don't just think she's funny anymore.

She is a warm and firm person, she took my hand and led me out of the darkness, and joined me to fight against the emperor and Rong Jin.

She gave me an equally warm and lovely child.

She is my sweetheart.

However, at this moment, when my soul leaves the body, I see my heart and liver cry.

I tried to wipe her tears with my soul and told her, "Don't cry..."

But I can't touch her with my hand, and I can't make a sound.

After she cried for a day, she suddenly felt me ​​and stopped crying.

She sleeps as usual, goes to the hospital as usual, and I accompany her every day.

I accompanied her until she died, and then followed her and closed my eyes.