The eight scenes in this world are not the same as the eight scenes I know. No, I started to think that it was because the relationship between the eight scenes in the world and me was different, so she showed her a different aspect from the eight scenes I knew. To say that this world is completely a counterfeit constructed by the repeater according to my consciousness, so the eight sceneries of this world are also fakes, and I definitely do not believe it, because this world is so real, and the core spirit of the repeater The integrated device is not an independent thing. The doomsday illusion and the spiritual integration device have an extremely deep and close connection. The world born of the spiritual integration device must also have a deep and close connection with all the factors that constitute the illusion of the end.

Carmen's hint is also sufficient to support my point of view. This world is not a simple illusion, otherwise my idea of ​​what to do for this world is also ridiculous.

Doomsday illusions, hospital reality, this world of restraint constructed by repeaters, which one is true and which is false, in fact, I have not understood for a long time. I can only treat everything as real, and regard another world as a false act based on one world. I can't do it, even if it is to save the people in the hospital, and I have to treat the doomsday fate of the doomsday indifferent. I did not act with the idea of ​​destroying an illusory world.

Whenever I think of what I have to do, I have to give up, otherwise I can't get anything, my heart is full of pain. With intense pain, I faced an endless illusion that I could not save, and those who must be destroyed with the destruction of this endless illusion—whether it was true death or not, this consciousness was true and true . Therefore, I have never complained about people in the illusion of doomsday, whether they are enemies or friends. I have no power to simply reverse the end in the illusion of the end. I do n’t see anyone who can do this kind of thing, and can become a real hero, so I have to find another way to make a cruel decision based on the affiliation between the end of the illusion and the reality of the hospital.

I hope. When I finish the salvation in the hospital reality, I can solve the problem of doomsday illusions at one time, and prevent the tragic fate from going back and forth. However, this does not mean that in my eyes. Everything in the illusion of doomsday is false. I believe that the stories I have experienced in them, the authenticity of interpersonal encounters.

The relationship between this world and the end of the illusion is just like the relationship between the end of the illusion and the reality of the hospital, so when I opened my eyes and observed the world. When I was shocked by the reality of this world, I never regarded everything as illusory because of the assumption that "this may be a repeater trap." In this world, the relationship between Gao Chuan and Dr. Ruan Li, as well as the eight sceneries and Misaki Ye, and even the existence of more people, the emotions and relationships between each other. Where else can I see its falsehood?

I have heard philosophers describe the world and life: everything is empty, everything is allowed. It is concise and difficult to understand, but now I feel that I have already experienced it. Therefore, the eight scenes in front of me, which are not lovely at all, are definitely not fakes, but only real, the other side of the eight scenes I have never seen. No matter in the illusion of the end or the reality of the hospital, even in the depths of my memory. The memories in the orphanage also cannot prove that my understanding of the Eight Scenery is complete and thorough, because of the time, distance and living conditions between us. It's too far away.

Even if there is indeed an indescribable relationship between us. As Gao Chuan, I must also shoulder its responsibilities to her. And all this does not mean that I know everything about her.

I looked at the eight scenes, and my mind was fluctuating because of her words, but it quickly calmed down again. I have never regretted my choice. I have to save Bajing and others. This way of thinking will not change because of their strangeness. I once again confirmed the consciousness in my heart. The girl in front of me was familiar and strange, distant and close, but indeed, I couldn't let go of my hands.

I was a little trance, but I felt that the scene in front of me was like when it happened. In this scene, the smell, the wind from the distance, and the noise in the classroom are like sometime in the past. Engraved reproduction. But I ca n’t remember it. There is no such scene in the memory I have. Therefore, it is probably just a sense of sight. In a world of spiritual first nature and material second nature, it is not surprising that anything very strange in terms of sensibility occurs.

Because, here, it was originally a world to feel and interact with the mind, a world completely different from the world of material first in common sense theory.

"Perverted, this is a beautiful compliment." Bajing's expression and tone are completely ironic, making me feel that the word "perverted" in her mouth is indeed a commendatory word in her heart. I know that in fact I have never really understood this girl's thinking circuit in the past. Think about it carefully. In the illusion of apocalypse, there are not many opportunities for us to get along. In the eight scenes, the mysterious event created by the goat guild was involved, and then the whisperer was completely destroyed. It was only a short time before the eight scenes became the prophets. Later, most of the time, they were studying with the Prophet Mayn. In the reality of the hospital, Bajing is just a patient whose personality has been seriously damaged, and even communication is impossible. It makes me feel that I have a deep relationship with her, probably the memories that have emerged in my mind and the information obtained in the "hospital", but the image of the eight scenes spelled out by these materials is obviously extremely one-sided. It's just that I never had time to think about these issues.

Looking at this situation from a deeper perspective, for Gaochuan, what kind of person is the Eight Scenes? In fact, it has no meaning at all. Gaochuan must save the Eight Scenes. This is undoubtedly one of the cores of all actions so far. It is also the meaning of struggling under the most desperate circumstances. For me, all this is a birth and a mission and responsibility that I must bear. In this sense, Bajing's description at this time is indeed correct. When facing them, my sense of responsibility in my heart. Deeper than other feelings.

Although in my dictionary, "abnormal" is not a commendatory word, it also appears that there is a big difference between my thinking and the thinking of Bajing. but. However, I can't refute the views of the Eight Scenes from various aspects. Her perception of me seems to touch the essence more than my perception of her, and it can best explain my thoughts and behaviors.

"I am a woman who likes stimulation and does not know what love is. For me, feelings are like seasonings, it doesn't matter whether it is or not." Bajing said to himself, "But, is a man suitable for himself, I It is absolutely not wrong. Gao Chuan's appearance, personality and talents can satisfy me. Although it is a pervert. With the current situation, let's take our union for granted. "

"Why do you always add the suffix" abnormal "?" I can't help but whisper. Although understandable, I can't accept such a description emotionally.

"Because of the essence of Gao Chuan, it's a metamorphosis." Bajing said: "Although I don't know exactly what the metamorphosis is, I don't think men's vision is wrong. Anyway, I don't mind that Gao Chuan is a metamorphosis. . Because of the perverted Gaochuan, it is a stimulus within a safe range, no problem! "

"No, it's the most fundamental problem to make people pervert! The attributes of your whole person have changed!" As soon as I finished, I was stared at by Ba Jing, she was a little playful: "It seems that you are very me It seems to be familiar, but we have never had a deep relationship with each other. Since when have you been together, have you been peeping at me and dreaming of me. Imagine me? But dreaming is often the farthest distance from understanding. However, it does not matter, I will understand you well, and let you understand the real me. Maybe it will destroy your good imagination. But people like Gao Chuan will accept it well, or, more Accept it well? "Although the rhetorical tone is used, the attitude shown in the words is undoubtedly confident," I will never look away, you are such a man, Gao Chuan, which is very suitable for me. Men. Although in common sense, students ’early love is wrong, and it is a discipline that should not be violated as student cadres, but for people like you and me, there is no need to worry about academic decline. , And can determine the future of life on the road early, and this process will inevitably break loose and full of excitement because, simply a natural fit. "

Ba Jing Yue said more and more excited, her eyes seemed to be shining: "I feel more and more that the gains tonight are really the most exciting since I entered school."

"You listen to me, the eight scenes ..." I want to regain the right to speak. No matter how you look, the eight scenes are talking to themselves, and there is no room for me to choose. Although the relationship between us is complicated, it is unimaginable for Bajing. If you say it, you will only be regarded as having a mental illness. You must also admit that Bajing, as a woman, has its own conditions-excluding the strong personality that suddenly shows up. Other than that-they are all very good, but the problem is that the eight offensives are so unexpected that they are too unexpected, and it is a bit of a joke to do the final action immediately.

As soon as the relationship between us started, we reached the end. From all levels and in all senses, I was not mentally prepared. The awkwardness in my heart is probably because of it.

"What else do you want to say? Do I not meet your spouse selection criteria?" Ba Jing asked back.

"No-I think ..."

"You think you should love and love gradually, and increase your feelings gradually? Don't joke, life is short, how can you waste time on such meaningless things."

"Is this a pointless thing!" I couldn't help but refute.

"Yes, meaningless. Because, I don't need it." Ba Jingyi's expression of righteousness said: "Emotional factors are the most fickle in all fickle factors. All relationships that rely on emotion to maintain are Fragile, does it make sense to spend time on a fragile thing? "

"No, your opinion is too radical." This is what I have in mind.

"It seems that you still don't understand, Gao Chuan, but it doesn't matter. If you want feelings, unilaterally add feelings to me, no, in fact, you already have deep feelings for me, although I don't know exactly Where did this feeling come from, but did I make a mistake? "Bajing forced me to ask:" Looking at my eyes, to be honest, don't you have any love for me in your heart? "

I cannot deceive her, nor can I deceive myself, even if that love is not love, the emotion I have for her. It ’s not just about men and women. It was a deeper, more entangled, and more indescribable emotion.

"But that's not what you think." I argued.

"No, for me. That's enough. Love is the most generous and warmest of all emotions, and the most trustworthy." Bajing showed a smile that could only be described with clarity, "Go and find out which one is love This species, from where it comes, is the most meaningless, because love is love, and being able to be loved by another person is happy, ignoring the fact of its existence, and exploring its secrets, thus missing this love , But it will be thunderous. "

"... how did you see it?" I felt constrained by my emotions. Already very smart. During this time, I have never had more contact with Bajing than my ordinary classmates, and I have never focused too much on her.

"I'm very sensitive." Bajing happily hugged his hands on his chest and lined up the chest with a certain size. "Although you say it, you won't believe it, but I can really feel the right of others from simple contact My emotions, especially the strong emotions of love and hate. There is also a premonition that I can judge the people I contact with which are beneficial to me, even if this benefit will not be reflected in the first time. "

Bajing's words made me think deeply. Seeing what she meant, it seemed that she had such a capability long ago. Do the doomsday illusions and the eight scenes in the hospital's reality also have such a capability? Judging from the mysterious restraint of this world, it should not belong to the category of weird and mysterious. But there are similarities with the prophet's ability in some ways. Because of the sensitivity, Bajing eventually became a prophet? In other words, a person who becomes a prophet is not random. But have some measurable innate conditions already existed?

Then, in this world, with the rise of weirdness and mystery, will the Eight Scenes embark on the path of the prophet, the possibility of which has increased faintly.

A prophet is a power, but its existence is not positive, but when the world is inevitably going negative, it is better to have this power than to have no power.

My mood is complicated.

"It seems that you have no objections." Bajing didn't pay attention to my eyes. Although, I think she could see the complexity in my heart, but, as she said, she didn't want to pursue, or say, keep Such a secret is actually a complicated matter for her. If she really sees through my emotions, then she will be aware of something deeper. A man with a secret, the most attractive to women-this sentence placed on the eight scenes, it seems to be true.

"I understand." I can't refuse, because, her attitude has made it clear that there is no room for recovery, and all the harm that may cause her is something I don't want to consider, no matter how tactful the way of rejection is, to the front For the eight scenes, it doesn't work. Therefore, he accepted his fate happily.

"Very good. This weekend, we settled the relationship and then met the parents." Ba Jing's attitude was sharp and chaotic.

"... Isn't it too fast?" I haven't really seen Bajing's parents, and when it comes to seeing the woman's parents, it's the worst in my memory. No matter in the illusion of doomsday or in the reality of the hospital, there is no such condition. Even if I have experienced many incredible things, I can't help but feel a little flustered.

"Just hurry up, anyway, it's an established fact, and it's not something difficult to tell." Bajing said disapprovingly.

"Do you not give your family a little room to buffer?" I said.

"I know the situation of your family. My mother-in-law is a well-known psychologist. With her vision and psychological conditions, there will be no objections." Ba Jing said this way: "My family is simple, mentally tough, and inherited Do n’t worry, I ’m optimistic about men, they wo n’t deliberately blame. ”

"It's an unimaginable family relationship." I couldn't help saying, "Don't they worry about you?"

"Not at all." Ba Jing took it for granted and said firmly: "Because I have no reason to worry them."

"Well, if you insist on doing this." I can only helplessly raise the white flag.

Next, we didn't have a more in-depth conversation. After a while, the bell for the second half of the self-study class rang, and the classroom became quiet again, leaving only the rustling of writing. I glanced at the eight scenes from time to time. She was completely a normal student, and she didn't have any extra emotions and actions because of what happened during class. This made me really have to admire her, and I could take all this for granted and do it right. At least, there are still some ups and downs in my heart.

I am not a particularly calm person. I have long been aware of this, and sometimes I will make myself harder, but that is just because sensibility is not always easy. I saw tearful plots on TV, and I would be face-to-face and disapproving, because I do n’t like the sadness and cruelty that evoke sadness. I know that as long as I live, I have to face the impact of various tragedies, so I decided to harden my heart, but this proves that my emotions are more abundant than many people, and they must be ups and downs.

I couldn't be completely calm at this time, leaving all my cluttered thoughts behind. Therefore, I think that people who can be completely calm are really incredible, just like the eight scenes now. At least, I couldn't see any place where she was shaken, even under my eyes.

So, this passive emotion has been maintained until after the self-study next night. Me and Bajing took it for granted, but they left the classroom together less suddenly in the eyes of other students. We walked side by side, the relationship was different from the past, but even the classmates who kept me close to me everyday, and the female classmates who made good friends with Bajing, did not have any unnecessary associations. We are like walking on the same road simply and accidentally. From the eyes of the classmates talking around, we can't see any look of doubt. We were separated at the school gate, and we were on our way home together. At this time, I was still all the way with Bajing, and, for the first time in this world, I was a little sensitive, thinking that I would be ridiculed, but the fact is No one cares about this kind of thing at all.

Soon, with the rest of us along the way, they also dispersed, and eventually only me and Bajing walked under the bright moonlight.

"The direction of our house is the same?" I was a little surprised, because this is something I never noticed.

"It looks like this." Bajing said, and her voice seemed to be extra gentle because of the completely different atmosphere from each other. She, who had already determined the relationship, looked very different from the moonlight. The outline has not changed, but every move seems to be stained with a different color. It is a color that makes people feel good. Bajing's appearance and figure are very good, but on this evening, she is more in line with the praises of the beauty than she has ever seen, just like-I am the first time I know her.

The topic between us ~ lightnovelpub.net ~ seems to have been close when we were separated from other students. However, even if it is silent, it feels that there is a different emotion in peace, and the dispersion between each other seems to be closer to each other. I couldn't bear to make a noise, fearing to destroy such a sudden feeling, but it made people feel good, warm and calm. Bajing walked so quietly, even from the quiet alley to the busy street, the footsteps coming into my ears have never been weakened. At this moment, even if it is the noise and confusion of the city, I couldn't hide her figure in my eyes.

I'm sure once again that I am really a very emotional person. Even at this moment, the anomalies hidden in the shadows still appear in my vision in the form of illusion, so that I can hear the sound of their existence, and I cannot shake my heart because the atmosphere between the eight scenes The beautiful feeling that it produces. This world is about to face threats, but even this is the only time in this short time, I can feel this unique peace and warmth, I feel very satisfied.

We inadvertently walked towards the flyover that I usually pass by. Our destination seems to be at the other end of the flyover. Then, when I stepped on the overpass, I said: "I will not go home immediately tonight." , Is my biggest motivation. Please read it for mobile phone users.)