Despite many adventures, I feel that I have become accustomed to the tension caused by abnormal things, but even if I can maintain a good attitude at the scene, I will still have some mental fatigue afterwards. Just like this electronic demon event, even if it ended peacefully in the end, no unexpected changes occurred. However, after delving into the hints carried by the electronic demon, and then preparing for the future changes early enough, just It has made the brain a little swollen. Compared to it, sometimes I feel that when things are about to die, I have to spare my life to fight. Although it is a very dangerous situation, it has become a more relaxed thing.

It is not worthy to be afraid of swearing to fight, or even to fight to death, but it is the preparation that needs to be done before the fight, which makes people feel a little timid. I thought so, trying not to let this tiredness show on my face. However, it still seemed to be seen by the eight scenes, and then she was taught the words "you are too slender".

But I am very clear that this sentence is not a compliment, it is more a lesson and persuasion. Bajing thinks that I think too much, and think too much, but because of the superior thinking ability, it has a kind of thinking obsessive-compulsive disorder-thinking overflow, which is what Bajing describes.

"Only a few people can spend two hours studying the school's work to the point of 'excellent'." Ba Jing said, "But the school work is not so interesting, so, Once you have reached your ideal level in the exam, you will feel bored, so you can't do all your energy in the school's work. Usually you will also delve into other things, and for a person with overflowing thinking Say. It is impossible to stop thinking because of the reason of "enough". So, you must vent your extra energy to other places. As a result, because the contact surface has expanded and the depth of involvement has increased, you feel what Thinking is not enough. Even if you feel tired, you must feel that you must be in the question you think of, even if it is just a flash of light. Get a standard answer, or an answer that you can accept. "

A natural tone from Bajing said: "However, a person like A Chuan who has overflowed his mind and flashes new problems constantly appears to be a commonplace problem, even if he has thought about it countless times in the past, it will also change by accident. It ’s fresh, and you ca n’t ignore it—Achuan, look at yourself, is that the case? What you want is not the answer that others got, but the answer that belongs to you, so. Constant thinking becomes the same instinct. Things, but, no matter what you think, the answers you get will make you feel like they are always a little bit different. Even if there is an answer in the past, after a new situation arises, it needs to be constantly consolidated, or new Cognition. So, I can only keep thinking and thinking like this instinctively, even if I think I am ridiculous, even if I know that many questions do not have an accurate answer at all, but it is unbearable-no, use endurance to describe inappropriate , When you think about various things in Achuan, you never thought about it. You look like it? "

"I ..." I have almost nothing to say, although I don't think Bajing is described as very appropriate, and, in terms of this kind of psychological knowledge, she is only "Nonoko", but because she is not saying "completely" Wrong ", so I couldn't resist her statement. I know that some of what she said is happening to me.

"It's really impolite, A Chuan, obviously a genius, but pretending to be an ordinary person." Bajing's eyes were a little sharp, making people want to avoid it. "It obviously takes only a little time. Able to do things that others can do several times, but consume energy in order to make them look like ordinary people. Obviously energy is spent thinking about other things, but it is hard to say that just the schoolwork has to work hard. I think that my usual extracurricular development is also a part of school work. "

"I ..." I was speechless in the face of her accusation.

"No matter where, there are a lot of people, just to complete the school work, they have spared no effort, and they have not been able to achieve it." Bajing's voice was a little heavy.

I think that the subject unconsciously overflowed from my thinking and became a complaint against the "waste of energy". This is definitely a partial topic, but looking at the eight scenes, she seems to care about this matter, so I was silent for a while, and went on with the topic. If you do n’t vent here, I think you will have a backlog in Bajing. It ’s a kind of pressure that I ca n’t really understand. Now, I think that I am really slender, but Bajing is really slender.

"I also often study late at night ... I didn't tell anyone else." I said that, and suddenly I remembered that I had to finish the study late at night. There is indeed a large part of it, which is not part of the school's school regulations. The content, "However, there are also many people who want to make extracurricular hobbies, so they must spare some time and use very little time in school work to achieve good results?"

"It's a pity that such people look at the world's population and they are indeed not a minority. However, they are still a minority compared to the number of people who can't do this at any rate." Bajing used sharp eyes. Staring at me, "Even if only one of ten people can do it, that one person is enough to be called a genius, but your thinking efficiency is probably more than this one-tenth of the ratio, but it is even rarer."

"Ha, haha ​​..." I smiled a little bit reluctantly. The eight scenes said, some of them subverted my self-perception since I was. I am even better than I think it is. However, before the eight scenes of this world, no one had said such a thing to me. Moreover, in the doomsday illusion adventure, I have seen too many people who have too many basic qualities in all aspects compared to myself, so that I understand that I am just a high school student. Needless to say, "Jiang", it is a monster, and there are fire escapes, Father Sissen, files, and Jung, even Dr. Ruan Li who has no mystery ... Hey? I suddenly realized that in this comparison. I am the only high school student, the youngest one.

strange. Isn't it unnatural to compare a high school student's age with an adult at the cutting edge of the field and a monster in an incomprehensible field? In this comparison, haven't you already included yourself at least in the same category as them?

I was a little stunned.

"It seems to be clear." Bajing sighed, picked up his schoolbag, and said, "I'm going back. The disk was taken away first, go back and see if your diary is still there. Achuan, you have to understand, you It ’s not just ordinary high school students, or ordinary students who pretend to be top students. For you, there may be many people in front of you, but there are more people behind you. So. I have confidence in myself, although I am capable, I do n’t need to be too nuanced in everything. Give yourself some breathing room. While thinking about your own things, you need to think about other people ’s things. It ’s going to be crazy. ”She nodded my head seriously,“ I ’ve been exhausted by the delusions here? ”

In this argument, Miyaki did not speak, but. After Bajing said this, he seemed to realize something. Looking over with worried eyes, before the eight scenes were about to walk out of the room, they bowed hurriedly to me and chased them. I didn't recover until the voice of their farewell sounded outside the door. At this time, the door had heard the sound of closing.

I stood quietly for a while, although the final topic turned back to me, Bajing wanted to persuade me not to think too much? However, after looking at my palm, I couldn't help but ask myself: am I really tired for the illusion of doomsday?

of course! I cannot refute the fact that I am really tired. But another more determined voice immediately sounded in my heart: tiredness is a matter of course, and exhaustion is a matter of course, because your own choice would have brought such a result. Moreover, if you are not exhausted and burn out your soul, can you face it when you face failure? The answer is naturally no.

Perhaps, as the Eight Scenes said, ordinary people need to do their best to exhaust things and exhaust them, but because I am doing, it is absolutely "unusual" in my opinion. Things, so, for yourself, it is much harder than the efforts of ordinary people to complete half of the things.

Since you want to achieve a perfect ending anyway, you must pay the price corresponding to perfection. This is a matter of course. It is very realistic. There was no success. It came down in the air-no ... maybe there is? However, it never happened to me.

"Gao Chuan" is a person with little luck. This point is not yet certain in the initial doomsday environment, but it is very obvious after entering the hospital. "Gao Chuan" is in a very bad situation. What's worse is that "Gao Chuan" must also take responsibility for several girls in this situation. Even with a little help, it is not completely acceptable. Necessary choices, cruel choices, mortal awareness, embarrassing situations of wanting to die, even when you are "lucky", you must face them.

But what is the solution?

It is a very simple thing to put a stop to your life with the words "die when you die". For many people, death is terrible, even if you want to commit suicide, you have to wander. However, it is really easy to think of "I can die".

However, "Gao Chuan" can't do it, I can't do it, and I can't bear the feeling of complete failure that makes me feel halfway, even if I die in battle, I feel more open-hearted than giving up with "death" as an excuse.

Accepting the name "Gao Chuan" means that it is physically and mentally stronger than anyone who needs help, and then, no matter how much pain ahead, it must be stronger than anyone facing desperation, both physically and mentally. Even if you understand that this act of coercing yourself is the source of pain, even so, there is no way to give up.

In order to achieve the desired outcome, what is exhaustion? Everything is not enough. Too many people, even if they are exhausted, have to accept the "failure" fact. Maybe I will be one of them, but there will always be various situations that give me "new opportunities". Anyone who has to accept failure after exhaustion will be jealous. And this is exactly the only luck of Gaochuan. However, accept such luck. It is also a manifestation of super luck.

Because no matter how many chances there are, there is always a need to face new cruelty. But this is the situation that I have understood and have done a good job of consciousness.

In darkness and despair, it is not that simple to open up a path to hope. It is not enough to have awareness of ideas and execution, but luck is the last thing to expect. Therefore, if you don't think about things that are multiplied and put in multiple efforts, you can't comfort yourself and say that you have done your best.

From the very beginning, the path I chose was to do my best. Only then is it "possible" to reach the other side. Even if it is called a genius, there is nothing to be happy about. On the contrary, I feel that I am not talented enough, so if I feel that I am very ordinary, that is how I relax. Only in this way of thinking can we get room for breathing.

My rest is different from the rest of others. Because what I have to bear is different from what others have to bear. If you just live without food and clothing. In a peaceful life, this is a very good idea. however. When the situation in Form 2 becomes a fact that has to be accepted, then it will become a very cruel smell, and it must be proud of it, otherwise, such a life will never live Going on, I was so sad that I wanted to commit suicide.

Who would want someone they love to face a desperate situation where life is better than death? Who would want to see his broken body? Who would want to use a broken body to save a life-saving lover? Who would be willing to do everything they can to find out that everything is just a dream, that everything has to be restarted, or that it has just begun? Being a hero is of course a very beautiful thing, but, based on the premise of suffering and torture of the person you love, who would want to be a hero?

But there is no way, "Gaochuan" really has no way. Because this is the reality that "Gaochuan" must open his eyes to see. It's easy to close your eyes, you can't open your eyes, and you can't see them, it's also very easy, but once you open your eyes and see these realities, you can't ignore them.

"So, Bajing, this is something you can't understand." I said to myself softly, "But, I don't want you to understand, because the price is too painful. There is no way to tie the color and Dorothy, but, you , Miyake and Marceau should all be able to live a little easier. "

Thinking about this, I looked up at myself in the dressing mirror. In the mirror, behind the "me", the electronic demon "Night Crow Quark" was floating quietly, and the hair-like flame was also violently Burning.

"Ah, I have to be a hero anyway. Even if I can't be a hero, I can't stop on this path. Even if I know I can't do it, I can't avoid this path. Because, this is what Me, this is Gao Chuan. "

If you think about it like this, the negative emotions that have been deposited in your heart seem to have disappeared a lot. I smiled at myself in the mirror, so Gao Chuan in the mirror smiled at me. His relief made me feel that I had grown a little.

"So, let's have a hot lunch." I whispered to the mirror. Draw a cigarette and ignite it, go back to the living room and turn on the microwave.

It was just past noon. Although something happened, the house was not destroyed, and no one was killed. It was really a welcome day.

After two o'clock, I opened my eyes from the bed and lay down a little. Although I couldn't sleep, there were always a lot of thoughts in my head, but I didn't think of a reason, but the spirit was also better than that of the electronic demon. It was a lot easier. When I picked up my schoolbag, I took another look at the glasses. The image of the electronic demon was still in it, which made me feel a little relieved. Although it was not clear what was going on, the electronic demon was here with me and proved Bajing and Saki It is unlikely that the disk that was taken back at night will have a problem.

If the electronic demon is close to me in such a form, it is better to study and restrain it ... Then, when looking at the mirror with others, will they see the electronic demon in the mirror? At this point, they should experiment with Bajing Saki Ye. I sorted out the afternoon classes and the student union work after class in my heart. The things the boys talked about in the morning and the thoughts of XX Jun made me have to prepare. First of all, I must verify the student ’s disappearance in the old toilet through the relationship of the student council. Tighter.

Moreover, if the situation of missing students exists, and the student union has also blocked the news for cadres of my level, it is necessary to find out, but it takes a lot of effort. Because, I now, even if there is an electronic demon, before I can not find a way to drive it, it is still a "ordinary top student".

"It's you, quark!" I walked out of the house and glanced left and right, nobody. So he waved hard and shouted like this.

However, there was no quark at the finger. Sure enough, this ordinary summoner can't do it? Moreover, although such a gesture was made without thinking about it, the result was ashamed. I covered my face and thought to myself, it was so nice not to be seen.

Thinking about it this way, a cowering body suddenly appeared at the wall in front of her-very familiar, she was pushed out of the corner of the lane by someone, it was Sakuya. Well, so are the eight sceneries. Miyaki turned to me and turned her head not to look at me, her body shivered slightly, and she looked like she was crying-but how is it possible!

I have a bad feeling.

"Come out, eight scenes!" I felt very embarrassed at this moment, and my heart seemed to be swelling soon to burst, "You see it, the one just now?"

Miyaki uttered a huge "flutter" and squatted on the ground violently. Ah, it was a laugh? Sure enough, the belly can't bear to laugh?

Bajing came out from behind the corner of the lane and stared at me. Suddenly, he concealed the corner of his mouth with his hand and made a "poo" sound.

That's enough!

I covered my face hard, and only felt that my skin was feverish. Sure enough, the previous posture ...

"It's you, Night Crow Quark!" Bajing suddenly made the same action as me, and once again made a "poo" sound, "It's awesome, ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha-you What about Master Ball, kid Gao Chuan. "

I pretended not to hear, and walked quickly past the two of them, and hurriedly walked past, not paying attention to them. However, the feeling in my heart was really shameful. I was not so serious if I was alone, but I realized that someone looked at me, deliberately imitated in front of myself, and laughed out. It was really shameful! At this time, even under the pretext of "testing the electronic demon", this shame cannot be covered up!

"Don't go so fast, Achuan, I can't catch up." Sakuya struggled weakly behind him, I thought, was it necessary to laugh so badly? The posture just now, isn't there such a great laugh?

"How come the two of you came back? The Bajing family came to me and UU read books www.uukanshu.com to school again, didn't it stop?" I shifted the topic.

"Hmm--" Bajing's laughter was not as serious as Misaki's, but the smile in his tone overflowed from time to time. "Achuan is a boyfriend, so, if you have the opportunity, go to and from school together, because both male and female friends Is this the case? "

"That's right for boys to pick up girls." I tried to ignore their laughter and said.

"I don't care anymore. It's okay for me to pick up Achuan, and I saw good things." Speaking of here, Bajing and Sakuya made an uncontrollable laugh. "I didn't expect a serious Achuan to do the same thing The movement of the candid. "

Hey, I should laugh enough for me. This is not funny at all, okay.

"Recent kids will do it." I retorted: "This pose is very popular in anime games."

"However, I never thought that high school student A Chuan would do such a pose." Saya said: "Sure enough, boys are childish no matter what age?" (Unfinished. If you like this Part of the work, you are welcome to come to the starting point () to vote for recommendation and monthly tickets, and your support is my biggest motivation. For mobile phone users, please read.)