The conversation after meeting with the students was somewhat unexpected. I originally thought the scene would be more gloomy, but the fact is that even if the other party of the conversation did not start straight from the beginning, the content became quite clear as the conversation progressed. Although it cannot be said that there is no "conspiracy", from the perspective of the student president, the positions and intentions of the decisions made by the senior students are very clear for the students. I also don't think that even if the student president did not mention all the circumstances in this meeting, it means that the goodwill he released was hypocritical. Either the student president or the vice president, although they are very personal in terms of words and deeds, they also have a deeper way of thinking and more social action steps than ordinary students, but this is not possible Evidence that characterizes them as "bad guys." Even, from the standpoint of the students and feeling the sincerity of each other, I think these two people are "good people" at least at the starting point.

Now that weirdness and mystery are starting to work, I really feel that my feelings are starting to become acute, and I do n’t feel that I ’m going to make fatal mistakes when looking at people.

The things accumulated in the past growth have not disappeared from my body and soul. I'm the same as before, no, I feel more like "believing in myself" than ever. In the face of the president and vice president of the student union, it is precisely because they have a vague impression of "past" that they can better reflect this feeling.

I secretly squeezed my fist.

"President, do you think the whole thing is completely over after the old toilet is removed?" I asked.

"No. But that is the future, and it is only a possibility in the future. Before it becomes a reality. It is indeed an end." The student president replied in a very positive tone.

"I will continue to monitor the condition of the old toilet and take adequate protective measures to prevent first-year students from approaching the old toilet before it is demolished." I said, "I think this is necessary."

"If there is a danger, even you will be implicated." The chairman's tone is not strong, but the meaning of rejection is very obvious. "Classmate Gao Chuan, maybe you feel that you are responsible. You also have the ability to face that danger. But, once that kind of danger appears, you can only rely on luck. "

"I understand that this is a risk issue." I also said firmly: "However, I am the first cadre of the first grade. Moreover, there are also first-year students talking to me in front of me, going to the old toilet to verify the rumors ... Ordinary rumours, I gave up. Only, this time, I have a strong feeling. So I came here to verify. The situation is very simple, the old toilet will be removed tomorrow? Students who want to do something I will definitely pay for the action before tomorrow. I know very well that when faced with the last chance, even if some students are hesitant before. The possibility of taking action tonight will also be very high. If they encounter something ... This is my responsibility as the first cadre of the first grade, and I believe it. If I were there, it would be better than when I was not. "

"Strong sense of responsibility, ability and confidence are not the key to solving the problem." The student president's tone increased slightly, "Classmate Gao Chuan, why have you always been sane ..."

"It has nothing to do with reason!" I sincerely looked at the other side. True, my original intention to get this opportunity may be mixed with something else, but to prevent ordinary students from approaching danger, and to prevent students from continuing to participate in mysterious things, It is not contrary. Especially after confirming the ideas of the senior level of the student union, I increasingly think that my behavior is correct and necessary. The student union ’s efforts in the toilet talks have been very reluctant. Perhaps if we go deeper, more students must bear the risk of death. Although they are called cadres, they are only underage students!

Here, apart from me, there is no one who understands weirdness and mystery better. As far as identity is concerned, I am both a member of the whisperer and a student union cadre, and the positions of these two identities are unified here.

If in this school, there must be a person-he must have more "adventure" factors than others, including ability, luck, courage, stance, will, etc., and must have more clear reasons and reasons than others. Position, and a deeper understanding of this adventure than others-so who else besides me?

To protect the world, to protect a city, to protect the people around them, it is actually the same, that is-to protect, it is where you live.

Sakuya, Bajing and other students in this school, the teachers and students of the entire school, and even the expansion of this, everyone's family and the city where I live, I want to do it for them within their own ability Order something. There are enough people to maintain a normal daily life. My position is not necessary. However, under non-daily circumstances, I am more suitable to stand before everyone.

"I made this decision, not rationality at work, but a strong emotion that made me have to do it." I seriously said to the student president and vice president aloud: "But, don't think of me as Children who don't understand reality. Some things can't be best by reason alone, and the result of thinking and acting only by reason is not necessarily correct. Because, this is something that requires luck? Not using a computer Mathematical models can predict things? Humans are small, and human thinking is also small, so even if it drives me to act at this time, it is not rational thinking, and there is no problem at all. "

The student president and the vice president glanced at each other, and after a while there was no speech. Afterwards, the student president said: "I understand that since this is the decision of the top cadre of the first grade, it does not actually conflict with the decision of the student union. As a mission of Gao Chuan, I do n’t think the whole thing will change before the old toilet is demolished, but the necessary insurance must be prepared. ”He paused and continued,“ Tomorrow, the demolition work It will take place, faster than the time that is released as gossip, so. Gao Chuan, if you have this heart, you will stay in school tonight to prevent students from going there in the middle of the night, is that all right? "

"Yes." I answered very positively.

Enough is enough, such an answer is enough, no matter me or both, this is the best conversation. Even outside the "guardian", there are other thoughts. It doesn't matter, because as long as this idea of ​​"protecting anything" exists in it, it is already very rare. My experience in the illusion of doomsday has made me understand how extravagant and precious the idea of ​​"guardian" is to realize it. How difficult it is. I want to be a hero, and I feel that I have really worked hard, but when I think about the experience of the end of the illusion and the reality of the hospital, everything is in such a hurry, one after another, twists and turns. Solving the most immediate problem is enough to make people dazzled, and then, it is so "dead". There was no room left. Although he tried hard, he did nothing.

Marceau too. After returning to the hospital, I promised. I remembered it, struggling as hard as I could, and finally it was that result.

Not reconciled.

However, there is no way. Everything that has become the "past" is an unchangeable destiny.

So, this time, it doesn't matter whether it is an illusion or reality, no matter what is displayed in front of you. At least one time, down to earth, starting with the things around you. Even if this is just a "dream", but if you can't do well in the "dream", what can you do if you encounter real "reality"?

"Classmate Gao Chuan intends to stay there alone?" The vice president asked, "Can't you do it alone? Although I don't want more people to take risks, but the necessary manpower ..."

"No! No!" I moved my wrist, stared at her eyes, and said firmly, "I am enough alone, otherwise, if something really happens tonight, it will only increase the casualties. Besides, really When something happens, someone will definitely come to reinforce it, but before that, I will do it alone. "

"Classmate Gao Chuan, you proposed to stay in order to prevent first-grade students from taking risks there." The vice president asked: "But in fact, the students who care about the rumors and eager to try are more than first-grade students Well, do you think, how many of the students in this school will leave tonight? "She stared at me hard." You alone can't do it. Although we always think that nothing will happen tonight. So, there is no plan to send someone to the site. However, your perseverance also made us start to hesitate. What should I do if something really happened? Such an idea would make me restless. So, Since the next action must be premised on this bad expectation, it must be better. "

"That's it. Gao Chuan, you made this decision on the premise that something might happen tonight, and we made the previous decision on the premise that something could not happen tonight. Originally, our opinion has been The unity has been obtained, but your presence broke this unity. "The student president said flatly:" We were persuaded by you, so we have to arrange on the premise of "what will happen" to permit your garrison application. However, since we, as the top of the student union, represent the will of the student union, then our change of thinking is the change of the whole student union. In any case, the actions of the student union still operate in the form of an entire group. When the idea changes, When a change in action is caused, one of them will not be allowed to bear all the risks. This point, please ask Gao Chuan to make it clear again-you are not alone, you are not just representing yourself. Maybe representing others, being Representatives of others are very disgusting things for some people, but there is no such idea, no such recognition It is not a qualified student union. "

"I actually think that if" there will be an accident "is the premise, more people should not be involved. If, as the president and vice-president said, such danger tests luck, not personal strength, then If there are many people, luck cannot be guaranteed. "I said," Luck is very personal. I think I have good luck, but I also think that if I am not alone, luck Will change. "

"You ..." The vice president stared at me sharper, and she was obviously a little angry. "Classmate Gao Chuan, most of the things you think will not be as expected, and I hope you can remember it. "

"Sorry. Vice President." I said to her without any persuasion: "My instincts have always been very accurate, more accurate than you think. I am serious and attach great importance to my feelings, especially in this kind of dependence When luck can make a difference. Which of the two of you has stronger self-confidence than me and tells me how you feel about yourself? Or, of all the data of the student union, which one is the same as me? Believe in your intuition without hesitation? It is difficult to act with intuition only. Because, it is difficult to believe in your intuition, because, besides me, there will be no one here, who will put their own safety at risk A seemingly ethereal intuition? "

The student president lowered his eyes and pressed the temple with his finger for the first time. A thoughtful expression, and the vice president could not help avoiding my direct gaze.

"Something like luck might not come when you believe in your feelings very much, but if you don't believe in feelings, even if luck comes, you may not be able to catch it. Although from the information, that incredible thing It ’s unpredictable and in danger. Luck is more reliable than strength, but it does n’t prove. Strength does not occupy any place in survival. ”I said this, I could n’t help thinking of my past, and once again convinced myself Thought, "Luck may be the most important part, but strength is equally important, and more importantly, confidence in yourself. Whether it is reason or feeling, you can only believe in the judgment at that moment and have enough strength to increase In order to survive, we can survive the danger that we cannot understand and even speculate. "

"... Student Gao Chuan." The student president looked at me with his face hidden behind his palm, "Your statement is as if you had a similar experience ..."

"It's okay to say so." I replied indifferently: "Yes, incredible danger, I have experienced it a long time ago, and stood in front of you. This incident, I am the best Processor. Give it to me, President and Vice President. It is enough for you to focus on daily management. Trust me, and then, look at the results. This is the most safe way. "

"Classmate Gao Chuan, you are no different from other students, and you are also a student of this school. Please don't say anything about 'insurance' for a second time." The vice president's attitude eased a little, but he strongly criticized: "We are the culmination of our school's students. The actual controller of this school, one of the highest cadres of the first grade, don't be so arrogant! Because ... you are also a protected member, this is your positioning."

"Forget it, deputy chairman." The student chairman said: "Classmate Gao Chuan is also a person with a strong personality ... Slightly different from C's statement."

"This was also mentioned by Jun C, so he was given the opportunity to meet this time." The vice president replied immediately, and glared at the president. The president's face hidden in the palm shadow was a bit embarrassing, but, because Because of the light, I can't see clearly.

"Well ... It's really disturbing. It's impossible for a student who should be protected to undertake such a dangerous task alone, and it is impossible to talk about growth." The student president has always been very weak in tone, and finally felt a little emotional. "Let me think about it again."

"So, this is not for learning at all, nor for my own growth." I said flatly: "This is just for me to do what I do, and then take it for granted, and that is all. And the purpose is It is for the safety of all teachers and students in the school. "

"It's really easy to talk about." The vice president "chucked" with an unhappy face.

"Yes, that's how easy it is." I smiled freely. "Everyone has something good at, and I am in the student union, the one who is most attuned to incredible dangers, and is an expert in this field. Although it has always been No performance, but that's just because, the only place I can express is only in this field. Please don't worry, two people, leave everything to me. "

The vice president was silent and his eyes kept changing. Presumably, he still weighed the risks in his mind. However, the president of the student council made the decision more quickly: "I understand, no matter how we persuade you, you will go on your own arbitrage? Gao Chuan?"

"Yes! Even if something is out of the ordinary, I will continue to act arbitrarily!" I replied aloud without hesitation. Before this interview, all my doubts had been exhausted. In the face of these two people, I don't need to think carefully about my own methods and ideas. Express your own attitude directly. Is the best response.

"Poof!" For the first time, a clear expression appeared on the student president's face. He couldn't help laughing. "I'm sorry, I'm not laughing at you, but ... it turns out that this is actually the kind of person Gao Chuan looked at. The data and comments in the picture cannot be imagined at all. To be honest, the previous ones. But in this student union, few people say it. Everyone does n’t like to be so straightforward, and if they feel too bloody, they will be a little bit uncomfortable. Sorry. Really, this is the first time I have heard that someone will say "even if it's out of the ordinary. In front of the student president. It's also arbitrary."

I'm embarrassed. I didn't feel any embarrassment at all, and it was my favorite straightforward way. The roundabout approach was just self-protection in the past to adapt to the living environment, but. When someone said that in person, he was laughed, and immediately felt a sense of embarrassment that he didn't usually have.

The vice president also seemed to be infected by the president and immediately put up a file folder to cover his lower half of the face, but I think. Her mouth must be laughing.

"Understood." The atmosphere of dispute in the room was suddenly broken by the student president's somewhat relaxed tone. "As the student president, I believe that the cadres under his leadership, especially those recommended by Mao Sui, are obligations and responsibilities. When cadres make mistakes, it is also obligations and responsibilities. I believe you, Gao Chuan, I believe you are the solution Experts of this kind of incident, I believe you have had the same experience, I believe you can do better than everyone here, and then ... "His expression became serious," Return safely. "

"Yes!" I answered loudly.

Because the student president had already made a decision, the vice president did n’t struggle anymore. She glanced at the clock and said to us: “It ’s time to go back. Tonight, we will have to study on our own tonight. "

"Oh? Is it so fast?" The student president smiled and said, "Probably this conversation is a pleasure. Classmate Gao Chuan, I am very happy to meet you. Then, we will pay more attention to you before leaving. Hope You can show your talents in the student union and make more contributions to the school. But first, you must solve the crisis in front of you as you said before, and then come back for granted. "

"That's a matter of course." I replied unkindly, because failure does not exist in my dictionary at this time. This is not a daily competition, but a crisis involving more lives. Only at this time, failure is not allowed!

When I left the multimedia building with the chairman and vice-chairman, the chairman suddenly asked me: "You said it before, wasn't it to achieve the goal?"

"What?" I asked in surprise.

"That's the kind of thing you have encountered." The president looked at me seriously.

"If it's Huhu ..."

"Relax, it won't change the previous decision." The president and vice-president glanced at me again, and focused on me again.

"No." In order to reassure the two, I said in a more certain tone than before: "What happened to me is something you would never want to encounter in your life." Although, at the source, in fact You are already in it. I think so, but even for them and more people, it is a good thing to continue the state of "the situation that you can't really recognize yourself". Because, from another perspective, they are actually more powerless than me.

I am more special than most patients with doomsday syndrome because of the particularity of "Jiang", because of their existence, such as Zhenjiang, Misaki, Bajing, Marceau, Tie Se and Dorothy. So we can move forward. Without these fetters, I must be like most people. I can't even do it at the beginning. In that way, I am just an ordinary top student.

Only now can I plate a layer of halo that no one else has on the name plate of "ordinary top students". But the bottom line is still because the world in my eyes is not only me, but these other people are the source of my aura. Without them, even if I wanted to glow, it would be impossible. Because, if there is only one person, "protection" and "rescue" have no meaning at all.

Although, sometimes I feel that other people are really a burden to myself, but in general, I like this burden, and I am willing to take it.

because--

This is me, this is Gao Chuan.

Thinking about this, I said goodbye to the chairman and vice-chairman outside the school gate, and turned in the opposite direction of the street, walking in silence with a stable and quiet mood. (To be continued. If you like this work, you are welcome to come to the starting point () to vote for recommendation and monthly tickets. Your support is my biggest motivation. Please read it for mobile users.)