The temporary station of the Las Vegas Special Combat Forces is located several kilometers away from the battlefield. However, this position is also an indispensable position relative to the overall height of the abandoned capital complex, and neither Victoria can be seen. The real face of the top layer of the heavy industry physical and chemical zone, looking down, also has a dark abyss. Only after being transformed by a large force, it was originally a place of deserted buildings, and many industrial machines appeared. These machines are all local goods. I have learned from other mysterious experts that they have already prepared methods for the transformation of these machines. All they need to do is to search for the objects that can be used like a gathering place, and then splice them according to the drawings. It does n’t matter if you ca n’t find the parts, there are several mysterious experts in the team who are not for combat. They are best at processing parts-using unique superpowers, fog, drawings, and waste capital In less than twenty-four hours of the ready-made materials in China, they completed the most basic camp construction and safety system construction.

This area is also a place where the security network of the ruling bureau cannot be covered in intelligence. It is said that for some reason, the security network of the entire Victoria Heavy Industry Materialization Zone has been destroyed by two-thirds. Therefore, most of the security guards produced will Stay where you have a secure network.

Before the camp in this camp area, the team did indeed meet the aboriginal gathering area of ​​the tree tube belt. It is surprising that even the general information about the gathering place has been prepared. As for what other information, perhaps only the highest commander Rivet knows. Non-disclosure of information. Somewhat unpleasant, but. There are also many reasons for this, and the methods of the rivet management team have also been implemented, and the mysterious experts have defaulted on this behavior. At least, along the way, there is nothing wrong with the order of the rivets, and it is not objectionable. Under the current conditions, take a step back. It is also the common will of the mysterious experts to maintain the unity atmosphere of the team.

This kind of team connection sometimes makes people feel too fragile, but to maintain this fragile but existing form is also the common will of mysterious experts. Although everyone was recruited to attack the Las Vegas repeater, they all followed what they represented. In order to fight against powerful enemies, the cooperation of various member organizations or independent walkers is also a consensus. However, this does not mean that this team will become an army. Even an organization with close internal links, such as a cyber ball, has never seen an army of mysterious experts. This is determined by a variety of factors, the most critical of which is still the deep sense of independence within the mysterious expert.

The mysterious experts got together only to fight the overly powerful enemy. To a certain extent, when carrying out tasks. Reduce your own pressure, not for some kind of group honor. The purpose is selfish, and the integration will not be too tight.

No matter the order or the unreasonable behavior, as long as you do n’t cross the bottom line of the mysterious experts, everyone will naturally follow these commands, defaulting to this unreasonable behavior, in other words, even if you have passed a mysterious expert The bottom line, which led to the resistance of this mysterious expert, then, it is almost impossible to "combine the majority and suppress the small part". Because every mysterious expert here is an elite, who has the confidence of "no need to follow orders and actions that he thinks are unreasonable", and has "even if facing the entire team, he can still avoid it by playing alone. "'S hole card. And the idea of ​​"succumbing to oneself for the sake of the overall situation" is also largely absent from the ideas of these mysterious experts.

If these elite mysterious experts can be called, it is inevitable to prepare for this. Conversely, knowing that this is the case, and still calling the people here, it means that they either have no choice or think that such a team meets the requirements of this operation. Most of the people in the team believe that it is the latter. Therefore, they have greater patience than usual for some situations that make them unhappy. After all, coming to this dangerous place and participating in a nearly nine-death battle plan is entirely out of your will. Taking this will as a premise, in order to increase the success rate as much as possible, they can tolerate things that they can't usually bear, and believe things that are hard to believe.

This team is fragile but strong. It may fall apart at any time, but it can be rebuilt at any time. Let people believe-even if only the last person is left, the plan will still be carried out.

To capture the Las Vegas repeater, besides, do not think twice, and no matter what the reason for this idea was originally. It's for a sense of excitement, for a sense of honor, for a sense of mission, or, just for birds to die. It doesn't matter, come here, the mysterious experts who survived here have long been psychologically prepared for everything.

The three mysterious experts who were supposed to die were not the first three to die because they were dragged away by the "weird". Although there were no casualties when they first entered Las Vegas, they also accepted the remnants of the 51st area. However, after entering the upside-down city, after the disappearance of me, Zuo Chuan and John Niu, some people were attacked by the "mystery", and five people were killed in the eyes, four of them were mysterious experts of the team. Using the information provided, they entered this area of ​​the ruling bureau, and in the battle with the life of the body, the doomsday truth religion and the security guard, ten people died one after another. Everyone encountered various difficulties. After I spent it, it became the team I see today-the ones that can be surely alive, plus the surviving members who have lost contact, including me, Zuo Chuan and John Bull, are One hundred and eight people.

"After we had an intersection with the gathering place, we had a deal with them, it was not easy, they were very exclusive." The mysterious expert named me introduced the situation: "However, among the forces found in this ruling area They are the only ones who can be called neutral. The other forces are all enemies. "He smiled." Anyway, that is, the life of the body, the doomsday truth and the security guard ... are all old opponents. There is a neutral. The presence of forces is also a bit of hope. We have made an appointment with them. If necessary, we can join forces to attack the life of the body. Of course, it must be made clear to them that we can defeat the life of the body in this area as long as we work together. It ’s not easy to do, at least, I think the possibility is less than 30%, the doomsday truth has already joined forces with the body life, they add up, it is not equal to two so simple. So. we are honest, as far as possible Next, ignore their existence. "

This sentence sounds really funny now, because--

"You just robbed them." I said.

Moreover, from my analysis of intelligence, "ignoring the Doomsday Truth" is simply impossible, because. There is a 80% chance that a tacit agreement will be reached with the Doomsday Religious Church in order to gain a greater advantage when attacking the Las Vegas repeater. If the information that can always be obtained at key points, if it is not obtained from the Apocalyptic religion, from what channel? This level of "prepared". Not what the "prophet" can explain. Arrange camps in this area of ​​the ruling bureau, or create a variety of equipment that invades the repeater trap world, as long as there are premises for detection activities in this area. The doomsday truth is obviously operating here for a long time, leaving There are many traces. Even the gathering place can feel their existence. However, the trace is only this team.

There are many situations where you can feel the truth from the clues even if you do n’t need enough evidence. I don't believe that other mysterious experts in the team didn't feel this. In the previous ambush battle, in fact, to some extent, both parties knew what was bound to happen. Just because there is only "understanding" on tacit understanding, so there is no too deep understanding of when, where and specific circumstances occurred. The preparation for Doomsday Truth was "failed", because the emergence of Zhenjiang was not expected by anyone, so Doomsday Truth was defeated, and even the Wing Knight was killed. Fortunately, the team did not Dry the cocoons of the body life, or bring it back to do other things, otherwise, the doomsday truth and the body life will probably come to the door immediately-it is naturally impossible to get information from the doomsday truth No intelligence leaked. Just as here can ambush the ranks of the Doomsday Truth, there is also a way to find our foothold there.

This temporary camp has already begun to see its scale. Considering the time and energy spent, if it is not a last resort, the team will probably not be transferred. There are not many things that cannot be taken away here.

"I heard that you have entered the depth of the repeater." The mysterious expert said: "Is that a real world with fakes?"

"Is it the depth of the repeater, I don't know." I briefly said the situation there: "However, I even think that it is a real world."

"If that is true, what are we here?" The mysterious expert smiled kindly.

"Maybe ... all are real, all happen in the mind, and all act on our flesh." I can only describe it this way. After all, the truth is so complicated that I do n’t even know it. I should believe it. What is real and what is illusory, and can only be defined as "truth" as-everything that you can experience first-hand and acting on yourself.

"It turns out so." The mysterious expert did not refute, but only slightly distressed expression. "In fact, I have thought about the so-called reality for a long time, but the more I think, the more I feel that the world I am in is not true ... I I always feel that the world should not be like this, it shouldn't be what we want. Ah, Gaochuan, do you have such an experience? Even if you don't use mysterious power, or even people without mysterious power, It will also change the world to some extent. I ’m not talking about 'transforming the world with action', but, as long as an idea, even if you don't pay, it will make the world strange ... It ’s really hard to make that feeling clear. Let ’s make an analogy: in theory, the gravity of the earth is certain and will not change because of human will. It is a very scientific thing. However, I sometimes think that the gravity of the earth is actually It has been changing, even so, there is no so-called gravity at all, these concepts are good, the fact that the facts exist in common sense is just a result of observation, even Just an inherent concept of people's minds. It is like, from birth there such a concept. So, it produced such observations. And it is not the essence of existence, it was only observed. "

"Are you talking about idealism?" I asked. In fact, I know what he means. At least, if you observe from the reality level of the hospital, you can understand his ideas. However, to look at his problems based solely on the illusion of doomsday, what he wants to express. It's just idealistic philosophy.

He froze for a moment, then smiled bitterly. I think he didn't actually want this answer. He knew that his thoughts were "ideal" and even made him feel "ridiculous". However, what he wants to express is another level of meaning-this world may not be something that actually exists, whether it is material or non-material. Common sense or mystery, these things are not observed and recognized when they exist, but reversed. It is because people have these concepts in mind. They will appear, or in other words, in this form.

So, the most critical core of the problem is-if these concepts are born and the world is born because of these concepts, then, what is the source of these concepts? So-called people, when, where, and how did they get these concepts? In contrast, the education people get in growing up becomes "re-confirming the concepts already known". Isn't that ridiculous?

For the inquiry of "mystery", the inquiry of "true", and the inquiry of "origin", I think that every mysterious expert will subconsciously produce ideas after going through all kinds of things, but they are shown in front of me , The one who actually paid for it, who raised these questions, and expressed his distress, was the first mysterious expert. Probably, in many cases, he will be regarded as a philosopher like "weird thinking". I don't know how many people will doubt the world like him, but since he is standing here, it is definitely not just him alone.

I do n’t want to answer him with an answer like "This world is really just an illusory spiritual world, you are in the real truth, just a sad patient who has even collapsed." It is too cruel, and I have experienced this cruelty firsthand. If this answer is not the final answer, then a truth that is not the truth is not enough to answer his question. I have experienced the reality of the hospital, and I was struck by what happened there. I have been struck by the mission I have. I was once caught in the contradiction between "real" and "unreal". Or reject the idea of ​​an illusion of apocalypse and only take one of them as the truth. However, in the end, I did n’t do anything, I did n’t make a final conclusion, even though I was contradicted by it, and I was troubled, my thinking was always wandering, and I could n’t be relieved. .

I treat both, even things like the world of repeater traps, as "real". For me at this time, there was more than one "truth", which might bring contradictions and confusion in thinking. However, only by accepting this result can I not abandon either side.

Do not! It should be said that I do not want to abandon either side! If it is impossible to determine the truth, then everything is the truth. Since it is impossible to affirm the true reality, then, all of them are regarded as the reality of the self. From every angle and every level, try to save everything you want to save.

Of course, I know very well that I cannot save everything, and even to save a small part, I have to abandon most of it. Just like now, I seem to want the end of the illusion to complete the end of the process, let the originally peaceful repeater trap world fall into collapse, and let many people die, it is possible to save myself and the girls in the reality of the hospital, but, When I did this, the painful feelings and unwilling and contradictory behaviors kept reminding myself what I was doing.

I am the one who knows what I am doing, and who does it, who knows that it must suffer, and suffers. I ’m so religious, I hope to reach the end of all goodness, even if I ’m doing it, I may ruin everything. However, from another perspective, I think that only this kind of “may ruin It is only possible to reach the ending of "Everything will be beautiful" by the act of "dropping everything".

What I want to reach, I feel that the ending I will face is either crueler than any other ending, or sweeter than any other ending. The pain suffered today will either become a more painful poison at the end, or it will become a sweet redemption at the end.

Nowadays, everything that cannot be saved because of my actions may eventually have no room for salvation, but maybe all will be saved.

Yes, it's so radical, it's so divided into two, either the best or the worst-I'm stupid, I don't give myself any retreat, and I don't give others any retreat. I understand my stupidity, so I just sighed and never looked back, because looking back is too incompatible with the style of a fool, nor is it something that a fool can do well. For clever people, it is possible to find new and better paths, but for fools, cliffs can only be more confused and eventually buried by more problems, completely losing the confidence to move forward. .

I consider myself a fool, so I choose the fool to do what is suitable and best at doing it, that is, to choose a path that is likely to achieve the results I hope for the most, and then, no matter what I encounter, no matter how insignificant , And went on without looking back.

I ’m such a fool, so I could n’t answer the mystery expert ’s question at the beginning. I do n’t think the answer I gave was the answer the mystery expert wanted. The answer is the final correct answer. So, I was just silent, listening, and then I heard him say, "Ah, sorry, I said so many boring things. In fact, I usually think too much about it, many people say so, think too much, Sure enough, it's still bad. "

"No, being able to think is actually a very happy thing." I replied that way.

"... Is it happy to think?" The mysterious expert smiled bitterly again. He seemed to smile bitterly often, but I don't have much say in this. People who think too much are always filled with too much to let themselves From this perspective, bitter things are not happy. However, I always think that the bitterness brought about by thinking is more important than the happiness brought about by not thinking, although, in many cases, it seems meaningless.

"Yes, thinking is happy." I emphasized again, "I also think often, what you think, I have thought about it, and I am also troubled, and sometimes feel that this kind of trouble is unnecessary, no Thinking may be happier. Even so, I still think that thinking is happy, even if God laughs, I do n’t want to stop thinking. "

This mysterious expert looked at me with some surprise ~ lightnovelpub.net ~ I don't understand why he was so surprised. For him, what I said should not be a surprise. If he has been thinking, he can understand what I want to express, even if he does not accept it, he should not be surprised.

"Have you thought about the things I thought? Do you know what I'm talking about?" He asked repeatedly.

"Isn't this a matter of course? I don't think that your idea is unique." I asked, "Or do you think that only you will think about these things? What you know, know, observe, What I think, although not everyone will do it, is not so lonely. "

At that moment, he was in a sudden look and said to me: "Although you say so, you are the first person who really says this to me."

It turned out that I suddenly realized that like me, he had never heard anyone mention the same thing before. Even if he mentioned it to others, the people around him were "not approved" or "not understood". . It is not that there is no companion in this world, but only because he had never met before. (To be continued. If you like this work, you are welcome to come to the starting point () to vote for recommendation and monthly tickets. Your support is my biggest motivation. Please read it for mobile users.)