The visits of John Bull and Zuo Jiang were pleasantly surprising, but many questions followed, such as how they determined my whereabouts, and why not sooner or later, when I was home and found that the demon summoning program disk was stolen Appears when walking. In this world of repeaters, no matter whether I searched for them before or they searched for me, there should not be a substantial gap in their difficulty. All these coincidences make me unable to believe that John Bull and Zuo Jiang really only rely on their own ability to find the 'door'. Maybe they know something, maybe they don't, but someone guides behind the scenes. However, I am more optimistic about the former speculation. John Bull is a senior mystery expert. Although Zuo Jiang ’s time to obtain the "mystery" is short, he is also a mercenary who has been "touching" for many years on the battlefield. Both have enough Sensitivity and analytical ability.

I was never worried that this would be an unpleasant meeting. Even if John Bull knew that my relationship with the big army had deteriorated sharply, I would not make excessive words and deeds. Her behavior has a very obvious style of network ball. When everyone's goals are the same, she will not completely destroy the cooperative relationship between the two parties because of a little difference in action choices. As for Zuo Jiang, even if I knew that Zuo Jiang was a piece of Dorothy, I do n’t think she would become an enemy, because, like Jiang Chuan, Zuo Jiang is not a "nothing in the past" dead thing, even though its birth has all kinds of inside stories, its growth Those incidents encountered in the incident, the ideas generated, and the personalities created are all independent and true. Dorothy may be able to guide or force them to become "traps" through "mystery", but I prefer to believe that their own wishes are not.

If there is any shortcoming in the action of the Victorian Heavy Industry Materialization Zone of the Reign Bureau, it is probably that I have not been able to determine the whereabouts of Jiangchuan in the end-Jiangchuan I saw at the time was still not her. After the phantom disappeared, there was no answer. Phantom-like Jiang Chuan led me to Dorothy, but that was not the reason why I resented her, and, since the beginning, I have never complained about her or Dorothy, no matter what they did.

The disappearance of Jiangchuan made me feel melancholy, but I couldn't stop it from beginning to end. I hope Zuochuan will not step on Jiangchuan's end. Now the person staring at her may not only be Dorothy. If John Bull and Zuo Chuan were led by some people, it means that they have already been paid attention.

My attitude towards Zuo Chuan is no different than in the past, as if we have never been separated. No matter whether Zuo Chuan thought about more, I think this is the best way to get along. Moreover, I didn't see any difference between Zuo Chuan and her. Zuo Chuan's ‘sex’ personality and behavioral characteristics are just like a ninja who silently guards his master.

I, Fu Jiang, John Niu and Zuo Chuan had a lively meal to celebrate the reunion again. I really feel thankful. In the past period of time, I have seen too many mysterious experts buried In this operation, I also feel that John Bull is also really happy that I am still alive. Under this premise, no matter what her purpose is this time, it is actually not important.

John Bull still has some side-views on Fu Jiang. The "sex" styles of Fu Jiang and Zuo Jiang are very different. However, from the point of "meeting new friends", Fu Jiang is more familiar with her. Even the attitude towards other people who knows themselves, with or without hostility, or any thoughts, are not at all concerned. I understand Fu Jiang. She is a person who "doesn't care about the details because of her own strength." In the past adventures, Fu Jiang has never been defeated in the true sense, and she has never been in the least because of the bad situation. Moving, it makes people feel that she has always been confident of saying that "no matter what the problem is, you can rely on absolute strength to solve all problems."

It is because of this extreme self-confidence that never hesitates, so John Bull, Zuo Chuan, other people and non-humans, coincidences, not coincidences, whether there is a 'conspiracy' behind the scenes Well, she doesn't care about her attitude, and she seems cheerful and familiar.

I actually envy Fu Jiang. Because, I always emphasize that I am very strong, which is a manifestation of my lack of self-confidence. I know that in my heart, there are too many concerns and hesitations, the "virus" is strange and powerful, in the illusion of doomsday. He has failed again and again, knowing that he has failed time and time again, no matter how he tells himself, there is still hope for everything, and the feeling of despair is still entangled. Facing the situation that everyone is helpless, all my thinking and actions have always been a dying struggle. Even if I am forced to make myself confident, I cannot deny this clown-like situation.

On Fu Jiang, there is almost everything I yearn for. If her ‘sex’ does n’t become a male ‘sex’, it ’s the type that I had dreamed of myself. And such a rich river can always get a lot of "female" sex, as John Bull is no exception, no matter what she thinks in her heart, but her expression and actions will soon no longer be The change from Zuojiang to Fujiang is tangled.

Zuo Chuan has always been unspoken, and I couldn't help asking about the time after she and us dispersed. Only then did I know that Zuo Chuan came to the Central Duchy in search of my whereabouts as soon as possible. Although her mystery has also been suppressed by this world of repeaters, her own ability as a "sophisticated" sharp mercenary is enough for her to navigate the European and American world. The overall situation in this world is more peaceful than that of the outside world. The biggest trouble Zuo Chuan encountered was only on the first night. He was regarded as a soft persimmon by the rogue and wanted to do something wrong with her.

After integrating into the local life, it is not a problem to go to Asia. However, it is not an easy task to find a specific person in a large foreign country with a large territory and to try to avoid attention as much as possible, especially After she began to notice some abnormal signs, she subconsciously hid herself.

"I saw some people." She said: "Although they look like native residents of this world, but intuition tells me that they are like us, they are intruders, mysterious experts. Afterwards, I secretly investigated and found that Father Edward is also among them, and many member organizations also dispatched personnel independent of the Las Vegas special combat forces. "

"Do you know it is them?" Father Edward made a big mess in London, and he must have been on the blacklist. Zuo Jiang knew that he was not a surprise, but she could even recognize the members of other member organizations. Can't help but be surprised. After all, Zuo Chuan hasn't been in contact with the mysterious circle for a long time, and the member organizations set aside the Las Vegas special combat forces to act alone. It should have been a very secret matter, and the manpower it sent should not have too obvious characteristics.

"The mercenary association seems to have been prepared for a long time, and a part of the list has been handed over to the members of the association that participated in this operation. Many of the people on the list now appear in this relay world." Zuo Chuan replied in this way .

Afterwards, Zuo Chuan lurked according to his instincts, that is, I was in contact with the card 'door', because the mysterious hourglass of the card 'door' caused the world's blockade of the "mystery" to appear flawed, and produced a continuous 'sex' During Bo's time, Zuo Chuan got the Demon Summoning Program Disk.

"You used the demon summon program?" I couldn't help confirming it again.

Zuo Chuan nodded: "If you don't use the demon summoning program, you can't use mystery in this world."

"John Bull, what do you think of the demon summoning procedure?" I turned to look at John Bull.

"Obviously, it's not a good thing, but we need it, don't we?" John Bull's face was a bit heavy. "We have too few people. We have to do something in this world. Without mysterious power, just It will be engulfed by the social order of this world. Even if I do n’t mind being an ordinary person, it is still dangerous to be an ordinary person under the Nazis ’eyes. Here is a Nazi repeater after all. Although we also have repeaters, The Doomsday Religion is now also targeting the Nazis, but we cannot really cooperate with the Doomsday Religion, and the cooperation with the 51st district has not penetrated to the point where repeaters can be shared, but the Nazis ’two repeaters did not have this aspect. Concerns. This operation has not counted on the support of repeaters since the beginning, everything can only come by ourselves. I think Mr. Gao Chuan also knows it? "

"I just confirm it again." I said calmly: "There is a big problem with the demon summoning procedure, but since I can't refuse it, let's not mention it for a while. I recently had trouble with the rivets because they had a problem with their plans. I broke. Although in the end, it was not a plan failure, but because of me, the situation of the team is not very good. If you want to join forces, you can go to Europe, I think they should be there. "

"What's going on?" John Bull was a little stunned.

I will talk about the things I started from the toilet whisper and the original intention. Because it is only an overview of the cause and result, the details can only be blurred as much as possible. However, what I did in the Victoria Heavy Industry Materialization District, and There is nothing to hide the purpose of doing these things. "Gaochuan" was originally a citizen of the Central Principality, and it was not a matter of guilt to extend the local tendency of "sex" into the world of repeaters. Even if this decision was actually aborted, the plan was aborted. The internal environment of the team had a bad influence. However, since it has always been a tendency to build multinational troops, the impact of individual differences in thinking caused by different growing environments also needs to be considered and carried.

John Bull is a member of the Cyber ​​Ball, and he can better understand these problems. Whether it is in the past or the present, no matter in which doomsday illusion, the Cyber ​​Ball, as a mysterious organization aiming to unite global forces, encounters this type of problem There are much more than other mysterious organizations, and the internal structure of the organization is also very international. In dealing with such problems, the cognition and means are relatively practical. This is also one of the reasons why I do not exclude Internet balls, and I am willing to explain the ins and outs of things and John Bull clearly.

I do n’t know much about John Bull himself, but I do n’t know much about cyberballs than the members of cyberballs in this world.

Sure enough, John Bull smiled bitterly as expected and said, "I understand," pay "to me. These situations are also under consideration when forming this team. This action was an adventure, we The external problems to be faced are more than our own internal problems. But, I have to confirm, is Mr. Gao Chuan still planning to participate in the operation? Will he cooperate with the big troops? "

"Yes, even though we have all kinds of ideological differences and conflicts, I also feel that this should not be the reason that stops us. My idea is very simple. I deal with Asian issues. The big army Responsible for problems in other places, just like the outside world. "I said.

"I think so too." John Bull didn't hesitate and simply nodded, saying, "Then, if the support of large troops is needed, I hope Mr. Gao Chuan can put down the ideological issues and apply to us for assistance. In this relay In the world of devices, we are the only companions that we can trust each other. We have a lot of troubles and need to work together to overcome the difficulties. I think they think so in the same way. "

"Then please, John Bull." I know that by John Bull's public relations, the relationship between me and the big army will also be eased. Although John Bull is only a captain, it comes from the network ball, and the weight of the network ball is enough to be her backing. In contrast, although the other whisperer I belong to is also one of the permanent directors, there are some gaps with the headquarters in London, Europe. Moreover, although I am also Gaochuan, I am with another Gaochuan. Different, the advantages he has will weaken to the limit here.

I know that in the eyes of all people who know the name "Gaochuan", I am far from another one. Maybe, they will guess my relationship with another one, but the conclusion made by guessing, It will definitely favor another me-after all, he is the body in this doomsday illusion, and I am just an accident.

I think that there is no negative thought about this difference in consciousness. My disagreement with another one lies in the core idea that determines the direction of action, but for the essence of will, there is no difference. Therefore, he is Gao Chuan, and I am Gao Chuan. There is no such thing as a change into something else.

"I didn't expect that there were so many problems in the plan just after being separated for a while." John Bull lamented. "Fortunately, however, this level of trouble is still what was originally expected."

"It seems that the online ball has already been mentally prepared." I smiled. The prediction that John Bull said was naturally the prediction of the online ball, and then the prediction. At this point, I will definitely not ' It's wrong.

John Bull laughed and said nothing.

"I'm curious, how did you find my clue?" I picked up my mood and turned back to the question and asked: "Did you take away my Demon Summoner disk? Is this your idea, or don't have an instinct? ? "

John Newton's distressed expression scratched his hair and said, "Mr. Gao Chuan, you are really direct."

"Because there is no need for euphemism, I don't really need the demon summoning program. However, you also know that the origin of the demon summoning program is very problematic. I don't want you to be deceived, nor do you want to be" blind "in the drum. "I said quietly:" Maybe, our enemies expect us to ignore these details because of emotional problems, and eventually they will play with them in their palms. To be honest, I think the demon summoning program itself is this repeater world. As part of the security mechanism, our mystery may be used by the Nazis. "

I explained the reasoning and conjecture that I made not long ago, my heart was very calm, and I tried to make John Bull feel this kind of honesty-I need everyone's help. If I bury all my questions and information in my heart, I will definitely have a gap with others, and this gap will grow bigger with time, I do n’t want things to become that way, because that way is for everyone There is no benefit.

Regardless of what the other party thinks, I always feel that being honest is the best place in my 'sexuality'. Moreover, in the psychological methods I know, let the other party feel their own honesty, and then accept this honesty, It is a prerequisite for all cooperation to start and deepen gradually-not only in psychotherapy, but also in social "communication".

I do n’t expect other people ’s frankness and ‘community’, but I always ask myself to try to be such a person as much as possible, to be trusted and trusted by others.

Yes, this is also a prerequisite for all heroes. In my mind, a true hero, he is first and foremost a candid, and has a person who can bear this candid and all the troubles caused by this candid.

I have been unable to become a hero in the full sense, and there are many times of unsincere situations, external pressures have always existed, and I cannot psychologically bear the bad results that may result from complete candidness, which also means Does not have that kind of energy and strength. Recognizing this, I was frustrated for a while, and only then did I further understand how idealized the hero is in my mind-in fact, it is originally idealized, otherwise it is not a dream, I think, the past I just stubbornly believe that I can achieve it.

Yes, now I know that I can't do it. Even the first one, who has been trying to make himself move towards the hero of all humanity, has never done it. At that time, I was very firm, but I did a lot of ridiculous things, so that when I am now pondering, I also want to bury my head in the ground. But this does not mean that I want to become more vulgar. At least, I can also become a hero of a few people. I also know that I shoulder more than just my own life.

Even if I can only be a hero of a few people, I also feel that honesty is also very important, and it can even be said that it should be one of the cores of all thinking and actions.

I know I can't be completely honest, but as a person who knows a lot about psychology, he can adjust himself step by step and then move towards that ideal state. I know my destiny, childishness and cruelty, I know that there are various anachronistic and unconventional ideas in my mind, and I know that I am a 'spirit' divine patient. Ordinary people's more serious contradiction 'sex'. However, it is precisely because I know these things, and not take them for granted as the ultimate truth, like other 'spirit' **** patients, so I am sure that I can continue to move forward.

Because of thinking, I know that I have too many unknowns. Because of thinking, I know what kind of impact I will take when I explore these unknowns. Because of thinking, I know that I am now better than I was in the past. I have some more cognition, and the future self will have more cognition than the current self. These extra parts prove that I have been growing. And as long as you are still growing and your goals have been determined, you will eventually turn yourself into the one you think.

I sometimes feel that if there is not much time, maybe this is the way to really defeat the "virus" ~ lightnovelpub.net ~ Even if there is not much time now, the "virus" is constantly active, I need to bet a miracle, But I still feel that this deepening of self-awareness is very necessary.

I'm not afraid that I will become someone else. Even if I once died and split from another Gaochuan, I have also been to a hospital. The reality is still uncertain. Is it "real" in an absolute sense? ". These peculiar encounters made me 'confuse', but, when I asked myself a little bit, looking for the look of the hero in my heart, I knew that I was still Gao Chuan, no matter what happened to me, even, and another Being one again will not change.

This self-confidence allows me to calmly look at John Bull, to calmly tell her about the adverse effects caused by me, and my doubts about their arrival. Because, these facts and emotions, there is no need to conceal in my heart, it actually exists, maybe the facts that I and other people need to face. I also believe that as long as the other party knows his candidness and not a question, it will definitely be more conducive to solving the problem than concealing these thoughts but doing actions behind the scenes.

If the other party misunderstands, or acts contrary to their expectations, then there is no need to blame the other party, because, from the beginning, I was only asking what I did, not what I was asking others to do. Expectation is not a requirement. Expectation has failed, and it is never a reason to blame others.