Dr. Ruan Li used a camera installed at home to take a shocking image. I do n’t want to doubt the authenticity of this image. I prefer to think so. In Dr. Ruan Li ’s observation-no matter what method she uses- -Both are different from the world I have observed. And there must be some profound reason, even if I do n’t know why. If all that Dr. Ruan Li proved is to prove that "mystery" does not exist, and this is the counterattack of the Las Vegas repeater against intruders, then, regarding my previous call to the electronic demon Speculation of procedures and nightmares seems to be untenable.

However, since I believe that my guess is close to the truth, then Dr. Ruan Li's existence is particularly special because of her words and deeds.

It took me a long time to sort out my thoughts on this night. The impact of Dr. Ruan Li ’s words and proofs was finally re-incorporated into my philosophy and outlook on life to maintain my personality. When I think back to the impact and the confusion of my thinking at that time, I can't help but sweat, and deeply realize that if the confusion at that time is more serious, maybe I will become a madman who denies myself. Today, I am still a mental patient, but at least the mental patient will not deny myself.

This is the most strange and inexplicable attack I have encountered for the first time since I entered this world of repeaters. If this impact is regarded as an ideological attack, then the nature of this attack involves the cognition of intelligent life The root of their own existence. For ordinary people. Such attacks are often ineffective, because ordinary people take self-existence for granted and do not think about it. Just like when walking, you don't think about how each nerve, each muscle cooperates, and what kind of signal is released from the brain, so that the action of "walking" is established. If someone tries to trace the fundamental mechanism involved in "walking" itself, trying to control it with a subjective will, probably at the beginning. It will fall all at once.

Cognitive self involves thinking and exploration of self-existence. It is like trying to understand and control every detail of "walking". When the consciousness activity reaches this level, and it is impossible to truly control this activity, it is like disassembling a car into parts, but does not have the ability to reassemble. The result is naturally terrible. I was shocked at the time. As if dissecting myself, there is a power that denies me the way to reassemble myself.

Of course, this impact will only take effect when you dissect yourself. For people who do not think about the rationality and existence of their personalities at all, this shock is meaningless. For ordinary people, thinking and even questioning the rationality and existence of self-personality is itself a meaningless behavior-because of ordinary people's behavior. It is generally consistent with the cognition of "existence is reasonable" without thinking about why "existence is reasonable". and so. Even if there is an "existing but unreasonable" situation, ordinary people will turn a blind eye, and instinctively use this "existing but unreasonable" situation as "seemingly unreasonable, but it must be reasonable, but they can't recognize it". Sift all negatives.

Human cognition of self and maintenance of self personality. It is the most fundamental instinct born after knowing the self. When I look at the impact I received from this angle, I cannot help feeling the deep fear of the source of the impact. Because, although I am a mental patient, and can not suppress the analysis of the rationality and existence of my personality, I do n’t think that this behavior will be so frequent when I am normal, even, it should be like most ordinary people. Similarly, look at your own existence with a "justified" attitude.

However, I am a mental patient, and my mental illness is part of the doomsday syndrome caused by the "virus", which also means that it is likely that this behavior of questioning myself is part of the vicious manifestation of the doomsday syndrome- For this, I have more evidence, more associations, and even, the reason why I have always used the word "possible" is just to fight the deep fear in my heart, not to admit that this is the fact.

If the shock at that time was not accidental, but a necessity with malicious intent, it means that the source of this shock was not "Dr. Ruan Li" itself, but a kind of initiative to interfere with self-cognition Level of existence. What is this existence? In fact, I also have my own answer-it must be a "virus".

The erosion of infected people by "viruses" has never been reflected not only on the patients, but also on the patients' consciousness. In my cognition, "consciousness" is a high-dimensional embodiment, which is a higher-dimensional form than "". Then, the "virus" at the source of self-consciousness can not be observed, which is taken for granted. ——It may have a higher dimension than human consciousness. This is its most terrible place. The theory of unity in science should be able to explain everything in theory, including the theory of each dimension, but, It is because its basis point is too high, but it was born in human consciousness. Human consciousness will naturally restrict the formation of the entire theory, and it is impossible for people to think about the theory from an inhuman perspective. This is fundamentally rejected. The real formation of the theory of unity.

In the past, "Gao Chuan", Dorothy, and tie colors have always planned to use the theory of "superstring theory" to become a unified theory to fight against "virus" and solve all problems caused by "virus". However, can a theory born out of human consciousness, limited by human consciousness, really fight the existence beyond human consciousness?

At this night, I finally clearly outlined the worries and uneasiness that have been hidden in my heart. I have vaguely recognized this in the past, but I could n’t form a clear outline, and even expected myself to be wrong, but now I ca n’t say to myself anymore, hosted by Super Colors and Dorothy That plan, there is still the possibility of success.

Although, Super Color and Dorothy may be in self-existence and ideology. They have entered the stage of "non-human", but they are used to maintain the fundamentals of the plan. Still born from the "superstring theory" or "great unification theory" born in human consciousness and cognition, then, I began to feel that they had no chance of victory.

Human consciousness can only cope with the dimension of consciousness and the lower dimension. People have always believed that consciousness has no limit and can be expanded indefinitely. But this view is actually wrong. Because, in the concept of human consciousness. Even without mentioning it, there is already a limitation implied, that is, "human".

Yes, human cognition and pride in self-awareness. Being naturally confined to the category of "human". For non-human consciousness, humans have expressed the idea of ​​"powerlessness" in many philosophies. And humans have not thought about it, when the non-human consciousness is higher than the possibility of human consciousness, but that kind of transcendental consciousness is beyond the imagination of natural restricted human consciousness and can only vaguely propose such concept.

It is assumed that human consciousness is already the highest dimensional embodiment of human existence. Then. Not just consciousness, but the entire form of existence, a non-human existence that transcends human consciousness. How can humans use theories born from their own consciousness, which is naturally limited by human consciousness, to fight?

Only monsters can fight monsters-this is the idea expressed more or less in most mystics. I could n’t understand the past, but now it seems. This is probably the simplest, dealing with the concepts of "abnormal", "mysterious", "unknown" and "monster". It is also a generally effective concept. Perhaps, some mysterious society implies that "humans can fight monsters", but in these hints, there is a premise in itself-that is, the existence of those monsters does not exceed the height of the existence of human consciousness. This statement is more crude. That is, "the existence of monsters must be at least within the scope of human imagination." The "mystery" possessed by these monsters is also limited by the premise of "in human imagination."

However, the concept of "mystery", in the most simple state, does not have this premise, which also means that humans have tried to describe something that does not exist in their own imagination. In occultism, coping with this kind of thing is to rely on "luck" and "wisdom" and use the power of "monster" to defeat the "monster".

And now, "virus" seems to be such a simple concept that absolutely conforms to "mystery", in an unimaginable way, exists, unimaginable existence.

The inability of humans to observe it is the fundamental premise of all cognition of it. If what you observe seems to be its existence, then you have to go back and re-judge what you have observed based on this fundamental premise.

I had such a vague concept long ago: "Jiang" and "Virus" could not be directly observed in "Hospital Reality", but only through the characteristics of "Doomsday Syndrome" brought by them. Determine whether they exist. In the illusion of doomsday, you can further feel the existence and influence of "jiang" and "virus".

In the past, I think that was because in the "hospital reality", the high dimensionality of consciousness was limited by the dimensions. Therefore, when the patient directly introduced consciousness into the doomsday illusion through some methods, or like Gaochuan in the past, Or it may collapse, release the shackles, expose the consciousness, and become the cornerstone of the illusion of doomsday, and then be able to observe and recognize "jiang" and "virus" from a higher dimension.

It seems that this idea is not wrong, but it still has its limits. That is, in the past, I always thought of the "jiang" and "virus" that I observed, recognized, or felt. Even though, in these feelings, observations, and perceptions, "jiang" and "virus" were not complete manifestations, It also means that I have found a channel with points and faces to truly reach them. However, now I have no such naive thoughts.

Because, due to the limitations of consciousness, although I found that point, it does not mean that it can be extended from this point to the face. In fact, the channel I think does not exist at all. From the beginning, my contact with "Jiang" and "virus" has no possibility of extending to their full existence.

"Jiang" and "Virus" are unrecognizable, incomprehensible, and even impossible to contact, at least unable to take the initiative to contact, and even, even if they are in contact, they are definitely not in the way they can imagine, The resulting cognition and feelings are all distorted. Wrong, confined to self-consciousness-I in the past may have had such a thought. However, in the instinct consciousness, it is not regarded as the most fundamental premise.

Even in the most fearful and desperate times, I instinctively suppressed this "absolutely unknown, unsolvable, untouchable" thought. And trying to drag their existence from the height of "human consciousness". Denies the word "absolute" in the thought.

"Unknowable, unsolvable, untouchable" and "absolutely unknowable, unsolvable. Untouchable", look very similar, a little vague, can be used as a meaning, but really should be divided into a clear, two meanings definitely exist Essentially different.

I just subconsciously reject the meaning of the word "absolute" and exclude it in the reality that surrounds me. The existence of "absolute". In human consciousness, "absolute" is an abominable concept because. It is trying to describe the limits of human consciousness. Similarly, humans do not want to admit that their imagination is at an end, and do not want to admit that there is something "absolutely unimaginable" on the dark side. Humanity. The concept of "darkness" is limited to "darkness that can one day be illuminated". Limiting "unimaginable" to "imaginable imagination one day", while denying "absolute darkness" and "absolutely unimaginable", even though humans have coined the term "absolute".

This is very contradictory, but understandable.

However, now, I must admit, or to say, in order to do something, I must think so, "Jiang" and "Virus" are such a person, unwilling to admit, they must also face the absolute existence.

So, I feel extremely fortunate for my plan to be carried out around "Jiang".

Only monsters are the only way to deal with monsters, in the sense of "absolute". It may be frustrating, but if this is the case, then the previous projects dominated by "Gaochuan", Xie Se, and Dorothy will absolutely no longer have the possibility of success, even one in ten million. And my plan has become the only one that can succeed.

If it is said that before this evening, I can recognize another of my actions, and think that another plan that I have executed and my plan exist at the same time, which is a manifestation of "not putting eggs in the same basket." Well, now is the time to negate this idea.

I have to look at another plan of me, system color and Dorothy with the most demanding mentality. Perhaps, this is cruel, in their view, it is also very radical, and it is a madman-like thought, but when I know When it comes to dealing with an absolute monster, it can't be changed anymore.

I know very well that I chose the latter between the two ideas of "the facts are not as bad as I thought, I was scaring myself" and "the facts are as bad as I thought." Because, between these two ideas, there is no possibility of compatibility and simultaneous response. It is simply impossible to swing between the two, or make plans to deal with both at the same time.

Therefore, I must also bear this choice, the hope and despair that it will bring.

Because of a clearer understanding than in the past, the pressure felt is even heavier than in the past. This pressure made it difficult for me to breathe, so I lay in bed and tossed and turned in the car all night, making it difficult to fall asleep. So, I have no more nightmares.

However, even I was amazed that the next day, my spirit was not so weak, but more sober. I clearly felt the negative impact of pressure, but this negative impact seems to be transformed into a huge force to maintain myself through some invisible channel.

This is not normal. But didn't the abnormal situation exist from the beginning?

In the morning, hiding from Dr. Ruan Li, I communicated with Misaki, Bajing, and Zuo Jiang. When talking about Fu Jiang, they did not look like Fu Jiang as they showed in the video. They acknowledged the existence of Fu Jiang in terms of words and attitudes, which makes the images taken by Dr. Ruan Li and the camera extremely contradictory and strange, especially when I confirmed that Dr. Ruan Li did not lie and the images were not modified It is even more difficult to identify which side is correct.

Perhaps both parties are correct, but the same thing shows different manifestations in the observations of different people-this also proves that the "Jiang" is such a weird thing, and it also proves that, All observations on "Jiang" based on itself. None will be correct, and any feelings, imaginations, and thoughts directed at it will deviate from their truth.

and so. All plans in the human imagination-including me, color and Dorothy-should be ineffective. However, it does not matter, I still love this "it".

"It's a terrible story." After another day, Miyake and Bajing saw the thought of the night I wrote in my notes. They always said that they believed me to be a "mysterious expert", but they still didn't quite believe the truth of the adventure story I wrote. Even if the "mystery" once displayed a figure beside them. However, compared to things like the electronic demon summoning system. With my own experiences and ideas, the "adventure story" I wrote still seems too difficult, ridiculous, and weird, even if they have their names in them, and the names of people they are familiar with. However, they still felt that these stories contained the hallucinations I had at the time of illness and many story-like modifications.

Miyake and Bajing believe that I am a mental patient, but think that the story I wrote, even if it is true, is only because "the mental patient has encountered mystery", but he can't figure out what is the real mystery. What is his illusion. Although, when playing together, when talking about "mystery" together. They will not discriminate against me because I am a mental patient, but they will not completely believe what I said, the truth in the story.

"Achuan, it seems that you are really ill." Bajing saw a ridiculous smile at the end. Lower the voice and recite like a drama: "Even so. I still love it."

"I didn't expect that Miss Fujiang was even a human being." Miyaki couldn't help laughing. "Achuan, if you write this, won't Miss Fujiang get angry?"

"I don't know, maybe not." I ridiculed them because they didn't want to believe the truth of this story, so whatever I said was useless, not to mention, I was a mental patient, normal People do not believe the bizarre stories that mental patients tell, which is for granted.

What's more, the "mystery" I recorded in the story, especially "Jiang" and "virus", even those who have been in contact with the mystery, can hardly accept their authenticity.

To me, this story is a record of truth, and to others including Misaki and Hachi, it is probably just a "strange and strange story written by a mental patient."

Miyake and Bajing often read my story, but this does not mean that they like this story. On the contrary, their attitude towards this story is psychologically, in fact, subconsciously repulsive to this story. They don't feel happy when they tease me. I can tell from the details of their expressions. They are really worried about my condition.

Fu Jiang also often read my story. Dr. Ruan Li still ca n’t see her, and in Dr. Ruan Li ’s perspective, no one except me can see Fu Jiang ’s existence. She tried many ways to stop me from contacting this “invisible friend” "Or, hope that through treatment, I will no longer produce such a" non-existing friend ", however, a week of calm time passed, apparently no effect. Fu Jiang will come to the house every day. When she sees my story, she always has a meaningful smile when describing her ~ lightnovelpub.net ~ to other "Jiang" and "Virus". She never expresses her views on the story itself, but, contrary to Saki Ye and Ba Jing, she likes the story. Moreover, from the beginning of this story, she has been a reader.

I still remember it very clearly that the first time we met, when we first teamed up to face the terrible "mystery", it was she who encouraged me to write her own story into a story. Now, the length of this story is quite amazing, and it is getting more and more strange and difficult to understand. When I look at this story, I always feel that it is becoming another kind of thing, not just a story.

It started to stir the reader's brain, the seemingly wonderful first chapter, like a huge trap-like in "mystery", an ancient monster, opened its mouth, disguised as a cave, waiting The treasure hunters walked in by themselves, and then swallowed these people in one bite.

Yes, I think that this story has already begun to have a twisted mystery, and the story itself has also been twisted by this twisted mystery into some kind of abnormal manifestation.

I was even a little worried that it would hurt the reader, and I didn't want to show it to Dr. Miyake, Bajing and Dr. Ruan Li. However, Sakuya, Bajing, and Dr. Ruan Li disagreed with my concerns, thinking that this was just a delusion of my mental illness. To be continued