I feel that my mental state is okay, sober thinking and treatment of abnormal calmness even allow me to deal with the problem more efficiently when the mystery that is constantly excited and various phenomena caused by the mystery. From this perspective, I think my current mental state is beneficial to my adventure. However, for Dr. Ruan Li who is completely conscious of the normal world, he will undoubtedly regard it as a deterioration of his condition. Of course, since this kind of pathological change involves patients with "Jiang" and doomsday syndrome, Dr. Ruan Li's diagnosis to some extent makes me feel a reflection, making me have to think of the erosive nature of "Jiang".

The change of my mental state should be viewed from the perspective of Jiang's erosion of me. The erosion of foreign bodies is always a bad phenomenon only in terms of human body and spirit. However, if it is not "viruses" but "jiang" that erode me, I can be psychologically acceptable. No, to be precise, I have been prepared for a long time. When I try to analyze what "Jiang" is, my particularity and responsibilities that have to be fulfilled have made me aware of my end. Accept "Jiang", including its aggressiveness, in order to seize the glimmer of hope you can see. From the perspective of occultism, this is an equivalent exchange, and this so-called "equivalence" is not rational. The equivalence viewed on the level, and more is full of sensibility.

I use reason to think, but it is driven by emotion. I have never done this for good or bad, because this is my way of life. I have never thought about changing. I am not afraid of changing. Instead, I have completely accepted this way of life and do not feel the need to change.

As far as the current changes are concerned. I accept such a change. This acceptance is not an insidious move, but a choice made only after I anticipate the worst possible and decide to bear the good and bad it brings. Will not be shaken by Dr. Ruan Li ’s concerns and theory.

Although I will not be shaken, I will not resist and fear the erosion of "Jiang", I support everything with my "love" for it. However, she cannot completely ignore Dr. Ruan Li ’s worries. She is a good person. Although she does not understand my true thoughts and cannot see the world I see, her thinking and actions are based on “good to me” From a perspective. Regardless of the result. The starting point alone was enough to move me. I decided to implement a plan that is very cruel to all people in the illusion of doomsday, but this does not mean that I am hard-hearted. I always knew why I had to carry out this plan, why I fell in love with "Jiang", why I went back and forth every night, to feel sad and distressed for the expected results, and to think about myself for not being able to do better upset. It all started from a beautiful starting point. From this perspective, what is the difference between me and Dr. Ruan Li? We are all imaginable by ourselves. Understandably, on the basis of everything that can be done, try to get a better result for the one you love, but you ca n’t judge whether you can really achieve the desired purpose by doing so. The future is for us. It is unpredictable, but it must be believed.

I believe that I am correct, as is Dr. Ruan Li, so I understand her. If circumstances permit, I do not want to use a tough attitude against her. Just like, from beginning to end, I hope that the color and Dorothy can stand on my side. Although I will feel pain and melancholy for their choice, I will not blame them or be blamed by them. Targeting and feeling a betrayal. I believe that my choice means the same to Dr. Ruan Li.

I was further monitored at home, and my room was fitted with a camera. In this home, there was no room for freedom. Maybe for others, such a home is a suffocating cage, for which we must resist, but for me, this suffocating measure is also full of a suffocating love. I really can't resist. Although my daily behavior has not changed drastically, Dr. Ruan Li cannot rest assured unless it is tested for a longer period of time and proves that I am indeed harmless. Misaki and Bajing chose to continue to live in such an awkward home. They have a very deep feeling for me. I can feel from their choices and the words and deeds of the day. This feeling is that they can ignore the danger and be monitored. The reason for not being free. Dr. Ruan Li initially stayed at the two with a strong objection. Her objection was from the perspective of psychology and personal safety. In her eyes, now I am like an outwardly docile but internally unaware How the beasts of floods are extremely dangerous and severe mental patients. Under no circumstances will they attack Miyake and Bajing. Among the patients she has treated, there is no lack of such cases-even if you know that you should not do this. However, it can't stop hurting his lover, and even, finally get pleasure from this behavior and can't stop.

Dr. Ruan Li could n’t be sure that I would get so bad, but the problem was that she could n’t be sure that I would n’t be so bad. Not only Misaki and Bajing, because of me, Dr. Zuo Chuan, who often visits home, was also warned by Dr. Ruan Li. During this time, do n’t be too close to me. If you must contact me, you must always pay attention to my mental state. If Dr. Ruan Li could not see Fu Jiang, otherwise Fu Jiang could not escape her nagging. My affairs with Fu Jiang have long been regarded by Dr. Ruan Li as a strong evidence of mental illness, but now I do n’t feel how strange and absurd Fu Jiang ’s “disappearance” is in certain people and circumstances. Understand the matter, in the information brought by John Bull, there is no lack of some important people in the mysterious circle in this world that seems to clone the outside world of the repeater, and in the final analysis report, it is determined as It is the interference effect of other repeaters. Since even repeaters can allow certain people to "disappear" to such a degree, then why can't Jiang's interference cause Fujiang to "disappear"?

I observe "Jiang", observe Fujiang, and think they exist, but conversely, does not mean that their existence is based on my observations? Maybe, I can't feed back my observations to everyone. This is the first time Dr. Ruan Li has appeared in the Doomsday Illusion, and it is enough to prove that Dr. Ruan Li has special characteristics that others do not have. From the perspective of the "script", a special role must have a specific mission. It will also take it as the center and produce some special situations.

This world, because of human conscious interaction, has a certain degree of authenticity, but also because it is only conscious level interaction. Therefore, it does not have complete authenticity. When I kept writing some of my experiences into stories, I gradually realized that the story fits with the "script" and has potential interference. Perhaps, the reason is still the existence of "Jiang", and it is through me a kind of macroscopic erosion of this world that cannot be confirmed from a single corner.

I no longer have to consider these deep-seated essential reasons now. I accepted all of this as if people accepted the conclusion that they must breathe to survive.

Even if the theories mentioned by Dr. Ruan Li have a hint of insinuation, I am not prepared to deliberately pursue the root causes and the truth behind them. I do not reject Dr. Ruan Li ’s arrangement, nor do I object to her suggestions for Misaki, Bajing, Zuochuan and even more acquaintances. Therefore, the decisions of Misaki, Bajing and Zuochuan. It is entirely from their sincerity. They believe that my mental state is not good. But this is the reason why they stayed. They did not directly oppose Dr. Ruan Li's claims. They only persuaded Dr. Ruan Li with some hesitation from the perspective of "maintaining communication may improve his condition."

Dr. Ruan Li intensified my house arrest, but this does not mean that she will be rigid. I just want to use house arrest to avoid the impact of excessive behavior that I might have on others. From another point of view, I think that in the heart of Dr. Ruan Li, it compares with me. Misaki's safety is actually not very important.

Things at home are about to enter a new track, and I have to stay longer. John Bull ’s entrustment is naturally to be fulfilled, and what the Doomsday Truth Church is doing is also very concerning, but its importance is not as important as family matters. I sent the intelligence analyzed during this time, and the apology for my delay, together with John Bull. I do n’t expect to understand my decision, but the other party ’s solution is also quite tough.

An invitation from an activity circle in the field of psychology to Dr. Ruan Li to participate in a more personal seminar, the destination is in Europe. For many reasons, she could not shirk. Although the inviting party has no trace of the operation, no matter the time or the place, it is too coincidental and full of intrigue. I don't think this is accidental. Members are involved in all aspects of the social field. After knowing the situation on my side, it has promoted the development of this situation. It is definitely not too difficult. It also seems that they are very urgent. I think it is because after getting my information, I have some anxious emotions. The monster in the deep nightmare of Las Vegas is not their handwriting, and once it is the handwriting of the enemy, the blow will be very huge. I think that although rivets and others have prepared many killer tools, they should not have reached the level of that monster. Although the development in this world of repeaters is very rapid, the indifference of the enemy and the potential threats have also increased the pressure of the people. They may have thought that the pressure on their own side peaked and the enemy ’s energy Before finishing, launch a war to weaken your pressure and clarify the direction of the enemy's actions.

For this reason, my actions have become a very important bargaining chip. When devoting yourself to your own development, you must rely on the people who have action to win time and intelligence for them. What I have done in the past has lowered my credibility, but compared with those who do not know the roots and those who are determined to be enemies, I may feel more reliable. A Level 4 Mageweave messenger is also trustworthy in ability. Combining various factors, I have a new judgment about the importance of myself in the plan.

I have no special feeling about the possibility of moving hands and feet behind my back. The seminar is real, and the invitation to Dr. Ruan Li is sincere. Even if there is no mysterious organization behind him, Dr. Ruan Li will soon travel to Europe. Therefore, even if the mysterious proliferation in Europe is tending to intensify, it is impossible to prevent Dr. Ruan Li, who completely ignores the mystery, from going there. What's more, in the meaning of Dr. Ruan Li, even if this seminar is not important, taking me alone to Europe to find therapeutic inspiration is also a good choice for the current situation.

After Dr. Ruan Li made the decision to go to the meeting, Fu Jiang had already set off in advance. She has her own ideas. At least in terms of behavior and conversation, the transcendental weirdness of "Jiang" is absolutely indistinguishable, almost the same as that of ordinary people. She is my wife and loves me deeply, but it does not mean that her behavior and thinking. I am centered. Even if Fu Jiang is not different from humans in physical form, the essence is still part of "Jiang", or a close-up cross-sectional representation, not so much as humans, but more like the "contact with organic life" in science fiction works. Use a humanoid contact device. "

The other members of the whisperer also have their own tasks, but they are basically responsible for local affairs. Now the composition of the whisperer is complete, after Fu Jiang and I left. Although the combat effectiveness is reduced, according to the agreement, the network ball side represented by John Bull will provide assistance in this regard. If it is in the name, it may worry about excessive actions behind it, but the online ball and John Bull can be trusted.

After everyone had arranged their own affairs, two days had passed. During this time, I did not stop observing the nightmare. Marceau ’s situation has n’t changed much, and almost every day someone breaks into the watch shop for one reason or another. Becoming her prey, I suspect that during this time, Marceau privately recruited more "bait". Although I have done bait a few times, but I am not keen on this behavior, I do not blame Marceau. I also want to analyze her more from the changes in ghost nightmares, but this does not mean that I will devote most of my energy to how to seduce more prey. Marceau did not demand me to do something in this regard. She was not every time I had a nightmare. Will appear before my eyes. I think her attitude towards me is special, but because she hasn't seen her get along with other people, she can't compare.

Marceau was not always weird like a ghost. When we were together, she was very quiet for a long time. She sat in my arms, quietly looking through the window, looking at the unreal Location. I asked her if she wanted to go out, but she was always silent, as if the question had never been communicated to her ears or her heart.

I do n’t know what she is thinking. She in this world of repeaters is quieter and weirder than I have seen in the past. It seems to be playing a special and important role. The character's completely different aura, even compared with Dorothy. Her appearance, temperament and behavior are too different from the impressions in my memory. The image point is that the painting style is wrong.

Even so, the feeling from the heart tells me that she is still Marceau, based on the girl I love and continues to evolve in the doomsday illusion. Even if the personality and appearance are different, the nature of the person who constitutes them is still the same.

Because I discovered the terrible secret deep in the nightmare, I could n’t help worrying about Marceau. She was so different, and she was bound to undertake some important changes in the “script”. Her role made her destined to be involved in the vortex, and even become the center of the vortex. I was afraid that the vortex would touch the monster deep in the nightmare. Although I only touched it once, and only on the surface, I can also feel that it has a natural restraint to the "mystery" extended by the electronic demon. To put it more seriously, the electronic demon messenger is probably unable to defeat it, it may be the existence at the top of this mysterious power system. And its location is so special, even if it should still belong to "children" at this time, it also has the home advantage of this nightmare Las Vegas. If you want to deal with it, you must find it to avoid or weaken this advantage. -First, you have to find the "gate" that leads to it in this nightmare Las Vegas.

"Door" is not just that fast food restaurant. I guessed that the inexplicable disappearance of the electronic demon messenger has been related to these "doors". Because the missing conditions of the electronic demon messenger are not fixed, the appearance and opening of the "door" should also be more free. I returned to the fast food restaurant, however, the once-disturbed store seemed to be updated, no trace of fierce fighting, and no ghost ghost nightmare. This also proves that the "door" is not fixed in the fast food restaurant. Even, the "door" owned by the fast food restaurant at that time was intentionally manufactured.

There is such a potential mysterious force, watching the changes in the nightmare Las Vegas, and they know more than that. Not to mention whether they took the initiative to let me know the existence of that monster, and why they did it. It is enough to know that the information alone is enough to prove that these people cannot completely abandon the relationship between the doomsday truth and the Nazis.

As far as my personal judgment is concerned, it is more inclined, and this is what the Apocalyptic doctrine does. Although in terms of military-style mysterious experts and military-style combat power structures, both the mercenary association and the Nazis give people a more professional feel, but this does not mean that there is no army in the doomsday truth. It is true that militaryization has never been the core of Doomsday Truth ’s combat power. However, there is no lack of similar organizations in the Doomsday Truth ’s subordinate institutions.

"Goat Guild" and "Hyena Force", the memories of these two institutions gradually emerged from their minds and became clear. There is no mysterious organization such as the Mercenary Association in the Doomsday Realm before death. The task performers are often elite mysterious experts who form teams on demand. They have a very close relationship with the national government. The hyena troops of the Goat Guild are still the most common. Either the Mageweave messenger or the Greystone fortifier had the experience of losing money in front of that army.

In this world of repeaters, the doomsday truth religion has also been in operation for a long time, and reconstruction of the goat guild and hyena troops should be achievable. Although judging from the intelligence of the team, the psychedelic paradise "paradise" has not yet appeared on a large scale for the necessary supplies to form these two institutions. However, since the white Claudia has been discovered, then "paradise" must exist, perhaps digested internally by the Doomsday Truth.

Suppose that I entered the depths of the nightmare through the "door" of the fast food restaurant. The doomsday truth teaches deliberately, then its purpose is obvious, and there is absolutely no lack of ideas to divert the attention of us. However, from another perspective, the Doomsday Truth Church chose me as a Level 4 Mageweave Messenger, and it also proved that although they knew some information about the monster, they were by no means knowing the truth, and even were afraid of the monster ’s strength. . Whether it ’s my first collision with that monster ~ lightnovelpub.net ~, which side wins, or both sides hurt, it is good and harmless for them. However, I am not angry about their calculations. At least, they let us know that there is such a monster in the depths of the nightmare. This is very important information.

After receiving relevant information, he has mobilized to find more clues. This incident involved both Doomsday Religion and the Nazis, leaving many traces in the nightmare Las Vegas. John Bull used these days of investigation to determine my first stop after arriving in Europe. However, in fact, I already had a clearer goal-the birthplace of the doomsday Marxism, the town on the mountain and lake.

In this doomsday illusion, the town seems to be deliberately neglected, even if it has not been noticed by the online ball, but since the past doomsday illusion, the Mar Jones family carried out the "Tianmen Project" there, then In this doomsday illusion, it must have inherited the clues of that time. It is further speculated that even in this world of repeaters, the doomsday truth will still be based on that town. No matter how the environment changes, there is always a certain invariable point. In occultism, it is also called "singular point curing." That town, as far as the doomsday truth is concerned, a fixed singularity is often a key point. (To be continued ...)

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