?? When I was still in the Central Duchy, I once brought Fu Jiang home. At that time, in the eyes of Dr. Ruan Li, "Fu Jiang" was like a ghost that only I could see. ∽↗∽↗, unexpectedly, this time Zhenjiang eroded the mysterious expert "Mushishi" with cancerous reproduction, and then showed Fujiang. Such images of Fujiang in monitoring equipment would be such a form.

——Corpse.

Such a scene makes people shudder at the slightest thought. For normal people, it is absolutely a very weird situation to regard the body as their own loved ones and to interact with them. I do n’t quite remember that in the past, when Fu Jiang, which existed in this form, was observed in the monitoring screen, it was just like the present, just a corpse of an eroded person. However, none of the people with us at that time did not seem to show much doubt.

Is it just because of the influence of Dr. Ruan Li? Is it only on Dr. Ruan Li that this observational rejection of Fu Jiang's existence?

Another possibility is that I really have a mental problem, or that Fu Jiang really only appears beside me in a spiritual image-but I also find it difficult to accept that I have always been with me The one around you and the one you are intimate with is just a corpse.

From the past to the present, I have been exposed to many strange and unusual situations. However, I still feel a little uncomfortable about what I can associate with the surveillance video played by Dr. Ruan Li.

"I have already dealt with the body of the female patient. Are you going to confirm it?" Dr. Ruan Li said calmly to me: "However, if there is really anything special-when the body is being processed, It ’s still very warm, and the internal organs are also very fresh. In addition to brain waves. The activity of cells and the operation of organs have not stopped. So, if it is not that the brain waves have completely disappeared, it is probably a vegetative. "

"Warm corpse ..." I looked away from the screen and couldn't help but squeeze the palm of my hand, as if it remained. Touching Fujiang.

"This female patient named Crassette Ben Mitterrand before this autopsy, all records show that although her condition is serious, there is nothing special about it. However, her body is The bodies of other patients are not the same. "Dr. Ruan Li seems to be pondering the words," Perhaps, during your contact with her, the interaction on the spiritual level contributed to her physical changes. To the ongoing 'human supplement It ’s a very important sample after the completion of the plan. I think that the appearance of 'Fujiang' is the key point before and after the change. I want to confirm that when you saw Fujiang, was Krasett alive or dead? "

"... Fujiang only appeared after she died." I was silent for a moment, but still answered.

"Is it?" Dr. Ruan Li also remained silent for a while. "What about Zhenjiang? In the diary you recorded, Zhenjiang and Fujiang are more closely connected than Zuojiang. The chance of the two appearing one after the other is very high. This time, Zhenjiang also appeared. ?"

"Yes. Zhenjiang killed Krasset and invaded her before turning into Fujiang." I answered calmly.

"Well, this process ... maybe you do n’t remember it. But, Achuan, you actually recorded it in your diary. The situation is often like this: Zhenjiang is the beginning of an anomaly, and Fujiang is the result of the anomaly. "Dr. Ruan Li said while pulling out a small notebook from his pocket. The notebook is full of notes and bookmarks. The cover is full of rich personal style, and it is a personal item at a glance. She seemed to record all the things she thought were important in this notebook. At this time, she opened it and quickly found what she wanted to confirm.

"Yes, although the initial record is Fujiang, the number of Zhenjiang appearing alone is almost the same as the number of Fujiang appearing alone, and the probability of the two appearing is as high as 90% ... let What people are puzzled by is Zuo Jiang. Compared with Zhenjiang and Fujiang, her appearance and disappearance seem a bit isolated. "Dr. Ruan Li murmured," Actually, I am more inclined, Zhenjiang and Fu Jiang really represents the psychologically biased performance, and Zuo Jiang is more about expressing a longing and desire, it is Achuan ’s craving for motherhood and the imagination of an ideal woman. If it is true, in fact Zuo Jiang is your normal favorite image, and your pursuit of Zhen Jiang and Fu Jiang ... "

She looked up at me and said bluntly: "You are sick because of it, so you will have a thirst for Zhenjiang and Fujiang."

"I thought your mother would say that my desire for Zhenjiang and Fujiang proved that I was a pervert." I hugged my head, although Dr. Ruan Li analyzed my heart so that I was a little restless, but this is not Means, I think what she said is correct. However, whether it is right or wrong, this expression is equally embarrassing.

"No. The logical order is important. Zhenjiang has long since died, and the Zhenjiang and Fujiang you see today are all illusions based on your mental illness. You are not craving them, but you are sick. They were born, "Dr. Ruan Li emphasized:" In the final analysis, your spirit is inherently unstable. When I found you, your mental state already showed some bad signs. Perhaps, Zhenjiang ’s death was only an incentive, not the cause of the initial illness. "

"Mom, you mean. Actually before Zhenjiang ..." I don't know much about the "death of Zhenjiang" mentioned by Dr. Ruan Li at this time, although I became "the only Gaochuan in this repeater world ", But there is not too deep memory of" the memory that Gaochuan should have in this repeater world ", and the" past "that may exist in itself exists in a" hazy impression ".

So, in this world of repeaters, how did Jiang really die, and what happened specifically during this period, and it was only after Dr. Ruan Li mentioned it that there was a kind of "Ah, there was such a thing, but, I can't remember the specific situation. "

"Yes. Judging from the recent research results, your condition is not only before the erosion of white Claudia, but also before the death of Zhenjiang. Although at a specific age, there is not enough evidence, However, I have assumed that you are actually a congenital mental patient. "Dr. Ruan Li looked at me with a painful eye," And this congenital mental disease is because of your genes, nerves and even certain organs. Organizations have inherent and invisible defects. Your mental illness is not caused by experiencing something. It is because your innate is a defective body. "

Although I do n’t think, by now, what can surprise me. However, when I heard Dr. Ruan Li made such a judgment, I still couldn't help but grow my mouth.

I want to say something, but I can't think of anything. In my heart, Dr. Ruan Li's conclusion was somewhat ridiculous, but he couldn't laugh at all. Treat it as ridiculous. But I can't let myself not care at all, or assume that it is really the same thing, but it makes people think that maybe there is no such thing at all.

After all, this is just inside the Las Vegas repeater of Doomsday Illusion, the judgment made by Dr. Ruan Li here ...

At this moment, Dr. Ruan Li said: "If you don't think of the world as real, then. No matter what I say, you will be subconsciously repulsive, right? But. If you do this, you can stay deep in your heart. The next nail will let you at a certain moment in the future take the words you care about very much at this moment and the purpose of saying these words to you will be achieved. A person's perception of the world depends largely on what he cares about . Do n’t care what you want, what you want to have, and what you want to forget. These factors will shape people ’s worldview and outlook on life. Decide what kind of person you will be. Perhaps, a person will inevitably encounter themselves do not want to accept , Do not want to admit the situation, but it means that he must first have what he wants to accept, what he wants to admit. "

"If I care ..." I couldn't help but ask her.

"If you care, then no matter what kind of illusion you will be lost in, you can certainly wake up in this world again. No matter, this world is an illusion or reality for you." Dr. Ruan Li touched with a smile Looking at my head, "Because, I know that this world is real, and it will not disappear because you think it is an illusion. What can destroy this world is only the end, not you, Achuan. You must keep this in mind. If you make a mistake, you will be in vain. Just like the patients ... the people who are in seminars today. "

"Who are those ...?" I was a little puzzled. Doctor Ruan Li's grasp of the situation seemed to exceed my intelligence and judgment at once.

"They were influenced by white Claudia, thinking that their hallucinations will become real, but in fact, it is white Claudia that is actually changing the world, not them who fall into the hallucinations. They think they are driven by their hallucinations The white Claudia may also affect the white Claudia, which may affect the end. But this kind of recognition is precisely the illusion caused by the white Claudia's spiritual erosion. "Dr. Ruan Li showed difficulty Visible bitter laughter, "Human beings will kill themselves because of their own ideas, but they will not bring about the true end of the world. Human beings are far from being able to destroy the world, but just as the planet. The status of the highest primate in the world has created such an illusion. In the face of a white Claudia who can really bring the end, they think they can, like the past, have no limits in short-term and radical plans. Elevate yourself to the same position and replace white Claudia, but this is nothing more than arrogance as a person. "

Dr. Ruan Li said very carefully: "Maybe, humans can really stop the end, but it is definitely not because humans can defeat white Claudia. Although white Claudia brought the end, these two are What can be treated separately must also be treated separately, otherwise, human beings have no chance. "

I was silent for a while, and replied: "It's really complicated."

"Yes, it is so complicated. It is necessary to sort out the complexities in order to understand what your goal is." Dr. Ruan Li's tone suddenly became a little sad, "But even if you understand, there are more Difficulties are in the front. To be honest, Achuan, I sometimes hope that this world is really just an illusion for you, and then, only one of your thoughts, one prayer, and one psychological change can change this world. Destiny ... is very negative, right? But every time I study White Claudia gets some results, I ca n’t help thinking. ”

Dr. Ruan Li's expression made her originally upright posture look very weak at this moment. I couldn't help but hug her tightly and said, "I don't know, this kind of thing is good. Actually, I don't care anymore, what is real and what is just an illusion. The diary I wrote is for me , Is the most authentic experience, which constitutes all of me. But if it is recorded, it means that the situation it involves is painful, I can also burn it, Without hesitation. "

I took a deep breath and continued to say, "For me, the most important thing is you. I hope you, and more people, no matter in which world, as long as I am in the world, Wherever I see, I can smile and live peacefully and happily. For this, I can pay everything I can pay! "

Yes ~ lightnovelpub.net ~ Whether it is a fantasy world or a real world, distinguish between the two and make a choice so that people on one side are happy and people on the other side are suffering. In my case, it has long been meaningless. Because, I have n’t been able to distinguish between where is illusion and where is reality.

Therefore, I can only choose to let the people on both sides of the balance, those whom I love, get the same happiness and the same calm.

Therefore, I will pursue such an incredible village, and even unrealistic existence in common sense. Go after the unknown witch, observe the inhuman "Jiang", and confirm the existence of such a "viral" beyond imagination.

Only when these incredible things exist, can we have the power to create incredible results and achieve incredible wishes. And real, ordinary humans, in any case, are unable to accomplish a real "miracle", are they?

I had to do this. And I am also the only one who set foot on this road. At the same time, I also hope that Gao Chuan, Dorothy and Tie on another, more "stable" path can stop me-if I am really wrong, then at least hope they are correct However, if they can't stop me, then I can only do my best and can't look back. (To be continued ...) u