Dr. Ruan Li does not believe in mystery. Among the mysterious phenomena that have occurred in the past, she always maintains a calm and objective attitude towards those phenomena that people think are incredible. , She does not recognize whether the mysterious idea is correct, I have no right to judge, and even I prefer what she insists is correct, because science is a prudent and understandable way of thinking, the world and the world The future is also a prudent and understandable future. Nothing is more exciting than a solvable end.

For quite a while, the belief in her that never wavered has been encouraging me. Even if I observe the world from different perspectives, I still hope she can succeed, save the world, and save the end. It ’s not just Dr. Ruan Li. Anyone who wants to save, even if I stand in a hostile position, the idea and understanding are completely opposite, I will only be happy.

I never felt that I was the only right, but the path I took must be convinced that I was right, nothing more.

However, some strange things are happening while the off-road vehicle is driving towards the entrance of the underground river. Dr. Ruan Li, who has been firm and calm, showed the fear for the first time in front of me. I think this is a very unusual and unknown omen. I have some doubts what makes Dr. Ruan Li scared.

Just a few minutes ago, Dr. Ruan Li told me that her condition was a bit bad, and she felt that she had been eroded by white Claudia.

White Claudia was observed by Dr. Ruan Li based on this world of repeaters, which will lead to the culprit of the end of the world. For me, white Claudia is not a strange name. In terms of appearance, It is also a very familiar plant. but. For this world of repeaters, it is far from being as simple as a medicinal plant that can create "illusions." The doomsday truth teaching spontaneously generated by this repeater world has been very in-depth on it, involving research in various scientific fields. Before this, I never thought that white Claudia would be in this world. Given such a powerful concept.

People have studied the impact of white Claudia on the world and humans from the fields of biology, psychology, philosophy, mathematics, physics, etc., and all aspects of it have already involved the most cutting-edge scientific and technological theory of this era. The research of Dr. Ruan Li and even the seminar only focused on the two fields of psychology and biology to create a "paradise".

I think that Dr. Ruan Li may not be afraid of these strange and inexplicable mysteries, but she saw something that others could not see, and felt the horror that belonged to her alone. These simple things only let her see, let her further draw this terrible conclusion: she is being eroded.

In other words, Dr. Ruan Li ’s source of fear is precisely because she is changing from a doctor to a patient. When she studied white Claudia as a doctor, she felt the threat from white Claudia was An extremely close and extremely profound way to entangle.

Just as a doctor must go to a place where the epidemic is serious to conduct research, and then find that he is also infected with the virus. In a desperate situation.

Her scientific knowledge allows her to understand deeply. What exactly is Claudia white is because of her understanding, so she is afraid. This is not a fear of the unknown, but a fear of being unable to deal with this known situation under known circumstances.

In other words, I would rather believe it. Dr. Ruan Li showed the color of fear for such reasons, not because he realized the mystery and believed in the unpredictable mystery, and felt fear. I don't want her to be like me. I do n’t want her to have the same thoughts as me. I do n’t want to believe that fate can be overcome. Anything will be analyzed scientifically. And she, like me, will eventually fall into the fate of “fate” and “infinite unknown” like me. in.

My attitude towards the world I have observed has been changing and becoming an agnostic, and I deeply understand how negative, how helpless, and desperate this perspective is. That is definitely not something that everyone can bear. I am even more reluctant to the people I love. In this negative and desperate belief, to force myself to stand up. I do n’t want them to remain silent in the face of the unknown. I hope Even if they die, they can burn their beliefs and believe in the existence of hope.

When Dr. Ruan Li said "I may be eroded by white Claudia", because of this erosion, I saw hallucinations and was afraid of the hallucinations, I do n’t know what expression I should use to respond to her . I am not a person who can speak well. I have fallen into agnosticism, using a macroscopic and huge concept, an illogical and emotional thinking, to understand everything I see in my eyes. I don't think this kind of self can make such a sharp speech, so that Dr. Ruan Li can rediscover the strength of being a materialist.

Thunder and lightning exploded in the gloomy sky, light and shadow spread in the car, spreading teeth and claws, setting Dr. Ruan Li's side face strange and dangerous, as if she was no longer her, but changed into something else. I don't know if this is an illusion, or whether her inner fluctuations are reflected in her expression, which in turn makes people illusion.

The off-road vehicle suddenly stopped, and Dr. Ruan Li stepped on the brakes. She said to me: "A woman in red ... a woman in red." She said this, but her eyes fell on the rearview mirror, as if it was really behind the car. There is such a person.

The chain judgment did not observe the woman in red that she said, but just stayed in the off-road vehicle. Only the human form that the chain judgment could observe has disappeared. The one that disappeared seems to be Dr. Ruan Li's friend "Gus".

All of this seems to be vaguely connected, but these connections are just out of my subjective ideas. I do n’t want to induce Dr. Ruan Li ’s own subjectivity. The view she originally insisted on was not wrong. When everyone else was killed by mystery, her perseverance and rational cognition might be her The surviving secret, and, I hope she can live like that all the time, without being haunted by any hallucinations and mysteries.

However, if Dr. Ruan Li really confirmed that he had been eroded by white Claudia, it might be difficult to resist illusion and mystery as in the past.

When Dr. Ruan Li began to have doubts, the doubts seemed to be generating more intense waves. Let the illusion generate further, and then show up in front of me.

"Woman in red? Where?" I asked. Now, I can only use my experience as a mystery expert to deal with the current state of affairs.

Sure enough, just after my voice fell, Dr. Ruan Li turned his head, in my gaze. Her face began to deform, her body and clothes also began to deform, and she became a woman in a red dress.

"It's here." Her voice is completely different from that of Dr. Ruan Li. The exceptionally low alcohol is like a good wine that has been brewed for many years, exuding an intoxicating taste.

I didn't speak, just stared at her like that.

I only know one thing, she must be non-existent, looking at me in the driver's seat. Not a monster, but Dr. Ruan Li himself.

Even if I become an agnostic, a mysterious expert, I must completely deny the existence of mystery at this time.

I do n’t know if I can do it. My thinking is always subtle, the subjective surface is negative, but there are traces of subconsciousness everywhere.

but. If I do n’t do this, who else will do it? Do you have to admit the strangeness of the red lady in front of you. Then kill her with Dr. Ruan Li? The girl in red in front of me and Dr. Ruan Li existed differently, but they were united by the "mystery". This kind of cognition does not need evidence at all, and it is entirely out of my sensitivity to mystery.

I did not respond, and experience tells me that any response is inappropriate. because. The answer itself also represents an acknowledgment.

I know very well that I must fight, and the enemy to defeat is not the lady in red, but myself.

I am silent. I imagine, I think, this is battle, and none of this can become language, nor voice. I stared at her, but I had to make myself understand that it was not the lady in red that I was watching, but Dr. Ruan Li.

I can feel the pressure clearly, and sweat is bleeding from my forehead and back.

The battle with myself lasted for almost a minute.

The body of the girl in red began to become hazy, and then her appearance also became hazy. All the impression left was only the mouth covered with lipstick. I know who she is, she is so familiar, but I must forget her and deny the idea of ​​"she is here". With only a hazy silhouette, she suddenly pinched my neck, but I couldn't fight back or move, and I must firmly believe that "Dr. Ruan Li will not do such a thing."

I can feel my suffocation when I'm strangled, I can feel the terrible power, but once I respond to any of them, it may worsen the situation. All my counterattacks, even if I can directly defeat this red The girl in clothes will also cause Dr. Ruan Li to be injured.

Of course, I have no evidence. All these judgments and responses are only based on my own experience.

The suffocation became stronger and stronger, and I felt that my cervical spine was almost chopped off by her extraordinary strength. However, only the scarlet, voluptuous lips were left on her body, and the other parts became almost translucent. I grabbed the armrest of the seat with force, and at the next moment, she hugged me with such an illusory silhouette, and then, in my motionlessness, fluttered out of the window.

The thunder and lightning exploded again, and Dr. Ruan Li's body was stiff and trembling. She seemed to realize what she was doing. She gently lifted her hand away from me, and I couldn't help coughing, then quickly grabbed her hand and pulled her into her arms. I hug her deeply, I can't speak, but I hope that my hug will warm her heart and let her know that I will never blame her or fear her for this kind of thing.

"Don't say sorry, mother." I said gently in her ear. It is true that I still have unfinished responsibilities in this world, but if I have just failed and been killed by her, I have never thought of it. I will retaliate against her, and I will not feel resentful for this fate.

Failure, despair, falling into the abyss ... These are never the most terrible for me.

Dr. Ruan Li put his face next to my face. I feel that there is liquid flowing down the skin. Is Dr. Ruan Li crying? She held me tightly, much more than I hugged her.

Three or four seconds later, Dr. Ruan Li let go of her arm, and I let her go.

Her previous fragility and fear were gone, and her usual strong and calm look was restored. I am very happy to see such doctor Ruan Li. I am proud of her self-psychological adjustment ability, and I hope that this will bring more hope to her, rather than the horror just now.

"I was eroded by white Claudia." Dr. Ruan Li said the same as a few minutes ago, but the tone and expression were very different, I can feel that her heart seemed to be filled with something warmer and harder full.

I did not speak, just looked at her silently.

She took a deep breath and sat upright in the driver's seat, relaunching the buggy.

"We are going to leave here." She said as if to herself.

Only the chain judgment can be observed, and the remaining four human figures in the car have disappeared.

We did n’t talk anymore ~ ​​lightnovelpub.net ~ The heavy rain outside the car, the thunder and thunder, but there was no longer the fearful power before, and the quiet inside the car was no longer so heavy and strange. In this small cab, there is a warm and firm atmosphere, which is like a bonfire lit in the dark, dispelling all the darkness and the fear of the unknown association.

Off-road vehicles over the rugged mountain road, sometimes smashed into pits, and sometimes climbed over slippery dirt slopes. We don't have a map, and Dr. Ruan Li doesn't know the exact route. The details of the underground river are all in the mind of the friend named Gus. This person may have suffered unexpectedly, and we are also very likely to be betrayed by him, but this is not the reason we gave up going to the underground river.

We must do this. Before we can get a definite result, we must personally take the risk and look for the remaining opportunities, because otherwise, do we have no way out, we can only stay on the peninsula, To face greater danger.

I think that for Dr. Ruan Li, all kinds of accidents will happen along the way, which is already under consideration. Relying on others is one of the worst.

After another 20 minutes, Dr. Ruan Li finally found a familiar path with his impression. To be precise, it was not a road, but a seam covered with thorns. (To be continued ...)