We watched the gate that was slowly opened, and the center line of the gate that was more than three hundred meters high burst into a glimmer of light. Although there is no shadow in the pipeline, the world outside this gate seems brighter. The bright centerline that grew with the opening of the door even made me feel a little dazzling. I can't imagine what kind of scenery the world behind this door is. Although it has been walking in the pipe, it does not mean that the door is still a continuation of the pipe. Even the end of the pipe does not mean It is still possible to observe more pipes with a wider field of view. Maybe the enemy will appear immediately outside the door, maybe not so fast. In short, even if it is used to imagine from the worst perspective, there will be various possibilities. I sometimes think that it is a greater possibility than human's own possibility-is such an idea a bit romantic in such a world? Romance is really not a suitable word.

The dialogue and silence between me and Qi continued as long as the door was open, not fast, but it seemed that the door would never be completely open until the silence and dialogue ended-I think, this It's my illusion.

"It turns out that Mr. Gao Chuan thought so." Nodding her head, she seemed to understand, but I don't know what she understood. However, I just tried my best to tell her that I had never thought of what she must understand. After all, what I really can understand is not something I can decide, but entirely her own.

"So, can I still ask a question?" She said, as if she was afraid that I would disagree and stressed, "It's really the last question."

"... What's the problem?" I don't think she has to be so careful.

"I have heard about you from Father Sisen ... Actually, I have also seen another Mr. Gaochuan who is not the same as you." Pan's eyes became sharper, giving me a sense of observation. However, what she said didn't surprise me. My existence is no longer a secret, and it is only natural that another Gaochuan is more familiar. After all, whether that Gaochuan is from the perspective of this doomsday illusion, from the perspective of the reality of today's hospital, or even from "Gaochuan" As far as the orderliness of personality is concerned, it is the true "orthodox successor". If I could choose to recover or not, I would definitely not recover.

It ’s just that I obviously do n’t have the right to make decisions on my own life and death. This is an objective fact that I have to face. It also foreshadows some more terrible problems, and these are all problems I must solve. To some extent, it may be a problem that only I can solve.

Of course, this is not necessary to explain. On the other hand, I also believe that another Gao Chuan understands and understands my situation, because although we appear as "two", in fact, it is still "one" in essence. He and I are the problem of the form of expression and the form of existence, but only the problem of "form". The key lies in the more essential things behind this "form".

In my silent gesture, Chi continued: "Father Sisen told me that you did a lot of things in the world of outsiders. It can be said that all the events that they think are important, you are involved, but, Some incidents are just tastings, while others are in-depth. You even took one repeater and hit it with another repeater, causing a terrible disaster. Even so, there are still many people Doubts, what is your purpose? It seems that no matter what events you dig into, or events that you just taste, you ca n’t express your position and goal. The attitude toward the doomsday truth religion, although it also has a hostile side, some When you stand by, you are neither a pure spectator nor a pure participant, you are free from every force, but you do n’t organize yourself-and your power does not reach one person against everyone Just like now, although you saved me, I am grateful to you, but you made me believe in my intuition, and I intuition, you are not necessary to save me. And, from the point of view before the battle, you are in actual combat, can only make sure to get out in front of ferrite life, can not be effectively overcome them. So, in the end what you want to do? What are you looking forward to it? "

"... A really serious question." I couldn't help but smile, but I didn't expect it to be such a problem. Indeed, what I do sometimes sometimes contradicts my goals on a certain level. To be more precise, my goal is sometimes the same as the goal of the network ball, but sometimes it is on the same track as the doomsday truth. In terms of human feelings and morality, I can't ignore my former friends, nor can I coldly see that the person I love is hurt, but to achieve my goal, it is inevitable to stand in the former friends, and have been deeply The opposite of their love, at least, is what they see as the "opposite".

I cannot meet the requirements of friends and loved ones in action, and at the same time, I am not consciously trusted by friends and loved ones.

Even so, I still don't see them as enemies.

This contradiction has always existed, and I know very well that it will continue until the "virus" is resolved, or until all of us are resolved by the "virus".

I have a lot of words that I ca n’t say to others, and they do n’t understand because they ca n’t see what I can see, and they ca n’t achieve the same perspective and thinking as I do — our own limitations lead to This is an objective problem that always exists. It is also a problem that no one can solve.

However, in the face of serious eyes, I couldn't act as usual or pass with silence.

"In simple terms ..." I am very clear. What I am about to say will make me understand that we are not friends on the ground. "I want to see the monster in the collective subconscious of humanity."

The expression on her face froze on her face. She looked like an inaudible look, staring at me suspiciously. The look was like a frozen lamp oil, and even the emotion of jumping like a flame was a little bit. Shaky.

"Why, what do you mean?" She said.

"It literally means, when I know that there are so-called monsters in the human collective subconscious, and now, it seems that everyone is writing about this human collective subconscious monster, I also want to see I saw it. After all, I have n’t seen this monster you said. I have never imagined the theory about its existence. ”I did n’t hide my thoughts at all.“ In fact, when I learned about Walp The existence of Guice Night and seeing the existence of the repeater with my own eyes, especially what happened after the repeater struck, surprised me a lot. The collective subconsciousness of human beings ... Even if there is such a concept, the actual After confirmation, it is really difficult to describe what kind of thoughts and emotions are in my heart, which is very complicated. "

"You mean, you just feel surprised, so, want to see?" Pan expressed a surprised expression, as if I hadn't thought I would say that.

"No, it's not that simple. But surprise is also one of the motives ... In the end, why do you always think that one person will do something and express a meaning, and the motive must be just the seemingly simple thing How about it? "I really feel incredible, because even if I do something, it is not the result of a pure motivation, such as eating, not just because of hunger, but for many reasons. A combined trending result, "You eat right when you are hungry, do you think it's a matter of course, right?"

"Isn't it?" At this time, she showed some vigilance, not that she didn't have it before, but that it was more obvious than before. It seemed that after listening to my statement and seeing my evidence, she became more vigilant to me. ——I'm not surprised about this. In the eyes of others, what I say and do must be very suspicious. However, it does n’t matter. I do n’t think this kind of vigilance is wrong. Instead, it is just a testament to the limitations of people and the gap between people. This is not a “good or bad” situation, or is it “correct or The "error" situation, but the "objective existence" situation.

"For you, that's just the case, but for me, it's not." I said very surely: "I have never eaten simply because I am hungry, even if I am hungry, I will choose not to eat because of different circumstances. Eating, there is no absolute connection between the two. Conversely speaking, I will eat even if I am not hungry. I am hungry or not, and it is never the only motivation for me to eat. "

"... It's too complicated, do you even have to think about eating?" Yan's expression was a little heavy, "I think this is wrong, there may be many reasons, but there are many reasons why you can't go deeper. Meal is What ’s wrong with being hungry? "

"It's not wrong." I laughed. "As you said, there are many reasons why you can't go deeper. So, in the same way, you can actually not get to the bottom of many things, can you? This is not exactly what I was before. Did you say that to you? But, you see, you have chosen not to get to the bottom of why you eat, but to the bottom of many things at the moment. "

"Some things should be traced to the bottom, while others are not needed." Chi was very cautious, but said without hesitation: "I was a little puzzled, but I'm sure now. Mr. Gao Chuan, you appear in your judgment deviation."

"I have a deviation-what are you using as a reference object?" I asked.

"Ordinary people." Ban said.

"... So, this is what most people think of me as a mental illness." I was not angry because it was obvious.

"This kind of thinking is very dangerous. Sure enough, Mr. Gao Chuan, like what they said to Father Sisen, is a dangerous guy." The alert was no longer expressive, she took the initiative to distance herself from me, use Hand holds the box behind. Just before we got out of the body life, this box fell in front of us, I was not surprised at all, picked it up easily—obviously, she knew what the box was, or rather, what was in the box, and said deeper Even if she is disappointed that there is no foreign aid, this box is a kind of support. When she picked up the box, although her expression was heavy, she should not be completely trapped in the kind of dilemma in a small corner of her heart.

She held the box and stared at me as if she had made a misunderstanding or if I made a misunderstanding, she would make a corresponding attack. I have a feeling that she will not be merciful or hesitant. Her hostility is absent, but it is true.

"Are you going to attack me with that thing?" I asked calmly.

"If you are going to do something stupid, Mr. Gao Chuan," said Qian, "I feel dangerous."

"You should know that my speed will not give you the chance to even do it ~ lightnovelpub.net ~ At the same time, you are not as hard as a pixel of life." I said warmly.

"Do you mean, do you really want to do something?" Said Qi: "However, it is not so surprising now, because, Mr. Gao Chuan, you really want to see the monster. But I definitely do n’t want to see that thing. People who fight with me today do n’t want to see that thing. I have paid a lot for it, not just us, even you foreigners, I have sacrificed a lot for it. "

"Yes." I will not refute, because she is telling the truth.

"That's a bad thing. Once it appears, everyone will have bad luck, right?" Said Ban.

"Yes." I also admit.

"You foreigners even see it as a symbol of the end. It's as if as long as it appears, everyone will die and the whole world will collapse, right?" She continued to question.

"Yes." I admit.

"However, you still want to see you. You are very contradictory, Mr. Gao Chuan. Obviously, more often, he is standing on our side, but he is opposed to us in this most critical goal." Asked: "Like everyone else, I also can't understand your contradictory idea. But if you want to let that monster out, it's our enemy. No matter how you think, your behavior is standing. On the side of doomsday truth, as you foreigners say, even if you are fighting against the end, but what you are doing is actually promoting it ... I finally understand now. "

"Don't you ask why?" I asked back.

"No, I don't need it." Chi said: "I will choose what to investigate, and I choose not to investigate here. Mr. Gao Chuan, my instinct is warning me, as you told me before. That way, I choose to trust my instincts here. "