Fortunately, I didn't hear it!

She remembered the system task again. If she chooses task one and waits until tomorrow night to act again, I am afraid that the strange voice just now will be heard by the third junior sister.

I'm afraid just thinking about it.

Bai Lian calmed down his excitement and continued to concentrate on raising the spirit root level of the second junior sister.

…

After Su Youwei returned to the room, she began to reflect.

The biggest problem she faces now is her inner demon!

If she can't suppress her inner demons, when she breaks through to the golden core stage, it is very likely that she will not be able to survive the thunder calamity safely.

She couldn't let Senior Sister Bai's hard work on herself go to waste.

But how can we suppress the demons?

Su Youwei tossed and turned. After seeing the orthography on her wrist, the first thing she thought of was the example that Senior Sister Bai gave in the special class.

Senior Sister Bai once relied on visualizing a perfect self to overcome the cowardice in her heart. Perhaps she can also follow Senior Sister Bai's method to fight against her inner demons.

Even if you can't completely defeat the demon, at least it will be of some use, right?

Su Youwei is actually not very confident.

It's not that she thinks that Senior Sister Bai's method is not good, she just feels that she can't be as confident as Senior Sister Bai.

Let's try it first.

With this thought in mind, Su Youwei closed her five senses not long after lying on the bed. Only in this way can she concentrate on fighting the inner demon.

This is the top of Qiongming Peak. She believes that with Senior Sister Bai, she will not encounter any danger.

After a few breaths, Su Youwei came to her own sea of ​​consciousness.

She has not systematically studied the method of visualization, but just to visualize another self, she does not need too advanced methods.

Su Youwei tried her best to start depicting another perfect self in her inner world.

This is a very time-consuming project.

Maybe it took a quarter of an hour, maybe an hour.

When Su Youwei came back to her senses, she was surprised to find that a person exactly like her appeared in her sea of ​​consciousness.

But before she could be happy, the dazzling blood red suddenly covered her entire sea of ​​consciousness.

Su Youwei raised her head tremblingly, and saw a hideous monster sticking her head out from the edge of the sea of ​​​​knowledge.

Heart demon!

Su Youwei's eyes widened.

Her inner demon is about to have an entity!

Snapped.

The demon of the heart slapped a slap mediocrely, and Su Youwei watched helplessly as the other self that she imagined after losing a lot of energy was smashed to pieces.

Chapter 26 Because someone is already protecting me

boom!

The violent explosion made Su Youwei cover her head subconsciously.

Finished.

The other one in the sea of ​​consciousness was so shattered that she didn't even leave any residue behind, and her visualization didn't work at all.

What made Su Youwei even more uncomfortable was that even though she had turned her eyes away, her eyes still reflected the terrifying figure of the demon.

It was an incomparably tall monster.

It was made of exposed flesh and blood, and it was covered with red bone spurs.

The "wings" extending from the back looked like a bunch of broken blades.

Half as pale as snow.

Half of it was pitch black.

Half is the emptiness of the heart.

Half of it was filled with crazy killing intent.

It is difficult to describe its savage appearance in exact words, and even a high P cannot save its appearance.

Maybe this is the demon of the heart.

They are just what they want.

Su Youwei began to recall the past.

When exactly did you start encountering this terrifying monster?

This goes back to the past.

Ever since she fled the Su family in the pain of losing her dearest, there was a vacancy in her heart.

She would wake up suddenly from her sleep because of suffocation.

When she woke up, there were often tears in her eyes.

The first to fill that vacancy is boundless hatred.

She still clearly remembers the scene where she stabbed the first enemy's heart with a machete.

Blood spurted out of the wound like a spring.

In an instant, the enemy's white clothes were stained red with blood, and he fell to the ground trembling.

One knife after another.

Flesh splits.

More and more blood poured out.

Isn't that scene very similar to the huge monster in front of you?

But at that time, when she looked at the sharp scimitar from which the blood beads were falling, she felt surprisingly peace of mind and peace. She felt that she finally had the power to protect herself.

Then…

As her strength increased, the enemies she encountered became stronger and stronger.

She has no time to think about the way out in the future.

She only knew that the world she wanted to protect was destroyed mercilessly, and all she could do was to use the same means to make them feel the pain she had felt before.

keep killing.

Use killing to expel hatred, and use blood to make up for the fear that once filled my heart.

But killing brings more hatred.

In order to expel these hatreds, she had to kill more people who stood in front of her.

This is probably the so-called drinking poison to quench thirst.

If she in the previous life could successfully kill all those who hated her before she died, this inner demon would not have become so hideous.

Su Youwei raised her head.

The inner demon did not continue to attack after smashing the self that she imagined.

One person and one demon looked at each other from the air.

In the sea of ​​consciousness world.

They seem to be thousands of miles apart.

But in a trance, Su Youwei felt that this inner demon was always in her body, and the monster she saw now was the real herself in the mirror.

A monster born to kill!

"That's right."

The voice rang out.

It was Su Youwei's own voice, as if it came from the depths of her heart.

"Whether you admit it or not, I am you, you are me, and we are the same person."

"No." Su Youwei shook her head, "You are not human at all!"

No one looks so scary!

"Here, what you see is your own heart."

"Heart?"

"Ugly heart."

"impossible!"

"nothing is impossible."

While speaking, the huge monster's body shrank rapidly, and those unsightly thorns completely disappeared after shrinking.

The one who finally appeared in front of Su Youwei was a petite girl with white hair and red eyes.

She was wearing a gorgeous dress that was as bright as blood.

This color deeply hurt Su Youwei's eyes.

"I know you want to see me like this, but it's just a fake disguise after all. Look, no matter how the clothes change, they're still blood red."

Su Youwei clenched her fists.

"Actually, you understand that even if you go back to the beginning where nothing happened, you can't deny everything that happened, otherwise I wouldn't be here."

"What if I choose to forget?"

"You can't forget it!"

"…"

"Perhaps you haven't realized that you have a pair of eyes that can see the past and the future. Even if you temporarily seal this memory, it won't take long for you to remember them again."

Su Youwei pondered and said, "So, if I want to forget all this, I can only choose death?"

"No, you can choose to accept all this. What you have to do is not deny yourself, but make yourself a complete person!"

A trace of confusion flashed in Su Youwei's eyes.

She suddenly felt that what the demon said was very reasonable.

The reason why a demon was born in her heart was because there was a hole in her heart.

If she chooses to accept everything about her inner demon, wouldn't that void be blocked?

But…

Su Youwei shook her head.

She has become a monster, how can she still be qualified to stay by Senior Sister Bai.

Another Su Youwei continued: "It's not difficult to accept, isn't it? You shouldn't forget what protected you during that difficult time. If you give up even this layer of protection, what are you left with? ?"

Lonely.

The word popped up in Su Youwei's mind automatically.

Under the clear sky, she walked alone, no one would care about her.

Originally it should be like this, as "she" thought.

but…

"The rest of me will be a life I've never experienced before!"

Su Youwei interrupted the other her with a firm voice.