"In fact, it is not because of a certain thing, and it is even difficult to tell which year and day. If you must draw a dividing line ..."

The landlord seems to be remembering seriously. After a while, he said: "After I participated in the project of the institute, I was busy with my feet for a while. I was worried that the family was too deserted, which would cause Jacques to think more."

He smiled: "You know, the devil will have such a very awkward age. My own period is particularly long, from the age of ten to the early twenties. It's as bad as a dog for ten years, I am very Worried that Jacques would do the same. So he kept some cats and dogs to accompany him, and he liked them very much. "

More than Jacques, in fact, Murvin Bai himself also likes the little things and tries his best to raise them well.

So later, when he was influenced by the laboratory of the institute and began to cast shadows on those small animals, he himself suffered more than anyone else.

He likes them very much and likes to treat them as important family members, but because of this, he has to stay away from them.

Otherwise, he is afraid that he will consume those relaxed and beautiful feelings in the long-term psychological torture.

"Because of sending away the cats and dogs, he was angry with you?" Yan Suizhi asked speculatively.

Unexpectedly, the landlord actually shook his head, "He is indeed unhappy, but he is not angry with me."

At that time, Mervyn White had even made psychological preparations, thinking that Jacques would have been troubled by this matter for a long time, and even had some subtle gaps with him. Perhaps it will take many years until one day he can understand his helplessness, and the kind of gaps in his teenage years will slowly disappear.

However, Jacques did not make trouble, which made Mervin Bai at that time extremely surprised.

Although Jacques, who was in his early tens, was sad, but did not make a noise, but stubbornly believed that Mervin White must have his reason for doing so.

To a certain extent, he is actually very sensible, or that he has absolute trust in his adoptive father, knowing that the other party will never easily send out the things he cherishes, there must be a compelling reason.

"But the kid's inquiring heart is very strong." The landlord was a bit helpless. "Maybe it is a gifted person born with it? This is actually a merit and should never be punished. But I really didn't want him to know the reason at that time. . "

The hysterical behavior of the animals in the laboratory is by no means a pleasant topic. Even depressed and depressed.

That is not a picture and scene suitable for an eleven-two-year-old child to see. So Mervyn White looked for other reasons to stumble past.

"In a few years, I resigned from the institute." The landlord was helpless. "This behavior also seemed abrupt to the kid, so it stimulated his inquiry. But I could n’t explain it clearly. The exclusion was based on intuition, and there was no substantial evidence. I could n’t even tell what the purpose of the research was. "

So for Jacques' inquiry, Mervyn White once again opted for contempt.

On the one hand he did not want to mention it again, on the one hand he did not want Jacques to get in touch with those things.

As a teenager, Jacques White wiped and asked again, while Mervyn White gave false reasons again and again.

"Actually I thought about it later, because of this barrier." The landlord said, "He gave me absolute trust, but I didn't tell him the truth. I always deal with him with all kinds of jokes and fabricated reasons, no matter what The original intention, at least in terms of trust, let him down. "

The landlord thought for a while: "After that, he is not as close to me as before, or he may be in a real rebellious period? Sometimes he loses a word and feels like a soft knife. I can't pick out the problem at first glance, but just listen People vomit blood in their hearts. "

"But I didn't realize that at that time, I thought that the kid's age was finally arrived, although it was a long time later than I expected. During the six months, we often clashed because of some small things, not intense, and No one was clamoring, but they were all irritated. It seemed that suddenly a family member who speculated everywhere became an unsuitable tenant. "

Yan Suizhi was relieved to hear the expression "tenant in the same room": "How can it not fall to the point of tenant, after all, it is father and son."

"Yeah." The landlord said, "I think like this when I'm calm, but this kind of thought pops up from time to time. It's quite unpleasant. He just entered the university and didn't go home very often. I accidentally heard that he His biological parents have been quietly looking for him, showing guilt and kindness to him, trying to reconcile with him. To be honest, I am usually full of enthusiasm, when quarreling, I will feel that I am still missing some blood.

"Later, in the second semester of his first year at university, I came back from a vacation, and I accidentally saw one of his folders ..."

He said he still frowned. It seems that after so many years, when I think back to that moment, I still can't do anything.

"The icons and data, I know what they are at a glance. It was all the things I came into contact with at the research institute at that time! I initially thought he was daring, and actually had the ability to secretly turn over my old man. I looked at it again, I discovered that there are many differences in the details of the research data. How to say ... very naive. At first glance, it is a very talented person with very little experience to make it up. "

The landlord sighed, "I was so mad at the time. Compared to secretly turning my old man, he was more frightened by his own research. You simply can't imagine his talent, if you really go the wrong way, what will happen. That was probably the most serious quarrel between me and him, and the last. "

Mervyn White didn't expect that the result of his repeated insults was actually like this. Jacques not only did not give up, but also explored it himself.

In that quarrel, Jacques deleted all the materials in front of Mervyn White and smashed them forever. Then I packed up and went back to school, but never returned.

"I originally thought that the quarrel was the same as before, but the temper was longer. Maybe when the next holiday, he would carry his luggage and carry his backpack diagonally, and appeared at the door without saying a word. It didn't take long for the result , I heard that he went to live with his biological parents temporarily. "

The landlord was silent for a while, and then said: "At first, I was very angry, very angry, and I felt like I had raised a white-eyed wolf for 20 years. I was so angry that my liver hurts. That was when I told Lin Yuan not to be in front of me. Mentioning that kid does n’t work at all. For a while, I comforted myself—the kid was so thoughtful, maybe misunderstood some angry words, so I was deliberately angry with me. I thought about pulling down my face and taking the initiative to talk to him. But it was unfortunate , I was stared at by the Manson brothers for a while. "

At that time, Mervyn White suddenly felt that it was not a bad thing for Jacques to return to his biological family, and to be estranged from him at this point, at least he would not be implicated.

Therefore, in the past few years, Mervyn White did not act, pushing his adopted son farther and farther.

The original deep ditch splits into a bite, and over time, it can no longer close.

"I was worried for a while. He didn't stop the research and would follow my footsteps and be involved in the messy things." The landlord said, "Fortunately ..."

Hearing this, Yan Sui's eyes moved, and he fell down again, fiddled with the mint leaves in the dinner plate.

He originally wanted to see Jacques Bai at the rest station and remind the landlord of a few words. But now he suddenly changed his mind and swallowed back the tentative questions.

The landlord didn't pay attention to his look, and went away for a moment, saying, "Fortunately, he entered the Ivy League after graduation. This is probably the only thing that deserves my comfort."

He suddenly remembered an afternoon many, many years ago.

He made root carvings in the courtyard, and the floor-to-ceiling windows of the study on the second floor were bright and clean. He raised his eyes by accident while moving his muscles and saw Jacques leaning on a chair, plugged in headphones, and in front of him was a piece of electronic material.

It was Jacques' last short vacation in middle school, and he would be admitted to university soon.

At that time, Mervyn White looked at the figure behind the window and suddenly realized that it seemed that Jacques hadn't asked those questions about the laboratory and his resignation for a long time.

The inquiring mind is always strong, and the chattering noisy ghost has grown into a new look unconsciously, much more mature, and more restrained.

So that sometimes Mervyn Bai can't see it, he is thinking about something.

Growth should have been gratifying, but Mervyn White suddenly felt a feeling at that moment ...

It seems that this little devil he is looking at grows up, and one day he will get farther and farther away from him and become more and more strange, maybe one day, he will not go home again.