He thought that as long as she didn't show a look of rejection and resistance, he would explain to her that he was not from the temple.

In fact, this should have been told to her hastily and hastily from the very beginning.

But he was too nervous and couldn't explain his identity for a while.

However, the other party still looked at him calmly and indifferently, and replied in a very light tone, "This county master has no mood to love."

Really careless.

Without the sharpness, the extremely clear and shallow sentence, without the slightest emotion, was imprinted in her mind together with her pair of cold and beautiful glazed eyes, and she will never forget it.

All the words in the future have since been missed.

The desperate courage was shattered cleanly.

The enthusiasm that ignited in Chu Zhi's long and narrow black eyes gradually dimmed as he moved forward.

Can't even ask why.

What's more terrifying than this is the panic that she is about to leave. He begged that he could not like her, as long as she was willing to be with her.

As long as you can see her.

Because of the experience of the first half of his life, he is extremely sensitive and fragile, and he must guard his most precious things every day.

But she was silent for a while, then turned her head, "No."

There was a rare look of unbearableness in the cold and beautiful eyes.

Because he can't follow.

However, the emotions in the girl's eyes were not discovered by him, and he could only leave in despair.

The admiration and enthusiasm of those few years, in the end, moved the girl, this is the reason, and the retrospect of time is the result, just to end the regret of the previous life.

But the cold and unusual eyes of the girl in the previous life seemed to be carved into the soul. As long as they looked at her, she would be unable to restrain the pain that she had asked for in the first place.

Chu Zhi, who only had memories of this life, was naturally afraid.

The first time I met in this life, even if I was affected by the past, I would inevitably be afraid that my contact with her would make me painful, but the joy after meeting her was greater than the worry.

His love is morbid and paranoid, how can he avoid giving up because of the influence of his previous life and not getting it.

What he fears is not her, what he fears is that she is indifferent again, and he has never been able to pry open a corner of her heart.

She didn't know that when he met for the first time in this life, his heart was beating rapidly and almost uncontrollably. When he walked towards her, when he held her hand and was not pushed away, no matter how calm his face was, his heart was already Uncontrollable surging.

More than joy, he almost couldn't help crying.

But he only had feelings, no memory, and he was still young, so he had no way of knowing the reasons for these emotions, which made him extremely confused.

He can only get along with her by following his intuition and his instinct to seek advantages and avoid disadvantages.

At the age of twelve, he only knew that he was reluctant to give up, he only knew that he liked this little sister very much, but he completely ignored it. He actually knew the meaning of jade pendant, but he never resisted or even vaguely expected the fact.

Later, because of the sachet she embroidered herself, she couldn't help traveling thousands of miles, and rushed to the capital alone, just to celebrate the Lantern Festival with her.

He was holding an umbrella that day, and she was under the umbrella, walking side by side with him, holding her sleeve in his hand. ...not as cold as she is.

This had a huge impact on his mind from the dream he had the night before.

It wasn't a dream at all, it was the obsession of the previous life that drove me, even if I was sleeping, I couldn't be at ease, because only by putting her under my nose can I feel at ease, so I was almost in a state of sleep, like sleepwalking, in the cold In the snowy night, I watched her all night.

This is the origin of the high fever.

Such... a morbid, almost masochistic love that runs through past and present lives.

Hearing that she took the initiative to go to the candy painting booth, there was a faint picture in his mind. When she asked himself what kind of candy painting he wanted, he felt inexplicably embarrassed.

So it was a completely hasty choice.

He dared not let her know that he wanted her sugar portrait.

Before coming to the capital, he might have the idea of ​​staying for a few more days, but following the dream that night, the walk in the capital that he had never had in his previous life, and even the sugar painting booth, he had absurd thoughts, and a strong emotion that was caught off guard hit him. , without any preparation, he can only avoid.

The emotion of guarding her carefully and fearing that she would leave is more than torture. Her gentle smile and the cold and indifferent appearance in the dream made him dare not think deeply, lest everything is just a dream and a mirror.

In the next two years, due to being busy, there were many fewer correspondence.

But evasion made him even more uneasy for him.

Most of the emotions in this life were left to her.

The long-awaited response did bring him joy at first, but the previous life trapped him like a nightmare, and he began to back off.

He could never forget the impression she had left in his heart from the first time they met. She was so cold and calm, completely unlike what a twelve-year-old girl should have. From the very beginning, it became an insurmountable gap. stood between them.

In this life, he could never believe that she would one day smile at him.

He didn't dare to break through the dream, and he didn't dare to contact her, so he could only avoid her.

And completely ignore the feelings in the heart.

——If she was just a person in a dream, how could she still be moved.

If she doesn't take the initiative to speak to herself, he may miss her life again.

It was really bitter in the past, but after seeing her tears for herself, after hugging her and feeling her warmth, everything became sweeter.

What Master Hongming said, "What the son wants, cannot be fulfilled in this life" is indeed a great pain for him in his previous life, which is equivalent to cutting off all his hopes.

But what he paid back was a complete youth, which provided him with the company of childhood sweethearts and the warmth of his relatives and friends.

It is no longer the abyss intertwined with darkness and blood like in the previous life.

Even if the shadow of the past still affects him, it will dissipate sooner or later.

because.

——If you really like her, how can you treat the changed her as a dream again, how can you not tell the truth from the fake.

It doesn't feel deceiving.

The mind cannot be hidden.

She really gave herself a response.

Not a dream.

The young man is determined.

The Kongming lantern placed on the flower boat on the Qixi Festival, the wish is:

"May I still find you in the next life."

It did not say that they would be together forever, nor did they say that they would still be husband and wife in the next life.

He was afraid that his wish would be too harsh and he would not be able to achieve it, so he only made a wish that he could meet.

As long as he can meet again, he will do his best to make her like him again.

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Before their death, Chu Zhi and Luo Ci only had gray hair, and their faces did not look old.

She knew it was going to be parting.

When she was about to say goodbye, she seemed to see the shadows of other fragments from Chu Zhi, and it seemed that all the fragments began to fuse.

The gods opened their eyes, and Bingyin's eyes contained tenderness, "See you on the next plane."