In fact, depression is not just about people looking dull, sensitive and suspicious, and tantrums a little...How can it be that simple?

  Once you fall into depression, people will fall into a state different from ordinary people due to the changes in the level of hormone secretion in the brain environment, which will lead to organic brain disease over time.

  Many people take it for granted that people with depression are those who are depressed and depressed all day long.

  In fact, people who look the same as usual, even those who look "sunshine", can also suffer from depression.

  And a very small number of people in depression suffer from "smile depression".

  "Smile depression" is a symptom of a small number of depressed patients. This type of patients is covered with a smile on the surface of their depressed mood.

  "Nothing" is a typical such a teenager with "smile depression".

  He is the kid who was picked up, and he was discarded without any physical defects.

  So he was picked up by a woman.

  Later, she became his mother.

  Women did not choose names for nothing, and men were not allowed.

   "A captive slave does not need a name."

  In a fragmented family, the "no" of domestic violence by a drunk gambling man since childhood is always lying in a woman's arms with scars.

  The woman always hugs him, touches his head tenderly, and tells him——

   "Child, sorry, you don't have a name."

   "Child, you have to be strong."

   "Child, you have to be optimistic."

   "Child, you have to be brave."

  ……

  So "Wu" knows how to be stronger than other children. He will force his inner pain, and his external performance will force himself to be more "sunshine".

  And this is a serious division of internal and external performance.

  The day when Wu met the girl for the first time, the sun was good and the breeze was not dry.

  That is a different girl, "Nothing" can tell, she smiles like him.

  When the girl left, Wu smiled slightly at the girl’s back, looking very friendly, he whispered:

   "Please be a weirdo too!"

   "Please be a weirdo too!"

  Two identical words drifted in the wind with the wind, and there was no sound anymore.

That night.

  In the dimly lit room, all the painful past events are pouring out from the bottom of Wu's heart, and all the pain that has been experienced jumps out from the corners.

Tossing in the mind of "Nothing", looking back at my worthless past, looking at the extremely painful present, and thinking about the unknown future, as if I could not see any light, my life was trapped and my body collapsed. , No happiness.

   Just as Zhang Ailing wrote, level by level, walk into the place where there is no light.

  There is such a scene in the script——

  One day Wu Wu met the girl again. The girl looked up at the sky, her voice full of hope for the future: "Then what do you want to do now?"

Wu Wu smiled and answered honestly: "I just want to die."

  "Don't tease me." The girl didn't take it seriously, after all, the expression on Wu's face was nothing like a begging for death.

  But what "Nothing" says is true. He is alive now because he thinks his mother still needs him. She has been beaten many times for him. If he doesn't treat himself well, he is too sorry for his mother.

  But he really felt too tired to be alive, too boring.

  He really wants to die, my wish is to die.

  So for "smile depression patients", behind the smile you see is the despair that thinks you are hopeless.

   "Please be a weirdo too!"

  This is what "Nothing" says when facing a girl.

  The girl still thought "No" was a joke, and patted "No" on the shoulder, "Then I am a weirdo too! Haha! You are so funny!"

   "I hope..." The voice of "Nothing" is floating in the wind, meaning it is unclear.

   "What did you say?" the girl asked cheerfully, innocent.

  Later, the girl found out little by little about Wu’s family situation and psychological depression.

  This scared the girl for a while.

  In this world, not everyone will reach out to help others when they find that someone is in misfortune. Although more people will not step on it, they will choose to stay away.

  This is not a lie, it is true.

  The girl found the symptoms of "no" and told her mother of her fear.

  So, everyone in the whole town knew it.

  “Nothing” is still the same as before, with a smile like an ordinary person on the corner of his mouth, and muttering to himself while walking alone on the small road in the suburbs.

  But the whole town was in panic.

  The adults ordered their children to stay away from Wu, and the children would run away when they saw him.

  Sometimes a girl will look at "Nothing" from a distance, and she will blame herself and feel guilty in her heart.

  If it weren't for her, things wouldn't be what it is now.

  At this time, she always received a smile from "No" turning her head, and two words gently spit out from her mouth: "Liar."

  Yes, we are all weirdos...liars.

  The girl is very guilty and guilty. Perhaps this guilt is at work. She keeps collecting information about depression with her parents behind her back.

  When applying for college application, she did not hesitate to choose the Department of Psychology.

  She knew that Wu's parents would not pay Wu to see a doctor, and she did not have such a financial basis.

  "Nothing" watched the liar girl leave, and the parents who had just died, it became more and more difficult to breathe.

  ……

  The girl who left is studying hard about the psychological knowledge and understanding of the symptoms in this area.

  When the girl returned from school a few years later, all she got was the news that "Nothing" had already left.

  No one in the town knows his whereabouts anymore.

  The girl doesn't know where Wu will go, but she remembers Wu said that if it weren't for her mother, his wish would be death.

  And the girl learned from the people in the town of "Nothing", and that the parents of "Nothing" had died after she left.

  The girl cried.

  While she knows more about depression, she has no fear of "nothing", but more distressed and apologetic.

  The girl went to the house where Wu had lived to see if there was anything left by Wu.

  Time traces stay in a diary.

   "I met her on the first day, please, she is also a weird person like me."

   "Meet her again, please, she is also a weird person like me."

  ……

"fraud."

  ……

   "I just took sleeping pills, while I can still hold the pen... I want to say to you: Thank you.

  I just seemed to see you. At the last moment, I realized that the world is difficult and there is still light. "

  “Nothing” saw the book about depression thrown out by the girl’s parents after the girl left.

  The girl looked at the diary and couldn't cry.

  Another year has passed. The girl has become a professional psychologist. Through the glass of the clinic, she seems to see the profile of the person in her memory...