The family doctor checked, packed his things and went out. Xia Yitong was far away from him, so he got up and gave way. The family doctor smiled at her, opened the door and closed it again.

With a very soft click, the door closed.

There is another world in the door.

Xia Yitong still sat far away, like an abandoned puppy. Lu Yinbing sat up, sighed, and waved at her: "Baby, come."

Xia Yitong watched her walk over and stopped in front of Lu Yinbing. Lu Yinbing stretched out her hands. Xia Yitong took a step forward and hugged her in his arms. As if she had never held her in her entire life, her hands were tightened so hard, she closed her eyes.

Don't cry.

Don't cry.

Can't cry anymore.

Are you a crying bag? Don't cry!

Still crying, Xia Yitong felt that she had cried more than she had in the previous twenty-six years combined, and she had no prospects at all.

Lu Yinbing gently patted her back and said soft words to coax her.

The more he coaxed, the more he couldn't coax, but Lu Yinbing kept coaxing, and he was not impatient at all.

This is not her character, Xia Yitong also felt Lu Yinbing's abnormality when she was emotionally down. Thinking of other things in my mind, I couldn't bother to cry. The two of them didn't go to the desk, they just sat on the soft couch, hugging and separated, separated by one person.

"I'm sick, a very serious illness. I thought I could survive it, but I didn't. I failed." Lu Yinbing said. Her voice was flat and straightforward, but it took her three months to say these words to Xia Yitong.

"Yeah." Xia Yitong listened quietly without interrupting.

"Summer vacation is about July or August. I wanted to try my recovery, so I went out and went out alone, in a place with few people, but I didn’t know how it happened. , She probably didn't squat on me deliberately, she just ran into it anyway."

Xia Yitong was startled, she had no idea about this.

"When she rushed to me, I was very scared and wanted to run away. I took a few steps back. She stopped me by recording on her phone and kept asking me questions, saying that she saw a post on the forum and asked Did I stop filming because I couldn’t remember the lines; asked me if I was going to quit the circle; asked me..." Lu Yinbing paused and said, "A lot of questions, she made me feel like I was dying. , There is a car on the road, I stand there, especially want to rush to let the car hit me to death."

"What happened later?" Xia Yitong asked tremblingly. What was she doing at that time? She was running publicity outside, and Lu Yinbing was blocked by the entertainment outside alone and almost died.

"It didn't die, I smashed her phone later." Lu Yinbing shrugged meaninglessly.

Xia Yitong smiled, for the long-lost Lu Yinbing.

Xia Yitong asked: "Why isn't such a big thing on the hot search?" She was afraid that she would not be able to get news from Lu Yinbing in time when she was outside, so Xue Yao and the other party concealed herself from him and asked Fang Wei to follow the news on the Internet for her. .

Lu Yinbing said: "It's depressed. My father's relatives are all high-ranking officials of the military. Even Xue Yao doesn't know about this, so you can't even know about it."

The two people are like gossiping at home, and the atmosphere is not as heavy as imagined.

Lu Yinbing said: "From that day on, I found that I had feelings of resistance and disgust towards that circle, perhaps because of my own failure. Those who brought me glory before became blood-stained in the blink of an eye. Poison. I’m recuperating at home, far away from that circle, don’t think about it or listen to it. But..."

She glanced at Xia Yitong.

Xia Yitong answered her words with difficulty: "You can't avoid...me."

Lu Yinbing said, "Yes."

Xia Yitong is her lover, and the person who accompanies her and will never leave. She shines in circles she hates, and she is so good that she is jealous.

Xia Yitong said, "I'm sorry."

"Why do you want to say sorry?" Lu Yinbing tilted his head and looked at her with a smile, "This is my problem, not your cause. If you do nothing because of me, will I be happy? No, I will feel even more uncomfortable. You are a phoenix above the nine heavens, and you must be the King of Birds with wings under the same threat to be worthy of you."

"You are." Xia Yitong said.

"No, I'm not." Lu Yinbing said, "It used to be, it is not now. You don't know how I felt when I heard you and Laiying were shortlisted. It was very gloomy. I hope you two fail and sink with me. Into the muddy swamp, every day I blame the heavens and the people, why am I? Why am I the one who is sick? Why am I who fell from the top? Have I done any heinous things? Why am I? Why am I? Become such a person? Why should I live? Thinking of a lot of useless and messy questions."

Xia Yitong just wanted to speak, but was interrupted by Lu Yinbing: "You let me finish speaking, and I will feel comfortable after speaking. But I have become such a person, who makes me sick. Sometimes I don't want to breathe. , Because it is really disgusting for myself, and because of my survival instinct, I have to breathe, lying on the floor like a stranded fish, panting like a broken bellows. I know better that this is not what I really want, just follow you Knowing that what you are seeing is the same as an illusion, but most of the time, there is no way to resist it. You can only follow it forward and sink into deeper despair."

Lu Yinbing raised his head and looked out the window, the blue sky reflected in his eyes.

"The more you are by my side, the more I hate myself, do you know? The way I look at you is like looking at a dazzling light, and I am a big muddy mud next to the light, I am close to you , Will stain you. Obviously I was also light before, I was your direction, but now? I am jealous of you, madly jealous of you, every time I feel that I have this kind of emotion, I get nauseated , Embarrassed, as if someone slapped me in public, it's hard to be humiliated."

"I also know that I need to communicate. I can say anything else, but this is the only thing I can't say."

Xia Yitong's body was tense, and his teeth were bitten tightly. It turned out that he was really the culprit for all this.

"Are you blaming yourself again?" Lu Yinbing broke off her clenched fist, and smashed it out one by one, smoothed it, and teased her with a smile, "Young man, it's dangerous for you to go on like this." ."

Xia Yitong breathed heavily, unable to laugh.

Lu Yinbing said, "I've said it many times. It's me who is sick, and it's me who is dirty. You are fine, and there is no problem at all. You are so good, so good that I don't know how to treat you. Feel owed."

Xia Yitong's eyes were red.

No, it was because she was too careless, thinking that the other party's illness was almost getting better. She was careless and kept showing off to her. Today, she broke the ratings, and will be nominated for awards tomorrow. She can't stand the change of location. It is she who loves her with Lu Yinbing, who has no fear. Does she really love Lu Yinbing? Is she qualified to love her? Her love is just a paper sentence to send her to the guillotine.

Lu Yinbing said, "I am looking for you today..."

Xia Yitong sniffed and said, "I know."

"You know?" Lu Yinbing raised his eyebrows in surprise.

"I know." Xia Yitong said, "Let's leave for a while, and I'll wait for you to come back." I also want to take advantage of this time to find out how I loved you in the first place.

Lu Yinbing suddenly lost his voice.

Xia Yitong said: "I have considered it, and separation is the best choice."

Xia Yitong looked at her and said with joy in her heart: Fortunately, I mentioned it first. You must not have a psychological burden. I didn't help in any way, so I should do the only thing that I can do for you.

She even smiled.

Lu Yinbing also looked back at her, his heart fell in pain.

Why is she still thinking about herself at this time? She didn't make any mistakes in this matter from beginning to end, so why should she take responsibility for her mistakes without complaint.

Lu Yinbing opened his mouth, his throat was dry, he made no sound, and put his forehead on her shoulder tiredly.

Xia Yitong asked: "What's your plan? At home or going abroad?"

Lu Yinbing said: "Go abroad. There are fewer people who know me abroad, and I will be farther away from this circle, so I can calm down and recover."

Xia Yitong asked: "Who is going with you? Don't be alone, I'm worried about you."

Lu Yinbing replied: "My mother is with me. She has retired in just the past two years. I asked her to apply for the retreat in advance to accompany me to go abroad. I plan to take a look at the memory problems in my mind while recuperating."

"That's pretty good. Auntie is more relieved to stay with me than anyone else."

"I didn't let her go and she was still anxious with me. I showed off with my dad today. My dad is too busy with work and can't go. It's not a good thing. Her old man is as beautiful as something."

Xia Yitong smiled: "It's pretty, you can see your beautiful face every day."

"There are all photos on the Internet, and there are also a bunch of photos at home. How do you look at it?" Lu Yinbing heard what she meant, and replied with a point.

Xia Yitong was silent for a while, curling her hair that had grown to her shoulders with her fingers, and asked in a clear voice, "Will you still contact me after going abroad?"

"have no idea."

"Oh." Xia Yitong looked at her small pinnae and white earlobe, and said in a low voice, "Very good, you can recover with peace of mind, I am waiting for you."

One year, two years, three years...no matter how long.

"I will see you." Lu Yinbing said, seeing the years gilding you with stars.

The room became very quiet, only hearing the breathing of two people, Xia Yitong kissed her sideburns and asked her, "When are you leaving?"

"Tomorrow, I will have a physical examination in the morning."

"Why do a physical examination?"

"Because it's cheap in China." Lu Yinbing joked, and Xia Yitong smiled cooperatively. No matter how good the scenery is, her smiling eyes are no better. "Then can I go with you tomorrow?"

"Okay." Lu Yinbing answered her.

Xia Yitong didn't speak for a long time. After a while, she said dumbly: "Have I told you that I love you?"

"Said it."

"Then listen again."

"you say."

"I love you."