07Confession

When Chu Ling saw Lin Xuan again, it was another month.

Although Chu Ling has moved to Han Gu's place now, but the two have been together for a long time, and some living habits will inevitably overlap, which is not surprising. In the past, he avoided it as much as he could, but it has been three months since the breakup. Although the love still exists, those impulses at the beginning have been almost worn down.

This night, he saw Lin Xuan in the bookstore he used to go to on weekdays, but this time, he saw someone beside Lin Xuan.

A handsome man, a little thin, if not Beta, probably an Omega.

In this modern age where inhibitors are common, the pheromones of personal attributes have been well hidden. Although one or two can be judged from physical fitness and health conditions, the accuracy rate is not high. Alpha is It is best to recognize a group of people. They are smart, outstanding, stronger and taller than the average person, and most of them are in leadership positions. Of course, there are exceptions due to different personal physiques. The most difficult to distinguish are Beta and Omega, they are not very different in appearance, and it is almost impossible to distinguish them at a glance.

Perhaps because of the long-term exercise, Chu Ling's physical fitness is quite good, and his appearance looks more like Beta.

It's hard to say if Han Gu had mistakenly thought that Chu Ling was a Beta before he chose to attack him.

If he is sober enough, maybe he still has a way to restrain his behavior and find Lin Xuan to deal with it in time, then none of this will happen today.

That's why Han Gu said that it was an accident.

It was an accident. If it weren't for all kinds of coincidences, they wouldn't be bound by the AO bond now.

It is not the first time that Chu Ling has struggled with this issue.

Like now, he knows that he and Lin Xuan are no longer possible, and he is still deeply swayed in his feelings for him. He could almost only look at the person standing beside Lin Xuan with jealous eyes, but he couldn't do anything.

He can't hinder Lin Xuan's freedom to fall in love. He said that he hoped that Lin Xuan could find someone better than himself. Even if that is counterintuitive.

Chu Ling didn't know how he came home.

Stimulation, and immediately fell into a low ebb.

He has told himself countless times in his heart to let go, let go, let go, but he still can't do it well.

He is not reconciled, he is really not reconciled...

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When Han Gu returned home, the room was dark. Instead of sleeping in the room, Chu Ling was drinking in the living room.

The strong smell of wine permeated the whole room, Han Gu turned on the light and saw that the table and the ground were in a mess, the opened wine bottle was overturned, and the wine was poured along the edge of the table. On the ground, it looked like he had been drinking for a long time.

Seeing such a situation, Han Gu narrowed his eyes dangerously.

And Chu Ling seemed to be unaware and turned a blind eye. If it was normal, he would definitely feel Han Gu's strong anger, but now, he doesn't seem to care about anything.

Han Gu endured not shouting immediately, and said in a suppressed tone: "Chu Ling, stop drinking."

If the object is just an ordinary passerby, Han Gu may not be meddling. But in the face of his own Omega, no matter how good-tempered he is, it is difficult to restrain him.

He found that all his resistance was in vain, he glanced at Han Gu with anger, and shouted in an almost resentful tone: "Don't mind me."

Han Gu did not speak, but walked in the direction of Chu Ling.

Chu Ling only felt uncomfortable all over, and there was an instinctive fear in the discomfort, but still stubbornly said: "It's all your fault. If it weren't for you..."

This is almost like telling the truth after drinking, Chu Ling finally said the words that shouldn't be said while drinking.

Han Gu suddenly stopped, his face gloomy and scary.

Chu Ling knew that he had said too many things, but he didn't think about regretting it, he just closed his eyes in fear, waiting for Han Gu's anger to erupt at any time. However, the expected punishment did not come, but a fluttering sentence was heard first.

Han Gu said, "It's my fault."

Chu Ling was stunned by this sentence. He almost forgot his fear, staring blankly as the man approached step by step and sat down beside him.

Han Gu added: "You can hurt me, but you can't hurt yourself."

Chu Ling didn't know what his reaction was at all. When he heard this sentence, his mind was blank. When he came back to his senses, Han Gu's hand had already touched his own. corner of the eye. He suddenly felt that his eyes were blurred, and he did not know when he had burst into tears.

The intimidating aura of Han Gu has completely disappeared, replaced by a gentleness that is usually hard to see, "What happened?"

The voice was a little hoarse, and it was tired after working overtime. For some reason, hearing such an inquiry, Chu Ling only felt that all the grievances in his heart broke out at this moment. I cried bitterly before, but at this moment, I suddenly felt that the tears were flowing non-stop, and I couldn't stop it no matter what.

Drunkenness and almost suffocating sobbing surged up at the same time, he felt dizzy and could not even speak.

It was a kiss that was so flat that there was hardly any sex, just pure comfort.

I don't know if it was because of Han Gu's strong action or because of this gentle kiss, Chu Ling actually forgot to cry, opened his eyes and looked closely at the man's handsome face.

"I'm going to kiss you again."

Chu Ling took a step back in fright. But he had completely calmed down by this time, but his mind was still a little dizzy after a night of heavy drinking.

Gu Han asked again: "What happened?"

Chu Ling bowed his head and remained silent. He didn't know what to say to his Alpha about another man, and it was because he was so jealous that he was going crazy.

Although Chu Ling did not speak, Han Gu could probably guess it. From their cohabitation until now, Chu Ling's heart has always only thought of one man.

Han Gu didn't know much about love, but when he looked at Chu Ling, he seemed to understand to some extent.

The silence between the two did not last long.

Han Gu suddenly said, "Anyway, you should blame me."

Chu Ling was stunned.

"My mother, an Omega woman, and my father, an Alpha, but I have never met him."

Although Chu Ling didn't know why Han Gu suddenly mentioned these things, what shocked him the most was what happened next.

"She was raped and completely marked by the other party, so she had to give birth to me."

An indescribable feeling suddenly appeared in his heart, but he still listened to Han Gu quietly.

"The society at that time did not have any concept of protecting Omega. And that man never appeared again. In my impression, my mother was always anxious because she had no relationship with Alpha. She was uneasy, but she kept trying not to show it in front of me. In fact, she was not far from having a mental breakdown. If it wasn't for me, she might have committed suicide long ago."

"Although the government later had emergency remedies, stipulating that fully marked Alphas and Omegas must be married to show responsibility, which can reduce the crime rate while reducing the death rate of Omegas. But there are still A lot of controversy, just like we are now." Han Gu pointed out this fact bluntly, "Although I can't fully understand it, I can see from you, maybe from my mother, that you can't marry someone you love. It seemed like a really painful thing."

"I'm sorry, I... don't know..." Chu Ling felt dull in his heart, he wasn't sure whether it was his own feeling or the influence of the other party. He just suddenly remembered what he said just now, so he couldn't help but want to apologize.

"It's me who should apologize. I did the same thing as that scumbag." Han Gu paused, then added: "Although this is very painful for you, in fact I'm glad, at least...I still have a chance to make amends."

This night, Chu Ling couldn't sleep.

Han Gu's confession kept circling in his mind. At this time, he finally understood why this man kept apologizing to him since the first meeting. Because he thinks he has done the most unforgivable thing, the guilt from his original family has stained his existing life with a stain that can never be removed, and now such an accident has happened, it is hard to imagine what it was like heavy burden…

What kind of mood did he carry all the way?

Is it because of this, he has been resisting Alpha's instinct?

Is it also because of this that he has been single for so long without any love experience?

Chu Ling didn't know, but the dull feeling in his heart did not disappear because of this, instead it became more and more bitter.