Turns Out I’m Crazy
Chapter 13: Doing nothing by yourself
It's all men. I've definitely done things like masturbation.
When Chen Qianqing helped Lu Zhengfei to get it out with his hands, he comforted himself. He was actually masturbating. Facing the same face, I feel weird. If it were not for fear that Lu Zhengfei could not bear himself, Chen Qianqing would never make such a proposal.
After Lu Zhengfei went to Chen Qianqing for the first time, Chen Qianqing has been suffering from insomnia until now. He slept for several hours at night and counted with one hand.
Lu Zhengfei didn't notice the strangeness of Chen Qianqing. He only felt that Chen Qianqing had compromised a lot more than before, not so stubborn and not so sharp.
If something happens, I am willing to tell him that he won't be alone.
The feelings between Chen Qianqing and Lu Zhengfei were not normal at all. The two of them were not so much in love, but rather tortured each other. The greatest joy of Chen Qianqing was watching Lu Zhengfei suffering.
Now it is the same. Lu Zhengfei has become Chen Qianqing. It is more like Chen Qianqing's revenge. He wants Lu Zhengfei to go through all the tortures he has suffered.
In fact, Chen Qianqing was right. He became Chen Qianqing's Lu Zhengfei, and must endure some nightmares that he never thought of—for example, being attacked by himself.
The young Lu Zhengfei was very energetic. Chen Qianqing held his organ in his hand, lowered his head, and frowned slightly, looking very distressed.
"Qian Qing." Lu Zhengfei wanted to reach out and hug Chen Qianqing, but Chen Qianqing avoided it.
"Lu Zhengfei." Chen Qianqing squinted at Lu Zhengfei, who was breathing more and more, coldly: "Sit still." The organs in his hands were getting hotter, and the heat was almost like burning the skin of his palms.
The person in front of him looked exactly like him, and Chen Qianqing didn't dare to look up. He even had the illusion that he was looking at himself in the mirror. With Chen Qianqing's actions, Lu Zhengfei finally shot.
"Qian Qing." Lu Zhengfei said, "I want you."
Chen Qianqing's body became rigid for a moment. He knew that it was only an expedient to help Lu Zhengfei handle with his hands. He could not always refuse Lu Zhengfei's courtship, either for one month or two months. However, as time passed, he would never persevere.
The young Lu Zhengfei also ate soft and hard, until Chen Qianqing's death, shattered all his pride and made him understand the importance of compromise.
If Lu Zhengfei in his twenties was dressed as Chen Qianqing in his twenties, he would probably only fight with himself at that time and fall into a worse situation.
But at this moment, in the face of Lu Zhengfei, Chen Qianqing just wanted to be able to drag it for a long time, so he said, "Lu Zhengfei, can you give me some time?"
Chen Qianqing rarely talked to him in a consultative tone, let alone such words. After hearing Zheng Zhengfei's expression, a surprised expression appeared in his eyes. He said, "Qian Qing, are you willing to accept me?"
Chen Qianqing didn't say anything, just pulled a napkin and wiped the liquid off her hands.
"Qian Qing?" Lu Zhengfei held Chen Qianqing's shoulders and twisted him. He looked at Chen Qianqing's face and said, "Are you willing to accept me?"
Chen Qianqing's eyes have been very calm. He looked at Lu Zhengfei with excitement. It was a little sad, yes. Young, he begged Chen Qianqing to accept it. Unfortunately, Lu Zhengfei never got what he wanted.
Therefore, Chen Qianqing said, "Lu Zhengfei, I can never fall in love with you." — This sentence represents himself, but also the Chen Qianqing who was hurt by him. He disdains to cheat Lu Zhengfei. So even when watching the starlight extinguished in Lu Zhengfei's eyes, he still said this sentence.
Lu Zhengfei didn't smile, just looked at Chen Qianqing silently. The eyes of the two were strikingly similar at this moment.
Lu Zhengfei said, "Even if you cheat me, wouldn't you?"
Chen Qianqing said lightly, "Do you want me to lie to you?"
Lu Zhengfei didn't say anything. In fact, the answer was clear to both of them. The original ambiguous atmosphere suddenly dropped to the freezing point. The gentle things on Lu Zhengfei's face gradually disappeared, and eventually became aloof.
Lu Zhengfei said: "That's it."
Having said that, he got up and packed his clothes, turned and went out.
Chen Qianqing sat on the sofa, looking at Lu Zhengfei's back, and suddenly felt a little breathless. He hurt Chen Qianqing, so he will now hurt himself in a more cruel way.
No one knows better than Chen Qianqing how to make Lu Zhengfei feel ashamed.
Lu Zhengfei closed the door with a touch, and Chen Qianqing stood up slowly and returned to the bedroom.
During the long summer vacation, most of Chen Qianqing's energy was devoted to the rehabilitation of his legs. He didn't want this to leave any sequelae on his body, so he persisted even if it was very painful.
Since that conversation, Lu Zhengfei has less time to return home. He may come back to live three or four days a week, and at other times do not know what he is busy with.
Chen Qianqing wasn't worried that Lu Zhengfei would be derailed. No one knows more than Lu Zhengfei's dedication to Chen Qianqing.
In August, the weather was very hot. Lu Zhengfei specially invited Chen Qianqing, a convenient expert for rehabilitation, to help Chen Qianqing recover.
Chen Qianqing said thank you to Lu Zhengfei, who just nodded. The two of them have been in the Cold War for a month. To be precise, it is Lu Zhengfei's unilateral cold war. Chen Qianqing's phrase "I can never fall in love with you" seems to have had a huge impact on Lu Zhengfei.
Chen Qianqing also said these words before, but usually he shouted out when he was angry, and Lu Zhengfei preferred to use such words as a vent of Chen Qianqing's emotions.
But that day, Chen Qianqing was very calm, so calm that Lu Zhengfei had to believe this sentence from Chen Qianqing's heartfelt words-he would never fall in love with him.
Nothing is more frustrating than Lu Zhengfei. He wants to deceive himself like he did before, but he can't do anything about it.
Chen Qianqing only assumed that he did not know the recent situation of Lu Zhengfei. He was serious about doing rehabilitation, only thinking that his legs were getting better, but because of this incident, he had forgotten an important day.
Chen Qianqing's birthday was November 7th, and Lu Zhengfei's birthday was August 19th.
Now Chen Qianqing remembers his birthday and completely forgets Lu Zhengfei.
On the 19th, Lu Zhengfei got up very early. Chen Qianqing got up at eight, and as soon as he entered the living room, he saw Lu Zhengfei who had finished his breakfast.
Chen Qianqing greeted Lu Zhengfei. As usual, Lu Zhengfei ignored him.
In fact, Chen Qianqing didn't care about Lu Zhengfei ignoring him, and he was even fortunate not to talk with Lu Zhengfei.
Lu Zhengfei looked at Chen Qianqing, who was drinking porridge, and said for the first time in a month: "Qian Qing, I want you to play the piano."
Chen Qianqing's actions froze, and he could play Chen Qianqing perfectly, because he knew everything about Chen Qianqing, but there was a huge flaw-he would not play the piano at all, not at all.
Lu Zhengfei said, "Just play it for me today?"
Chen Qianqing put down his spoon and wiped his mouth with a paper towel, pretending to be calm: "What's wrong? Why did you suddenly want to hear me play the piano?"-Yes, he didn't even remember that it was Lu Zhengfei's birthday.
Fortunately, Lu Zhengfei did not expect Chen Qianqing to remember what day it was. He just looked at Chen Qianqing and said, "You don't want to play?"
Chen Qianqing discovered the dangerous factors in Lu Zhengfei's eyes. Although Lu Zhengfei's expression was calm, Chen Qianqing knew that he was about to get angry.
It is definitely not wise to mess with Lu Zhengfei's birthday, especially Lu Zhengfei who had a cold war with him for a month, but Chen Qianqing couldn't agree to Lu Zhengfei's request, he couldn't do it.
Sometimes silence is the best answer. Lu Zhengfei said coldly, "Are you sure you don't want to play the piano?"
Somehow, Chen Qianqing only felt a little tightness in his chest. He sighed slightly, looked at Lu Zhengfei with a cold expression, and said softly, "Lu Zhengfei, are you angry with me?"
Lu Zhengfei said: "Chen Qianqing, I'll ask one last time, you can't play."
Failing to change the topic, Chen Qianqing could only face the problem of Lu Zhengfei. He even suspected that if he continued to refuse, Lu Zhengfei would directly smash the piano-without the tacit understanding, there would be no value.
Chen Qianqing looked at Lu Zhengfei's eyes and decided to tell the truth: "Lu Zhengfei, I won't play the piano."
Lu Zhengfei's expression did not change. He felt that Chen Qianqing was lying and perfunctory him: "Will not play?"
"Yes." Chen Qianqing did not flinch. "After I woke up, I found that I would not play."
Lu Zhengfei smiled: "So you mean, that piano has no value?"
Before Chen Qianqing reacted, Lu Zhengfei stood up, turned around with a stool, and walked towards the second floor. Almost in the next second, Chen Qianqing knew what Lu Zhengfei wanted to do—he wanted to smash that piano.
Chen Qianqing's head blew up with a bang, and there was only one thought left in his mind-Lu Zhengfei, you little bastard. Can you touch this piano? !!
Then before the brain reacted, the body had rushed towards the landing.
Chen Qianqing can't beat Lu Zhengfei, and he is not Lu Zhengfei's opponent at all in height or body shape, so that as long as Lu Zhengfei thinks, it is difficult for him to stop Lu Zhengfei's behavior.
The two dragged them all the way from the stairs to the second floor. Seeing that Lu Zhengfei had lost his mind, he didn't listen to what he was saying. Chen Qianqing had to use his last resort. Just want to get on with me? What kind of man is he who is angry at the piano. He has the ability to come to Lao Tzu, fuck! "
Lu Zhengfei's actions were heard, and some red eyes moved from the piano room to Chen Qianqing's body with anger: "Are you sure?"
Chen Qianqing looked at Lu Zhengfei's beast-like eyes, but felt his mouth bitter. 2k novel reading network